im 21, all the jobs i ever had, was fired from all of them, i recently worked at mcdonalds as a maintnance person for 3 years, got fired fort false claims of sexual harrassment from a fat ugly chick that wanted to fuck me and i refused and thats how she retaliated against me.
after that it was very difficult for me gettin another job because of bad references from my previous employers.
then i land a job at a mexican restaurant, worked there for a month and end up getting fired for not working fast enough.
so then again im jobless, i cant get into college because im not elgible for finacial aid, so there goes my life right there cant get funding for school so im going to be a nobody for the rest of my life,
i try getting into the army, i couldnt pass the asvab test because i lack math skills, 32 is minimum to pass, most people get 50% or better on the asvab test and the best i only can get is a 25% on the test, i took the test 7 times and couldnt get better than 25, so now i feel worthless and fucking dumb.
right now i applied at 10 different job places, speedway, little ceasers, menards, hope depot, walmart, meijer, right aide, wallgreens, carpet to go,
demmers, and job agencies,
i had interviews at all of them, but every single fucking time, i been refused job offers and it just keeps happening.
here is the worst, i got 2 no proof of insurance tickets and 13 parking tickets ,
i havent figured out yet how much its all going to be, i have no job, no income and dont have the ability these damn tickets, so now the state is going to suspend my drivers license and soon i will be driving on a suspended license until i end up going to jail and my car taken away.
now im living in an abandoned house, stealing electricity, thankfully theres no other houses around or neighbors, power company hasnt caught on yet,
i have 2 rifles and everyday i feel like putting my self out of misery because
i cant do shit right in my life, i always ending up fucking up my job situations
with it being or not being my fault.
i do have a very good best friend i have, i dont want him to hate me for just ending my my life but i feel like i have no choice its either live in fucking horrible conditions for the rest of my life or just end it all now.
I HATE LIFE!!!!!!!!! |
1. Free food
2. Free chothing
3. Free housing
4. Free sex (with Bubba)
you have faith as a grain of mustard seed, you will say to your
mountain, "MOVE!" and it WILL move... and NOTHING will be
impossible for YOU!
- Matthew 17:20
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Dude, sounds like your up shit's creek. If I were you I'd just say fuck it.
As to the real topic at hand... Don't you have some family? Try to get in touch with whatever family you might have. And do try praying. I wish you best of luck my friend.
It's up to the indivuidual to make up their mind. Just don't ignore it, find out for yourself.
And as that clay is placed upon that turning wheel, the potter's hands then begin to pressure the clay and work it until he makes something beautiful out of that old ugly piece of clay.
Here's the lesson God wanted Jeremiah to hear: He is the true master craftsman. He is a potter who is making something beautiful out of every life. He will take the old ugly mistakes and sins and make them into something completely new!
Benjamin Disraeli was wrong because when you truly know God, you can live victoriously! So whatever the ugliness is in your life, be assured that through the blood of Christ, God molds you and makes you into something beautiful!
Now with all that being said jesus does infact change peoples lives, do a quick youtube search for "I am second" and "christian testimoney" there tons of examples these are just a few. Matthew 11:29 "Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." God isn't far to bless those that put their faith in him. He can transform your life. Stop being bitter and give Jesus the benefit of the doubt. Take him at his word, for once! Jesus wants to change you, he loves you despite your sin, he loved you so much that he died on the cross for so that you could be forgiven for all of your sin.
there are those unemployment agencies or whatever where you can get money from. you shouldn't give up. why would you let life beat you? you're a coward if you take your life now. you've fought for so long, the only thing that makes sense now is to keep going.
Big fuck up there looking at 14 years at 75%,no fucking cake walk so i studied up on my charges and fought it down to two at 50%. So of i went level 4 california state prison, yeah free meager portions of food,yeah free concrete slab to call my own, did i say "free" oh did i forget to mention all the racial politics, yeah plan on doing alot more time than you originally had. So i earned my feathers and did a shitload of dirty work, wacking child molesters and rapist(no problem) then people in our race for stupid shit like cigarettes, no matter if they are street freinds or not(people i knew before prison).
So after having to stick a good freind of mine and ending up in the shu. 8months to the gate became maddening with 23 hour a day lock down, where if you hate your self you kill yourself (ive seen it,ive tried it.)so unless your a hella strong in your head,you break.
I finally made it out and moved up to the mountains, here shit gets hard grab a tent and a bag your rifle and fiahing pole and live of the land, plant weed
Dont give up,
Dont forget, dont forgive, we are legion. We are many.
You are not alone! We are all fuck ups.
Look for a laborer position with one of the local contractors. Do construction, landscaping, or tree work.
Frankly you're dumb as shit so that's all you can do.
Hope that helped.
This is a LIE: you have faith as a grain of mustard seed, you will say to your
mountain, "MOVE!" and it WILL move... and NOTHING will be
impossible for YOU!
- Matthew 17:20
Thankyou.
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