LIFE SUCKS : Attitude

f*** the world

I was born a dirt poor bastard. 22 years later, nothing has changed. I'm so tired of being poor. Every time I get any money I have to help pay my moms bills. We are both broke, no car, no job, and every day is a struggle just to eat. I often can't even afford a bus fare to look for a job, and even when I can I'm put in position where I can not eat all day and go look for a job, or eat 1 meal and not look for work.

I've tried so many ways to escape this. I was working for a long time but even with me working 40 hours a week in hs I couldn't afford a phone or car or anything cause I was always paying bills. So I tried selling drugs and stealing to escape being poor, now I have a criminal record. I'm desperate to get any job but I can't even get work at mcdonalds.

People think I'm a drug addict or something I'M NOT. I'm just extremely manlnourished and sleep deprived, and I'm starting to believe completely insane. If your not a dangerous individual avoid dangerous people like me. I will prey on you because I hate you, I hate myself, and I hate the world. All I know is poverty, isolation, and violence and I'm still trapped here in hopelessness.

lifesucks

i just wanted to say that my agony inside doesnt come from one direct issue or disappointment . its a combination of little shit that just builds up. its this feeling i have in my gut, like someone just punched me in the stomach. this feeling is hallow and very heavy. its weighs my entire body down to a apoint where i have no motivation t really move or do anything. there are things that make me feel better about myself and my situation but when i am doing these things i take a step back and look at what im doin and i just knock myself down a few steps. its almost like i am going on a first date with myself when i get ready and that i am trying to convince myself that i am beautiful and worth it and fun and freindly. i try to tell myself im a good person and people like me and that i like myself too. but i take a step back an no one likes me no one wnts to be my friend. im 20 an all i have is my BF and thats it. i log onto these social media cites and everyone else is having so much fun every weekend and all i do is sit in my room and cry and mope around. FML is so pathetic, i wish i felt a warm feeling of purpose and passion running through me,but all i feel is this heavy empty feeling inside.

fuck this!

I am at an all time low. I feel lost and that no one is willing to help. I'm not even 30 and have filed for bankruptcy, still have 60k in student loan debt, can't find a job, moved cross country for my long time boyfriend and am stuck by myself all day every day. No one will hire me because everyone else needs work too, I rely on the BF for everything, am super depressed, want kids but don't want to take that risk being so far in the hole. My neighbors are losers and never shut the fuck up, are always drunk and screaming at each other at all hours of the night. I blame my parents for making me go to college because honestly it was not worth it, I blame the BF for making me quit my job that I actually really liked to emotionally support him, but he's not willing to do the same and always talks down to me. I'm jealous of him for getting to do what he wants, and don't see any future where I am given the same chance, which makes me bitter and resentful. I'm overweight and can't seem to loose any of it, have health problems I can't take care of because I'm uninsured and I feel like I need to start drinking on a daily basis to make this pain go away, even temporarily. Life sucks when you are never given a break, or even a chance; I have hopes and dreams that I will never get to see happen and think, on a daily basis, that I should just kill myself to stop being a burden on everyone that I care for.

i hate my life

i really really hate my life because i look around at other people are so fkn happy have ppl have their back very few downfalls but always overcome and here i am by myself no family no one who really gives a shit no spouse just me and my kids so i refuse to not provide but the quality of life sucks that i can give and at the end of the day i dont do shit for myself. i start diets never finish them i hate my body now so i dont get dressed up dont look in the mirror and always revert back to the same attitude and same lifestyle cuz im tired of shit not working out for me no results no big changes im scared to take on more responsiblity to live better because im scared of failing an getting back at point one so all this makes me miserable i go eat, lock my self in my room, cry and get angry and do it allllllll the fuck over again. this is my life. woooooopty fkn do!

So depressed,can't even think of one!

I don't even know where to start,so I will start with the beating I took from my husband in October which landed me in the hospital.He is under house arrest at another location.I lost my job because I just could not work due to depression and worry.I sit in the house all day crying,feeling sorry for myself. WHAT"S WRONG WITH ME?I have no will power left,no light at the end of the tunnel.I am sick of this stale life.I need friends....I need someone to help pull me out of this deep dark hole I'm falling into.

sad

I'm 33, ever since i was 15 i alienated all friends because i didnt want to associate with anyone who used any kind of drugs. None were left. I decided that i would just be alone for this life and hope for a next one to do things a little different, even though i dont really believe it. I became very lonely at 29, so lonely that i would be with anyone and accept any flaw, no matter what happened i wouldnt regret it because i wouldnt be alone anymore. I was with her for 3 years, it was a nightmare, and now i am alone again. I thought i would like being alone again but i am dying inside, i am completely non-emotional anymore and basically a dead version of myself. I left my job, have no money, wrecked my car and didnt even care, drove the wreck thinking i could just bungee everything, because who cares? no one.
I'm thinking of becoming an alcoholic and masturbate every day until i die, getting a worthless job and not even trying to get educated in any profession. I dont ever want kids because i know i wouldnt be a good father. I dont think i could commit suicide, but im beginning to understand it, and if i attempt it, i wont need a 2nd time. What is there worth living for, when you have nothing and no one, and unsure of what to do with yourself for however many days you have left?
I'm so insignificant, i feel like a mouse in a corner or lint under a couch cushion. Knowing that you all are also insignificant doesnt help my outlook, i know people been through very hard times, some didnt live through them, and even so, i feel like the saddest person on earth.

alone and depressed

I am 51 alone and sssooo depressed.I turned to the church but had no help from them.I did hear they are have complaints.I am now meditating which has helped me no end.I recomend it to any one it gives you a strange calmness and peice of mind.
I drank most of my life because I didnt have a job as I got arthritus in my hip.I live alone I have kids but only see them when they want.I would kill myself but havent the bottle to do it.
Times are getting hard in south wales every thing is going up in price.I have a car and that is the only enjoyment I have.
People here are comitting suicide one girl hung herself by a school men are throwing themselves in front of trains one threw hiself off a car parking building so sad.Another guy stabbed his family and then killed his self quite a few times this has happend lately.So many are loseing their jobs and I cant see it getting better any time soon.
I know there are others out there like me but I suppose it helps to type things down.Like I said meditating has helped some times up to an hour but it makes me feel at one with myself.I have made such a bad name with drinking that was ten years ago mind now I dont do nothing now but the damage has been done.I have had quite a few breakdowns as my upbringin wasnt the best been sexualy abused which hasnt helped my father beat me when ever he could my mother was also violent to us my sisters and I .My father though loved my sisters they have done well in life me crap.I feel I am just waiting for the day I become ill go to hospital and die like so many I know.Today if you havent money life doesnt seem worth living.IO eat loads of chocolate to make up the feeling of being lonely I suppose.I am not fat though quite skinny really.Any way thats my sad story.I bet there is millions like me but it seems I am the only one that is suffering

I don't care anymore if I live or die. Everything I do to better myself just seems pointless. Nothing makes me feel good about myself. I eat too much. I smoke too much pot. I gave up drinking to feel better about myself but I feel like if I drank I would feel better. I would kill myself if my dad told me he would kill himself if I ever did. I would rather not have him do that. So I guess I am a coward if I do kill myself and a coward if I don't. I smoke cigarettes bec I know if I do it long enough it will do the job I am too much of a vagina to do

i hate myself sometimes

I honestly don't know what to do with myself. I'm so lost. i have to pick university courses and i don't know what i want to do with my life, nor do i have the money to afford the courses. My parents are bankrupt. My parents yell at me constantly, they're not the greatest and have abused me and my siblings before, my mom once strangling my sister. I was also abused during both of my only relationships, my last boy friend claiming: " I will NOT accept you not having sex with me. You will want me eventually." I never wanted to do anything with him... i did ask him to stop, i made him promise that he wouldn't try anything, but he broke that promise. he also lied to me telling me he was a virgin only to tell me later that he's slept with 5 other girls, some unprotected, and one girl claims he raped her. He would never just leave me alone and take his hands off of me. when i went to see him i always tried to look my best and where something nice, but he would always tell me i don't wear anything cute. My other one would humiliate me in front of his friends, always made fun of my body telling me that my breasts are too small, that my hair is a mess, and he would tell me to fuck my twin and be his little slut-nurse. after I had seen both of them I always felt like i had to scrub their hands off of me. Like most girls my age, I'm pretty concerned about the way that i look. i usually try not to look in the mirror because I'm disgusted when i do. Every time I eat i feel guilty. I'v...

shed some light

Have no job, because I got laid off. no friends because I don't fit in with anyone, had a girlfriend 2 yrs ago, still in love with her. Currently in the process of going to trial for misdermeanors that the states making a lot of money off of me, in which i don't have. No one knows I exist, I feel both useless and lost. Why in the hell am i even here. I have no future plans, because I have no money or motivation. Why cant someone give me a million dollars like they do in the movies, or some guy off the street give me a brand new ferrari...absolutely terrified to talk to people, just because I don't want to get screwed. I can barely stand the sight of myself in the mirror, I feel abused and neglected by the world, only that everyone else is self centered and irresponsible. I live in a world filled with idiots, who some how have money, have jobs, have girlfriends, have friends. Maybe I should just say fuck it all and join them....I don't stoop low enough to get welfare because i don't believe in that, and yet for someone with nothing but a roof over my head i still have common courtest, responsibilities, and the courage to try and stay strong. I need something more than what I'm getting. I feel like I'm going crazy, I have so much to offer, and yet I'm on this website writing this stupid story. Maybe someday I'll become someone famous and be a big star...and still I bet I won't be noticed for who I really am. 18 yrs old, and already digging my own grave. Maybe I'm just to hard on myself...

My Life seems like nothing

I'm always unhappy, lonely and bored. And I have no idea why. I'm a shy person with few friends and high school feels like hell to me. I do have a best friend but even around her I still feel like crap. I'm fifteen, I'm not supposed to feel this way. I should be out having fun but instead I just sit in my room all day. I really don't understand what's wrong with me and I'm kind of worried because I have felt like this for years. Plus I also sorta have an eating disorder which maybe have something to do with how I feel. But I'm skinny and I do think I'm pretty. But for some reason I still feel like nothing.

I don't know

Hello to anyone who may be reading this,

I don't know where and how to begin, but allow me this moment to build up to my "frustrations" as I write along. And as you begin reading, please do not feel the need to continue on for I write solely to express my feelings and none other. I hope that I am able to commit as much of myself to this as I possibly could. Also, please note that I’m really not going to bother with my grammar as much so please don’t be judgmental.

I am twenty four years old. I am Asian but naturalized as a U.S. citizen sometime ago. I am currently trying to look for a job that I can actually do and perhaps enjoy. The problem of course is that I don't have a job experience here in the States so it's very difficult to find one. I'm only a high school graduate so I can't expect to find any job because I practically know nothing.

I've had a rough childhood growing up in the Philippines. I don't know my biological father and my biological mother died when I was eleven. I always feared and hated her though, since she was pretty rough on me (emotional, mental, and physical abuses). Then I lived with my grandparents and I went through a whole lot of intense manual, physical labour, from eleven to the age of sixteen. I thought life before was tough but this time I knew what it meant when people say “life is hell.” I’d experience almost every form of physical, mental, and emotional abuses possible (without physically dyin...

Patheticism

I am too old to be reasonably posting something on here....but it is how I feel. Ok, so I'm not THAT old, but I feel old. I have 2 wonderful children, who are what keep me going. But at night, after they are in bed, I just get so lonely and sad. My daughters father broke up with me a few weeks after I returned home with me son, who was in the hospital with a serious heart condition and ended up needing surgery. He totally blindsided me. We had just gotten engaged. Now I am either working or with me children. Which is fine, except that I never go out and don't really have any friends. I can't help feeling as if maybe I wouldn't feel this way if I had some friends to go out with sometimes, even if just for lunch or coffee. I really would like to meet new people, but part of me is scared. I feel like every time I meet someone new and build up a relationship, (whether a girl or guy, just friendship or a relationship), I end up completely alone a sad. I feel like they one day will just wake up and say to themselves "hey, I don't want to be her friend anymore". I really don't know what I am doing so wrong, or why this will happen after a few years. I'm not some mean or selfish person. I will give anything for someone I care about and consider a friend. I just wish I wasn't so alone.

I am a 30 year old male. It seems that the last year for me has been a culmination of one problem after another. To start, I haven't finished college yet. My girlfriend of seven years left me and went to another country to teach English. I am unemployed and back living at home after being independent for over a decade.

Before leaving, I lost my job on account of leaving college. I am close to graduation, but have to take community college classes out of pocket as I can no longer receive financial aid. Before I left my last city I was working at a liquor store. I was broke and had trouble paying the rent. My girlfriend (at the time) helped me pay but constantly called me a "mooch" and a "user" while she did it, despite the fact that I had financially helped her in the past.

Long story short, I quit my job to move with her to another city, at which point she decided on a whim to leave the country. She said she would return in a year and we should try a long distance relationship. Within a couple of months she had already slept with three different men. The blow of losing this relationship and feeling like such a loser destroyed my self confidence. To top it off, she gave me genital warts. Thanks.

I have criminal misdemeanors from 13 years ago (no trouble since) that prevent me from getting jobs. I realize my mistakes in the past are my own, but I still need to move forward. How many years must go by in this society before you can start again? I...

Lonely

I'm 20 . I live with my mom . the friends I've had has never been true . the only man I loved cheated on me and got another girl pregnant . now he's locked away . every since he left I've been diagnosed with anxiety , depression , and has always been bipolar . all I want is to have someone love me and hold me every night how I had for 5 years . I like other boys from time to time . They just don't seem to like me . I've tried so hard to prove I can be a wonderful girlfriend or possibly a wife to someone out there . I'm tired of waiting patiently tho I do have time . I just want someone to be mine and to belong to someone . Tired of being lonely and depressed . being suicidal is not good at all . I hate feeling like suicide is the best way out . in high school ppl called me weird everyday . I feel that I'm a food person just different from literally everyone . nobody accepts me for me . I feel like a disappointment to me family because I haven't don't anything with my life . ): it seems like my life got way worse when I graduated . never thought I would have graduated . Mom or nobody had faith that I would . that's the only thing I have to be proud of . So many bills already & those are so serious they cause I big part of my suicide thoughts . it seems so easy to end it & have no worries ever again . But my mom says after death we live eternity . I don't want to spend forever in hell shit I'm already here and want to end this pain why make it worse .

Yeup

Well my life has lost all hope my car is crap my family is insufferable literally the only thing in my life is my job and I hate that I really do the only reason I like going to work is that I can get away from my mother and her boyfriend between work and school I manage to get some home work done but it's barley enough to pass the only nice thing in my life is my iPod and that's become my life ps I had to steal it from my brother I live in the middle of nowhere the nearest human contact is 8 miles away I'm so poor that dirt laughs at me I have no friends literally none I had things going for me once but thats been totaled but what the hell life's a bitch and I can't get high so I might as well die my bitch of an ex girlfriend made it it her mission to make sure I stay single by telling every girl at my school that I beat her and choked her even though I haven't laid a hurtful hand on any woman in my life theres a woman I can't stop thinking about but I don't know how she feels about me every time I try to talk to her she ignores me I know there's alot of things wrong with me I have a bad back a quiet personality and I'm always uncomfortable around people and I couldn't hold a conversation to save my life and that's just the tip of the iceberg but that doesn't mean I should be forced in to anonymity by all around me I truly hate waking up every day I usually wake up 2 hours before my alarm and I just lay there hoping I'll just die but of corse I don't and of corse I drag...

My life sucks, and so do I

I somewhat recently have moved a very long way from home. I can't find a job. I can't even get one at a fast food place, I've tried. I live off the money that I made from my other job, which is running out. I don't know what I am going to do when it runs out. I will be homeless.
Really, after a couple months of trying, you start to get really disheartened and depressed. It's tough hearing "no" umpteen times a week. So recently, I haven't even been trying. I have pretty much given up. I wake up, play some video games, watch some TV, and go to sleep. I'm just trying to stretch my money out as long as it can possibly be stretched.
"What about friends and family," you say?
"Well, this is why I suck," I say.
My family is great. They are well off for the most part. Middle middle class, very normal. If I asked them, they would let me stay with them until I got back on my feet, as long as it took. But I won't.
"Now why the fuck would you do that?" you are probably wondering.
Well, I have lied to them every step of the way. I told them I was moving because of a job opening. They don't know that I was ever fired. They don't know that I am not currently working, and haven't been for nearly a year. I'm not going to tell them, I have too much pride.
What I will do is continue on the path I am going on. I am so weak minded that I would rather financially (and likely otherwise) destroy myself than ask for help. I am so weak minded that I am not even going to...

my life sucks

My life sucks. My husband of 19 years took off 2 months after the birth of our last child. He doesn't know what he wants to do for the rest of his life. That was really code for "I'm screwing my whore and have been the whole time you were pregnant." Our divorce is now final. It really messed me up. I spent some time in a crazy outpatient program because I was/am suicidal. I work full time and am currently on corrective action due to poor performance. I can't afford to lose my job! I can barely pay the bills now. My mother helps with the kids but j know she is tired also and could use a break. I don't know what to do. I am so exhausted and apathetic about everything. I am always in a horrible mood because I am filled with so much rage. I'm afraid I will be alone forever.

i don't know

My life just sucks right now, no idea why. Just all of a sudden it hit me. My life is just not interesting anymore.. no one special in my life anymore. They all move away, I don't know why. The most interesting part of my day today was walking my dog.. don't know what to do with myself anymore. Haven't dated in over 4 years, never was truly in love, don't know what it feels like. Liked this one guy, but that didn't work out. Nothing ever works out, so it's not really a surprise. I just want something to live for.

Just another lost cause

I'm 35 years old and I'm a loser in all aspects of life. I have a failed marriage, i'm failing as a father. I can't find work. I can't find happiness or love. I tried talking no one will talk to me. I'm kind, thoughtful, genuine and I have respect for women. So what the hell is wrong with me. Well from what i've been told is that i'm good looking but I don't believe that. I just wish I had the balls to pop all my meds and go to sleep for good. Life sucks. This is just as bad as being a vegetable in a hospital, maybe worse. I pray that i'm a victim of a accident or a mugging or burglary and just be a victim to get off this shitty ass planet. I HATE MY LIFE.