| | Posted by CrystalinaJeann at April 16, 2011 |
Okay....since I don't have the money to go see a shrink I will finally talk about my life on here. When I was 9 my stepfather decided to forget I was suppose to be like a daughter to him and decided I looked more like a mistress. From then until 14 I decided to hide it from my mom who was happy for the 1st time in her life. By the time I was 14 he was treating her so badly I decided there was no reason to hold on to this secret for him anymore. I told her. BIG FUCKING MISTAKE! She didn't believe me. I spent the next 4 years of my life in girls homes and lock downs. She found out the truth when I was 16 but she didn't leave him. Nor did she get me out of where I was. She left me there and went on about her life with her husband. I ran away from these places all the time trying to go back home but my mom would just send me back. On one of my ventures home, (I was 14) I was raped by 4 men. Another time I was attacked and robbed....it was hell to say the least. Then I was 18 and they couldn't hurt me anymore, right? Wrong! I fell in love with this guy and we got married and had two children. I lost my license....got put in jail for 3 months and when I got out. My husband had abandoned me and the kids to go to another woman. I can't bring myself to type any more of this nightmare but to say the least, it's just been a downward spiral since then. |
| | Posted by Mizar at January 30, 2011 |
I don't know where to begin. It seems like life is nothing but a series of painful situations and I have had my share. My story reads like a movie sometimes. It started when I was a kid. My step father hated me. He beat me at times for no reason, but it worsened after I fell from the cliff. I didn't break anything but I did rupture my spleen. Didn't know it at the time but as the months went by I felt an ever growing pain in my left side. I would complain about it but I would be beaten and/or put to work to get me to shut up about it. Even breathing became difficult. After a year of pain I finally reached the point where I didn't care anymore what my step father did to me and I refused to do any more physical work. I even told him that I didn't care if he beat me because I already hurt too much and nothing he did would make it worse. My mother finally took me to a doctor and I was immediately hospitalized. They thought I had cancer, that it was a massive tumor, but it was an 18 pound blood clot in my abdomen that had pushed my organs to the right and up into my chest. That is why I had trouble breathing.
I married young. I wanted to get away from home but I also wanted to just have someone to love and be loved by. Never did I think that the beautiful woman I married could be such a monster. I was in the Navy then and every time I went to sea and came back I had to get my wife back from the arms of another. I also had to get her sober again. S... |
| | Posted by stupid girl at December 12, 2009 |
hey..
first i come from germany, so im sorry for mistakes i do by writing.
i hate my life.
my parents are divorced. my stepfather hates my and can just love my half-sister.
i calls me bitch and says that when i was his daughter then he will hurt me.
but he knows that when he will beat me, i'll go to police.
i hate everything about my life. i dont have a real family. my mother said get him out of the way, but i cant.
i love my firends. they are the best i ever knowed.
they say come to me i'll help you when i have problems at home.
i cant go to them, they will see the scars on my arms.
i have scars on my legs, my arms, my shoulders. and i cant feel them. they are so much an nobody looks at this.
my boyfriend live 600km away from me.
he loves me i knwo, and i love him.
but sometimes i just want to die. |
| | Posted by anonymous at August 26, 2009 |
Hi
It doesn't mater what you do, how high you jump or how much you leave of your self behind for the happens of your new family. As soon your step-daughter get’s to an age of young adult. You are looked like some kind of freak. I love my daughter very much and it hurts that after 15 years I get tried for just a mist understanding |
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