LIFE SUCKS : Juvenile problems

my life

When i was a little a baby my grandpa had died and my mom stole from my grandma who adopted me my mom in 2012 is still in jail same thing i just tied of this mess i wish that i had a diffident mom and people could understand me i just wish that i was not like my mom cause once i smoke a blunt and my sis smoke too but she 17teen i learn about sex i got abuse this man came over once and he took me to my basement and pull down his pants and then that's what happen i don't know where my dad is i just wanna know where he is. My sister that is 7 years old cry alot cause she miss our mom my mom would never help her with any thing i was like the mom i have to babysit and i take care of him like he is my son. I just wanna a nice life like when i want some i get it like i didn't get what i wanted my sister did my grandma have lemony and i had to take care of her i have to do every thing i wish god can give me a better life. I don't even learn about my family. I am failing in school cause no one wold help me do any thing my sister get what they want and it make me cry my sister get me in big troubled and i hate it so bad

i have lost everything

I dont know what to do anymore. I'm only 16 and already I feel like there is no future for me. My dad who was abusive tried to kill me when i was still in my moms womb,he was abusive to me after I was born and when he left things gotsome what better but not quite. And then things always got worse at school. I have ben bullied and been fighting people and always in trouble all the way up til now. I have tried suiciding 3 times once by hanging myself, the second by trying to get run over and the third by pills. I have tried getting a girlfriend cuz that seems to be the only thing that will make it bettr but nobody is interested. I try putting myself out there but nobody ever looks interested and I've even tried approaching women and trying to get them interested in me with no results. Ive only dated 4 times and 2 of them were huge mistakes andone only dated me for a week and left me for her ex boyfriend. And after she broke up with him we started getting close again and starting to love each other again, I even stood out intl the rain soaked from my head to my feet for 2 weeks to tell her i love her and give her a necklace and later i found out she ran off with her ex again. So I've had a poor childhood and a terrible school life and an even worse dating life so it suks all the way around for me but everyone else i see that says they have a terrible life they either get laid a lot or they have a wonderful girlfriend or they have lots of friends. So wheres my luck wher...

i hate myself sometimes

I honestly don't know what to do with myself. I'm so lost. i have to pick university courses and i don't know what i want to do with my life, nor do i have the money to afford the courses. My parents are bankrupt. My parents yell at me constantly, they're not the greatest and have abused me and my siblings before, my mom once strangling my sister. I was also abused during both of my only relationships, my last boy friend claiming: " I will NOT accept you not having sex with me. You will want me eventually." I never wanted to do anything with him... i did ask him to stop, i made him promise that he wouldn't try anything, but he broke that promise. he also lied to me telling me he was a virgin only to tell me later that he's slept with 5 other girls, some unprotected, and one girl claims he raped her. He would never just leave me alone and take his hands off of me. when i went to see him i always tried to look my best and where something nice, but he would always tell me i don't wear anything cute. My other one would humiliate me in front of his friends, always made fun of my body telling me that my breasts are too small, that my hair is a mess, and he would tell me to fuck my twin and be his little slut-nurse. after I had seen both of them I always felt like i had to scrub their hands off of me. Like most girls my age, I'm pretty concerned about the way that i look. i usually try not to look in the mirror because I'm disgusted when i do. Every time I eat i feel guilty. I'v...

Endless Streak

Last summer, my dog I've had my whole life died. Then my parents got divorced. Then, I started high school and people always seemed to look down on me. Then I had to leave my dream home, go to court for my parents 8 times, see a counselor, therapist, and an attorney. And my parents are constantly fighting, as am I with my friends. Then, we had this DECA competition that me and my partner studied and practiced for for a very long time, and we didn't even place. Then, all the vacations we had planned for this summer fell through. And I just got my speech grades back and I failed my last speech even though I practiced it like 100 times. I'm really smart, I'm taking college classes even though I'm only a sophomore. I don't understand why I seem so dumb to everyone. And then the girl that I've been talking to just started dating my best friend. I just feel like nothing has gone my say for the past 2 years. I'm tired of being shat on. For real, God? I love you, but you're making it extremely hard to stay faithful when the only person I have left to look up to keeps letting me down..........

I'm suicidal and no one cares.

My family isn't doing so well financially, and although I have a job (that doesn't pay well at all) I can't help much. I don't get a lot of hours, and I don't get a lot of money. I feel like a drain on my mother because she's the only one besides me working and trying to support a family of 5. I have only one real friend, and sometimes he doesn't even talk to me. I'm in legal trouble because I swiped something I couldn't afford from walmart (that'smy own stupid danm fault). I've told multiple people multiple times that I'm going to kill myself, and no one has reached out to help me. No one's tried to listen. No on'es tried to stop me. Thenn I found this website. I guess I'm just sick of no one caring about me. I'm sick of being an utter drain on the earth and on my mom. I'm sick of being worthless.

This can't be life. how can it be. its just everyday.

I'm so sick of myself. I'm sick of being alive. I just want to kill myself. I'm not looking for attention or anyone to pitty. I have the worst life ever. I'm 15 turning 16 in about a month. My "house" is basically a public building it seems like. Everyone just just comes and goes. My mom is so worthless to me. She's not even my real mom. I've just known her since I was little. People come to give her drugs and a bunch of random people are always sleeping in the house that I have no clue who they are. My mom is such a whore druggy. Fuck her. My oldrr "brother is a fucking bitch." He doesn't care that his fucking friend. Always trys to fight me. He's 5 fucking years older than me. And a lot bigger. I'm small for my age. But if I was bigger I would stomp his ass. I fucking hate him. Everytime I see him I clinch my teeth so hard I get headaches. I just wana fuck him up. I just wana take him in the basement and torture him like a nazi. I want to do terrible things to that motherfucker. I would never do that tho. I just cry about it really. Things never change. My school is so half ass and ghetto. I get jumped hard atleast every year by motherfuckers. I hate people. I can fight like a mother fucker. I'm just small. No one has my back. I'm worthless. I always wonder when ill be able to get clothes. Espeacially warm clothes. I'm so poor and I can't get a job. Most won't even give me a application. Probably cuz I stink. Its so sad, even to me. I know it sounds weird but I do feel...

Revenge

It has been a year since i last post in this website.

Last time I said i wish to kill myself because of my terrible family, my backstabbing classmates/friends and now just some people in my memory that i wish to forget, my pitiful love life and me who never went to college.

Well it did not happen. Something great has happened though still i wud say my life sucks.

I will write here a summary of what happened to me from last year when i last post here.

Well at that time i was very weak because all the people around me made me so. everybody keeps bullying me and keeps telling me i am worthless, useless and they laugh at me after that. During the month of february thats 2011, i spend all my night thinking. i was reviewing all my sad and terrible past. and with those memories i have discovered something that i believe would help me escape this limbo. In my past i have proved that when im alone i can achieve great and unique things. You know when someone stares at me when im working on something i lost my focus and i cant work perfectly but when im alone i can. And also my old classmates(no longer my friends) keeps telling me at that time that i always think nonsense and i later realize they were wrong. My imagination is perfect( i am not crazy).

Soon after that i tried to talk alone, play alone, do everything alone and it makes me feel fine. Then i started to plan and pursue my dreams. My plan was to have my revenge on those who ...

My past pain coming back+new pain=hell

I know that many people have had it much worse off than me, but I am going through some sort of depression crisis lately.

Growing up, my parents fought. A lot. I'd seen my dad go after my mom many times. Sometimes my sister and I were beaten too. Then when I was 13, I answered the phone, but my mom had already answered on the other line. It was my dads friend, and all I heard was this: the friend-"what are you up to?" mom-"oh nothing, there's no kids around so I can tell you how hard your cock is" and I freaked out and hung up. Then when I was 15, I was on my moms computer, and happened to see her emails which she LEFT UP, and they were all dirty, incredibly sexual, graphic emails back and forth between her and another one of my dad's friends. I told only my then 11-year-old sister, and we had to keep that secret for months, until a few months later when my mom told me she was moving out right after I had just played the best volleyball game of my life and got to start on varsity for the first time. Ruined night.

Every night for the next few weeks my dad would come into my room late at night and wake me up crying and want to lay with me which totally creeped me out. He handled it horribly, and would talk shit all her all day every day to everyone around. My sister and I got caught in the middle of everything, and both parents would talk shit on each other to us. My mom married her lover less than a year later in Vegas, and her husband is known throughou...

My mom died when I was twelve. She and I were really close, and losing her was really hard on me. My dad didn't help the situation either. We didn't talk much, and when we did, it usually ended up in a huge arguement. He calls me so many names, and treats me like I'm five, even though I'm the one he left alone to raise myself. I hate him so much, and now he even threatens to take away my stuff if I don't try to establish a relationship with him. I don't understand him, or his childish temper tantrums. I just want to be eighteen, so I can move out and block him out of my life once and for all.

lonely

I don't know how to begin but I've always been alone. I can't get a long with my friends because my topics are just pain boring. They love talking about fashion, boys and korean popstars. I'm nowhere there. I can't joke with them and they treat me like as if I'm invisible. when I ask anyone about anything they would say things like "ermm.. thats really nice" loads of fake compliments everywhere. I don't have a true friend and the closest friend of mine is being controlled by another girl who doesn't allow us to spend time together. Her friend controlls her all the time. Almost all my 'friends' also have boyfriends who would care about them and I don't. In fact I'm going 17 and I still don't. All my crushes left me because I'm not brave enough to make anymove. No one cares about me. I'm just an invisible girl. Everyone uses me because of my abilities, I did rather well in school, my family is ok and we are fine but... I just feel neglected everytime. I sometimes spend my recess in the toilet, just reading up some boring books to kill time. No one would call or find me. I just feel like there's no meaning to life living like a loner.. I tried, I tried to mingle with people but always end up being quiet in the corner and friends would just get up as a group and leave without me.. and there I am.. sitting on the empty table with stares at me again.
I could just dissapear and no one would even care. I'm not hated by anyone or anything but I'm just not special, I'm not active or sporty like other girls. I'm just boring.. boring as hell.

Not a kid anymore

I'm 18. My parents treat me like a baby. I can't even stay home alone, still. Everyday i am getting yelled at by them about silly stuff like cleaning my room. Why should they care about my stuff i think i know how i live. Also, aside of my parents i am always bored i missed my favorite tv show that is now canceled. Its not one you can watch in pieces on youtube. I dont have many friends who live close enough to hang out with almost everyday. I want to die.

Im nitish 19 years old. I live in mathura,U.P,india. My life sucks me everytime.y self confidence is very low n I think my life fucks me at every possible moment. Im in my graduation 2nd yr have many frenz but half of them arr back stabbers . I know some girs but no one likes me . I think im a dumbass n only know nothing thatswhy no one likes me. And the fuckin icing on my lifes bullshit is money . At the end I dont have a girlfriend coz I dont have money. I have frenz living royal life coz their fathergives them loads of money. They have self confidence ,personaity ,good looks , talent n I have nothing . Simply nothing. What I have is an over caring family who suck my mind ,a small brother whoz a pain in my ass and not to forget my second hand scooter which sucks my mind even more when I see a a brand new bike of my friend . N my mind blows even mire when at the back seat there is a beautiful girl.the old year id jus ending n hoping for the best for the new year.... I know my life doesnt have difficulties or im not handicapped etc but still I cant handle this pain. Every single girl I approach dumps me or mar me jus a friend. I dont know what to do . I know nothing other than bullshit I do nothing other than asking for money from my parents. I feel disgusting..

Fuck life

I fucking hate my life I live in a shity trailer in the middle of nowhere with absolutely no real friends literally woman I burn for ignores me when ever I try to talk to her it was just Christmas and I spent the whole night curled up around a toilet puking my brains out and I was completely sober and have been forced to stay that way for over a year while every body around me has their escapes all I want in life is for my car to run at least decently I mean really is that really to much to ask? Iv poured money into it and no matter what it still runs like shit it can't even sit at a red light without dying I go to school full time and I work but there's no joy in my life I had to leave all my friends and family and my pretty ok life over night to move out to this shity little life that I live now which I was told it would be better all and all I have to say WHAT THE FUCK YOU GOD DAMN LIARS!!! But what the fuck ever you know I got a slut of an ex girlfriend that has every body at my school thinking that I choked and beat her for the 6 months we were together when i have never lade a hurtful hand on any woman in my life and now I can't get a girl to even say hi to me I truly hate waking up in the morning and dragging my self out to school I mean come the fuck on I live 2 miles away from the nearest neighbor and 10 from town masturbations has even lost it's fun my so called family tells me "relax it'll get better" well how the hell are things supposed to get better when eve...

Pressure

I have this huge pressure to do EVERYTHING perfectly. But I can't. No one can. But my parents, my friends, family friends, neighbors, they ALL EXPECT ME to become this world famous celebrity and make them proud and bring in lots of money and get married to a good, hard-working, rich person. If I get a score in the 80's for a test/quiz, there's that annoying GASP and WHY DIDN'T YOU STUDY HARDER? WHY COULDN'T YOU HAVE DONE BETTER THAN THIS KID OR THAT KID? I hate all this pressure. At school, sometimes I do before I think, and that gets me into so much trouble with my friends and relationships. I wish I could have better common sense before I do something, but no. I just plunge into whatever's gonna ruin someone else's plans, dreams, etc. I wish I could retreat to a world where grades don't matter, pressure doesn't exist, your social ranking's not important, and peace thrives.

I've always wondered about slitting my wrists. Some say that it's wonderful, your troubles just flowing away, even if that pain still lingers. Others say it brings you back to your senses, to the cold, hard truth: you just have to keep on going. I want to, but I don't have the nerves to do it. And everyone would find out.

And also, great. I got dumped. Because my boyfriend doesn't have enough time for me. And all my other supposed friends say I deserved it. Maybe I did. But he also ignored me. And I could never forget him for that. I loved him. But love, love ends quickly. Love flies away like a gypsy child in the nihgt.

And love, love doesn't stay for me. Love won't wait for me.

help me.

I have no dad. My grandpa's dead, No brother's No sister's. My grandma's ..I don't know about her. I hate my mom more then anything I have ever hated.
I don't live my life for myself anymore and the few things I do for myself just lead to more trouble I smoke I do drugs whatever. Those don't even make me happy anymore I have a boyfriend I feel I constantly need to please Even though he's my Bestfriend I feel like I'm constantly competing for attention I want to be able to relate to someone I hate this world I hate the things were expected to do I hate school. I HATE SCHOOL.I wish I could just die. I cut myself. I have since 6th grade. My mom still thinks it's just some sorta of cry for attention like she ever gave me any even though I tell her all the time how much it's not I honestly feel like she's the reason I can't be happy. She forced me into dance tells me I'm fat Tells me I'm ugly tells me why guys don't find me attractive.
My Bestfriend in the entire world. I can't even hang out with her in broad daylight. cause her mom hates me.
My boyfriend gets seizures. He once stormed out of the apartment I live at and the police were called I was in the bathroom crying all they did was yell at me to open the door flashed a fucking bright ass flashlight in my face and tell me how disrespectful I was being for yelling even though it was my boyfriend who was yelling.I JUST WANNA BE HAPPY that's all but it seems like something just doesn't want to let that happen cause no matter how many times things go right SOMETHING COMES AND FUCKS THEM UP. I've been told I'mm attractive by alot of people and it hurts cause honestly deep down in my heart I can't believe that ,I never will. I've had relationships they've all been ruined due to my trust issues. I'm not sure about religon anymore it scares me.
All I know is I wanna die.
There is alot more I can say.
But really.. in the end what those this really matter.
Thank you for listening though.

life sucks

googled life sucks. here i am. wth. im 16 and im not normal. all my life ive listened to my mothers stereotyping of people and how much she hates everything. i told her to stop telling me this stuff cause its messing with my head. she didnt. my father scares the shit out of me. his emotions are very random. he randomly burst out in anger and yells like hes taking your soul away and it gives him pleasure to do so. he needs total control but doesnt have it so he goes crazy. he finally let his emotions get the best of him. he beat my mom in front of me and my little sister. he also unplugged the phone so i couldnt call the police. hes smart when it comes to not getting in trouble but stupid with everyday things like spelling. dont ever say stupid or disrespect him to his face. youll die. when i was young my friend touched me inappropriately. i ended the friendship. later her dad went to jail for raping a family friend. guess thats why she never let me sleep over. ive never been good at socializing. i sit there with a blank stare hoping not to break into tears. thats why i dont have many friends. they all think im an evil bitch but have never talked to me before in my life. i have major issues but whenever i try to tell my mom shes laughs and or yells at me and says im ridiculous. i think i need mental help. i pray to god for a full scholarship to a college so i can get away. but at the same time i am afraid for my sisters safety. if i leave shell never ...

Am I Dumb?

I'm 18 years old and I am blessed with a loving and well to do family. I have been in a relationship with my current boyfriend for about 2 years plus and I am always having problems with him. 2 years ago i was young and naive and got into trouble which led to countless depressing break ups and quarrels. I betrayed his trust and had to live with the countless consequences every since. I love him dearly so despite being in misery i went along with everything he makes me do or doesn't allow me to do. After that incident he broke up with me for awhile and I was completely inconsolable and suicidal. He came back to me when he couldn't forget me because he really love me. Then it all started with his small requests followed by more and more unreasonable expectations but i accepted everything and listened to whatever he said. I was not allowed to socialize with any guys (Even tho i'm okay with it) but I have to go to school and apparently i study in a mixed environment where theres boys and girls and when it comes to school work i have no choice. At the start it was really really tough dealing with this and foolishly i got through it by lying about minor things. He eventually found out about it and i fell right back into depression because he claims that i broke his trust again and again. (I had not much of a choice?) After awhile it seems that he was still angry with me and he went out to betray me and broke my heart. I was devastated but I still wanted him so much so I had to...

My life sucks

I dropped out of high school sophomore year of family issues! I tried to get my GED but I have to pay for the fucking classes. And a rip off fucking 100 dollar GED test and I have to take 5 separate tests so thats fucking 500 dollars!! I don't have that kind of money and never will, and I dont have internet I steal my neighbors I lost my social life pretty much still talk to my friends on fbook once in awhile, but I can never do shit with them because I never have any money I can't get a job because of this shitty ass economy and when I do get close to getting a guess what?? I need my fucking GED or Diploma. Who fucking cares about a GED or Diploma it's just a fucking piece of shit paper with your name on it.

I'm going to see if I can join the army if I cant then fuck my life might as well jump off a bridge!

No reason to be depressed... but i am

For a while now i have been feeling like i just want to give up on life. When i look at my life i really see no reason to be depressed but for some reason i am... I just hate my life and the way it is going. I'm 19 years old, i have a loving family, i have never had to worry about going hungry or not having a roof over my head. I still live with my parents and right now only work a couple hours a week teaching fitness classes. I really like my job but the rest of my life to me feels miserable. My parents are constantly hounding me to get another full time job with benefits and stuff, but i dont want to for a lot of reasons. I pretend that i am looking for one and just cant get one, but to be honest i could get one really easily if i wanted to. I spent most of my time in my room at my computer playing video games or just sitting by myself. I dont really like being social, infact i consider myself pretty antisocial, I just dont like being around lots of people and i cant stand smalltalk.

I hate myself for being so lazy, I could get a job if i wanted to but i just dont want to. At the same time i hate being bothered by my parents about getting a job. It's like i am refusing to make a decision for myself and just continue to be in a limbo state in my life. I think if i kept myself more busy (like working or making friends) i wouldn't be as depressed, but its almost like i dont want to feel better. I just want to wallow in my self-hatred. I've tried to kill myself b...

My Life Is a Joke

I recently turned 17.I'm a girl, but I dream I were a boy. I'm a grade year behind, and currently doing horrid in school, though I used to be the smartest kid. I've tried to kill myself about ten times now..regret NOT dying. I'm addicted to Advil and Tylenol, I take about 15 every night. I have literally no friends, my parents barely notice me. I have a shitty job, where I'm hardly making minimum wage, just a quarter more. I don't have a license, because I am a "Safety Hazard", so I can't just get up and leave. I live in Texas, but hate it. I want so badly to just pick up things and leave. I've been searching for a new job, but no one wants me. I have no clue where I'm going in life. My life is like a really bad, depressing movie. They say once you hit rock bottom, all you can do is go up. But, what if you keep hitting rock bottom?