LIFE SUCKS : Poverty

f*** the world

I was born a dirt poor bastard. 22 years later, nothing has changed. I'm so tired of being poor. Every time I get any money I have to help pay my moms bills. We are both broke, no car, no job, and every day is a struggle just to eat. I often can't even afford a bus fare to look for a job, and even when I can I'm put in position where I can not eat all day and go look for a job, or eat 1 meal and not look for work.

I've tried so many ways to escape this. I was working for a long time but even with me working 40 hours a week in hs I couldn't afford a phone or car or anything cause I was always paying bills. So I tried selling drugs and stealing to escape being poor, now I have a criminal record. I'm desperate to get any job but I can't even get work at mcdonalds.

People think I'm a drug addict or something I'M NOT. I'm just extremely manlnourished and sleep deprived, and I'm starting to believe completely insane. If your not a dangerous individual avoid dangerous people like me. I will prey on you because I hate you, I hate myself, and I hate the world. All I know is poverty, isolation, and violence and I'm still trapped here in hopelessness.

Damn it all

This isn't going to be the worst thing that has ever happened to anyone, but for me, it's fucking hell. I'm 25, and just 2 years ago, I exited the Marine Corps honorably, moved to be closer to family, got a crap job to get things started, and found a barely-reliable car to get me to work for a year or so, until I could afford to get a better, safer one. Fast forward to today... I struggle to pay the rent every month, and probably won't have a place to live come New Years. I can't save enough money to get a car that is reliable in any sense of the word, much less eat more than once a day. I owe my step-father almost 500 dollars, and either way he thinks that I am lazy and unreliable. As I said earlier, I can only eat once a day, sometimes not at all, in order to have enough money to pay rent for the month. I was never good at school, barely got my diploma in high school, and am just getting off acedemic probation from the local community college. I used to be an MMA fighter who was proud of what I'd accomplished. Now I feel like an abused dog limping on the road and nobody is willing to help. I'm tens of thousands of dollars in debt, soon to be homeless, haven't had a girlfriend in 5 years, no self confidence or self esteem, family isn't willing or able to help, and my friends can't or won't help either. My current roommates either smoke and sell weed and live beyond their means, or drink themselves into nightly comas while living like hermits with no contact with the outside world except through facebook. The biggest problem with that, is that I feel myself becoming that way, and I don't know how much longer I can maintain sanity or health if this keeps up. No money, fucking useless car, part time job as a rent-a-cop, no food, and about to be homeless... Thanks alot God, you really do look out for those in need... asshole

Poor & helpless

I have never been so poor, in debt & 53cents in my pocket book. Dec. 10, 2011
I can't help but feel so helpless.
I don't want anyone to know it me!
Here is my story. Just not the lowest facts & details; always more to a story that's not always shared.
I'm 38 years old from East Grand Forks. I was laid off in 200x. My husband and I have been married for xx years. We have x amazing children. My Husband was laid off this year. Both my husband and I are jobless and searching.

It sucks: Living in an old house. It's cold and the plumbing is terrible.

We are struggling to find the money to pay for: gas for our vehicle and insurance, mortgage and insurance on our home, all our utilities, and find a way to feed our family.
Sure there are programs to help people in need, someone like me? right?
Then why can't I get help?

The Services in our area don't go out of there way to full fill needs, they only act like it. Trying to get food help has been such a challenge.
Only when I threatened to make a complaint to the county after several requests, did we receive more food stamps. Yes, it's embarrassing for me shopping locally.

In September, our family of 6, I thought should have receive more then $250.00 for food help. When attempted was denied at the E G F food shelf in September for not having the PKM or the Marshall Polk Water bill (paid bills to get them turned back on.) But because the other seven bills I ...

I Feel Trapped

Where to begin.

I am 23 years old, a virgin, have an STD, no insurance, live with my parents, both are laid off, my dad has had multiple strokes and can't work or function great, my mom is depressed, my 18 year old brother had a kid on accident and isnt being responsible for it bc he is scared, my 24 year old sister had a kid a few years go on accident and is pregnant again and hasn't finished school, I have never had a true GF, I can't keep a girl for very long, I feel like I don't fit in, I am thousands in debt, my credit is trashed, I haven't been doing well in school, the best person I ever knew died from cancer 7 years ago, my family is so poor we struggle to even pay electricy or gas bills, and to make matters even worse, the girl I like a lot has likely been using me this entire time, she goes to school 12 hrs away, apparently according to her bf she has told her that she doesnt want to ever be with me, but when confronted about it tells me thats not necessarily true and lieks me more than a friend but is afraid of another long distance relationship b/c of a bad past experience, i found out that she and a guy were hookin up and kinda talking when she was back at school yet she wont even as much as kiss me anymore, yet she acts like she likes me sometimes cuddling with me and all that shit and wanting to hang out all the time. I feel like my chest is going to explode, I can't sleep well, I think about her everday, I am a masochist, I can't trust people, and even though I feel like that girl has been decieving me a lot I can;'t let her go. =(

Homeless

Well for starters, I am typing this off the public library computer about 8 miles from my parents existance. Parents- dont have any- dead as far as im concerned.

My fiance just got put in jail and is looking at 10-30 years in prison. Once he was taken to jail I lost our apartment. My parents will not take me in and will not even answer the phone for me. My son was taken from my custody when he was only 5 1/2 weeks old. He is 9 months almost 10 now and I am pregnant again. I am homeless, have no money, no food and nowhere to sleep. I have a bookbag and a blanket, dont even have a jacket, now tell me my life doesnt suck!

Im not asking for a pitty party, just letting everyone know that just because your parents dont let you do this or that or school is stressful, think again, because does it really suck? Are things the worst they could be? Nope, not even for me. Im sure theres still someone out there who is worse off than me.

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Life is lonely but i still have a frnd

Hello frnds,
I am 28 years old. My Life is quite different from what you say normal. Since childhood i have seen poverty and my dad is kind of strict and angry guy who never knws how to love his children. He never use to spent a single penny on us and we frequently got beaten by him. Somehow, i got into good engg college and start earning. My family situation is still critical. We have no real house, no vehicle and has to repay educational loan and other loans which my dad took earlier. My salary doesnt allow me to live a lavish life and thus my circle of friends shrinked with time. I work in different city from my hometown. I cant afford to rent a house outside and thus sleep in office only. I dnt booze and i have no girlfriend. I dnt spend money on myself in order to save some money for my parents and my sisters. My parents are falling sick these days and i have to bear expenses of my sisters marriage as well. I cant explain this situation to any girl and i knw no girl will come closer to such a simple guy. Right now i am sitting in my office when all my colleagues left and enjoying in their houses. I have no television to watch, no internet to surf , no friend to talk, no game to play. I have only faith in myself and in my God who i knw understands me that i am true in my efforts and wil always be. Even though my dad was strict, i wil never misbehave with him as he is my dad. I feel my life is a debt to my family. Someday i will earn sufficient enough to support my family as well as the poor peope in society. I have one friend with me who is above any one , my God. He understands me and that is more than enough to give me strength. I feel loneliness is the test he puts infront of us so that we can get more closer to him than anyone else. It is a opportunity given to us by God which is not given to others.

Not really sure

I've always felt that I should be lucky.My father held me out of a window and threatened to drop me but didn't. He kicked us out. My Stepdad told me that if it wasn't for him I would be unwanted. My Mum has told me that if she'd had a choice she would'nt have had me. They had a lot of hopes for me as a youngster as I was recognised as 'gifted'. This has not come to pass. I dropped out of uni as I became depressed. I've had ups and downs and been in violent relationships. I had a breakdown and finally spoke up to my mother. Since 1973 it has just been me and her. My brother was born in 1980 and much as I love him he is the apple of my mother's eye and that hurts. Since my last time in hospital she told me that he is the only person in the world that cares about me and that I'd better not wreck things or I'll have no one.I don't really believe I can be that bad, I'm not a criminal and I'm not a nasty person.I lost a job that I was really good at in feb and since then have lost my flat and am struggling to survive. I am staying in a friend's house but it is only a matter of time before I have to go. I can't take any more.I keep trying to fight but everytime I get kicked in the nuts (if i had any). I'm so sorry for being defeatist but I don't know what to do anymore.

Life isn't fair. My ex-wife cheated on me and that same year I almost died and had emergency surgery. Now my credit is ruined, I lost my house, my job and she is successful. I am now unemployed and homeless.

American Dream = Nightmare

My name is David. i am 26 years old i live in a small town in southwest georgia were there is no jobs and little hope of sucess my family and i are to poor for college and tech school doesnt get u far these days. the town i live in is slowly being overun by mexicans who stare at you like they want you dead. i never had any friends growing up and didnt have a girlfriend until i was 20. she like me was born dirt poor. my father a alcoholic would come home occasionally from his truck driving job to beat us and my mother , through many years he managed to keep it hide. my uncle sued the county works so he literally gave us a bad name round here. my extended family has nothing to do with me or my brother. our county is mainly farmers,farmers and farmers . i have nothing against blue collar workers and i have try many times to get some kind of job but being 4'8 and 145 pounds soaking wet doesnt help. the school i attended was horrible basically the guy with a big jacked up truck got the most pussy and being poor i got none of that. i wasnt a goth or nerd i was just broke and it showed. i wasnt bullied or beat up . it was more like they just ignored me totally like i wasnt here....i have felt this way for most of my life .. the only chance i had to get out of here was in 9th grade were in french class (which was mandatory to take some kind of languge) i made a 100 and had the chance to go to france ..but was beaten by a jock who got a 101 yeah it was total bullshit... i know live in a cottage on a dirt road with my girlfirend and we barely make it .. i often think that she will leave me cause of the circumstanes... i watch as yeaR AFTER YEAR I SIT AND GET OLDER NOT ADVANCING ANY WAY IN LIFE ...SEEMS POINTLESS ..

HAHAHAHAHA

I have 4 kids a addict boyfriend and cant find a job. The windshield in my car is broke my car insurance just went up and I got cancelled and got a 150 dollar fine from the mva for having a 9 hour lapse Oh yeah and to top it off I live with my boyfriend and my husband that I left 2 years ago woo hoo shit is great. And I am effin broke

RN

In the last 6 years my husband left me, lost our house and money with bad real estate debt, so I got NOTHING in divorce despite 19 yrs of marriage. I raised/raising 3 kids on my own, work 2-3 jobs, even 4 at times. Three of my precious pups died over the course of a year (old age and one got hit by a car right in front of me). The worst is now. I'm a nurse and was on shift one night when a baby was born with cerebral palsy. The family is suing the hospital and I have to go to trial (with a few other nurses). Don't have anything to wear, don't want to buy anything. Have to work too much never get to date or look for partner. I have nothing, am nothing,

i dont even know where to start.. when i was little my family was happy we could afford anything we wanted nobody was yelling at home but now our lives are totally different.. we dont have any money we are poor as shit nobody is happy but the most unhappy person in the family is me.. high school made my life a living hell im bullied all the time im really sick and tired of that i want to stand up for my self but there is something in me that is holding me back i want to do something more in my life but i cant im a total loser i have no friends i never go out and im just 17 im depressed all the time every word can hurt me and i cry like crazy for everything my personality has changed im yelling at everybody my parents always yells back at me that i have to change but its easy to be said but not easy to be done sometimes i wish i wasnt even born... every other person i know is just so happy they are all smiling and i wish i was like them maybe they have problem too but they dont show that they are not happy but i that kind of person that always shows what i feel like i suffer from social anxiety thats the reason why i have no friends.. 10 minutes ago my mom came to my room and she said if i wanted to take my dog for a walk and i said no and i said that this morning i took it for a walk and i said that she can take the dog out and she started crying and yelling at me " why are you doing this to me you are driving me crazy" and she always takes pills to calm down...

im writing this with tears in my eyes wondering will i wake up the next morning i just want to commit suicide right now..

MY LIFE

I AM 55YEARS OLD AND IN 1987 I HAD A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN I DID TRY TO REBUILD MY LIFE BY CLEANING HOMES AND GOT MARRIED AND HAD A BOY I CHERISHED I AM NOT ABLE TO REMEMBER ALOT. I HAVE TO WRITE THE DAY DOWN I NEVER HAD THE CHANCE TO DREAM BIG MY DEPRESSION GOT IN THE WAY. MY MOM BOUGHT A HOUSE WE COULD LIVE IN THAT WE CAN AFFORD. WITH MY PROBLEMS I GET A CHECK. I HAVE TO GO TO FOOD PANTRYS AND FREE CLOTHING PANTRYS. WE HARDLY HAVE ENOUGH FOOD TO EAT. BUT WHEN WE DO GET FOOD I COOK GOOD MEALS. MY SON IS 19 AND I HAVE TO MOTIVATE HIM TO WORK MAKE MONEY HE DID GRADUATE.I STAY HOME AND DO THE THINKING OF MY LIFE. IT GETS STRESSFUL.

This is not easy

At the age of 58 you'd think I would be riding high. I should be at the pinnacle of my career. My grandchildren should be a part of my life as I am still able to physically keep up with them. prevents me from seeing them. She sees it as a punishment to me. What right does she have to prevent the grandbabys from a relationship with a loving grandmother with lots to offer. I SHOULD be in California, my birth and childhood home. Instead somehow I have gotten mired in the pieces of a lifetime long gone. I am here in the midwest which is o.k. if your from the midwest. I have no REAL friends or family. My daughter has elected to live as remotely from me as possible and my son, well, he doesn't think of me often. Their father, my exhusband, taught them in their teens to not respect me and instead abuse me physically and mentally by encouraging disrespectful behaviour. I could go one but, why? So immediate family is outta the way. I have had cancer three times and underemployeed ever since my divorce and am at poverty level income. That is a real self esteem booster. Yet, somehow I have always remained spiritual and positive. But, lately it has been difficult to keep it up. I absolutely have "No one".

The over achiever

Where do I start. Today, I realized that my life is ruined. I dropped out of college (university) after completing one year because I can't afford it. I am poor, I live in a one bedroom apartment with my 3 siblings and parents. We are so broke, we have been living here since I was four, I am now 18. My parents think that it is really difficult to move out, it is merely impossible for them to even think about it. They both claim to be unemployed because there is no work out there, yet they never go and apply anywhere! (so how do they want to get hired) and they will rather live off $300 unemployment checks. My older sister is the only one working. My downstairs neighbors are assholes and they always bitch when my 3 year old nephew comes and visits us because he likes to jump around. I am about $7,000 in debt with school loans and a credit card that I can't even pay off because I am unemployed. My goal this summer was to get my driver license but I haven't even practiced driving and every time I do practice my dad bitches at me because I am such a horrible driver. I feel like I am knee deep into a horrible situation that I can't get out of. I need help. I hope I see the brighter side soon.

Just Another Loser

Some people have no idea what it's like to have no friends, no money, no sex life,no special talent, to eat bologna sandwiches and top ramen for every meal, to be depressed because you can't find or keep a job, to live in a run-down piece of crap place filled with roaches, to know that there are people in the world who are happy and content who have accomplished everything they wanted to; however,they look down on you and think you are a lazy bum.

I know I'm a loser. My family doesn't even give a shit about me. My stepdad is an asshole (but God has blessed him?)and everyone else ignores me. Sometimes I think I'm invisible. Nobody will even show up to my funeral when I'm gone. Nobody will remember who I was.

The funny thing is I'm one of the lucky ones. Most of the world is starving and suffering. What, then, gives me the right to complain? Maybe it's because my expectations are unreal because I see happiness all around me, but it escapes my grasp. Life is a bitch.

Loser and nothing more

I am not pretty, not very intelligent, my family is not rich. i am the definition of ordinary. I have no ambitions in life, no interesting qualities. and yes i read all the shit about"oh every" is interesting and unique etc." not me. I finished college a year and a half ago and i still dont have a job, i am not looking for one either. i live with my dad, who is practically unemployed too. i am amazed how we afford to survive. we couldnt pay our bills so we dont have phone or internet at home anymore. Our house is like shit too. I never clean or tidy up, trying to make it even more depressing than it already is. We barely speak with my dad too. We didn't speak about my mom since she died 5 years ago. when i am outside, i play careless and happy like anyone cares, but actually i am all about worries and sadness.

Life sucks, 22 years counting

Well im not sure why the fuck im writing this, but here it goes anyway.

i was brought up being told not what i can achieve, but what will happen with my life if i dont, i was always made clear we were poor and could'nt afford what others can, there's nothing wrong with being told that but it got driven into me so much so that ive become mentally scared of life, i have extreme anxiety, cant talk propely and have been miserable all my life. This has obviously meant very little in terms of friends and no girlfriends.

ive managed to push myself through, im now 21 (22 tomorrow)and lifes been sucking for almost 22 years. It got worse 2 weeks ago, i got fired!!! from my first real job for making a stupid stupid mistake(very schoolboy), was getting paid about £375 a week (before tax), it was a great job and the company was one i could secured my future with.

Anyway, I’m not sat at home on my ass and so depressed that that my hairs falling out, I’m breaking out in acne and I’m getting liver pains (yes all are symptoms of depression)

I come from a poor background, my parents are getting old, they’ve looked after me growing up and they themselves have had a hard life and coming from poverty. It SHOULD NOW be my turn to look after them, so much pressure on my shoulders and ive known it my whole life, i frankly don’t care about my welfare, but i feel like I’ve let my parents down.

The jobs market is so shit, it will be a long time before i find a job that pays anywhere near that and it will almost defiantly be a much harder job. Im just praying for any job right now.

God (i still have faith in you), guide me through these hard times.

Wanna feel better about your life? Read about mine

Life for me has become unbearable. From the day I was born I was destined to be in pain. While my mom was pregnant with me my biological father died in a freak accident. My mom, who had many demons, became a very bad alcoholic. My life was one crisis after another. By the time I was 10 I developed severe anxiety disorder. It would continue to haunt me for years along with severe depression.

There was a time I thought I had hope for a decent future. Despite living a life of abuse, chaos, tragedy and lonliness I managed to graduate with honours. I got a great job. But no matter how hard I tried to be "normal" I could not run from myself. I could not run from the horrors that plagued my life. Then the final blow - my mother died 5 years ago. She was just 47 years old. Despite the way I grew up, my mother and I were very very close and losing her killed me. Soon after I found myself addicted to oxycontin. What started off as the means to end the painful back problems I had quickly developed into an addiction from hell. I found oxy to relieve not just my physical pain but my mental pain and anxiety. Since then I have gone from bad to worse. I've isolated myself to the point where the phone NEVER rings for me. No friends, no nothing. The only thing that keeps me going are my kids. Thank God for them. Nothing else matters but them.

I live in poverty, am trying to straighten my trashed life out but honestly I just want to die. I don't want to wake up every day...

No sympathy for the devil

Well I guess I was foolish enough to imagine that some of you would be able to empathise with me and my plot in this existence. I thought that some would give me encouraging words. But, as usual, I was wrong. No I wasn't making my life-storey up. I was found in a back alley and the doctors said that I was "lucky" to be alive. I've never known who my parents were. I was put into an orphanage and placed into several foster homes, where I was verbally and physically abused. I eventually ran away from my last home and started living on the streets. I figured that's where I truely belonged. Being there I saw many horrible things. Even worse then the things I experienced. I saw a man get shot in the head, a women gang raped by six other men, a little girl sodomized... I saw the worst of human nature, or maybe I saw what humans actually are. I got a job and saved enough to get off the streets but can only afford to rent a small shack that is still boarded up (hence why people think it's vacant). There are rats in the walls and cockaroaches everywhere. I have some sort of condition and I feel pain all over my body, even to the point where start screaming and crying. Whenever I'm out in public I conceal myself by a larg raincoat, a hat, and sunglasses. I don't like people looking at me. I do like a girl and have for some seven odd years but it's wrong for me to like her (she doesn't know me or I her and am just a monster unworthy of love).