| | Posted by anonomous at January 14, 2012 |
I am at an all time low. I feel lost and that no one is willing to help. I'm not even 30 and have filed for bankruptcy, still have 60k in student loan debt, can't find a job, moved cross country for my long time boyfriend and am stuck by myself all day every day. No one will hire me because everyone else needs work too, I rely on the BF for everything, am super depressed, want kids but don't want to take that risk being so far in the hole. My neighbors are losers and never shut the fuck up, are always drunk and screaming at each other at all hours of the night. I blame my parents for making me go to college because honestly it was not worth it, I blame the BF for making me quit my job that I actually really liked to emotionally support him, but he's not willing to do the same and always talks down to me. I'm jealous of him for getting to do what he wants, and don't see any future where I am given the same chance, which makes me bitter and resentful. I'm overweight and can't seem to loose any of it, have health problems I can't take care of because I'm uninsured and I feel like I need to start drinking on a daily basis to make this pain go away, even temporarily. Life sucks when you are never given a break, or even a chance; I have hopes and dreams that I will never get to see happen and think, on a daily basis, that I should just kill myself to stop being a burden on everyone that I care for. |
| | Posted by trinkystar at December 18, 2011 |
My life has never been amazing; I have moved over 30 times in my 28 years of life and have a hard time finding friends. I graduated from college to "follow my dreams" which has never happened and I blame my parents for pressuring me into college. Now, I have filed for bankruptcy, still owe 60k in school loans and am unemployed. I moved cross country for my boyfriend's job (he was unemployed for 2 years) and am starting to get very aggravated with him and often think of leaving, but have no way to do so. He is always picking on me because of my weight which doesn't help with my depression from leaving my job I actually liked and the friends I managed to find, finding a job out here seems non-existant and now my student loans are due and they will not defer anymore.
Had an interview (my first in a year) and I don't think I will get the job because I have been out of school for to long. Grandparents are dying, parents don't want anything to do with me, friends are going through just as tough times and don't have time to listen to my problems and boyfriend thinks I should get over it and like that he is supporting me. I want children, but have to control my weight - hard to do when you are a stress eater and don't want to do shit because it's exhausting to get out of bed or even take a shower. Life sucks and all I want to do is cry. My cat is even depressed and never wants to play. Fuckin A. |
| | Posted by TJ at December 4, 2011 |
My life stinks for lots of reason. I had a son when I was young and found out that my boyfriend cheated on me. Now the fact that my bf cheated is the part that stinks not that I had a child. I tried for the sake of my son to make things work out but I couldn't do it anymore. I left my ex-fiance. He was controlling and beat me when I got home because my car broke down and I had to wait for AAA to come by. I went to community college and worked part-time while living at home with my mom. My mom who is bi-polar/anger problems was just intolerable to live with. I knew I had to leave home. I didn't want to raise my son in an environment where my mother was always screaming and yelling. She would carry on for hours just screaming...even if she stubbed her toe..you would be the reason why and she would go on and on to where I could not take it anymore. She would even come to my work screaming and yelling, embarressing me. I knew I had to move out. I quit college and moved in with my boyfriend who I loved more than anything. The relationship was a little rocky sometimes. We eventually decided that we would get married, and we bought a house. I got pregant and gave birth to my lovely daughter. Things went downhill shortly after. Over the years the nice man that I loved turn to this evil, unloving, only caring about himself person. I tried to do things with him, I even signed a loan for a car that he was going to make into a racing car. I tried to do nice things for him. Nothing ... |
| | Posted by Chesty at November 27, 2011 |
God definitely hates me. Without getting into to much detail, lost job, lost family, lost house, lost all savings. And the kicker is, all within a couple years. So now I turn to booze. I totally realize it's just to numb the pain, but since God won't help (even though I continue to pray every day), I have to turn to something. Keep thinking to myself something good will eventually happen, but it never does. In fact, things get worse almost every day. I just don't give shit any more. Suicidal thoughts occur daily, but the only thing keeping me from offing myself is my two beautiful girls. Oh well, thanks again God for giving a shit. |
| | Posted by suckstobelife at November 11, 2011 |
I have a very demanding job which requires me to work beyond the usual mondays to fridays 9-5. I only have 1 friend that I frequently hang out with and no one else. I don't hang out with my coleagues and if I do it's only during lunch time. I'm 31. still single. My family is miles and miles away but that doesn't make a difference cause we hardly talk to one another even when we were living under the same roof. Long story short...I'm sad, depressed and lonely...and life to me couldn't get any suckier than this... |
| | Posted by anonymous at October 21, 2011 |
Been reading through many stories here so decided to add mine aswell for the heck of it.
to keep a very long story short...
I been out work for 4 years now since my father left my mother for another women. My mother went from manic depressed spirit talker to super logic denying holy spirit christian. "holy spirit" talks to her and whatever she says is from "holy spirit" and is the truth. Whatever i say is bollocs
She does not listen to reason neither can she listen to basic housekeeping rules.
my older brother after loosing his flat to a bulldoser eager to build a newer, modern flat, is back at my mom's house too. He works and pays my mother rent but expects me to clean up after him too because i don't pay rent so basically i'm doing housework for 2 people that just cannot give a damn about how they mess because houseboy me will clean it up anyway. My brother rewards me with a combination of nothing and a fat lip for the effort.
My education sucks, comparable to 8th grade in the US educational system. not because i am stupid or a dropout (I have an IQ of 128) but because my father did not do any research on the educational system at my current location when he took me out of school after 8th grade when he decided to leave his debt and dead-end career in search for a refresh in his homeland. Not regarding the fact that i'll end up in the lesser-minded state funded school that only goes untill 9th class (which cannot even compair to t... |
| | Posted by anonymous at October 10, 2011 |
I weight nearly 320lbs.
Been unemployed for over a year
Loss all of my friends.
Drop out from college.
Car doesn't work.
Stuck at home all day.
When I get a job interview I'm rejected.
Life is depressing and I'm nearing my wit's end. |
| | Posted by depressed bitch at October 8, 2011 |
All of that I experienced since I came into this hellhole of a world. I was abused when I was a kid by an older neighbor who wanted someone to rape, so raped me. Then he brought his buddies over so they could all take turns raping me, I was only 13. Then at 16 someone raped me and left me for dead, I was in a coma for months. He beat me so bad I almost died. I was robbed on the street as well as on public transportation coming home from work at leasr 8 or 9 times. The worst thing that ever happened to me though was when my son was murdered. The grief never ends and has changed my life forever. |
| | Posted by fuckin hate my life at September 29, 2011 |
my stupid ass car is broke for million time. my dad is a fuckin loser and never supported me my entire life not financially or emotionally, my mom is crazy. my siblings act like snakes who only want to do or help me if they get somethin in return. i cnt drive my car to get to fucking work and its been so fuckin stressful tryin to get to work and to top it off i cnat be late or absent again to work. i fuckin in school so that complicates my lfie too. im tired and so fuckin done. to top it off my ex or was its complicated friend is now not talkin to me so i dnt have anyone to help me and i pay all my bills on my own i sick and fuckin tired. |
| | Posted by anonymous at September 26, 2011 |
Ok, speaking of shell-shocked, how do I put this in a nutshell (sorry it’s so long, you don’t have to read it, I just needed to vent): as a child was isolated by intelligence (which has served me no real purpose now); molested, apparently, and emotionally abused/controlled/manipulated; put in the position of being caregiver in a dire situation, etc.
When I was young, within a matter of three months, my aunt died a needless horrible death by cancer due to doctors’ indifference (i.e. “oh, you must be faking it”) and my mom almost died, the place where I worked was bombed by terrorists, and my father was gunned down and killed at a wedding. During the period after this, I met and married a man, had three children with him then after 15 years of marriage (and more emotional abuse for both myself and kids) he left us for another woman.
At the time, I felt I was doing all right getting us all under the same roof (he basically left us in the street when he left and then didn’t want to pay child support) and felt like things would be ok. I was working five jobs, glad for the chance to have my children (and my elderly mother, whom I was still caring for) with me.
Then my son, who had a lot of anger about the way his dad had treated him/us, made some very, extremely bad decisions, which resulted in criminal charges that precluded him being around the younger children. My ex wouldn’t take him, and nobody else would, so I was forced to take the ... |
| | Posted by dallaskid at August 29, 2011 |
I guess the word natural is not a known word to me. I do not know what natural is. I have never known anything natural.
Nothing comes natural to me.
I do everything I can to get into a tier one fraternity. Somehow although I am a part of it, I feel as if I don’t belong.
I work my ass off to make a 4.0. I was in the library almost every weeknight. No one congratulates me on my grades.
Although I show up to all functions and social gatherings in my fraternity not one person has asked me to hangout since pledgeship.
My ex-girlfriend drank so much she blacked out and slammed the freezer door in my face while I was getting meat out of the fridge. Why? I don’t fucking know. She then called the cops on me and banned me from ever being on her property and told me she never wants to leave me again.
I cannot act in a social environment in the same manner as normal people.
I cannot get the positive attention I desire to have from my own parents and piers.
I cannot have a normal relationship with a girl.
Having a life is not natural to me.
Katie:
Hit me with the fridge
Told me “I never want to see you again”
When I told Katie that I would be okay just talking to my brothers, she says, “What? It’s not like they’re your friends.”
-That was literally the same day as when I confessed to her earlier that I was having trouble fitting in with them. Lowest. Blow. Ever.
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| | Posted by L.J. at August 26, 2011 |
I am a 23 year old guy. I have had 3 jobs this year, I quit the first for one that paid more, the 2nd was too hard though so I got a third one that I will be starting next week. This one pays about the same as the 2nd but is easier and with a well known company. It usually doesn't take me more than a few weeks to get a job since I am in the programming field.
Ok so that's the end of all that's good in my life, here's everything else:
- I never had sex, kissed a girl, or was even friends with one
- Not only do I have no friends but haven't had one since elementary school
- I am not very bright, it is extremely hard for me to learn anything new, even basic things, my memory sucks
- I have a car but I can't drive
- I am ugly as hell:
- I have severe gynocomastia and no I'm not fat. Only my breasts and gut is. I diet a LOT and exercise daily but these areas do not decrease as they are caused by my body producing extra estrogen. I wear a sports bra at all times when outside to hide it
- I have huge keloid scars on my face, left shoulder and chest
- My arms are full of deep self mutilation scars that I got when I used to cut myself in high school. I don't do it anymore but have to wear long sleeves at all times to hide them (even in the summer and I sweat a lot).
- I have terrible acne/oily skin
- My penis is small again due to the extra estrogen my body produces (not that it matters, no one will see it anyway)
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| | Posted by Nick at August 17, 2011 |
Life is getting worst by day.
I dont care any more, dont give a shit.
¿way?
easy, no job, girlfrien left me, best friend died on car accident, mom is dead, dad is drunk and i dont blame him. the town is fucked up, lots of people on the streets, all factory closingdown, yeah.
Im going to my dads place, drink some beers, smoke some weed and forget all this shit.
Life sucks andis gonna get worst. I give up. |
| | Posted by anonymous at August 10, 2011 |
Personality disorders, extreme self loathing, foster care, abandonment issues, neglect, loneliness, poverty, fuck, life sucks.
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| | Posted by anonymous at August 9, 2011 |
-I am fat
-I am stuck in this shitty relationship with a cheating asshole b/c he is the only guy that will ever love me. But I hate him.
-I am a liar. No one knows the real me.
-I have bad breathe
-I am covered in stretch marks
-I fake my personality
-I have nothing going for me
-I am in so much debt
-I am stupid
-I am a failure
-I am a bad friend
-I am a bad girlfriend
-I am a bad daughter
-I am a bad sister
-I will never get married or have children
-I am unrealistic and illogical
-I am fake
-I am a slow learner
-I am scared of everything
-I am crazy
-My emotions make me bust out in tears for no apparent reason
-Everyone else is moving on in life but me
-I am addicted to food
-I snore so ungodly loud
-I still live with my parents but I fear moving out
-I am scared of making any life decisions b/c I screw up so much
-I screw everything up
-I am disgusting
-I can't stop biting my nails
-God has abandoned me
-The church laughed at me
-Every man in my life... God, my father, and the man I love, has abandoned me.
-I am all alone
-I am so ugly
-I keep gaining more and more weight
-The only reason I am alive is b/c I am too scared to kill myself.
The pain never stops |
| | Posted by Wade at August 4, 2011 |
1) I'm 30 and still live at home w/ parents (mother and stepfather).
2) I have no job and no money and pretty much nothing to my name.
b) Countless job applications and no responses.
3) My family "thinks" they help, and in a way they do...
b) but they can't ever "really" do anything to help me fix my life.
4) I used to go to pastor, family, counsellors for advice.
b) they are useless.
c) so I quit bothering.
5) I have no friends. Hard to do anything when you have no money.
6) Did I mention ZERO money, like...borrow 15 dollars for a hair cut...broke...
7) Last time I tried to go back to school I had straight A's...
B) But was kicked out of school because of some false accusation
8) I've never even dated
b) because I've never been in a financial or social position to bother.
9) No amount of job applications matters, and without money you can't do anything
b) have anything
c) or anyone in your life.
10) My family supports me like a 10yrs old child
b) But as far as helping "fix" my life they are useless and even apathetic.
11) When I try to get help, there is some excuse for the person to delay.
b) Even mental health counselors and psychiatrists delay for months.
12) I am filing for social security/mental disability, even though I have an I.Q of 130-ish and "some college".
b) Because something must be wrong with me
c) else why the hell nobody will hire me even for the most basic j... |
| | Posted by loser_l at July 20, 2011 |
Many Ways My Life Sucks
1--Got Girlfriend that wont touch me
2--got spoiled kids
3--One of the spoiled kids doesnt like me --egged my car cause i stop her from going to facebook in the house
4--The other spoiled kid never wants to be around me
5--have a sucky job
6--havent had a raise in 3yrs
7--got a felony from being a follower
8--lost all my friends i grew up with because i snitched
9--mother died early age
10--father never wanted me
11--grandmother only wanted a check to raise me
12--dont know if my kid is even mine
13--cant focus on school
14--lazy when I dont wanna be
15--gotta pay for school outta my pocket
16--always in debt
17--always getting my license suspendid cause cant afford insurance
18--im a ticket magnet for the cops
19--work for people that want to treat you like a child
20--nothing ever goes my way
21--this is'nt the life i wanted for myself
22--gotta annoying person walks pass my office everyday screaming "do some work"
23--always feel angry because of this list
24--always broke
25--cant save money
26--hard to find new job
27--cant work for the gov because of my record
28--I drink too much because of list
29--always feel like girlfriend cheating because she wont touch me
30--got problems trusting people
31--girlfriend separated but still married to husband wont devorice him for some reason claims navy benefits
32--feel like im a failure at life
33--have no friends
34--cant afford to keep my car in good shape
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| | Posted by Mr nice guy at July 10, 2011 |
Im 31 years old (the last 10 years wer a blurrr)
I live with my parents (who I love)
I quit my job (I can no longer serve the servants)
I have never had a girlfriend (I have no game)
I have no mo money because of poker/black jack ( I'm a loser)
Im not very smart (I have the math skills of a dumb 4th gradurrr who can't spell)
I have man boobs & stretch marks like a woman (I'm a L/XL who should be a S/M I'm 5"8)
I have toe nail fungus (my big toe nail looks like a yellow chip)
I have nothing else to do all day but watch tv & surf the net (I have no friends on my lowlife level)
I can't eat meat (killing animals for food for pleasure is sad but I know they taste good)
I can't eat sweets (my teeth are Fu@ked up)
I can't eat dairy ( I'm lactose) |
| | Posted by jo at June 23, 2011 |
My lifes so fucked i dont know where to start....abuse? abortions? mum dying on me? having a kid so young? drug addiction???? fucked!!!! |
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| Posted by Pointless. at June 14, 2011 |
Reasons why my life is complete and utter bull shit: (In no specific order)
1. My moms an alcoholic. She claims to be my best friend. But
If that was true, why is she drinking, and if shes not drinking, shes smoking.
2. My father is a fat asshole. Just because you make a dick load of cash,
Doesn't make you father of the year. You eat everything in the god
Damn house. You speak to me like im an insignificant piece of shit, and
You do not care About my happiness. Its clear.
3. The love of my life and I cannot currently have a relationship because
His suffocating asshole mother refuses to let him grow up, have a life or
Be happy. His hick abusive father won't give him the time of day, so he can't
Turn there either. He's my only reason of living, and I can feel him slipping through
My fingers like carribean beach sand.
4. I'm stuck. Stuck in the worst place in the world. Litterally, theres
Nothing here.
5. My far-fetched dreams will never come true. Doesn't a million other girls
Want to be famous musicians and movie stars? Who am I kidding?
6. I'm lonely. I literally have no friends. my best and only friend is my true
Love, boyfriend. I'm alone in the biggest crowded room, everyday.
7. I hate the majority of my looks. It's hard to look in the mirror and feel
Beautiful when your constantly told you look like someone, someone
Disguisting, and your nose takes up your face, and your hair looks... |
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