LIFE SUCKS : 2011 September

stressed

im 29 yrs old have 2 beautiful children and a wonderful husband! i am the only one with income right now my hubby cantfind no job anywhere its just getting harder and harder! my hours hae been cut big time so i could barely even feed my family! im loosing my home an car i dont know what else to do we r desperate. our kids are the only reason that motivates us! i wish there was something we can do to get money our children dont desrve to go through this :( we need help!!!!!!!!

Lonely and alone

I have become a recluse, I just stay in bed, I lost my job two years ago, since then broke off my engagement, do t call or answer calls, no enjoyment , I can't motivate myself, I have bipolarII, and on so many Meds I don't know if I am getting better or not


Puskeen

How many Meds do people take with bipolar II

FML

I have put myself into a situation that is irreversible. I have a wife that goes to work and has old male friends visit her at a specific time. Retail job so she can easily act like she is helping a customer. I did something I should not have done. I went snooping through her computer and found those two were messaging each other just hours before. One of the msg's were "I can't just go in to your work and give you a kiss" and she replies "MmmMmmm it is my work enviroment." I went online and searched his name I found out he is a 4th degree sex offender. http://www.homefacts.com/offender-detail/MD4046506/Brian-Edward-Palasik.html

So I send this information to my wife and I said sorry I am wrong but you're welcome if I am right. She replies why am I going through her shit and so on. I asked her about the kiss thing and she said he is an old friend and there are no itentions on doing anything.

I have twin boys by this woman and a four year old daughter. Veteran about to re-up in the reserves due to job market sucking more and more. I hate my fucking life. Hate, hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate. Seriously I want my life to end but I am to much of a god damn coward to end it myself. Please people let me know if I am delusional and it's really not that fucking bad.

life without the worldlove.

I m a 18 years, for the world adult. who can hav the rights to take there own decesion. actualy, where i should start my story. i hav mom n dad but i had lived ye that i havnt anyone in this world..
My mom is mently disturb sience my younger brother was born.at that time, m just 1 year old. my mom was going anywhere. then till i coplete my 10th standard me n my brothers are moved with my grandma, but she always reminds me that my mom is mental. n was child n sensible. since then i always crying n crying by seeing someones mom loving him or her. n my dad was in other town for job. i m always in high depresion.n hadnt anyone with whom i can cry on his/her shoulder...
after 10th, before last three years i moved with my mom n dad. but my mom is not realizing that i m her dauther n she alway bit me n never behave with me like my mother.. it hurts me even more than before.. my dad never lived with us so he dont know that how to be a father. he always be us like a naboure uncle..
i hav parents but i never had there love..:(
now my friends.. i m a prety scholar student in my school life.. but when i was child... to now i m adult... m always in depresion, so everyone thinks that i m very bore girl... they only always give me sympathy, n shows me that they care me, only shake for exam time help... i hate sympathy. i want always a real care from heart, but i never given by anyone..
people think that m bore so i havnt much friends... they r there only for ...

Lower middle class obscurity.

I hate.. lower middle class obscurity. It's so.. obscure. No one really gives a fuck about you unless you have tits and/or money. Fucking. Society. Okay, first off, you don't get treated seriously. What's that crap about? We don't even treat each other seriously. The more you resemble the people on TV, the more respected you are. And even worse is that I'm an atheist and am just totally different from everyone else here. Huh, sucks doesn't it? I go to community college. "Ahahaha, what a loser!" Yep, I am one. That's another thing about lower middle class obscurity; You're a loser. I mean, you wouldn't want to be in my situation right? Well, that heading up there says tell my story about how life sucks. Not necessarily your life, but.. my, stupid.. obscure-lower-middle class shit life. I sometimes wonder if this is just some surreal dream I'm having and that I'll just wake up in my beachside house.

A Happy Life's Worst Enemy [Everyone Must Read!!!]

Recently I have been searching the internet for a website where people can share their stories about how badly life is treating them, and I happened to stumble upon this site. I have to say, after reading some of theses stories I was quite overwhelmed to see that so many people in this world feel so out of place. Mostly every story that I have read the writer always talks about how life is so good for others instead of them. This really struck me because I feel the exact same way. The reason for this is due to the fact that every time I try to make my life better I always keep coming up short. I'm like what do I have to do to make life accept me as one of it's own. I have been asking myself this qusetion for a very long time. Now, quite frankly I'm tired of asking it. It's very obvious now that a good successful is not meant for me. It seems like the only way to beat life at its own game is to take what I deserve, and I know that may be easier said than done, but its the only way for people like you and me to get what we want out of life. We are life's worst enemy and we must fight back and take what we deserve. Believe me when I say this, I want to do something about this unfairness, I mean really do something! If any of you want to hear some stories or advice from me just keep visiting this site weekly and If you want to contact me via email my address is "lifesboogeyman@hotmail.com".

- Boogeyman

I never did anything wrong...

Hi. This story is really not all that depressing and bad, but I will tell you anyway.

I live in a nice house, a mother who loves me and her boyfriend who also loves me too. Together, there money adds up and where definitely NOT poor. That's my life at home. Just like every regular kid, life at home is good.

But what I am going to tell you, is the past and now.

First, let's talk about the past.
The past wasn't that bad. There where a few bumps here and there, but I managed.

My mum and dad were always fighting. Eventually, they divorced. and I was only 5 at the time... I was pretty upset at the time because I barely ever got to see my dad, and I loved him very much. He wasn't abusive or anything, just a little fucked in the head. I can't remember if we was alcoholic, but he did drink beer.

About a year after being divorced, life wasn't as bad as it sounds without dad. I did still get to see him and stuff, but just not very much. Anyway, my mum had a boyfriend who was a total fucking ass hole.

I was only 6, and he was off his fucking head.

Now this may sound stupid, but I am telling the truth.
You see, this mother fucker loved watching TV while lying on the couch.
There was only one couch and only had enough room for one person to lye down.
One time, I made it to the couch before he did, he told me to get off, I thought he was joking and said No.

I then discovered he wasn't joking becau...

AHHHHH

Opened up a large multimillion company for a rich european company, received amazing reviews and god great press for the company. 6 weeks before my child was born, I came back from vacation and was told to leave. I now can't stand my new job, I make 50% what I use to, work is less then exciting, and I cannot stand being there.....I want to go somewhere but I am stuck.

Stuck At Home With No Car

I am a young adult who is currently at home with their parents. Unfortunately my situation involves living who those who constitute anger at the drop of a hat. I deal with people who have both anger management and control issues, and at some points it's unbearable. It could be something very, very minor and inferior and the entire house can go in a uproar. Speaking as a reasonable adult does not work, as rage-flights can break over situations as meager as "have you seen my wallet?". I feel trap having to bear the onslaught screams and yells of those who are stubborn even when they are in the wrong(such as common sense being thrown to the wind), that believe, because they are my "parents" they are God's Head above my life and can scream and yell at me such as an disagreement that normal people wouldn't react harshly to. It did not help when this person had terrible drug-reactions, which made living here literally like walking on egg-shells(it was absolutely horrible, as their anger would shoot through the roof in an instant). Sometimes I am literally pulled in-between the scream contests between the parents myself. They are at home 24/7, which literally offers NO relief when people walk around easily with chips on their shoulders.

I do not drive, which makes it harder to get away from this environment. Even more so working a job that doesn't pay enough to support independence. I have attempted to pick up a few driving classes, but most of them take a good chunk ...

Damn, why ME?

My kids are teens and they act like asses. I hate my job..someone always beggin for somethin + they r so unappreciative-- clients and asshole bosses alike. I can't even apply for a new position or job anywhere because I picked up a felony charge for hittin my son with an Xbox powercord because the lil ass nearly got my family evicted when we were in a rough place-- a hotel while my apartment was being worked on. He hit me, I hit him back. Then I get caught. Damn, why me? Why, whenever I try to do anything good,dumb shit happends? Makes no sense to try to do good because everytime I do,i get fucked over and over again. This world is so cruel and unkind... can't wait til it al ends....

eh...

I googled "lonely life" and wound up here.

FUCK!. Is Christianity a fairy tale? If I knew then I could just get this shit over with, once and for all. I'd jump off a goddamn skyscraper and enjoy it like I was 10 again.

I long for relationships and I often see people in the daytime. Sounds like it would work itself out, right? Well social anxiety is a bitch. I unintentionally yet intentionally distance myself from exactly what I need - people. It's fucking horrendous. Like captain hook tryin to steal gumballs.

I'm 18. no mom. no dad. Been that way for a good long while. No girlfriends. Very recently lost touch with my two closest friends. WTF LIFE!!? I have no direction in life; its hard to find it until the the question of "WTF is life for" is answered.

I know this is vague and short but I think that we the people on this site all share shitty emotions in common and I simply wanna relate to somebody.

The best part is, I have one poster on the wall. It says "Hopes Fall"

lonely girl

i am 34 years old and i have not been on a date in about 4 years. i haven't kissed anybody. i haven't had sex with anybody. hell, i haven't even held anybody. i weigh close to 200 pounds. i am on peritoneal dialysis, which means i do dialysis at home everyday through a catheter in my stomach. and i have HPV, human pappiloma virus. my doctor says HPV normally goes away on its own, but because i have no kidneys and my immune system is fucked up, it stays...forever. i have warts removed from time to time and i have to go to the gynecologist every six months as opposed to once every two years due to abnormal cells. lately i've been crying myself to sleep at night because the lonliness is becoming too much to bear. but i ask you...who would want me? i'm sick, i'm fat, and i have an STD...not exactly sexy, right? i

Feeling it.

This last couple of months have to be the worst of my life. First of all, the guy I actually really liked, liked me too, he came onto me, and then I got scared and told him that I couldn't do anything, mainly because we were both drunk at the time and I didn't want to regret anything, Naively I still thought that he would appreciate the way I was feeling and would wait until we were both ready. I then went away for almost a month, when I returned he was with my best friend's sister, no warning, no nothing. I was crushed. 3 days later my dad left me, my sister and my mum. I found out that my mum had an affair 10 years ago, and my dad had been planning to leave ever since he had found out. Now all of my friends are off to university, starting their lives again, and I am stuck here because I didn't work hard enough, I don't have a clue what I want to do with my life. I feel stuck, and lonely and like my life has been put on pause, I feel like I have no purpose. If I wasn't here, people wouldn't really give a shit.

I hate this feeling.

Please read

I just want to remind everyone to come here to vent when they feel depressed, Chances are those who care about you enough and would actually help you out arn't even aware how seriously depressed you are.

My dear, old friend Mark commited suicide at the end of Febuary this year, I had lost contact with him over 3 of years, I got busy in my own life having children but always thought once my oldest reached kinder age I'd have more time to get back in contact with my close mates.

If he had of called me or I had any idea he felt that way or was going to do it, I would of done anything in my power, I hope my other friends would come to me, I've learnt a huge lesson in presuming people will still be there when it suits me. I'm disgusted by myself, I got so lost in my own life, and the saddest thing of all in Mark commiting suicde, is the fact when I was 18 he stopped me from commiting suicide. He saved my life when I didn't want to be saved but in time had my children and became so greatful to of been saved. He hangs himself, all alone with out warning and I who owed him so much was too wrapped up in my own world, I presumed he had it all together, the last person I ever expected to suicide.

When I was depressed and suicidal I could never of imagined ever feeling happy again, I do get sad and have down moments and it is hard to hold out for the light sometimes, and usually putting my issues aside and helping someone else who feels the same as...

a mild whinge

Why do people tell me to fight the illness thats likely killing me, when nobody has time for me? I'm so lonely and just found out I'm pregnant with my third child, I try to be happy and giggly and nobody has time for me. I'll do my best to live for my children and i won't have an abortion to save my own life, no matter what people say, I couldn't live myself. My two existing children have a great family to look after them if I die, I just don't get why people yell at me to make a huge sacrifice like abortion of my own child when they have no time for me...........its not a big deal, needed a vent and nobody in the world who wants to talk.

I'm lonely as fuck.

I hate my life. I'm just so tired of all this bullshit I've been going through. I-am-fucking-tired. I don't wanna live anymore in this planet. There's even a day that I've tried to kill myself, but I was scared because I don't know where I'm going to be when I'm dead. The reason why I hate my life is, I'm a shy person. And I can't try to talk first to some other to people that's why I don't have any true friends. I wanted to have friends so badly. I really wanted to, but I just can't trust anyone I met because I don't know if what they think about me. I lost my confidence a long time ago, and I don't know if when I can have it again. I don't go to school either, because when I just absent for one day then that's going on and on until I can't go because I'm so shy to my teachers and classmate that I leave class for like two months.I hate myself for being like this. Sometimes, I wish to God, what if I just can turn back time and be back to the first day I did that shit? What if I can make those shit things to be the right things again? But I know that is fucking impossible. But, whenever I have a chance to change myself, to have a better future, I just can't help but make the same mistakes again. That's why like I said earlier, I just hate my self. Why did I even born this way? Why??? Why I am like this??? I HATE MYSELF SO MUCH!!!
I'm still young and in the teenage years but I'm just wasting my life here inside our damn house. I don't even experience to be in high ...

am i exagerating,honestly

hi everybody,
i read your stories and i am truly sorry and wish i could help all of you, i really do. life is just not fair to some people.

so, here is my story...
i grew up in a dysfunctional family with my parents arguing, sisters who were never home (or so spoiled in one case), i had to do things for them since i was the youngest, we never had money even if my dad worked his butt off..
at the age of 10, my mum died, in my arms, my dad went to work in another country, one of my sisters went to live with her bf, my other sister, who had a 6 months old son, was never at home, so i practically lived alone taking care of the baby...i couldn't go out with my friends, to the beach, sometimes i would even miss school when the baby was sick. but, nevertheless, i graduated highschool several years later, and i was an excellent student all my life..then i worked the whole summer to get the money for college, but my sister made me quit college and go work so she could stay at home. then she stole all my money from my credit cards, which left me with a 5 thousand dollar debt at the age of 19...i still didn't manage to pay it off, and am still frequently sending her money-i'm a looser...
then i finally moved to another town after several fights. it was hard because of my nephew who is like a son to me. kept sending her money....
then, a few months ago, my dad died, and i broke, totally...i was a wreck, and still am..
but, i moved to another country a...

I suck

I am 29 years GAY , i considered to be a good looking guy ,never was popular at middle-high school , or even at college , i had only one boyfriend and it lasted for one year only , it took my 2 years to get over him, it was hurtful , i had different jobs , all of them suck , i lived in different countries as well to find the ideal city , all of them suck .i came out to my best friend and told him that i am gay , it was awful, he treated me like a second class citizen , he is not my friend any more
I work as lecturer in the University, so i had to move away from my town , i am away from friends and family , just i wanted this job badly because i wanted to be a popular , i wanted to get people`s attention, i wanted to be loved but people don't love me (i guess), they love the AAA`s and the high marks ,i love my job but i am having crush on many of my students , sometimes i feel myself slave to the cute students , just i want any chance to create a connections with them but i know its not going to work anyway , i cant find an ideal partner , imagine i go home and wank on my students? is not awful, how it would be like if they knew! i wish to have one of them as a partner.......
i am trying all sort of dating but cant find him. what`s wrong with me! i am not ugly or bad , even i am so cheerful , respectful , know how to talk , i have interesting lifestyle , music , theatre , food !!! but i suck
I am so lonely , no friends , no dates , no partner, no family ,
just me alone , is this life!

When is it my turn?!!

I'm so sick of my life! I feel as though I try and try to work hard and do the right things and nothing ever works out for me.
4 years ago I brought my flat after years of living in horrible shared houses and moving at least once a year, I was sooo happy to have somewhere that was mine!

But then the economy crashed and my wage hasn't gone up since I got the flat but all my bills have, and by a lot. My boyfriend of 3 years then left and I got a friend as a lodger to help out with bills last year.

Yesterday he told me he is moving out in 6 weeks. I just feel like this is the last straw and I just can't take anymore. I don't know any friends who need a room and I don't want to share with a stranger, it's a tiny flat and the point of me buying it was so I didn't have to share with strangers anymore.

I have a boyfriend I've been seeing for 9 months but he doesn't want to move in, I agree it is quite soon really but I feel almost angry with him for not wanting to move in!! (I am aware this is unreasonable and I haven't told him this! I think I just want "rescuing").

So I have to either live with a stranger or go out and get a 2nd job. I spend 40 hours a week counselling addicts and I could really do with not having to do that and then go work in a bar or some other shite job. I would end up getting taxed higher coz it's a 2nd job and it'll prob be min wage so this means I'd have to do at least 15 hours extra a week to have th...

Wasted days

When I was in the third or fouth grade in Waco,tx the school srink took me to his little room and undreesed me and fondeled me, I was ashamed and didn't tell a soul soon after it got worse do I need to say more,I found my self looking at other boys,but liked girls so i was in this world with thoughts of sex with the same sex but didnt want to live like this so i had sex with other boys and it grew into a closet thing. Had many flings with men then felt ashamed.Got married young had kids but wasnt happy,spent my youth high on pot then cocaine. Was in four relationships (with women) all the while having thoughts of being gay and having sex with men, I'm in a relationship now but the last relationship was the one one I thought would last forever.IT went bad after ten years we got mixed up on speed,coke then crack we moved anouther girl in with us and I got them both pregnet the drugs got worse and they both had babies she soon moved out and left someone called cps and they took my baby girl,then my women got picked up sent to jail for a rock and I moved in with the other girl we smoked crack till we were broke and thats when I stole some from a dealer when he came to collet we fought and i hit him with a pipe and knocked off his ear the cops came and I went to jail while in jail they came to me with papers to sighn my baby away to a couple I had no choice so i did and spent a year in jail.got out and every thing is gone broke and on the streets for two years smokeing crack having wierd sex with men and women for dope, I really think the time in school set me up to fail