| | Posted by SomeoneShootMe at January 7, 2012 |
I have spent the last 3 years working 60-90 hrs a week trying to become a chef in grueling, stressful environments with horrible people and mostly horrible food. 6 months ago I finally landed a job in fine dining, but I moved up quickly under odd circumstances, and even though I tried really hard and volunteered every time they needed someone to work a 6th 11-13 hr day, i failed because I just wasn't fast enough to cut the cake. I got into a car accident last week, and since I blew slightly over the limit, it was labeled a DUI. I also got slammed with possession of marijuana and paraphernalia. Even though I'm the 6th person from work this year to have gotten one, I got laid off for it and had to move back in with my family. The house is tiny, so I have to live on a couch in our unheated storage room. My brother and sister both hate me and say the most hurtful things they can think of on a daily basis. I went job hunting, but my face is a mess from my car wreck so no one even looks at my resume before telling me they aren't hiring. It's going to heal, but it's humiliating in the meantime. I just went through a horribly drawn out, tragic, messy break up with the guy I've liked and been best friends with for 7 hrs and dated for 3 because we didn't want the same things in life, and the guy I like now lives a thousand miles away and is only interested in friendship with me. My personality sucks I think, but no matter how much I try to fix it, I can only conclude that it is... |
| | Posted by G at January 4, 2012 |
I have you all beat ! , I live in Roswell , New Mexico , try living here , a crap little town in the middle of nowhere , literally 250 miles in the middle of nowhere , no job , was fired for having a heart attack , the state won't pay unemployment , I have no ins to help pay for the meds that keep me from having yet another heart attack , I have 1 ill son , and 1 son with a pissy attitude ( he is smarter than everyone else , my wife can't work due to illness , we are broke , and the IQ here is quite low , in fact the family tres of most here have no branches , you know the type , Uncle-Daddy , Once you are here , you will be lucky to get a min. wage job , but like Hotel California , " You can check out , but you can never leave "
I actually pray for my own death , or the end of the world , so this crap will be over. |
| | Posted by anonymous at January 4, 2012 |
My dad died in August. I spent the prior year caring for him and put my life on hold. Haven't dated in over a year and missed some work on Family Medical Leave, but was finally getting my life back together. My manager talked me into going back to school with work tuition reimbursement. The day after my Family Medical Leave ended, I met with my manager to discuss my new role (and hopefully raise). And I got laided off! WTF. My manager took a different role in the company that eliminated my job. Did I mention I was a temp for 3 years waiting to get this job? Now I'm signed up at an expensive school, that I'll have to figure out how to pay for and I'm unemployed. GRRR... Plus, I broke my tooth on Xmas day and have a huge dental bill now. Everything is sucking.... there is more suckage than this, I just don't have the energy to vent anymore |
| | Posted by anonymous at December 31, 2011 |
well guess what my life sucks. i have no frieds no car no money and soon no home i was bad at school but wen senor year ended i got a job changing oil. one day i put a pig of a truck on a lift the tools started sliding till all the weight was at the back of the car and it fell off the lift sigh. i dont have that job any more. wen i turnd 20 i went on a mission my family paid for half of it but i only lasted seven months i coudnt stand it so i came home my mom now hates me thinks ive ruind my life but shes mostly responsible for that well part any way. managed to get another job working for some plumers they worked the sit out of me in the middle of december in below frezzing wether but i was more bothered by my bosses heated temper .after three days i had blisters and so sore i couldnt lift a think i told my boss he just said i was full of shit and said young people dont wont to work these days.i wasnt physicaly unable to do it so i quite. now my mom has told me to move out again (man im sick of hearing it) and this time theres no fooling. i have no where to go all be 21 in FEB 2012 i plan on buying a gun and blowing my usless brain cells all over my short week body. i always struggeld in school but i wish i would of tried a bit harder but God doesnt give re-do's |
| | Posted by anonymous at December 30, 2011 |
so.. i got suspended from my work as a cashier after being short three times with a total of a thousand dollars. I can honestly tell to God that I really had no idea where that money went. A week later after I got suspended, police arrested me because the company I am working for filed a felony theft case against me. That is probably the worst nightmare in my life. Until now, I cant believe that I would go through that in my life. Now, I am unemployed. I feel so helpless because I cannot help out my family with our financial needs. This file charged against me and the arrested record will stay on my name until I prove to the court that I am innocent. I pity myself. Most importantly, I am supposed to be in the nursing program starting in 3 weeks and we have to submit and prove that we have a clean criminal background check. Ive been so worried that after all my hard work just to get in to the program, I will end up getting kick out because they will see my arrest record. Finishing nursing school is my very first priority in life and my family's dream. Now that I am not sure if I will be able to go to the nursing program, I feel like my life is just stuck. I dont know what Im supposed to do right now. Im so disappointed, mad, sad, and terrified what is the future waiting for me. What if they won't believe that I am innocent, what if I go in jail again? My dream will all fall apart. My family's hope will be crushed. You see I was supposed to be the first person in the family that will graduate in college. I got scholarships and government grants that pays for my tuition fees and school expenses. I work so hard but everything will go to nothing just because I was accused of something I DID NOT DO. I keep praying to GOD that I hope they'll find out the truth. I wish they will find where the money really went. But its been a month, and my court date is getting closer. They haven't drop the charge still. I don't know what to do. My life sucks. |
| | Posted by Mercere at December 29, 2011 |
I'm 25, still in university. I have to pay my way (don't want student loans) and so work and go to school. As a result, I can only take the minimum necessary to keep the balance on the loans from my first time around at university in interest free status. My depression and anxiety has been spiralling slowly out of control since I was 21 or so. I started quitting jobs because I was afraid I'd kill myself if I didn't.
But I've found a job in my career that I love, I've had it for a year and a few months, (previously the longest I'd had was 5 months). But my boss is a drug addict (he says he's clean as of now (as opposed to six months ago when he was NOT) but I don't believe him anymore), he marauds around fucking with the business I'm running for him. I can't run it very well because he won't let me.As a result I'm constantly on the hook with people about his behaviour and if they aren't getting irritated at me, I'm failing them. I'm FAILING THEM and I don't have to.
But the prospect of another job is out of the question. Nothing I'm qualified to do is going to pay me enough, or give me an environment that isn't toxic to me. Provided I can even find another job if I let this one go. My tuition rides on this job.
I get good grades, but I don't feel like I deserve them, I barely do the work in school compared to some of my classmates, I'm just smart and manage to understand the material. I was surprised and a little horrified to walk out of this se... |
| | Posted by Sugar Cane at December 29, 2011 |
I don't get it. Next year will be the 5th year I've to deal with this crap. I'm over loaded again. I've been given 20% more basic load than others/average. And the time needed to deal with the added load means I've less resources to deal with it.
Oh, and why do I say it's the basic load? Cos there are other loads... to justify my rank in the company. And so the storm gets bigger.
I've been battling with depression last year 2011. Perhaps I should get it officially diagnosed. That should make the bosses sit up and take note: I'm overloaded.
Trying to hang in there. I have for the first time voiced my displeasure at this crappy arrangement. My immediate boss may take some of my load off my shoulders... I'm reminding myself not to feel bad about it. My family is at stake here. My mental health is at stake here.... |
| | Posted by anonymous at December 27, 2011 |
Ever since I was a baby. I remember my mother telling me that my life would be hard for me. I would have to work %200 to get %100. & others will only work %50 & get %200. I see what she means. I am sorta intelligent. Well I have built websites, Filmed stars, Promoted . & I'm still broke. I mean $0 in my bank account. I work hard & smart - I have over 20 talents. Only dancing has paid off. After being hit by a car that dream was dead .
Maybe I have a curse on me. Ever toy, Digital devise, & friend Gone. I brought a rc car it broke the first day. So I brought another one the next day. & It broke in 20 min... When I was about 10 I got rc car. That broke the first day.
What a Christmas. My uncle said our cars was on the same channel. Whatever.. I noticed what my mother said was true.
I will grow up to be nothing.
I had a job one time in a factory 10 miles away from my home. I was fired the 2nd week for being 30 minutes early. Not by my supervisor but by the main boss.
New factory New job had it for almost 1 year. I quit, I noticed only 1 kind of people get raises & promotion.
I seen it happen - 1 month work next month pay raise. But not me. Just remembered I been going to Supreme Cort for robbery for the past year. fyi I'm gonna sue. I didint do it They Have No Evidence. Why was I arrested. Mistaken identity. I heard that one enough times.
I want to believe I am jinxed Vodo or something. I pray but it things just get worst. I might do something crazy soon!!! |
| | Posted by Afterrain42 at December 25, 2011 |
I worked hard to get what I have, a single mom, I worked my butt off to finally move up in the corporate world, buy a house, take our first family vacation. To get cancer and have everything thrown away. Now I may lose my home, and no one to help, no person,county or organization. I have two part time jobs that suck, and it doesn't pay the bills, and I'm a student. My brother got leukemia and I was his caregiver until he died watching as his wife didn't visit him in the hospital and started seeing someone else. Then my dog died, and I thought how can I keep the Christmas spirit? So I tried and went to my moms, where all of us siblings gather. The topic of my brothers widow came up from my other brother.( who is friends with her) and I said sarcastically she is a hoe. He got mad and defended her, a woman who won't let anyone see my brothers kids. He called me a bitch in front of my grandson. I finally decided I'm not pretending anymore. I lost it , started crying and told him all I wanted was for Him to be a brother, since I had already lost one. Even though years ago this brother told me that he didn't love me or my sister or care about us. I still tried. My mom, step dad, sister and brother just sat and stared at me not saying a word. I sat and cried, not one I'm sorry, or hug, anything. My family has always been dysfunctional, we are supposed to pretend everything is fine and don't make anyone Mad. so by expressing my feelings, I have defied the family ... |
| | Posted by SBSP at December 22, 2011 |
I'm fucking sick of my life. I'm almost 20 and haven't been able to score a better job than a fucking cook at a local fast food joint. What makes it worse is that I live in a small town so business is pretty limited, and where I work is the only place that'll hire high school graduates. I'd get the hell out of this town if I could actually drive too, but I've failed every damn test I've ever taken. I'm socially awkward, even my only co-worker hates my fucking guts. I have repressed lust for one of my best friends too; she's athletic, smart and a gorgeous southern bell. I love her. You know what it's like; I've been friend zoned real hard. She's my only real friend, besides this one kid, who I'm pretty sure is only hanging around me because he is mentally challenged. I guess he's the only one that can tolerate me. And what makes this all worse is that I live in a fucking pineapple under the sea! |
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| Posted by acromion at December 20, 2011 |
I wanna share something with everyone on this forum.I joined an organization at a very high post about 8 months back. everything was fine till last month when my clients started decreasing and just evaporated bu the beginning of december. I was warned by administration. now i'm in doldrums my job's is in danger i'm not able to justify my CTC and the company people have lost trust in me so its like i have gone from better to worse and depressed and paranoid as i'm the only earning member in my family and have a family to support.
Just toooooooooooooooo....... difficult
I know looks like a run of the mill story but i'm facing a lot of heat and disturbed to core. I can't go on ruminating the same to my spouse and child (not to bring office to home)
I only wish to settle in and as someone who can do the job and just relax without any pressures to deal with
anyways let's hope things get better-this is what my inner voice keeps on telling me. i'm working hard to regain my position but i suspect foul-play on part of my colleagues.
I can't be/think/act negative towards anybody and want people to be the same.
I was told to be honest, sincere and hardworking-and i'm trying to become a better man
but perhaps i'm not wordly-wise and lack the capability
I'l leave this job and go back home but what will i do then ? I don't know?
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| | Posted by anonymous at December 13, 2011 |
I had worked for Carrier building air conditioners for 12yrs, 4yrs at ICP and 8yrs in Tyler. what a waste of my damn time! They treated us like dogs; no, dogs are treated better than that! And then, they sent all our jobs to mexico! The government made it so our jobs go to Mexico. Unemployment told us because our jobs went out of the country they will pay us two years to go to school and learn something new to better ourselves. Then they keep on screwing our payments and making us lose everything we have! If they were gonna do that, they shoulda just said "well, good luck to ya!" and left us fendin for ourselves then! Ya... I'm ANGRY!
Ain't been paid in forever here!!! Prob end up loosing everything before I ever get through this crap! I only have a mortgage and a truck payment and can't keep them paid! My house is about to go into foreclosure for the 3rd, 4th? time!
They screw everybody they can!!!
When I get it... Unemployment pays $415 a week.... If I went to work (and there ain't any now) I'd only make about $250 and if I take one of these lesser paying jobs... It would screw my unemployment benefits; If I was to get laid off again... Would lower payment to about $100 a week unemployment if the job lasted long enough to gain unemployment insurance! What the heck are we supposed to do?!
I mean Geez, I've got one semester left. They aughta get me through it! But the bastards don't send payments every damn time I turn around! They were supp... |
| | Posted by anonymous at December 12, 2011 |
I am a 31 year old female who likes to fix everything... compromise and reach a common ground so that everyone is happy and at no ones expense. Everything should be fair in life within reason. About 4 months ago I left my life in New York... working 72 hrs. a week, working 4 jobs, my husband whom is still working 4 jobs, my family and everything I've ever known. Every job I left I was pretty much doing since I was 16 years old in some cases worked my way up the ladder. They were easy jobs that I for the most part enjoyed except I couldn't have a life outside of work. I moved to Vermont because I thought I needed a change. I wanted a quality of life. I knew in order to do that I needed a new career and I needed to sell my condo in which I just found out will cost us about $22,000 to sell. I knew the 5 hour move would not be easy but it was something I thought I should do. I moved when I was offered a job. The job was very different then what I was used to. My jobs before I moved were an Ice Rink Manager/Office Manager and Lifeguard. My new job is being an Afterschool coordinator for grades K through 3. I coordinate Staff, children, activities and snack Mon. through Fri. 2:30pm - 6pm. On paper I might have experience in this type of job after all I was a Camp Counselor at a sleep away camp for 4 years, taught ice skating and swim lessons. I came from a family line of teachers... my Aunt was a phys. ed. teacher, my grandma was a teacher and my Mom is a Principal of a special... |
| | Posted by karmakitty at December 12, 2011 |
I have to be the most unluckiest person in the world! NOTHING! ever works out for me. I am so afraid of my kids being ashamed of me because my two jobs suck and don't pay enough to get out of this terrible neighborhood we live in and I can't give them the life they deserve. I can't even buy food for them. No matter what I try I can't get ahead. I can't buy a house or even rent a house for my family and they just feel so sad that they can't even have presents this year or even a tree. my girls deserve better but I can't afford it. No happy new year for us, only tears. I wish I could take my life but then who would take care of them? I just need to find a better job so I can get my family out of this situation and move forward. I will be eating pb&j sandwiches for christmas dinner, I hope one day I can provide for them better but for now, my job interviews are a bust and no one can give me an opportunity to show how good I am at my job. I just have such bad luck in everything and sadly my kids are paying the price too. They have a loser for a mom, and it hurts me so much to be a loser for them. I love them sooo much! They are my life, but I am not worthy of them...they deserve sooo much better than me. Loser Mom! that's me!! |
| | Posted by Lost6001 at December 10, 2011 |
Hello everybody
I'd like to begin by apologising in advance to any who may be offended by anything I say, not no mention my poor spelling.
This story is, to say the least, an unusual one, for mine is a tale of self inflicted social misery that has lasted for more than a decade.
I am currently 27 years old, I work part time in a local newsagents and earn barely enough to cover the rent. I have been single for 9 years, not due to lack of propositions but simply through sabotage of any chance that I get with anyone. This behaviour does not just reside with my opportunities to find a partner but also extends to all my relationships. I sabotage friendships and fuel work mates resentment toward me and worst of all I act hatefull towards my family.
I remember years ago when I first had to leave somebody that I cared for deeply. I remember making her push me away. I remember justifying my actions by telling myself that she wouldn't miss me if she thought I was a horrible person.
I am alone. When I meet new people, I feel like a burden in thier lives, I feel pressured into being something that they find acceptable, but that is not who I am.
I am alone because I do not feel comfortable with anyone that I have ever met, I do not feel asif I can just relax, but loneliness is a terrible sickness.
Honestly now I don't believe that I would even know how to fit into society, I truly do not believe that I could ever find ... |
I sit here a 33 year old man who has managed to get nowhere in life threw little or no fault of my own. I'm not a drug user, never been arrested (more on that later), or drink on a nightly basis. Yet for some reason I can't keep a job. The only jobs I can seem to make last are the crap jobs no one wants. "Do you want fries with that?" Every other job I get has problems. I'v been told to break laws to keep my job. Business go out of business. Massive layoffs and guess who is low man on the tot-tum pole. I have never had a point in my life financially where I felt safe let alone comfortable. Never owned a car newer then 15 years or worth more then $1000, yet I have a credit score better then most.
I'm willing to work. In life work is the only thing that makes me happy yet I'm stuck in this little town so far out of the way that I can't find a job. I was happiest when I was putting in 60+ hours of hard work week after week. Working threw the flu because I pride myself on never calling in sick or asking for time off in my life. But I can't find anyone that will employee me. Because of this I will be homeless soon. I will be living in a small camper shell of a rusted out '91 S-10 truck until the cops impound it for me living in a vehicle then I will be on the streets in an area that hates the homeless.
Yes this all sucks for me now but lets go back to my childhood.
As an infant until I was 2 years old I was left alone with no contact ... |
| | Posted by Sammie at December 8, 2011 |
I am about to celebrate my 23rd birthday and although I have graduated from college and am lucky enough to have no debt I live with my parents, who hate my boyfriend because he is not Christian enough for them. I dread even telling my mom hey I am going to see him this weekend, but there is nothing I can do about that because she admittedly said that she will never like him no matter what. We fight all the time and there is tension in the house 99% of the time. On top of that I am a social worker and all though there are times when I love it, I often feel a failure at it and that it is just too much for me to handle, not the emotional part but the too much stuff to do part and I want to go back to school just as much as I don't, to do a job that I can do right now with out a Master's degree, what is this world coming too...I swear the pursuit of happiness seems like the hardest quest you are thrown into. |
| | Posted by nic at December 8, 2011 |
At the start of 2011 i had a hard condition . The work provider laid me off and told me that i must stay at home untill i`m better . After i was hospitleis , i went back to work but they told me that they not willing to take the changs to put me back at work . They do not pay me any money at this stages . I have two kids at school and i can not provide for them and my self . Up till now i have spend all my savings just to stay alive . Also , i am a singel parent . I want to work , but my work provider dont want me to work . PLEASE HELP ME - I AM ON MY KNEES !!!!!!
My email - nicsmt66@gmail.com |
| | Posted by Mindset. at December 2, 2011 |
I never done one of these and I need input?
I have made mistakes but that is human. I am only 19 and I feel as though I am more mature than some of my professors. I attend a highly religious private college and my life was great. I had a mom and dad and that was all. Just us 3. It all changed. Dad cheats on mom. Leaves mom house. Later he gets laid off from job. And where am I going with all of this?
Long story short... I had nothing to worry about to I pay for everything.
I only worked at McDonalds. Not bad for a first time job of 3 years...but that is not enough money when you pay for rent (because that's what I was told I had to pay and not worry about college).
So I get a second job. And work 40 hours a week. dad and mom lay on me that I need to pay 8 grand in 2 months to still attend my college. So I lost hope and modeled and did nude modeling. Pay was great and I paid college so I could attend college... because get this...this is the kicker. I CAN NOT GET ANY LOANS BECAUSE MY PARENTS CREDIT SUCKS. HOW FUNNY?!!?
Well, a lovely student finds these nudes and tells me school.... well they didn't like that. So I had to quit to attend college. Well. I owe 6 grand... but my new plan was to leave for community college so I would only have to pay 1 grand a semester. Not 10 grand.
But guess what. My college will refuses to "let me drop" or send my transcripts to this new school. So I'm stuck in the college money limbo.
And to further top everything...my parents asked ME for money because the house was going to be taken away and I love them. family is family.
And in this whole span of 9 months I have found this guy that I love and is there for me.
So yes, life really sucks because I seem to not be able to attend school for a good semester to a year..... but it sucks in a beautiful way.
Anyone know of an scholarships for people like me? |
| | Posted by anonymous at November 26, 2011 |
I'm a 26 yr. old woman who has an IQ of 89 and was tested by a psychiatrist in High School. Although parts of the test, I scored 140 or above. I have ADD "Attention Deficit Disorder" w/out hiper activity. I had full financial aid but failed a basic math pre requisette 3 times. So no degree. I've had 4 jobs that lasted for 7-10months, one for 3 yrs. and a ton of stupid short term jobs in between. Every job I've had was the kind you peed in a cup for when they hire you. I live with my mom and once I made around 24,000 one year but never more than that. I've never felt like I belonged anywhere, I mean I never had friends. While in school I usually had 1 person I couldn't wait to see everyday but by High School I never had another "best friend". Maybe I'd get along really well at times with someone but I'd secretly be embarrassed that they were my friend. I'm not close at all with my mom, not since I was 15. She's a nice person but we're not alike although she reminds me of some of my flaws. In the past 3 years especially, I can't stand her and have been unneccessarily cold towards her but feel sorry for her at the same time. My Dad has always been around and there for me. I have a sibling who turned out normal if not better than normal and nice. But the thing about my Dad is that he's mest up. He's a good Dad but at this point, we all know he is going to die from alcholism because he can't stay sober. I hate everyday of my life. My mom is losing the house and I have been try... |
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