| | Posted by Cindy at January 14, 2012 |
I don't even know where to start,so I will start with the beating I took from my husband in October which landed me in the hospital.He is under house arrest at another location.I lost my job because I just could not work due to depression and worry.I sit in the house all day crying,feeling sorry for myself. WHAT"S WRONG WITH ME?I have no will power left,no light at the end of the tunnel.I am sick of this stale life.I need friends....I need someone to help pull me out of this deep dark hole I'm falling into. |
| | Posted by Steven at January 13, 2012 |
im 23 years of age and im starting to pull my life back together. ive spent ten, eleven years doing drugs.ive been on everything but roller skates, junk, white, pills, weed, you name it i did it.anyway im not posting a record of what drugs ive done this is more or less my little note of diary, and it starts off in the middle of my story.
im sober for about two months now and its mainly cause i a had what alcholics would call a moment of clarity,or what normal people would call an epiphany. this epiphany i had made me see all my flaws and i realized that i wasted all my time doing drugs when i couldve took that time to grow the fuck up. by that i mean i have no car no home and my family pretty much disowned my sorry ass and at that my fathers the only person who reluctantly talks to me on occasion and at that the little bit we do talk he always throws my past in my face. my whole thing now is picking up whatevers left of my life and moving on to a better life.
i met my girlfriend around august and so we had our fare share of screwing shit up together. we spent more money on getting high and screwing up, had an abortion and two miscarriage with my girl and shes always been more straight edge then myself. we fucked everything up in a very short amount of time.
her parents disowned her cause shes been with me and all we've been doing is getting our lives in order.
ive been sober since the last miscarriage in october and ive been trying to get job at an envelope factory but theres never any end to the bullshit. i was supposed to start at that job two weeks ago but because theres no openings i wont hear nothing till february anyway life is bullshit and im done.. |
| | Posted by KaD at January 12, 2012 |
Next month will be my one year anniversary. One year since my unemployment ran out and I've had NO income. I was a project manager in commercial real estate; saved a billion dollar client for my asswipe company and this was the thanks I got. I've applied everywhere; starbucks, grocery stores, no one wants you when your credit rating is shit because you had to file a Chapter 7 and you've been out of work for 2 1/2 years. Corporate america is a bunch of assholes. They whine all the time about not being able to find good employees but they don't have enough brains to hire one when one is looking them right in the face. Everyone who knows me says 'I can't believe you of all people don't have a job yet. You work SO hard. You do such a good job'. Yeah, that all meant shit. |
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| Posted by anonymous at January 9, 2012 |
I am a 30 year old male. It seems that the last year for me has been a culmination of one problem after another. To start, I haven't finished college yet. My girlfriend of seven years left me and went to another country to teach English. I am unemployed and back living at home after being independent for over a decade.
Before leaving, I lost my job on account of leaving college. I am close to graduation, but have to take community college classes out of pocket as I can no longer receive financial aid. Before I left my last city I was working at a liquor store. I was broke and had trouble paying the rent. My girlfriend (at the time) helped me pay but constantly called me a "mooch" and a "user" while she did it, despite the fact that I had financially helped her in the past.
Long story short, I quit my job to move with her to another city, at which point she decided on a whim to leave the country. She said she would return in a year and we should try a long distance relationship. Within a couple of months she had already slept with three different men. The blow of losing this relationship and feeling like such a loser destroyed my self confidence. To top it off, she gave me genital warts. Thanks.
I have criminal misdemeanors from 13 years ago (no trouble since) that prevent me from getting jobs. I realize my mistakes in the past are my own, but I still need to move forward. How many years must go by in this society before you can start again? I... |
| | Posted by Jerry at January 5, 2012 |
Hi
I am 23 old boy who has just finished with my complete education. I was employed till last year and was earning good. I have to quit my last job because I needed a long break for my exams. After completion of my studies I am unable to find a real job according to my qualifications because of the recession. My Family and my girlfriend have lot of expectations on me. I havent told them about all this as I dont want them to get hurt. I am doing small jobs, avoiding my friends and living alone nowdays. I have spent lot of money of my parents on my education. I am unanswerable to everybody and i am just avoiding them. Each day has become very hard for me. My gf have a good job than me, thats why her parents also hate me. I dont have any idea what I am gonna do my whole life. |
| | Posted by anonymous at January 5, 2012 |
I somewhat recently have moved a very long way from home. I can't find a job. I can't even get one at a fast food place, I've tried. I live off the money that I made from my other job, which is running out. I don't know what I am going to do when it runs out. I will be homeless.
Really, after a couple months of trying, you start to get really disheartened and depressed. It's tough hearing "no" umpteen times a week. So recently, I haven't even been trying. I have pretty much given up. I wake up, play some video games, watch some TV, and go to sleep. I'm just trying to stretch my money out as long as it can possibly be stretched.
"What about friends and family," you say?
"Well, this is why I suck," I say.
My family is great. They are well off for the most part. Middle middle class, very normal. If I asked them, they would let me stay with them until I got back on my feet, as long as it took. But I won't.
"Now why the fuck would you do that?" you are probably wondering.
Well, I have lied to them every step of the way. I told them I was moving because of a job opening. They don't know that I was ever fired. They don't know that I am not currently working, and haven't been for nearly a year. I'm not going to tell them, I have too much pride.
What I will do is continue on the path I am going on. I am so weak minded that I would rather financially (and likely otherwise) destroy myself than ask for help. I am so weak minded that I am not even going to... |
| | Posted by anonymous at January 1, 2012 |
Life was really going smooth when suddenly I flunked in my 11th standard exams. I was in Science stream which was my favorite. I got the seat via donation but I really wanted it badly, for me marks were not a concern. But I don't know why I wasn't able to clear my 11th. Later I somehow landed in my 12 th and again flunked. This was getting ridiculous, I was like a fool my friends cleared the exams by copying and still I don't know why I was trying to be mr good. I had given up hopes to clear my 12th. I had joined some computer classes in which I was really good so I had decided that I wanted to be a programmer. But I was 12th fail so I decided to do my diploma in computers. Surprisingly I fared well in it infact I scored and got admission via cap directly to Btech IT. I was very happy things were going as planned my project was codes by me and not bought and even participated for state level expo. The same was in my degree where I developed my project myself while my group members watched me do all the work. Infact they scored more than me in project. That was so bad that too from Mumbai university. Even after all this I couldn't sit for placements in many companies. Maybe the companies were on a lookout for grooms to marry. What has age got to do with a job? I got into a company but they have delayed the date of joining and I'm sitting at home spending my dads hard earned money. I have wasted 5 yrs of my life. I am 25 when I should be 20. My friends are already working and I can't face them. I don't have a girl friend like my friends do. Who the hell will marry me when I don't have a job? Sometimes I feel being good is if no use people just take advantage of it. I cry almost every night I don't visit social networking sites since people post status of their successful life. It's just that I am unable to get my family running. It's not that i chose the wrong field I'm really good in it but god knows why he is playing around with my life ;( |
| | Posted by anonymous at December 31, 2011 |
Well my story is diffrent from alot. I lived in Florida got my degree and moved to Mississippi to start a TV carrer. I loved TV was so happy, making and saving money. A couple of years ago I got offered my TV dream job in Colorado, I quit my job in MS and flew to CO, when I got to my new employer I was only to pass a drug test to start work, I was clean then. When I arrived I found the young guy at the TV station who told me I had a job informed me he gave the job to a young hot girl with big boobs. I flew back to MS to try to get my old job back, but I was too late. Its been 3.5 years since then. I look for work all day and all night, but the little town in MS I'm in is dying. No new jobs just places closing its doors. The money I saved for retirement is almost gone. With no insurance I lost my ability to go to the doctor for my scoliosis so I had to get medication from other than legal ways. The meds I used to take where non addictive, but you can't find those on the street, so pain killers it was. Then I got so board my house became a prison to me, so I started taking them to pass the time. Now Im hopelessly addicted. I even went to school and became an EMT because the hospital here had 16 job openings, when I became and EMT they had none. I still look for work, but know spend about 18 hours a day in bed. Sometimes I think life just is not worth living. All I have is my cat he has been my savior. He is 13 and I know he won't be around much longer. I don't know what I will do when he is gone. Well thats my story not as bad as some but its my personal hell. I'm stuck in a dying town with no work and one friend who is also a hopeless addict. |
| | Posted by ThatLad at December 29, 2011 |
Justtyped in 2 google cant get a job and have no money and ended up here. well what can I say I am 20 yrs old living in north-west england, I currently live with my family which consists of my brother, my sister, me nd mum and dad. No one in my familty works or has worked in the last 10 years. The legal age of working in this contry is 16 I have been tryin ever since my 16th birthday I am currently studyin in uni and will leave uni (considering I pass) with a debt of approxemtly £20,000. I spend most of my days in doors playing video games and not becasue I enjoy them, because I have nothin better to do. there is always fights and arguments between my parents (money issues) I have lost contact with most of my freinds because I have never been the type that gets close to people as past experience have taught me that the person I get close to will eventually screw me over (trust issues). Next errmmm oh yh theres girls nd well at times I think Im good with them and at other time I think am not. thing is I want a girl that i can stay with forever and not some small short relaltionships (p.s im a muslim). for sexual pleaseure i normally masterbate and have only had sex with 4 girls all which were prostitutes. life seems pointless and I seem to be wasting time and spending time by myself isnt helping. I have been doing this for well over a year now. I started drinking heavily every night for a good 7 months but have managed to quit drinkin all 2gether with the help of no1. My biggest fear is of the time I am wasting as I dont think I will get it back as I am young and these are the years that I am suppose to enjoy. |
| | Posted by Raz'Orii at December 29, 2011 |
56 years old, two years of college, no friends or family I can turn to. Unemployed again, three months this time. I'm fortunate enough to be getting unemployment though that's only good for another couple of months. I had a good job, cooking and barbacking a few nights a week, so I had some money saved up.
From the first day I started looking diligently for work as best I could. I polished up my resume as best I could and from then on spent several hours a day scanning the listings on a number of the largest online job sites in search of anything for which I was even remotely qualified. I live in a large city so most days I was able to find two or three local jobs listed. I submitted applications and a copy of my resume for all of them. A couple of times a week I drove to the state employment office to look at their lists of jobs and to just talk with someone, trying to find some guidance to help improve the odds of my finding work.
It's been three and a half months now. My savings are all gone. I'm still getting $187 a week in unemployment which doesn't even begin to cover my living expenses. I have a housemate to share expenses with and have cut my spending back to the bare minimum and it's still not enough. I had recieved an email from an IT Staffing agency on Tuesday, looking for someone to fill a position with a local firm that looked quite promising but I learned this afternoon that the position had gone to someone else. No other prospects at th... |
| | Posted by Me0 at December 28, 2011 |
I dropped out of high school sophomore year of family issues! I tried to get my GED but I have to pay for the fucking classes. And a rip off fucking 100 dollar GED test and I have to take 5 separate tests so thats fucking 500 dollars!! I don't have that kind of money and never will, and I dont have internet I steal my neighbors I lost my social life pretty much still talk to my friends on fbook once in awhile, but I can never do shit with them because I never have any money I can't get a job because of this shitty ass economy and when I do get close to getting a guess what?? I need my fucking GED or Diploma. Who fucking cares about a GED or Diploma it's just a fucking piece of shit paper with your name on it.
I'm going to see if I can join the army if I cant then fuck my life might as well jump off a bridge! |
| | Posted by anonymous at December 28, 2011 |
To start off I have had a broken right knee since october 7th 2011 it is now 12/28/11 from a car crash.. Since I have been ill they havent been able to fix it... Lost my job a few months before the crash, putting out around 5 apps a week give or take 1... No luck with jobs cant even get an interview and I am running out of places to apply in the area... I have had 2 family members pass away along with my girlfriends mom who just passed all at the same time. Also, cant wait to get this cavity filled.. Someday.. The messed up part of this is I know someone else has bigger problems and they are not ranting online about it.. I will say it does feel a little relieving.. So to anyone's life that is a little upside down, looks like we are stuck living hard until things turn around.
Oh yeah going from steaks and nice food and the couple weekly BBQ's, to the dollar menus really sucks... |
| | Posted by anonymous at December 26, 2011 |
I just lost my car. I can't fine employment. And, I am about to lose the roof over my head. I want to die. I have no one in my life. I've always been alone. Never had a true friend a never had a love in my life. Th e only time I had sex was from the ages of 5-11 when I was raped by someone very close to me. I'm now 27 and never had a boyfriend because I'm scared of men but I'm not sexually attracted to women to be a lesbian. I'm a hermit and a loner who is about to be homeless. I never wanted this for my life. Am I god's sick joke? I always hear on tv about others helping people, I just wish someone would help me. |
| | Posted by anonymous at December 13, 2011 |
I had worked for Carrier building air conditioners for 12yrs, 4yrs at ICP and 8yrs in Tyler. what a waste of my damn time! They treated us like dogs; no, dogs are treated better than that! And then, they sent all our jobs to mexico! The government made it so our jobs go to Mexico. Unemployment told us because our jobs went out of the country they will pay us two years to go to school and learn something new to better ourselves. Then they keep on screwing our payments and making us lose everything we have! If they were gonna do that, they shoulda just said "well, good luck to ya!" and left us fendin for ourselves then! Ya... I'm ANGRY!
Ain't been paid in forever here!!! Prob end up loosing everything before I ever get through this crap! I only have a mortgage and a truck payment and can't keep them paid! My house is about to go into foreclosure for the 3rd, 4th? time!
They screw everybody they can!!!
When I get it... Unemployment pays $415 a week.... If I went to work (and there ain't any now) I'd only make about $250 and if I take one of these lesser paying jobs... It would screw my unemployment benefits; If I was to get laid off again... Would lower payment to about $100 a week unemployment if the job lasted long enough to gain unemployment insurance! What the heck are we supposed to do?!
I mean Geez, I've got one semester left. They aughta get me through it! But the bastards don't send payments every damn time I turn around! They were supp... |
| | Posted by anonymous at December 12, 2011 |
Got laid off twice and fired twice in the past 3 years. My self esteem is at the all time low. Have to look for a job again but I don't think I have it in me to look again. Husband is upset with me. I am making him depressed as well. I just turned 37 and because my job situation is so unstable and I struggle with bouts of depression we can't start a family. So I drown my sorrow in mindless tv watching and internet browsing. |
| | Posted by unhappy at December 12, 2011 |
I got laid off from my job in December 2009. I have a B.A. degree in Psychology and I just completed a Masters degree in Accounting a few months ago. To this day, I have not been able to find a job. My unemployment benefits just ran out a few weeks ago. I have been diligently searching for a job for two years and have not had any luck at all. I've put in application everywhere but to no avail. It seems as though an education is worthless nowdays in this piss poor economy. I am 34 years old, broke, and live with my mother and autistic 32 year old brother. I assist my mother in caring for my brother as he cannot bathe or toilet on his own. We have to bathe him and wipe his butt for him. He is like a big baby. This is very challenging situtation for us. Our father was a truck driver and got killed in an accident when I was 11. I feel like the biggest failure and screw-up that has ever been. I am jobless, broke and fat I love my mother but she can be an extremely difficult person to get along with. She is condescending and looks for every opportunity to put someone down. It seems as though her gift is making a person feel like crap. No one can do it better than her. She loves to fuss and raise hell. I did not ask to be broke and unemployed. I did not ask for this messed up situation. This is very depressing. I feel like a worthless piece of crap. Sometimes I think I would be better off dead, but I fear I will go to hell if I commit suicide. I do believe ... |
| | Posted by Brian at December 11, 2011 |
Joined the Navy at 17 years old and was just recently discharged for an issue at work - General under honorable circumstances. Not the best but far from worst. I pride myself on always doing the right thing and was proud of my service. Unfortunately a single slip up in my integrity has left me in a bad situation. I've never not worked, and always had enough money to at least "make it". I worry about my wife (whom requires medical attention/med's) and my two best buddies, my puppies. I'm thankful we don't have any children at this point but I still don't know what awaits me. I've been selling anything of value (big tv/gaming systems, etc) on craigslist to fund our cross country trip from Washington State back to Florida. I am very resilient and know I will find work, I'm just scared. Will I ever make enough to pay off my debt, keep my car, etc. Wish I had saved more and lived within my means. I can see why people turn to drugs and alcohol - the stress is almost unbearable. I know my situation is minor compared to others, I just wish I had more guidance and knew how the next few months are going to play out. On a brighter note, my mother is allowing us to stay in my old 10X10 bedroom until I can afford to move out. Probably the best Christmas present I'll ever receive - Love. Good Luck to |
| | Posted by anonymous at December 10, 2011 |
I have never been so poor, in debt & 53cents in my pocket book. Dec. 10, 2011
I can't help but feel so helpless.
I don't want anyone to know it me!
Here is my story. Just not the lowest facts & details; always more to a story that's not always shared.
I'm 38 years old from East Grand Forks. I was laid off in 200x. My husband and I have been married for xx years. We have x amazing children. My Husband was laid off this year. Both my husband and I are jobless and searching.
It sucks: Living in an old house. It's cold and the plumbing is terrible.
We are struggling to find the money to pay for: gas for our vehicle and insurance, mortgage and insurance on our home, all our utilities, and find a way to feed our family.
Sure there are programs to help people in need, someone like me? right?
Then why can't I get help?
The Services in our area don't go out of there way to full fill needs, they only act like it. Trying to get food help has been such a challenge.
Only when I threatened to make a complaint to the county after several requests, did we receive more food stamps. Yes, it's embarrassing for me shopping locally.
In September, our family of 6, I thought should have receive more then $250.00 for food help. When attempted was denied at the E G F food shelf in September for not having the PKM or the Marshall Polk Water bill (paid bills to get them turned back on.) But because the other seven bills I ... |
| | Posted by anonymous at December 8, 2011 |
4 years ago it all started down hill and it has gone fast. I was in a job that I didn't hate but it still paid the bills, I was in love and about to ask her to marry me, I had a little house and a cool dog. 4 weeks before I was going to ask the true love of my life to marry me she called me on the phone and told me it was over, no reason just it was over and to never contact her "ever, for any reason". Within a couple months my precious little dog died, I had to hold her in my arms while I felt the life drain from her body. Shortly after that I was laid off from my job (still unemployed to this day). This ultimately forced me to sell my house. So in the matter of months I lost my love, my dog, my job and my home. I was so torn up it was impossible to even fathom what had just happened. After moving to a tiny little one room apartment I injured my back and was basically crippled for the next 3 years, uable to stand or sit for more then a few minutes at a time. I look to the heavens and ask why. I'm a good person and have been a contributing member of society since basically being on my own from 16 on. I can't even get up some mornings, no where to go, nothing to do, in pain, money gone, unemployment gone, love gone, home gone, it's all just fucking disappeared. I'm not a bad person and don't understand how this happens to decent human beings. I see crap humans stepping all over people being successful and flying through life with no worries. It just doesn't make sense. I ask God to come and take me, I'm done and I have no energy to go on. Let's just get it over with, PLEASE! Thanks to all who read this and the compassion I'm sure you have. bye, M |
| | Posted by a pessimist at December 6, 2011 |
Why did I spend thousands of dollars and 4 years for a piece of paper that tells employers you still don't have enough experience to work for us. I got lucky after scheool, I did have a decent job making 20$ an hour, but that was short lived because the lustful bastards didn't want a female making that kinda money, so they weaseled me outta there. So my financial situation got worse, on unemployment, not to mention the entire time I'm in a long distance relationship. My bf who loves and supports me the best way possible is also a recent college grad who hates his dead end job. Tryin to maintain a LDR when your hours away with no financial security is difficult. Spending money to see each other only once a month is wasteful because we could be using it to get an apt together. We can't get a job in the same city, let alone our own. I'm depressed and I'm losing hope...period. I'm so over this sad situation and its frustrating to know that I have to wait for the economy to improve just for me to start a life with him. At this point I don't even want to have children because my future isn't even secure. So I'm still looking for a job here, there, or anyfuckingwhere with my relationship hanging in the balance. Great. |
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