Well, after much contemplation, I have decided that tonight, Sunday, March 27th, 2011, will be my final night upon this world. I'm just board with my life and see no sign of change in the future and no reason to continue. I'm 46 years old and haven't really lived at all. I've worked a meaningless job for the past 20 years that bearly just pays the bills and due to these "tough economical times" things have gotten even tighter and I fear I may lose my job this week. The water has already been turned off and I wouldn't be suprised if the power goes off while writing this. My landlord said that he's had enough of me and is looking for any excuse to evict me. Well it just so happens that I also don't have money for this months rent. So this week I shall probably lose my job and get kicked out onto the streets as well. What a joke my life is. Not that it isn't my fault. I had dreams when I was yonger but I've slowly woken up to reality. I had a good childhood but a... not bad, but just meaningless -- adulthood. I always wanted to be a writer but never got around to pinning anything down. I haven't had a real friend since high school and have never had a special lady friend. (Yes, if you must know, I am a virgin). I've never drinked or smoke or have done any drugs (accept medecations for my joints). All the fun stuff I see people doing -- I just can't get involved in. I've realized I've wasted my life, and at 46, there's not much hope of starting over. So after I submit this I am going to hang myself. Just remebmer that Ronald Joseph Evans was here. | |
So your life sucks where you live now. The planet's a big place, move somewhere else and see what it's like there.
All you need to do is save up for a plane ticket, sell all your belongings, leave it all behind, and go to some foreign country.
You speak English, which is enough to get a job in a lot of countries teaching English. You'll be respected in the community and will be helping people, and while you won't make a lot by western standards you can live a comfortable life overseas. When you have what locals see as a high paying job, getting a girlfriend won't be a problem either.
>>>Might as well try moving somewhere else on this earth before leaving it altogether.
Planet is a bigger place. Anyway you have nothing to lose. Go for it!
Hope you are still reading this...
So why do you make it sound like it's bad thing ?
Is doing those stuff make a person cool ?
I have more respect in someone who is not a sheep that follows the heard .
Life is more then that !
You have a gift in writing why not start writing ?
Live a simple life and not spend money f just "stuff "
God has a purpose for you do you not want to know what it is ?
Say to God .. God show me the way your will will be done . For I am not here for ,myself but to serve God in this world .
Go out and be a blessing to others and God will bless you in heaven .
I wasted my potential in my younger days as well
does anyone know if he still alive?
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