I feel like the past 6 years God has been using me like bath tissue to wipe his ass crack. Why? What did I do wrong? I try to be a good person. I treat people well, keep my head up when shit comes my way, and keep my eyes on the prize when people try to push me down. People from who knows where come along and give me shit like I did something to them. I try not to let it get to me, but sometimes it's just too much. I just keep moving forwards, putting one foot in front of the other, hoping things may turn for the better. But the facts of my life remain the same.
People tell me things will get better. People tell me that I'll get this and that and something great will happen, but shit never happens. I wish people would just shut the hell up with their smug advice and empty words. I am so sick of hearing about it. And no I can't be thankful or joyful for what I already have. About the only thing I have to be thankful for is that I'm not homeless. Yes I do recognize that things could be worse, but my life seems like a ticking time bomb, not something to be joyful about. I really don't know what I'm doing wrong.
I do realize that when bad things happen it doesn't mean I caused them. Okay, but being kept down like this for so long is frustrating. What is this all about? I don't get it, God. As far as I can see, the rest of my life isn't going to be great anyway, but could you at least allow me to function normally like everyone else? Why do you keep giving me this shit? | |
Take this knowledge and re-evaluate your life.
but there is no big plan.
Yes they blamed God. But you dont know their circumstances.
They have come here to vent and let out their despair..
rather than criticizing, show support
Why should I follow God when he hates me. He is showing me that I am not worth anything.
I need to come to terms that he doesn't want me to follow his word. If that is what he wants i have to be ok with that.
As far as god, nice try church, get your money from some other brainwashed sap.
THIS IS JUST A SMALL PORTION OF THE THINGS THAT I'VE BEEN THROUGH.
I truly believe that Lord led me here.
For the past few years, I have also been going thru a very difficult time in my life and can tell you, I haven't always handled it in the best way ,so I understand your struggles. But I didn't come here to talk about myself.
There is a very common misconception that if bad things happen to us that God is angry with us or He does not love or care. Nothing could be farther from the truth.
When Jesus Christ, the sinless Son of God came to this Earth to pay the ultimate sacrifice on the cross for my sins, your sins-the sins of the whole world, He chose to begin his Earthly ministry not among the rich and well to do, or the high ranking pious holier than thou ministers and priests of that time period. He chose to start it with the sick, the dying, the poor, the prostitutes and the lowly of heart. Does this mean He doesn't also love the rich and the high minded?
No, not at all, but in His infinite wisdom He knew that their hearts were filled with power, greed and pride that they would not listen to His words because they would have to admit that they also were sinners.
There is only one thing that God hates and that is sin and He will not allow it in His presence.
Lucifer better known as Satan used to be the covering angel for the throne of God but he rebelled, he wanted to be God, he didnt want to be under Gods authority so he was cast out of heaven along with 1/3 of the other angels that also rebelled. God does not hate you but Satan does. The Lake of fire was originality the punishment for him and his fellow cohorts. Hell was never intended for a place for us.
Now Adam and Eve had everything they needed. God provided all. They only had one rule, God allowed them to eat of any other tree in the garden except one. Angels do not have the choice of free will, but we do. Satan hated this fact and hated Gods new creation and he also knew what his fate was and wanted to pass that fate on to Adam and Eve. He lured Eve very subtly I might add, to eat fruit from the one and only tree that was forbidden, and she brought some to Adam. God is Holy and again can not have sin in his presence so here in lay the problem.
When Adam and Eve disobeyed, thier sin broke the relationship between them and God, (spiritual death) and had to be cast out of the Garden, and now have to experience physical death as well. All sin was passed down from generation to generation.
This does not mean that God hates us.
We have been so programed from youth , that if we do something bad that God is going to drop kick us off of the planet.
Case in point, when I was a little girl, I was terrified of anyone dressed up in a Santa suit. (incidentally if you rearrange the letters in his name it spells Satan).
Have you listened to the words to the song Santa clause is commimg to town? I was not excited in the least bit to have some rolly polly dude that could see me while I was sleeping, climb down my chimny with a nap sack on his back that threated me to be good or else! In the book of Romans 6 vs 22, the Bible tells us: For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord. God sent his sinless son to take the penalty for our sins, and rose from the grave fully alive to show that physical death and spiritual death was conquered. Only a God who loves us dearly would do that. His love for us is without measure.
The Bible also says: l (Jesus) am the way, the truth and the life: no man cometh to the Father but by Me.
There is nothing we can do to save ourselves,
But God commendeth (to show, prove, to establish) his love toward us in that while we were yet sinners Christ died for us. Romans 5 vs 8.
Hurt, pain and suffering, these things are not caused by God, they are the result of sin. But God gives us the choice.
Gods plan is very simple:
1. Realize that we are sinners and and that there is nothing we can do to save ourselves.
2. Believe that God sent his only Son Jesus, to die on the cross to take the penalty for our sins, through His death, burial, and resurrection from the dead, to save us from our sin.
3. Ask Him to save you. And He will!
It is just that simple! Nothing .
The Lord is not slack concerning His promise, as some men count slackness but is long suffering to us-ward, not willing that ANY should perish, but that ALL should come to repentance. 2nd Peter , 3 :9.
Wonderful the matchless grace of Jesus , greater than all my sin. How shall my tongue describe it ,where shall my praise begin? Taking away my burden , setting my spirit free.
For the wonderful grace of Jesus, reaches me.
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