LIFE SUCKS

Screwed by those who should have helped.

I’m middle aged. I have a master’s degree. I’ve never been married. Never fathered children. Haven’t even dated in years. I’ve been suffering depression for my whole adult life. Been in and out of therapy and on and off of antidepressants.

I do have some friends. I had a job in one end of the state and all my friends lived in the other end of the state. So, I left that job when I got a job offer in the end of the state that my friends live in. I had hoped that I would be happier by being in closer proximity to my friends. The job I left was good. I was treated well by my coworkers and highly regarded by my supervisors. The job I got sucked. I was crapped on and pushed around by those I needed cooperation from, to make a long story short. Mainly because I was willing to see clients on Fridays and my processing assistant didn’t want to because she wanted to be able to take her friday afternoon naps in her office as she had for the ten years previous to my arrival there. So, she made life suck for me. She had been there for ten years and knew how to manipulate the work flow to create stress on me.

Eventually, I cracked from the stress and got fired and now I am unemployed. My supervisor basically didn’t give a shit about what I was up against. After all, I was the new guy. Her solution was to ask me to resign. I refused; so, she fired me. Because I got fired, my chances of reemployment in my field are slim to none.

I worked hard for years to get to this point in my life. I haven’t even been working in this field long enough to have a midlife crisis. I really just got started because it took so long to get here only to be fuked over by some christian bitch with a highschool diploma. I’m done with life. Can I die now? Jesus, please save me from your followers as they really make life suck.

Money, money, money in a rich mans world!

Ok, i'm only 13 and i already crave money. I watch programmes like 'katie next chapter' and other things that show you how the celebrities live. they have wonerul lives they dont have any problems becuase there money can solve them. Thye have all they need to survive and all they want, they have beauiful houses and live in beautiful places. I would love to be one of them.
But i was born intomy suckishly shit life with my dad who use to be a model but stopped so he didnt work for 13 years, we realied on our mums money to get through which is not a big sum. My dad had to borrow from his family and my mum hers.
But my dad was selfish a few times he would go out on ebay and buy an antique for a ridiculous sum of money, and they put it on my mums credit card, so we were bankrupt. Therefore my dad had to borrow it of his parents who are old age pensioners for christ sake.
Luckily my dad got a job, he just sits at home on the computer, and my mum works. we are not doing bad in the money place but when i grow up the thign i want is to be a celebrity working non stop ringing loads of money into my life, soi can live the life i always dreamed.
But i tell my mum of this dream she just goes 'money is not as in importnad as love'i know thats true but money canbuy things like houses and cars and food to live with. Love can only give a person love from another, its generally rubbish compared to money.

i hate my mum and living at home!!!

I am in my early twenties, studying and living at home with my family at home. GOD i hate living here. We have such a beautiful house but it only feels like a home when i am all alone by myself....or with my dad. i love my dad to bits, he's the only person which lights up the house but he's only here over weekends. I can't believe I've just gone into my twenties and basically i am the one doing most of the housework. My mum is a lazy piece of shit who love moaning all the time about literally anything and everything. She spends hours on the computer playing some shitty lil game (i'm talking at least 2-3 hrs per day), watching shitty soaps and doing fuckall. so i thought i'll give everyone tasks to do to make it easier. all my mum has to do is cook and clean the kitchen but guess wht she's so tired after work tht she doesnt bother, on top of tht gets moany and angry, does her usual gaming and telly routine and continues on with her dirty and absolutely disgusting habits like not washing her hands after using the toilet!!!! :-( i hate her so much, she doesn't listen to a word i say,makes everyone's lives miserable and has been doing so ever since i can remember.... she's the reason my sister is not as nice as she could be and my dad not as happy as he could be. i know nothing is going to change in this house and i absolutely hate it. i get so annoyed whenever i see people who have a close family and normal mums...

I don't know what I'am waiting for to jump of the roof

I am 16 years old and my life sucks! My father is an alcoholic and he cheats on my mother every time and she doesn't want to talk to me cause i told her the truth she says that I am liying to her . I don't feel loved or appreciated no matter what! I have never been happy in my life i have no true friends they are all hypocrits and the few boyfriends i had were only basterd who wanted me for sex!
i have a big sis who doesn't care about she barely speaks to me just for passing her salt!! I don't want to feel alone anymore last year i gathered enough money to see a spycologist but it didn't help I really feel bad and useless all the time I wanna do something great with my life I wanna do something useful but I am only a screwed teenager in her hormonal period!! what is life so whorthy to live for?? you tell me!!

confused...!!!???

this may sound crazy to every person who decides to read it but the reason i feel like my life sucks the big one is because of hope. my family is about to lose the house i have a two year old nephew my younger brother my older sister and my parents all living here and now yet again my 28 year old brother is living here as well. most of my life i have been viewed as the fuck up of the family from being suspended from school a ridiculous amount of times to supplying my older sister with the means to burn down our previous house I have always ,ALWAYS been the fuck up. but recently i have become the last hope not only for my family but for all of my friends to fix this world and yes i mean this world. my father has been retired since just before or after obama was elected into office and has since earned 45 dollars for fixing a friends brakes. he is currently driving my mother deeper and deeper into depression and i feel as though there really is nothing i can do. yet a couple weeks ago i spoke to my mother and a close friend who both firmly objected when i reffered to myself as a fuck up informing me that they believe that i am not only the last hope for my friends and family but possibly this country and this world and i can not believe that i cannot handle that kind of pressure I'm just a 17 year old kid and now i feel as though if i fail it will not only be a very likely end for me but for my family and friends as well. they have put all of their hope in me and I'M seve...

lost

let me start by saying the only reason i am writing this is so that maybe some person will read it and feel similar so keep your nasty hatefull comments to yourself.I am only 17 and i know it's stupid and immature to hate life this young but lately I just wonder is anything I do going to matter or am i just another insignifigant spec like most people? no offense meant I just look around and all I seem to see is people repeating the same bullshit everyday and i wonder is that all there is?working for some corporation that doesnt give a shit about you. Then forking that hard earned money to either another corporation or person for food shelter etc. then eventually like everyone else dying in one of one hundred trillion ways. its just to damn sad and meager why, why do we spend our lives wasting our time never really accomplishing anything. and even if we do accomplish something great we spend our whole lives trying to do that one great thing only to wake up one day and realize your 60 years old and that great thing you spent your whole life on will eventually wither from exsistence or be replaced by soomething new. to me this life is seeming quite meaningless and inconsiquential. of late I find myself daydreaming for most of the day just to try to escape the harshness of my own sad pathetic reality. I would much rather be doing something or anything else just so long as it brings real lasting meaning to my short abysmal life. And I know I sound like a real ass but seriously if your reading this please any POSITIVE advice including a hard reality bitchslap would help if anyone else feels the same please I need advice and quick

life sucks

Life sucks...I have lost the only person I really love and i really had - my Best Friend- because of my stupid mistake. Life really sucks: we are born, for all our life we are looking for the person who will understand us, who will be there for us, who will protect us...when we find them we say "oh, thanks heaven for giving me this Gift called BEST FRIEND". But heavens laugh at us, setting up "moral traps" for us....Life sucks because one always loses the best, the most sacred thing, he loses hope in life.
OMG. i do not know what to do now.....I can't eat, I can't sleep, i take pills to turn off my brains, to freeze my heart in order not to feel the pain that eats me inside...

My life sucks big time

I thought that going back to school would make me more desirable in the job market. It's been three years since graduating and I cannot find a job. I'm getting sued over unpaid bills, I have tremendous CC debt, a mortage, student loans, medical bills...etc. My kids are scared that we'll loose the house and cars and not have food. I dont sleep, I dont eat, I worry non stop. I dont see any joy in anything anymore. the pressure is unbearable at times. My life totally sucks!

Good until 23

I was coasting along until I got fucked on an exam at med-school and pulled out of the course. Worst decision ever because at least when you are doing a career you have a pretty elaborate illusion to take your mind off the nothingness that otherwise is omnipresent. Now im planning to go back but have developed some serious depression problems in the interim and now worry about my mental faculties.

CURSED

MY LIFE SUCKS ? because I am an artist who breath art born in a very poor village in 3rd world country and the worse there is internet where I can see what people do ,I have to work in a farm everyday ,cant go to art school because there is any people suck here all of them if you don't follow their life style : job+house+wife+children they ll hate you forever so I have no one here except my ugly pencil ,papers and my very old pc that I worked since forever to buy it..

I hate life and I want to die

I am just tired. of everything. My psychotic mother and my alcoholic father. I hate never having any money despite making nearly $10/hr at my job. Because of rent and bills, I have approximately $40 at the end of every month. I feel like I do everything for everyone, and I can never complain because everyone else just has it so much worse than I do. I used to be a creative person, but that part of me has almost completely atrophied. I can't bring myself to get rid of all my art tools though on the off chance that I DO have a moment when inspiration strikes. I have never written any music despite playing guitar since the age of 12. All I do is regurgitate what others have already done. I have an Associate's degree in multimedia, but can't get a job in my field to save my life, and because of the way technology advances every couple years, my skills are becoming more and more obsolete. In short, I suck at life and I just want to die.

What makes life special?

I go through life everyday wondering/not understanding what the fucking point to all this is..what i'm doing here walking around on this planet.

I've been searching web sites today and found out I could possibly be an Empath..Someone who takes on the emotions of others good or bad.. and usually
it's involuntary. I thought that might be why I've always felt so fucked up for no apparent reason (Hi Hi's and low low's) Or it could be bi-polarism I don't know.

Anyway...This is it, This is my life and it's no dress rehearsal..Yet, I keep failing in trying to figure out what i'm supposed to be doing here..and all I keep coming up with is the same bullshit everyone else is striving to accomplish, the so-called "American Dream"
(i.e. Go to school, get a job, go back to school again, get a better job, marry a bitch,get a house, pump-out a bunch of kids,grow old and watch your kids have kids and then die....(if you're lucky enough not to go through years of cancer first) But, it's not my dream...I don't even have a fucking dream.
I just keep going through the motions..Get up,go to work, come home, and go to school...(I'm going to school for graphic design because I'm good at drawing..but I hate it..)That's it. I do what I have to do to get by..But I don't have any ambitions,dreams. I'm just some low-life trying to make his life better..But feel like I have no business being here..So all you assholes out there who want to give me some smart-ass remark or tell me to kill myself, here's your chance. for the rest of you that read this, If you have dreams..consider yourselves lucky. I wish my brain was on auto-pilot towards a passion.

im only 11 years old. i have had thoughts of running away from home. if i do... the only person who would miss me would be my mom. my dad just buy me stuff like once every 3 years. i a johavas wittness so i dont celebrate my birth-day or christmas. all of my freinds arent real freinds any more exsept for acople. i have only got together with one of my freind once this year releay. and the most annoying thing about it is most of my friend gurn into my brothers friends and hate me. and that brother is the most annoying brother ever, hes 13 nd he has way more chances to get paid. i have ... like ..... um... let me think .... NONE! and, the most annoying thing, if you have ever played wizerdy, like wizerdry 8, witch is what i play alot(and wizerdry gold) let me tell you, its almost THE SAME GAME as runescape, my favorite game bat im not a loud to play it

I am angry about this world!

Ok let me begin by telling you i think i might have anger issues becuase of my dad he has them too. i get pissed of for silly little things when i'm with my mum dad and sister, but i'm different with my friends at school. They understand me and treat me like an equal adults think their better than children that really fucks me off. I hate it when i'm not allowed to swear and that i'm not allowed to do certain things.
My dad has a great hatred for Pakistanis, Africans and Foregners who come in our country and try to change our way of lives, that hatred is sort of becoming me. I am feeling the same hate becuase of my fuckin dad.
Another thing is i was watching a documentary about a russian town where men see woman (any woman they like the look of) thye kidnap of the streets and make that woman become their bride the womans has no right in the decision. This makes me pissed of when i hear that the russian want that to come over in england.
I hate this world! its fucking shit!

The one person i needed.....gone.

Back in 2004, i was just 7 years old. I lost the most special person to me in the world. Hes name was Lawerence (lol) Easton. He was my grandfather, kind, caring, considerate and most of all loving. Him and my nan were heaven to me. They treated me the way i felt so secure and happy.
he had a fight belly and i used to snuggle myself on him, i felt secure in his hands. he loved football very much the only cleaning he ever did was when a football match began (he supported west ham) he would get up and wipe the tv with his pocket hanky and sit back down and watch the match.
He use to love cutting the meat when we had a roast on sundays, i was playing with my barbies when my mum walked in crying her eyes out when she told em the knew i cried for days non-stop. i felt dead inside my life ripped out of me, she handed me a video of scooby-doo and told me 'give this too the kids and tell them i said goodbye' is what he told her.
whenever something bad in my life happens i think about him and beg to god to take my life so i ust be with him, i think to myself that hes in my room sometimes just for a bit of comforting. Losing someone as special from my life as my Grandfather makes me feel insecure and vulnerable, he was the manliest man i ever knew. No-one in this god forsaken world can be the amount he meant to me.
Now i just hope when my times come he be there to see me.

life

Compared to hearing and reading about other people lives and what happens to them, like some girls where raped, others are att he point of sucidal others have no where to live it makes me want to cry. But then i realized the one thing everyone needs to survive this worlw without this kind of shit is......
A computer.
Its seriosuly true or maybe a book. Its better to listen to people stories help and undersrand them, therefore you forget yours quickly and help people who need help the most!

Life with my parents

It's always being rocky, the relationship my parents share.
Their not at all loving to each other my dad always causes arguments and most of the time when i was younger my mum did not argue back she just agreed with him, but now because me and my sister have got older she has now realize how he affects us so she argues back causing him to go crazy.
he swears the other night he even said to my mother 'go fuck yourself' and 'eat shit and die' childish words just because she argue back towards him as he claimed 'we all lied and said we put the tortoises to bed' when we clearly had but they got up and moved.
he has always been in a bad mood, its the holidays now. my mum still has to work but my dad works at home, so were stuck with him.
I even wanted to commit suicide, i thought i should type in 'quick ways to kill yourself' he upsets me much and if i try to tell him he does he tells me to 'clean up the house yourself and you cause me to be angry' when of course i do not thats utter crap.
he gets pissed of over stupid little things. i just dont know what to do anymore, my mum doesn't understand as she never here and when she is she looks up at him as if hes some god. i hate her. she's a woman i suppose what possible harm could she do to my father, he is so horrid and mean.
i just don't know if to kill myself, or fight my way through childhood.

boy was I let down!!!!

I met a man and he liked me and I liked him. He said all the things I wanted to believe.It was great until I told him I had chronic hepatitis b. He lost interest and just bascially dumped me. Now he does not call or come by anymore.yes, life sucks I had not had even a date in over five years before him.I give up I will be alone until I die.Even when you tell the truth it does not always work out. Now I see why people lie and just have fun while they can.

I'm 27yrs old and am a stay @ home mom. I've been feeling so depressed lately. My life is such a routine. I dnt care about anything anymore. Things I used 2 like doing dnt even interest me anymore. I've always loved riding horses. Now they are just in the pasture and I hvnt rode n over a year. If it weren't for the fact that I have 2 get up and take care of my kids, I would never get out of bed. My baby is about 2 turn a year old and while I'm planning his party its like I'm on auto pilot, like I can't get happy about anything. Like my brain just wnt let me. I love my kids and my husband. They deserve so much better. Its like the happiness has just drained right out of me. I never get out anymore or do anything. I have no friends. I constantly feel like there's no reason 2 live and then I see my kids faces and I know there is. SSo y do I feel like this all the time? I just want to feel happiness again. Just neede 2 rant a little bit. Thanks for listening.

Seaxually asssult ed by my stepfather

My father died when I was six. When I was my mother got married to a amn I felt uneasy about. One my mother had to work late. he cam in to my and pulled the cover off of em then he took omy night gown socks and panties and he raped. He if i tell my mother some bad things would happen to me. I believed it. He raped until I was 16. When he rape me a age th e of 16 I hit him hard and I blooied his nose and I told if he tried that agai I would kill him and heard every word of what I said so I told what he did and what he just he jus tried to do. My devorced him and my believed me. She took to the doctor and a therpist. She even told the police. He has been aressted becuase nothing was found on me nothing on my clothes bra or panties. I am now 20 and in medical school I hope that he doesn't marry some with duaghter becuase he would poosibly do it again and that will ruin her life. i took away my childhood and I lost virginity at young age.