LIFE SUCKS

when will it get better?

My life has never been amazing; I have moved over 30 times in my 28 years of life and have a hard time finding friends. I graduated from college to "follow my dreams" which has never happened and I blame my parents for pressuring me into college. Now, I have filed for bankruptcy, still owe 60k in school loans and am unemployed. I moved cross country for my boyfriend's job (he was unemployed for 2 years) and am starting to get very aggravated with him and often think of leaving, but have no way to do so. He is always picking on me because of my weight which doesn't help with my depression from leaving my job I actually liked and the friends I managed to find, finding a job out here seems non-existant and now my student loans are due and they will not defer anymore.

Had an interview (my first in a year) and I don't think I will get the job because I have been out of school for to long. Grandparents are dying, parents don't want anything to do with me, friends are going through just as tough times and don't have time to listen to my problems and boyfriend thinks I should get over it and like that he is supporting me. I want children, but have to control my weight - hard to do when you are a stress eater and don't want to do shit because it's exhausting to get out of bed or even take a shower. Life sucks and all I want to do is cry. My cat is even depressed and never wants to play. Fuckin A.