Where to begin.
I am 23 years old, a virgin, have an STD, no insurance, live with my parents, both are laid off, my dad has had multiple strokes and can't work or function great, my mom is depressed, my 18 year old brother had a kid on accident and isnt being responsible for it bc he is scared, my 24 year old sister had a kid a few years go on accident and is pregnant again and hasn't finished school, I have never had a true GF, I can't keep a girl for very long, I feel like I don't fit in, I am thousands in debt, my credit is trashed, I haven't been doing well in school, the best person I ever knew died from cancer 7 years ago, my family is so poor we struggle to even pay electricy or gas bills, and to make matters even worse, the girl I like a lot has likely been using me this entire time, she goes to school 12 hrs away, apparently according to her bf she has told her that she doesnt want to ever be with me, but when confronted about it tells me thats not necessarily true and lieks me more than a friend but is afraid of another long distance relationship b/c of a bad past experience, i found out that she and a guy were hookin up and kinda talking when she was back at school yet she wont even as much as kiss me anymore, yet she acts like she likes me sometimes cuddling with me and all that shit and wanting to hang out all the time. I feel like my chest is going to explode, I can't sleep well, I think about her everday, I am a masochist, I can't trust people, and even though I feel like that girl has been decieving me a lot I can;'t let her go. =( | |
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