| | Posted by Cindy at January 14, 2012 |
I don't even know where to start,so I will start with the beating I took from my husband in October which landed me in the hospital.He is under house arrest at another location.I lost my job because I just could not work due to depression and worry.I sit in the house all day crying,feeling sorry for myself. WHAT"S WRONG WITH ME?I have no will power left,no light at the end of the tunnel.I am sick of this stale life.I need friends....I need someone to help pull me out of this deep dark hole I'm falling into. |
| | Posted by sad, mad and terrified at January 13, 2012 |
My husband of 12 years has getting drunk and hit me for years. He gets away with this. The police could care less. Justice is a joke. How can he do this? We have three beautiful children together. He says he loves me and them. He has knocked me out numerous times. When I say I am leaving he threatens harm to family and friends. I am scared of him. He got us kicked out of our apartment earlier this year, he was taking my money for drugs. Now we are in his mothers house. Which is really no better, she is also a violent drunk also. She stands over him and tells him to kill me. Is there anyone out there who cares? How can he think this is love? Any advise? |
| | Posted by anonymous at January 13, 2012 |
Someone says life is a game. I always disagree with this statement.
But now i see they are right. I am 21 years old and married woman. Me and my husband were too quick to get married. And since one month after the wedding we always argue. Its like he donot love me anymore. He just donot care about anything. Its been now 3 weeks he didn't speak to me. He always came home late (like after midnight) and he just ignored me and i donot know why. I am really really confused. |
| | Posted by unknown at January 13, 2012 |
Right now I hate my life. I have a boyfriend that thinks im dirt under his feet. He thinks its alright to kick me and hold a gun to my head. When ever we argue its alwways my fault. I was a smart high school student, had a shcolarship, went to school for a semester and dropped out because my boyfriend did not want to live there. I am living with him and if I leave him i have NO PLACE to go.
He has a mother who expects us to do everything day and night for her, like shes a godsend or something. He really needs to get off the nipple. I see why he is so angry having to live with someone like her, she is the same way, always hollaring and commanding people around.
I am so tired of my life right now, i am constantly broke, I want to go back to school, my boyfriend sucks, hes so mean and says such mean things to me that i feel like i am not worth anything. I cant leave because were am i to go?? and If i leave he will know were i am. he is all i know, i am to scared to leave but i want to, really want to. If i could I wish I could make him cry his little eyes out so he knows how it feels. Even when I cry he feels no guilt, he always tells me SHUT THE FUCK UP or WTF are you crying about.
idk what to do wtih my pathetic life, |
| | Posted by person at January 13, 2012 |
I've been trying to get over someone for months. And just as things are starting to look up I find out that my dad is dying. He has some liver condition that needs treatment and insurance won't pay for it. My mom is stuck taking care of him because I am away from home and my siblings are teenagers and won't help out. They are more concerned with themselves..
I can't get over my ex at all. I have been trying for more than a year. We have stopped talking and we don't have any interactions at all. However, they seem to keep trying to be in my life because I keep seeing comments on facebook from them on my brothers page. I just can't take being sad anymore. As soon as something gets a little better, everything else crashes down. |
| | Posted by mrs. jk at January 12, 2012 |
since i met my boyfriend-now husband- i never felt really happy n safe again. in the beginning he was really nice n interesting n very good looking. a perfect husband material. comes from a good n wealthy family, he's also well educated n highly intellectual. when he said he loved me n wanted to marry me, i was flattered n couldn't think of any reason to doubt, that my life would be perfect.
it turned out that he suffered from OCD, a mental illness that causes him to ask for reassurance for hundred of times n always makes me sad because he seems can't trust me at all. he's possessive, very insecure, has negative thoughts about me, and only thinks about himself. he doesn't care about my feelings, never tried to understand me at all. every time he'll get mad n throwing tantrum, if i refuse to answer his repeated questions. we fight all the time. he has threatened to kill himself, even risked my own safety n said some awful things to hurt me, because he thinks i don't give him what he wants.
i don't know if i love him anymore, or ever loved him. i can't leave him because that would ruin my family. i've always pretended that everything was fine n no one in my family knows what's going on in my life. everyday i feel like being trapped. i don't know what to do or what i want anymore. it's almost like i don't exist because this is not the life i want to life. |
| | Posted by lobo at January 12, 2012 |
I don't know where to start. I have been through a lot during the past few years. A terrible breakup and severe health problems. After I healed up I tried to get myself a job but I've been led on by "internships" only for everything to be revealed as false promises. My current girlfriend lives with me and my parents. I love them all but the stress is killing me. My father is severely bipolar, my mother is bed-ridden and my girlfriend is overly jealous and materialistic. Whenever she screws up, I get the blame for it. My mother and father are sick of me living with them. I am struggling to find work (I live in the middle of nowhere). I only have $75 in my bank account and my girlfriend is guilt-tripping me into "not treating her properly" and having me buy things for her. I love her and I don't want to break up with her. She has a horrible home life and I'm afraid if we end of breaking up (something I don't want to happen), she might hurt herself or end up homeless (she isn't allowed back home, her mother stole all her money and bought a new house.)I have some deals on the table but I just felt really hopeless today. For the first time I felt I really wanted to die. I went for a walk last night and spent 3 hours in a graveyard, just lying there crying. I don't know what to do. I want to leave home but I have no money, I can't find work and I can't take this stress much longer. |
| | Posted by anonymous at January 12, 2012 |
Where to begin, I am 30 years old and grew up a happy person with a big smile and a big heart, in fact I still do. There is just one little problem I moved from my small town to the big city of Minneapolis Minnesota. I don't know what the deal is with this place but everyone seems so gloomy and distant to people who are not from here. But what really sucks is that I got out of a 7 year shitty married that went nowhere and had to relocate to this shit hole. I've only had two girlfriends in the 3 years that I have been here and for almost 2 years have not touched or had sex with a girl since and now that I want to get back into the game my insecurities on women prevent me from doing so. Trust me I have the looks of a handsome prince and everyone that I meet always mistaken me for a 17 or a 20 year old. I have no problem talking to new people just new people don't want to really talk to me. Scratching my head trying to make sense of this. My ex wife took everything that I needed to survive on away from me, even my car. I have a full time job, sure that's great and all but I have no car and really no social life in this place. Not a single person I can call a friend that I can just go and have fun with and or find someone real that I can date. Though all this might not sound all that bad, but to me it really sucks. I am not the kind of person who gives up, my old football coach once told me as a means of motivation is to "Put up or go home" After hearing those words even if life seem down or just is, sometimes is just temporary. |
| | Posted by Joney at January 11, 2012 |
I never tought i would feel what ever i am feeeling right now towards this girl i love so much, she was everything i had after my parents got divorce. Later on we broke up and it felt like i lost my life my reason to wake up every morning and go see that beautiful smile, no girl could make me feel as special as she does. I was stupid and acted like a jerk and i guess you don't really know what you got till its gone, not one more look from her, like our love randomly dissapeared. After that my older sister that i love as well got cancer, everything is so fucked up! Even writing on this site makes it even more fucked up! I just hope everything gets back to the way things used to be because this new chapter in my life is cold, depressing, dissapointing....
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| | Posted by Cat at January 11, 2012 |
ive been with my partner 20 years we have 6 chrildren he had an affair 8 yaers ago a woman with 4 kids he pleaded with me for months he would never do it again got a call 20th nov 2011 from a girl i new but haven,t seen for four years stating she has 3 chrildren by my partner and they have been living together for 2 1/2 years went to her house saw him there still he wants to be with me tried to end my life in dec but remembered i have kids to think about he done day work & night work started 4 nights a week about 2 years ago he is still with me but i still think he his seeing her behind my back ..she says she didnt think we were still together but she did want help..... |
| | Posted by anonymous at January 9, 2012 |
Present: I am 25, married, with a baby on the way, have a beautiful, loving wife, a house, a car, an education, a business, tonnes of amazing friends, a family who loves me and what would seem to be, not a care in the world.
I know what you must be thinking; what is my problem? The truth is, I don't have any, per se, other than that my wife is battling severe depression. She has attempted suicide twice, and doesn't get out of bed. This illness has consumed her. I live in a constant state of worry for her yet nothing I do has any affect. She is in therapy and on medication(a struggle finding the proper dosage, but pregnancy hormones are a bitch), but is getting worse. I would never leave her, I love her with all my heart. I am worried my child will inherit this disease. I am running out of patience.
Depression is a miserable heartless bitch.
Somebody out there please tell me there is a light at the end of her tunnel. |
| | Posted by lost at January 9, 2012 |
So I am married for 21 years raised her child from a previouse marriage and have one of our own.
relationship has been going downhill since before our child was born. Our sex life is non existent, before she got pregnant with our child it had been over a year of no sex. Now 15 years later havent made love since she got pregnant. I had an apendix burst all she was worried about was if I had sick leave time so I wouldnt lose any pay, not that I could actually die but whether the dollars were gonna keep coming. I have stayed for the sake of our child. I come from a broken home and refuse to put my child through that but I am dying inside. I have lost all control over my life. I am treated like a live in maintenance man. it is my responsibility to keep the cars running and all of the housold stuff repaired as well as yard work and the garden I give her my pay checks and have only 50.00 a month to spend for myself then she complains because I cannot buy her gifts. Because of her having all the money my child thinks that I am a deadbeat that wont buy any needed items so in turn has developed resentment towards me. her child that I raised for 17 years seems to think I am crazy and a lazy SOB because of they way she makes herself seem infalible. I never knew someone could feel so lonely and be surrounded by people. I have a job that pays ok but the bosses treat everyone with contempt, and their employees live in constant fear of loosing their job. I cannot quit because my chi... |
| | Posted by ME at January 8, 2012 |
Well, my parents came to visit for the holidays... not the first time. (Have been married for 12 years.) Husband is always an ass to me.. ignoring me, giving me the silent treatment, not talking to me for days when upset........ the works. I learned to ignore it for a long time but he had NEVER been an ass hole to my parents. Anyway, my parents were visiting for two weeks... he ignored them for 12 Days... you do the math. My parents have only been good to him. Better than what his parents EVER treated me. The Big D word is even in my thoughts now. I can't even look at him for making my mother suffer so much. I'm a little drunk now but I don't care if he even reads this... say la vi. Ha ha NA my French. |
| | Posted by Hopeless and Gullible Romantic at January 7, 2012 |
I'm a divorced man with two kids. My ex is tries to do everything to make my life hell. She does everything to have my kids not want to be in my life. It was a marriage of her yelling and living in hell everyday. I am a gay man. I met a man 3 years ago and fell in love. He was so wonderful in the beginning, but then he treated me terribly. He would cut me down all the time. He would never want to try to please me in anyway. He started to never want to have sex. He would get drunk and abuse me. I finally ended it with him. I recently met a guy that says he is totally in love with me, but he has a partner and in an open relationship. He keeps on saying that he is going to end it with him, but there is always a reason not to. I keep having to be alone and waiting. All this while, I try to be a great friend and reach out to people. I never have anyone that seems to want to be a true friend to me. I don't have any friends. My kids wouldn't care if I'm not around, and the man that I'm falling in love with has another. I'm tired of being alone. I'm tired of always getting the shaft. I'm tired of being treated like shit and not being treated the way I treat others. |
| | Posted by RitaLee at January 7, 2012 |
I know there are stories that are far worse in this archive, but I'm just so tired and don't know what else I'm to do. At this time I'm 18 years old. I wish I'd never had a boyfriend because, you can't really miss what you've never had. And I almost feel like I've ruined something. The only boyfriend I ever had was when I was 14. He was really nice, attractive and we did some sexual things, but we weren't really clicking so I broke it off. I thought after this time, (realizing that someone out there could like me) that, like most people, someone else would come along. Never happened.
I've been single since and I think I'm a stepping stone. 1. Guy I had a huge crush on - we were friends, and it seemed like something was about to happen - he fell in love with my friend, I think it's their 2 year anniversary now. 2. Guy I kissed. Two weeks later he found a girlfriend and never spoke to me again. 3. Another guy I made out with. Asked out my friend out the next day. 6 month anniversary. 4. Guy I had a crush on - girlfriend, still going out, you know the drill.
The point is that I feel so alone, deprived, all of my friends speak of love, and I feel like people skip over me to get where they need to be. Oh and that first boyfriend went out with a girl a week after we broke up, they're still going out. Now I'm afraid of developing feelings for anyone, ever, because they'll find someone else. I'm getting used to it. But it's still pretty upsetting. I'm tired of crying over these people that I still have to see everyday because they date my friends. It's shit. |
| | Posted by Laurie at January 7, 2012 |
All I ever wanted was a "normal" life with a family and friends who cared about me and someone who could love me. It seems that no one can love me and I don't know why. I've been to 3 different therapists, but none of them helped - they don't see what the problem is, and I can't explain it.
I'm a scientist, developing drugs to treat cancer. It's the only thing I've ever been good at. So I try to focus on that, that maybe this is my purpose in life. But it can really hard when everyone I work with is married and has a family - they all leave early on Fridays to go home to their families, and on Mondays they all about the fun stuff they did over the weekend with their family or friends. And I feel so stupid, like such a loser, sitting there, not able to contribute because I don't have anything to add to the conversation. I feel like such a loser. I've felt like that my whole life.
I was the fat kid growing up, the one no one wanted to be friends with. I thought it would get better when I became an adult, when I lost weight. But it hasn’t. I try so hard to be nice to other people. They think I’m “nice”, but they don’t want to be my friend because they already have friends. I feel like I have a big “L” on my forehead that everyone can see but me.
I was married for a while, but it turned out I couldn't have kids, and my ex-husband ended up cheating on me. So we divorced 7 years ago; I dated someone for a year, then he killed himself. It turns out ... |
| | Posted by anonymous at January 7, 2012 |
My life just fucking sucks because of all the fucking girls I have dated in my 31 years, I had to have a baby with the biggest slut out of all of em!! she fucked my credit up!! I got laid off of from my job at FUCKING R.R. Donnelly because they said i made too fuckin much!! Me and her separated! She got a job from the schooling that loans in my name paid for!! I moved back in with my parents... she got an apartment... then she moves this dumb fuck with mental problems in with her... I go get my child and take him to my moms and then the bitch slaps an ex-parte order on me! having the sheriffs dept. come take my child from my arms!! I have kept my cool for a long time over this shit... and oh.. she is on her third live in boyfriend now!! im still jobless because of the deep depression i have been in and all i wanna do is get it together for my son. he is 4 now and school is comming up! GOD HELP ME!! |
| | Posted by anonymous at January 6, 2012 |
well. My ex husband and I had a baby on Christmas day of 1996, then we got married the 16th of may 1997, and I had a feeling he was having an affair with his boss, I confronted him and he denied it, said they were like brother and sister. Only to find out two months later when he didn't come home, that he had left our daughter and me for this other woman who was his boss, and he felt like a brother to. We got our divorce finalized July 1998, and they got married August 1998. they had two kids together and he never saw our daughter like he should have. She even told his parents when they came from jersey to visit every year that if they saw their first grand kid, my baby, that they would not be welcome in their house, and would not be allowed to see the two that they had, so the grandparents never paid any attention to our daughter for many years. Slowly but surely my ex husband quit paying any and all money due to me for medical bills, and child care that he was court ordered to pay, he currently owes me over $400.00 in medical bills, and over $2000.00 in child care. Then he quit paying the child support, and now he is currently about $10,000.00 behind, and the state of Florida refuses to do much to him. He has had his drivers license suspended 10 times, and he will walk into the support office and sign an IOU, and promise to make a payment and they give him back his license. We go to court for contempt and they tell him to pay an amount or he will go to jail, n... |
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| Posted by anonymous at January 6, 2012 |
my life sucks. i'm turning 26 in a few days and i'm trapped in an uncaring relationship with a girl with no job, and no desire to get a job. we used to be friends, since high school. she and i would hook up all the time behind our lovers' backs. it was our secret thing. we always liked each other, but never wanted to commit. then her father dies. i come to her rescue, she has no one else. now my family and i are her only support system. she and i live together in a little city, i go to work everyday, and she stays home drinking and smoking. she has no license. occasionally she will get shitfaced and do something stupid or come home at 4am. not to mention that she cheated two times at the beginning of our relationship and i had to forgive her because i felt like she needed me. our mutual friends are stuck in the middle of us, and i feel like i'm losing them. it's been a year and a half, and i know what the obvious answer is, but i'm scared for her. |
| | Posted by G at January 6, 2012 |
Well, where to begin? Okay so today was my birthday, and my husband woke up in one of his rages and hit me in front of my kids. I'm stuck in this house with 2 cars that barely run, neither of us have worked in a year and this is due to car problems, family members that don't care and CAN help, or family members who do care but CAN'T help. I have no money. Not for rent, utilities, or a title payment for our truck that we need (even though someone deliberately removed the bolts from the rear calipers, great, huh? evil neighbors and another long story behind that). I found out last year that I have lupus. I've been in 2 car accidents in the past year, and am dealing with a husband who is trying to quit drugs. I feel like blowing my brains out today, but I know I won't do it, I just say it. I hate my life and believe me, the first chance I get, I WILL change it. I just haven't figured it out yet. I feel helpless. I live too far to just walk to the store or anywhere. I just want to scream and wake up from this nightmare. |
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