I have had the unfortunate distinction to be born fat and ugly. I am also a girl. It is true what they say about "everything you learn in life you learn in kindergarten." I learned that fat, ugly girls have no place in this society. I am not even one of the "lucky" ones that has some kind of talent, whether it be, brains, artistic ablity, or just a pretty face on a chubby body. I have no natural talent for anything. I know there are guys out there who feel like they are ugly, but there is nothing compared to being an ugly girl. At least guys are taken at face value whether they turn out to be gay or straight or whatever. But a "hot chick" still isn't considered hot unless she has altered her appearance with make-up. It really sucks to be a girl. There is no amount of make-up that will make my face pretty.
Kids I went to school with would have nothing to do with my because I wasn't pretty or athletic or talented in some other way. I was never seen wearing the right clothes either, because I got my sister's hand-me-downs. It was a really lonely childhood with no friends. My only friends in life have been my pets.
I spent my childhood being compared to my older sister. Mother would always say "that's nice honey, but look what Sister did!" or simply, "why can't you be more like Sister?" It was not the motivator that my mother obviously thought it would be, because why would I continue to try if I knew I would never succeed? Needless to say, I have never had a good relationship with her.
This all leads me to where I am right now. I am single and 37. Never been married, hell, I've never even had a BF. The only kinds of jobs I have ever been able to get are crappy, low paying, seasonal or temporary jobs. I am the only sibling in my family to acquire a post high school education. Nothing fancy, just a two year degree (AAS) in accounting at a community college, and I still can't get a decent paying job. So all you suckers out there who think higher education is the answer, I say it is a waste of time and money. Any place I ever worked where there was an opportunity to get promoted (and those places were very few) I was always shot down. Can't have ugly people moving up the ladder, I guess. My best tax year was $25K and that was a couple years ago. I've never made enough money or had steady employment to rent a place. I know I will never be a home owner and I will never retire. I can't even seem to get a job at Walmart.
I tried to kill myself a few years ago and obviously I failed at that as well. I am a true believer that life is pointless. There is no reason for my existence. I'm not smart enough at math and science to be a "rocket" scientist and change the world by curing some disease or inventing something that will change the world. I am not talented enough to go on any talent show and sing or dance my way to success. And I'm not pretty enough to have successful men tripping over themselves lining up to be my spouse. I have nothing. I am nothing. If I had a gun I would end it right now. |
Number two regarding employment, the economy sucks big time right now for many, may people. But eventually things will improve. Is there something you want to do, like become an accountant? You won't get there tomorrow, but you can look into what qualifications you need to get hired and get the necessary training. I would be thinking long term right now, because as a single woman in her late 30's its time to start saving for retirement. Nobody is going to take care of you but you. So you need a plan to make more money.
I used to make a good living; this economy has really hurt me but I won't give up. I believe in myself and I think that's one of your problems, you have very little self esteem. Of course nobody is going to believe in you if you don't believe in yourself. Self confidence and self love are important to success in life. Self pity won't get you very far. Make a plan and start making changes!
i also believe that although you complian about society and its vain existence. you are probably the same. you want that handsome successful man but for the same reason your only looking at them they are not looking at you. not saying you need to lower your standards but i am sure there are men that want you. and i am not saying that all men want the typical model type (we know most do).
but i bet that there is a man that is hard on his luck and thinks noone wants him. he is slightly over weight not winning a beauty contest nice guy. he walks right past you and you dont give him a thought.
if you guys get 2gther you could do better have a family be happy.
ask yourself what u really want a happy family. u could be a foster mother and give a nice home to a kid. while making a lil more money.
I could go all religous on you ...GOD loves you. I love you to an extant. Your family loves you in there weird way. go to church etc.
or a beautiful rich husband is the only remedy 4 ur happiness then lose weight, get ur hair did, buy a fuck me out fit,start hanging out at clubs and gyms.
In that span of a paragraph of less than 100 words you basically summed up everything that makes up the difference between men and women in the world today.
Congrats
life isn't always about being the best at something, despite what people might have you believe. just do what's in your heart, even if it isn't good. the best of the best were garbage when they started.... and even if you don't make it to the best of the best, at least you let out what was in your heart. there is no better use of your time.
She's now married to a great, sweet Mexican guy who treats her very well. Meanwhile, I who am skinny, funny, and dress well am married to a big, ugly jerk with no job.
Don't forget that confidence is attractive. So is a sense of humor. You can be cool, funny, smart, and sexy no matter what you look like.
Have you looked for any overweight less attractive guys?
please hit me up if you ever feel alone omegamarcusman@gmail.com
And I can trust him to always put me first, he is always going to be happy to see me, NEVER EVER steal from me (unless its some food he pooches) and always want to be around me just to be around me.
Sure he will pass away long before me, but I will always remember him and rescue another dog and have the same relationship with them.
Dogs are the closest we get to heaven in this life. Embrace them as much as possible.
You only have yourself to blame for being a fatty! People saying it's a disease are just fucking LAZY. When you lose weight it will give you the confidence you need to get your game on. Until the. Your stuck blogging to even more fat idiots.
Sort out your weight and I PROMISE you'll sort out the rest!
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