LIFE SUCKS : Independent circumstances

Life sucks

I used to have a nice family, but then everything got destroyed. I used to live in Germany, now I live in a pile of shit; Pakistan. All the bullshit in this country, the illiteracy, the hostile people, are now haunting me. Everyday my parents have a major fight and I am the one who tries to keep them happy and content. I also fear that my father is an extremist, and that he will kick me out of the house if I don't obey him. My father's salary has decreased by three quarters and it is because of his religious obligations. I constantly feel like committing suicide, my sister already attempted it once, but I saved her. I am 17 and still have not been to any party, and am still a virgin. My father even tries to keep me away from my only enjoyment which is football and girls. Even though I am brilliant in academics, my father and my mother fail to appreciate me and tell me I'm stupid. My father calls me a piece of shit. I ran away from home once, but realised it isn't safe in this country.

not a california girl

It sucks being the ugly one in the family who inherits all the crappy genes (crappy metabolism, gaping pores, butt like spongebob, eyes too close together so I actually resemble that squid from spongebob, arms like a gorilla). And I'm a 22 y/o female stuck living in an area filled with hot, gorgeous imported girls who wear Chanel make up and bebe clothes. Thanks to my low self esteem I ended up with a guy who is no good for me. He used to be physically abusive and now is only emotionally abusive. He is controlling and it feels horrid to be treated like shit and the only way to calm myself down is to hit myself over the head repeatedly because it calms me down. I want to leave but before I can I need to finish school. Our relationship has gotten better since he works nights and I'm at school all morning. We also have a baby together who has not witnessed how awful our relationship is and who I plan on taking and running as soon as I graduate. Anyways back to my hideousness.... I think my ugliness held me back in life. As soon as some loser high school dropout asked me out when I was a teenager I jumped at the chance because no guy ever even had an interest in me. What sucks is even that guy has never called me beautiful. He has gawked at all those beautiful girls in their stilletos shopping for lettuce and whenever we go out he is always looking at them. Before we started dating he would comment on how gorgeous a girl was or whenever we watched movies he would gush over h...

im still young

I'm only sixteen and for the most part Ive had a great life. But not at the moment. I know the beginning of my story may seem not bad at all, but keep reading. A few months ago my girlfriend of 2 years broke up with me and I still love her. At the same time my parents began routinely fighting and are now getting a divorce. While this was happening, the biggest role model and best friend I have in life, my brother, became addicted to heroine. Eventually he was put in treatment but recently relapsed and got a DUI while at it. My family that used to be so happy is falling apart. My best friend outside of my family tells me that he considers killing himself everyday and is thinking up new ways to do it. This puts me in a hard position and I can't persuade him to get help. My other friend Dev died last week in a car accident. My nest closest friend Brian, was diagnosed with cancer in his rectum a few days ago. I try my hardest to cry but i can't even force myself. All my emotions are inside me but i have no way to get them out. I thinking I am becoming depressed and drugs have become more appealing. My life is pretty fucked up at this point.

FML

My parent and I went to the US on a tourist visa when I was 12. My parents ended up staying and working. I started going to school and felt like an outcast and out of place. I didnt speak english, therefore I didnt talk to anyone in school, I just sat there with my head down. My parents didnt have much money at the time, so I was wearing cheap clothes, and I could hear how others would talk about how poor and weird I am. I had zero confidence, zero motivation to do good in school, and no friends, I was bullied and made fun of. Finally I meet someone in one of my classes, we later became very good friends. He was the only person I actually spoke to in middle school. After school I sat at home all day and played runescape that was for 2 years in middle school, then came high school. 9-10th grade I was like a ghost in school, nobody knew I even existed, i and developed bad acne...and that guy I meet in middle school didnt want introduce me to his friends he hung out with, because i guess he was embarrassed to know me, again i played runescape to kill time, I was depressed and felt like a total loser, while everyone was partying, dating, having fun, I was at home all day everyday. In 11th grade I decided to change that, I went to the gym, I started talking to everyone, asking questions in class, and got noticed. I got my driver license and started hanging out with my new friends, everything changed to better, i got my first kiss, first gf, got laid, I felt great, finally i...

lifes hell

well i was raised in a christian home my mom and dad always loved me but then a few years back my dad passed away and its all been down hill from their my dad was a vet so we got social security but when he died in was subtracted by alot but i kept going on figured things would work out went to a new school made some new friends things where starting to look up when my moms car got reposed not as big i know but i have a point we got a new car i bounced back things where looking up again and thts where i am now just found out today the company where my mom works is going bankrupt now well have to live on next to nothing im not mad bad things happen im mad nothing right ever does i try to be a good kid but no matter what it always ends with my life goin back down the drain i know i may sound whiney and i probly am im just confused with no one to have my back

I can't save or protect them

I am despondent. I cannot save or protect my wife of 21 years from some unknown, unnamed medical problem. She's been ill for 3+ years. She had an abdominal ultrasound today. They found something, but haven't told us what yet. I don't know if she is dying or will recover. No one seems to know. The only constant is that she is in pain daily.

I am powerless.

My 18 year old special needs child is being accused of harassment by a 17 year old special needs child and her mother, who also has some type of anxiety disorder. It has progressed to legal action on the part of the mother. I have no idea how to fix this. I am powerless to protect my son, who (according to corroborated sources within the school administration) has done nothing wrong.'

He doesn't understand; nor do I.

I am powerless.

The gentleman who has sat next to me at work for the past 5 1/2 years and who has functioned as a mentor for me died today.

All this (and MORE!!!) happened in the past five days. I am lost. I am powerless.

Life sucks.

to be torn apart feels horrible

i feel so empty so depressed all the time.. im praying to god everyday for a better life but nothing from that.. one month ago my dog was poisoned and died.. it changed my whole life it was only 4 months old and i took the blame because i took it for a walk and it swallowed something got poisoned and died.. 2 weeks ago my grandma died of cancer it broke my heart i never knew what its like to lose somebody you love but now i know and it feels horrible i just cant believe that shes really gone i feel terrible watching my dad and grandfather wearing black clothes it tears me apart.. my mom is not feeling okay today her blood pressure has never been this low.. im writing this with my eyes full of tears and im so scared that i can lose someone else i love again.. i cant take this anymore im just 17 and i know that life goes on but i just cant forget the things that happened in the past.. im so freakin scared of everything.. god please help me and my family!

Cant see the full part of the glass anymore :(

Hello im only 23 and in the last year my life really went downside...imagine this, about 2 years ago i was in 2nd year of collage, was doing ok with money and stuff was in a good relationship, basicaly had no worries and i was really optimistic about life and the path i was on. Last year on 22 Oct my dad died then things started to go downfall, i was depressed and couldnt take my exams so i missed a year from collage, my dad left me some money so i started a small business cause i need a income...my school is expensive + all other bills needs to be payed. I pay rent now, bills and thats pretty much it, my business is not going anywhere and every day i see how i fall a little more while the money my dad left me are almost over. I cant afford to go back to school cause its to expensive [i am a student at programming enginnering, better say was :( ] So 2 years ago i was dreaming of becoming a programmer, get a nice job and figure things out one step at a time but life kiked me in the head and my only option now is to close my business, get a job that requires only a highschool degree and on top of that i cant finish my collage. Its so unfair, got so many problems...dont know what to do srsly.

So for all of you that read this, thank God or whoever you belive in, or not, that life got you in one problme at a time, it didnt give you a taste of acomplishment and then take all you got while u witness your own downfall and you cant do nothing about it :(

Dont worry im not emotionaly disturbed, i wont kill myself or do something stupid like rob a bank but except trying to survive while these "best years of my life" pass me i cant do anything else. I really dont care if my life will turn better when im 40 -50 years old its to late then...

fucked from the start

so my father dies when im only 10 months old. my mother decides she wants to move to the united states. we do on a 3 month visa. i was only 1 year old at the time. we go to newyork. my mother is barely 21 and decides she'd rather enjoy her 20's than stick by her son and be a good mother. im left to be raised by my grandmother and whatever babysitter they can afford to put the burden of my life upon. fast forward 15 years and we live in georgia now. mother is now an overprotective jesus freak. i cant get a job because my visa ran out 14 years ago and am considered "ineligible to work in the united states". That means no drivers license either. Stranded at home and BEGGING for rides from friends when they can spare one at their goddamn convinience. im a very independant person and having to rely on others causes me alot of frustration, stress, and anxiety. i turn 16, puberty hits and my face breaks out like a ticking time bomb. mom had the same in her teens, so geneticaly im fucked. puberty+stress+shitty genes+being to fucking poor to see a doctor+mother not caring enough to provide as much as a little knowledge or support+poor mans diet=total face fuck. i mean these werent just pimples, but deep rooted, puss filled balls from fucking hell. even without picking at them they managed to fuck me up completely. im 20 now and have horrble scars all over my face. i cant even go outside without people GAWKING at me. peoples faces are what greets the world, its what people remembe...

Life SUCKS!!!

I am an International college student in US now. Because my parents had applied green card for me, and the application was rejected in early 2010, and both of them went back to my home country leaving me alone in States. I can't leave the States for home, and have to keep continuing being enrolled in college even if I felt that I am often stuck by serious OCD, even depression sometimes. I felt so lonely now, because for me it's difficult to make friends here because the cultural differences, and also I felt so confused about my future and felt that there's no hope. I wish I can lead an ordinary life just like other students in my college, or like my high school classmates, but I guess it's just impossible. Things just happen, and I guess the best way is to accept that this is your life, and you should deal with it, and wait until the day that everything becomes better.

I'm sick of everything

Well, hello.
I'm Elena and I'm 14. I'm actually from Romania, a shitty country of Europe, but 3 months ago, I moved to Italy with my mom.
I left everything behind, my friends, my life, my home. EVERYTHING!
And today was my first day of school here. They are all so cold, and racists, I don't know how I'm gonna' make it throuh the year.
It's pretty hard to speak and learn in another language, and it's not like I'm fluent in italian.
I have no friends here, except for my boyfriend who is also romanian but he lives in another town so it's not like he can be here for me when I need him, and stuffs like that.
I know it sounds pretty lame, but in reality it's hard...
I miss everything.
You know, before I left Romania, I looked back, and I said to myself that it's going to be much better, and I left. I just left. My father is still in Romania, cause my parents are kinda divorced, and my mother has a boyfriend here; and every single person who really mattered in my life, is there. They are all home.
In fact, home is a word that I can't spell anymore. I'm just in a place that my mom likes to home call , but I can't.
I'm all alone. I have nobody. No friends, no nothing. And all I can do is to cry myself to sleep, get up, realise that every morning is a mistake, put a mask and a fake smile on my face, make it through the day, and repeat.
I'm not sure how long I can do this.
I used to make plans, to have dreams, but everything is gone. It's like I'm dead. I can't imagine my future, I don't even want one.
I'm not sure if there are persons who will understand me but... I just needed to talk to somebody.

my life in a nut shell

I am 30 years old.I had a dead end job ..got fired and cannot find work.i have seen one of my best friends get shot and killed by my other good friend on accident.my BEST friend just died at 28 back in april...my step dad which was like a father to me died cuz of drugs.i was engaged for 3 years she got pregnant and the baby ended up not being mine.i have anxiety issues so bad if i don't take my meds i feel like i am having a heart attack.I just wanted to post on this cuz alot of people have it rough and maybe i can relate to alot of these posts.i also got into coke really bad after my step dad died..luckily i been clean for 7 years...that is really one of the good things about my life..that and i have a supportive mother that lets me stay at her house cuz i can't find a job to save my life.Things usually get better in time for most people but i'm waiting for my life to get back on track..when i was 17 i had a full time job..a good job and had an app...now i am 30 no job living at home..i don't know just thought i'd share

I keep hitting rock bottom...

I graduated Magna Cum Laude, top 10% of my class from the number 1 college in the country for what I went to school for. I worked for 6 months in my profession making good money until January of 2009 when I was laid off. The day I got the pink slip was the same day I made an offer on my first house, needless to say I didn't go through with purchasing that house. I hadn't been working long enough to qualify for unemployment benefits. 2 weeks after being laid off, and coming home from my neighbors funeral I found a notice of foreclosure on my apartment door, my landlord was being foreclosed on, I had to move. I found another apartment, which wasn't beautiful, but it was a roof over my head. 6 months into being laid off my partner lost his job. We were both unemployed. I was forced to get a job as a bank teller making one third what I had been making. My job sucked, yet I managed to get promoted within 6 months to a banker position. That job was so unbelievably awful I was barely able to get out of bed in the morning, and cried everyday in the bathroom at work. I found another teller job 3 months later at another bank. A year and a half later I am still a bank Teller, now making 2/3 what I was making first out of school. I recently moved into a rental house... the sewage backed up overflowing my shower with raw smelly sewage 2 weeks into moving in, on my birthday. Then the sink and washing machine backed up 2 weeks after that. Last week my partner got offered a job back up north, he took it. Today, I came home in a rain storm to find the roof leaking in 3 rooms onto our belongings. We are broke. We cant afford to move, and we are stuck in this slum. I think about killing myself everyday. This may not sound so bad. But these are just the high points, all the little mishaps and bumps in the road seem to go unnoticed these days, the road is nothing but potholes.

FML!!

Everday! I'm sad. The government won't give me a green card and I can't do nothing! My parents work there asses off everyday and I can't help. All my friends drive a car and have a license and I can't get one. My mom hasn't seen her mom for 8 years. We can't go back to our home country because we wont be able to come back. Now my workers permit is expired i cannot even get a job because they wont renew it. A lot of people in American don't know what they have....American Citizenship. I do good in school, my GPA is 4.3 My rank was under 100 out of 800 people. My lawyer says something will happen just wait but everytime I ask people they think she is trying to trick me.. All i do is cry, i can't do nothing! OMFG!!!! I can't sucide cause i dont want to leave me parents behind. if they weren't here i'd be long gone!

My life sucks so bad; its so pathetic that I cant do nothing..

My life sucks...Im trying to get a green card in United States but I can't. My parents work there butts off for us (me and brother). I can't see my dad working like this; I literally can't do anything but wait for the government. ALL my friend have a drivers license and I don't. All I do is listen to songs and cry....Life sucks so bad and all these people around me don't know what they have; Citizenship. My case is going on, there is like some percent I might get my greencard... I wish someone could be me for one day, I want to see how they feel...It's like im trapped in the country that people call 'Free Country'. I wish the government had a heart.I didn't do anything wrong? I didn't kill anyone, I didn't... why me? :( My parents havn't seen their own parents for 8 years...Imagine that guys...That's just MESSED UP!!!!!!!!! MAN! FUCK MY LIFE!

I hit rock bottom

2011 the year that australia got flooded, yes we was affected and me and my dad spend days after days and week to get the shop up and running. Our insurance didn't help us cause they say we didn't buy floor affected so we had no choose but to ask the government yet we waited and not so long we had the shop up and running still we waited for the government money. i thought life was getting better as we stared our normal life again but not so long after we hear a bad news saying one of my dad family member passed away. he was shock after that days I never knew that my life was going to be hell and that my life will never be the same. That night my dad had a stroke and he also Passed away leave me and a family that now I have to take care and work to proved for them and now at this movement as we got through all this, one mouth later my stupid brother got in an car crash which everyone was ok but it was a 6 car pile up on to each other. I thought everything going to be ok but they say we forgot to pay the bill during my dad passing and now I don't have any idea what to do and how I going to get the money to pay for the car crash an I'm only 20 years old I feel like giving up I don't know how much more I can take I just don't k ow if I can hold my head up hight and face this is this what god want to push me to the edge to the braking point, can someone please tell me what to do

Where is the love

As much as my life is sucks it is an interesting life to live.I am the end product of match-making and inter-racial marriage,and both my parents are of mix parentage too and grown up from a different country and different lifestyle.Both of my parents came from a parents that have a multiple marriages, hence was not brought with proper parents and lacked of love. I am mixed with four different races, but my parents had make a big mistake in choosing one race and a religion for me,written in my birth certificate, as to follow the rule of the country,where they both met and got married.My life was a disaster in trying to be the race that appear in my ID, which was not even the race of my parents.It sucks to live in a country that demand to prove your identity with a race and religion and it is more sucks that I have no power to object to it as I was a baby.I was a confused child as my parents fought alot, my fucking mother started to humiliate my father races, and they lives seperate life,my father go back to his original country,I have to grow up in a two different country with a different lifestyles.I hate to be with my fucking mother as she had abused me alot,especially when she nagging and ranting like a mad woman, forcing me to devot to the religion that she had chosen for me.Unlike my father,he doesn't live based on any religion,his life was just to live and work hard to survive, and at the same time to appreciate and respect nature,as nature in return will be kind...

An Immigrant's Tale.

I have a fucked up life.... When I was 6 years old, my parents forced my to move from the country that I, to this day, LOVE to the country that I to this day HATE. When I arrived to this new country, I spoke not one word of English. To make it worse, when I had to enroll is school, I was constantly discriminated and made fun of because of my skin color, and the fact that I was a big boy. I got my first girlfriend when I was in 8th grade. It lasted 3 days. I never had too many friends, only back in my native country did I have tons of friends, but even so I only got to visit for about one month or two months each year. Anyway, I was made fun of skin color and stuff until I was a Freshman in high school, but I got over it. I lost weight, grew up, etc and girls call me the hottest guy in my entire High school ( sounds cocky, but I really do look like a super model ). But even though I look good, I still can't get a girlfriend because girls call me awkward. Last girlfriend I had lasted 2 months ( Record - btw Junior now ). Parents wise- never really talk to them and the only time I talk to my dad is when we fight and I fucking hate him. I've only had sex once, and I felt like a GOD DAMN loser. Religion wise, sure Gods exists, but he finds it so entertaining to fuck people over, this world is so fucking unfair, and he just sits back and laugh...I suffer from depression and have constant thoughts of attempting suicide. But what hurts most is when your friends don't drink from the same cup as you because of your skin color ( I'm slightly tan - in homeland, I'm considered white ).
Oh well, thats my life for you, I read some of the other stories, hope you people's lives get better.

i had a sheltered, western upbringing until about the age of 13. i live in australia currently, but i lived in the US for 12 years, ive travelled the world, ive been to 12 different schools and im only 16.
adjusting to all these moves became hard. kids at school knew me as a brain or a freak, i tried my best to fit in, but couldnt fit in anywhere. if i ever made a group of friends, they constantly bitched about me and ended up humiliating me in the end, if it wasn't that, i was eating my lunch alone in the bathrooms. i didn't understand, i am just like them, why do they pick on me?
when i moved to australia, i was thrown into a girls school. basically, i didnt fit in because i wanted to fit in so badly, i just wished someone could actually like me rather than what i was used to. girls started bitching about me, sometimes they'd harass me and i started having panic attacks at school. i left the school after a year. i moved to another school. i didnt bother trying to fit in at this one, that plan backfired too. i ended up having to eat my lunch under the stairs, avoiding everybody, praying that one day one of them might talk to me and accept me as a friend. that was until i met hallie. she was rebellious, funny, and interesting, but also had extreme problems, including a growing drug addiction. being both misfits, we got close.
hallie introduced me smoking cigarettes, drinking, smoking pot and LSD. i was excited and willing to take all of them considering it w...

Roller Coaster LIfe

My fucking life has been inbalanced ever since I was a toddler. My mom left me after a few years she brought me into this world and dad wasn't really around for most of my childhood to teenage life.

I fled Vietnam with my aunt when I was 5 years old. I arrived in America in 1986. From then, I was pretty much living with different relatives every few years. My relatives welcomed me to their home but I never felt that equality in their homes.

With lack of love and attention from my family I begin to lose my direction in life. I begin to hang around with the wrong crowds and begin to commit crimes in my early teens. Robbery , bugulary , battery , shooting, selling drugs ... I've done it before I even turned 18. I did what it took to provide and proof myself to friends and the streets.

After I did some jail for a crime I got caught up with. I then realized that I was going no where and had nobody.. no strong support and I was especially sick with the life I was living. I always felt angry no matter when, where or who I was surrounded by.

I met my girlfriend , now wife at the age of 18. With her encouragements, I Then begin to self rehabilitate myself and got a legitimate job. I did my best to do right but for some reason I would always be surrounded by negative people. Even my wife's family was ghetto. I always felt that negative energy... I always surrounded by drug dealers and dope-fen. Almost all of the people I knew then used drugs.....