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Why does God hate me?

Posted by ME at March 28, 2011
Tags: 2011 March  Philosophical

I feel like the past 4 years God has been using me like a piece of tissue to wipe his ass crack. Why? I didn't do anything to him. In fact, all I did was try to make good decisions, and keep my head up when ish came my way, and keep my eyes on the prize when people were trying to push me down, and even just be a good person and treat people well. But person after person seemingly randomly out of thin air just comes along trying to shit on me like I did something to them. I try to make moves and they go nowhere. When life just feels like too much I just try to keep putting one foot in front of the other, and eventually I may feel a little better, but the facts of life remain the same. People keep telling me that things will get better but then they don't. People keep telling me that I'll get this and that and the other thing or something great will happen or whatever, but it doesn't. I wish they would just shut the hell up with their prophesying I am sick to death of hearing about it. And no I can't be thankful or joyful, about the only thing I have to be thankful for is that I'm not homeless, and yes I do recognize that it could get worse, but it only seems like a ticking time bomb to me, not something to be joyful about. I really don't know what I'm doing wrong. Although now I have come to realize that just because something bad happens doesn't mean I did something wrong. Okay, but to be kept down like this for so so long... what is that all about? I don't get it. As far as I see it, the rest of my life isn't going to be that great anyway, but could you at least allow me to function? Like a normal person? Why do you keep giving me shit?


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By anonymous at 06,Oct,12 20:37

I wish i knew why God allows so many bad things to happen to nice people. nice people who are gentle, kind, always helps others and never ever bully or mistreat others. the Devil is allowed to wrack havoc and pain on us. I just don't understand it at all. Also- why does God or the Devil allow always GOOD things for Bad people? Why can't the Devil and its horrible demons just go away from us all right now? Why can't GOD intervene and protect us all from all the suffering and bad luck we are having? I just don't understand it
By anonymous at 30,Nov,12 10:42

Because they are supposed to be enjoying the rest of their mortal lives so in the end they could burn in hell for eternity. While the faithful ones stick by god through the worst imaginable (do you even know the amount of suffering that man went through just to have our sins forgiven? : passion of the christ) so they could die and live an eternity in perfect bliss
By anonymous at 28,Jul,15 12:35

This is a crock of SHIT God does not exist - God is the DEVIL did you not know that! Only good things happen to those who have money. So unfornately everyone is fucked in the ass by GOD if he really does exist - ha ha ha

If you have studied it was just a bunch of guys writing tablets that were nothing but stories - can anyone really prove this?
By anonymous at 18,Feb,16 20:52

I can bodies are I corrupt from many of years
By anonymous at 08,Oct,15 22:00 Fold Up

What a crock of shit .
By anonymous at 25,Apr,13 18:13 Fold Up

It's simple, God does not intervene in our lives. You can wish for it all you want but the fact is he doesn't cause good or bad to happen, he allows us to have free will, intervention completely contradicts free will.
By anonymous at 08,Dec,14 12:52

Nothing happens in this world that God does not want to happen.
By Matt Thomas at 06,Oct,15 11:22

If He is all powerful, that is a logically inescapable conclusion. Bertrand Russell said it so well with, "If God is omnipotent, nothing outside His will can occur". Think it through.
By anonymous at 03,May,15 23:18 Fold Up

Cause he don't care
By anonymous at 10,Sep,13 14:38 Fold Up

by anonymous 09,sept12
god loves everyone he hates the act of sin that's why we are separated from him but by having a relationship with Jesus who paid the price for our sins allows us the relationship with God and spend eternity with him in heaven Jesus can bring you peace if you let him and trust in him ask him for the forgiveness of your sins
By anonymous at 21,Dec,15 19:02

I have been saved be for moor than what,s but God still hates me to.he is the father of lies.
By anonymous at 30,Mar,16 17:29 Fold Up

Why would you guys say those things about God he loves us more than anything he has a plan for each and one of us and everything in life is part of it.

By anonymous at 07,Jan,14 18:12

I honestly think God picks and chooses who he is going to help live an abundant life and the rest of us he just laughs at. I hate it when people say God love you. How? How the heck do they know that? And how could this all empowering Loving God mess up so many lives and say I love you my child? That is the biggest BS I have ever heard of in my life. I totally can't see myself believing in a God that constantly has put me down destroys my life at every turn he can. Slams every door. Opens a window only to slam that shut too. I asked him when I was younger for a boyfriend. My dad just died my mom had been gone for a few years. Yes, he answered my prayer so welcomingly with a man who physically and mentally abused me. Yep!! free will. There is no such thing as free will either. the only free will we have is that we can believe in him or not. Everything else he as planned right down to the dot!!! there is no changing it no adding to it nothing. We think we are making decisions but we aren't. Everything happens by his design. The saying Life is a Bitch and then you die. Is correct for so many of us. But the ones who he helps. The ones he keeps his promises too of an abundant life and a joyous life. That saying never utters their lips. They will be welcomed into heaven with open arms and the biggest mansions. Why? because He put us here to give us that abundant happy journey here on Earth. Yeah right for some of us but not all. And He picked those of us out before we were even born. The rest of us... well, they say he as a sense of humor.So I guess we are his laughing stock. We plead and beg for mercy,for abundance, for a happy life. Hahaha he goes I have my few chosen picked out... the rest of you are my puppets. I can't make everybody happy. I have to have some fun up here laughing at you idiots for begging pleading... people nothings going to happen but I do enjoy laughing at you when you do it.
So that's our loving caring no good god,for some of us not all, in a nut shell.
By anonymous at 23,May,15 21:33

I couldn't have said it any better myself...
By Matt Thomas at 15,Oct,15 10:24 Fold Up

I understand how you feel. You are more perceptive than most.

By anonymous at 04,Apr,14 22:27

I hate my fucking life right now. I don't see how some are chosen to have such wonderful lives and the rest of us are left like abandon dogs. I pray everyday and non of my fucking prayers have been answered.god always tries to find ways to belittle me in front of people like I'm nothing but a piece of shit,yet I am to praise him FOR WHAT? for letting me cry myself to sleep every night and watch others around me have fun and a good life ,for giving me false hope,opening a door for me so he can slam it in my face. From taking things away from me that I worked like a dog to have. I love how the bible says pray and you shall receive BULLSHIT!!!!!
By anonymous at 23,May,15 21:35

Again, I couldn't have said it better myself...
By anonymous at 21,Dec,15 19:16 Fold Up

You are not alone never forget are only one of so menny moor out there.
By anonymous at 30,Mar,16 17:31 Fold Up

You guys are saying bad things about God never do it again
By anonymous at 20,May,16 03:35

You are clearly indoctrinated and brainwashed.

By anonymous at 01,Aug,14 01:41

you are right, because it is happenining to me too, i face same issue, any good chance i will have to get, god will put his power to take it from me, before i was love god, but now, i see it clearly, god hate me, as he hate you too, he don't diserve we love him or worship him, i am sorry because i was follow him, i am sorry because i was worship him, the point is after i left him till now, he follow me, he take everything away from me, i need solve him out of my life, i hate him, i hate god
By anonymous at 13,Sep,14 11:55

god never lets me get a living job, always makes me have to live in shit holes with scum of the earth neighbors. can fix my car and he wills it to break again keeping me in credit card debt to support my kids. what an asshole god. not to mention all the health problems on my children. I can see now instead of treating other people nice all my life I should have been an asshole to people. I guess that's what it takes to get good paying job and nice home and healthing family
By anonymous at 07,Apr,15 02:42

Where is god?
By anonymous at 30,Mar,16 17:31

In heaven and in our hearts

By tmd at 13,Sep,14 23:46

No job, no money no car, no home, daughter with mental issues, hit by her, called names by her. I have really tried to believe god would help me, but every chance I get ends up slammed in my face. Seems only a select few get any type of blessings. Yes I feel like I am just a joke to him. I am on the verge if thinking it's all just something created to scare ppl to be good. So so tired of it all. Desperately need a break. If there is a god, can you please help me and my family. I am to tired and too old to keep this up.
By anonymous at 06,Dec,14 06:34

I feel the same way. I am nice to other and get shit on. But people who are nasty are getting stuff.
By anonymous at 23,May,15 21:36


By God will condemn you now at 25,Mar,15 19:26

It is clear that God hates so many of us. I don't know why. I have a deformed spine and front left rib cage because my father beat me so bad before I was six. After he left, my mother went so far as to beat me with a hammer. My southern Baptist grandfather made sure I knew that left handed people are an abomination. I had teachers who beat me if I touched anything with my left hand until the fourth grade. Later when I sent my grandfather a photograph of my first born, he sent it back. When I learned how to become good at basketball, an opposing player decided I needed to have my neck fractured from behind. That ended that. What sportsmanship? My high school counselor asked what I was going to do after school. I said, go to college. She said, "what are you going to do the second year?" and handed me a brochure for the army. I went out on my own at fourteen and worked eight different jobs through college graduation. I married. What a mistake. She forged my name to at least two documents per year for twenty years and put me through five major debt restructuring until she was finally arrested for embezzlement. I had to report my whereabouts to the police. Child services was called and I had trouble keeping my children. The prosecuting attorney's wife nailed a very nasty letter to my house. My in-laws made sure that I knew they blamed me for everything. My sister's and cousin did the same. The area radio station had a talk show about how I should be run out of town. And it was aired over the PA system at work for all to hear. I lost my job. Wasn't I the victim? What did the wife say after all that? "Be nice to me or I will do it again." Why did I stay? I made a promise to God, right? I have had patents stolen as well as creative work plagiarized and credit stolen. I have had my work reputation destroyed by my wife to the point that I have worked for some of the most unimaginable and worst human beings you may ever meet. I had a fellow employee decide to run me down as a pedestrian and destroy my knee. I had a truck driver decide that I needed to be rear ended so bad that it took four hours to cut me out of the wreckage and three years to learn to walk again. Yet, I have continued on, repaid all of the $750,000 my wife has stolen from me and what she stole from others on top of that. You will find out that you can count the number of friends you have on one hand and the church definitely will not be there for you. I moved my career in a new direction and have led companies to success and helped provide very good jobs. I volunteer often and help the homeless. My oldest two have now graduated college and my other two children will be there soon. Does God hate me? Absolutely! He will condemn some of us and pass judgment while we are still alive. There is a lot in the bible to support the idea that he passes judgment at any time and not only after death. What did Eli do? It is hard to move on everyday but maybe I can help someone else, be a good leader or just be kind to someone else tomorrow. I have stood behind my children when they struggled and when the incredibly bizarre school system did absolutely ridiculous things that only hurt children and drained the community paying their wages. My suicide attempt failed in 2003. I wish it hadn't but a quiet moment now with my children or the few peaceful moments in life, and they are few, bring some peace for a short time. I don't know why I pray to the one who hates me but I pray every night that perhaps someone won't be hurting me in the middle of the night. Then morning comes and there is always someone right there ready to steal from you, lie to you, lie about you and hurt you some more. Is God there for all of us? No. But it is true that if the father stays in the home and stands behind his children, the children will turn out well. I continue on for others. As for God, he wants me to suffer.
By anonymous at 11,Dec,15 02:34

I say the same thing. I can't understand it. Some people have it all. Nasty horrible people that god helps. unlike the rest of us who have suffered in many ways but have nothing
By anonymous at 13,May,16 13:52

There is No such thing as GOD it religion is away the roman government used to control the masses and it got out of hand
By anonymous at 20,May,16 03:38 Fold Up

Yes. Why can't people like Donald Trump suffer the way we have to? He's an evil, vile subhuman and deserves nothing but a hellish existence. We deserve better.

By Loser at 23,Jun,15 03:32

I can say with out question. Most of u would have killed yourselves if u lived my life. Funny thing is I'm a coward and won't kill myself. Nothing can be worse than hating ur self and God hating u. Not to mention I am a high school drop out with a bad conduct discharge from USMC. I have a messed up wife and autistic son. Plus a Baby dick included. No skills or talents. Do not socialize well. Dead end job.

By anonymous at 18,Jul,15 23:11

I am divorced from a sociopath who has tormented me and torn my life apart for years. He has charmed all of my friends into backstabbing me, and he's gotten away with all of it, all while destroying my reputation. I have learned that god does hate some people and we are helpless to change that.
By anonymous at 10,Oct,15 04:38

Just believe. Faith is the key.

By anonymous at 15,Sep,15 20:37

Sadly, I am glad to see I am not alone. I say sadly because NO ONE should feel so unloved, unwanted, or hated by their "father".
I have been through hell for so long and it continues to get worse and worse, never better. I have had the rug yanked out from under me just as I think there might be a shred of hope. I am feeling so hopeless and depressed at this point that I am starting to have suicidal thoughts.
I thought about pouring out my story here, but what would be the point? I literally have nothing -- no friends, no family, no job, no money. The list goes on and on. I have lost everything and it just seems to keep going, with no end in sight. And no matter what I try to do, I get the door slammed in my face. I have prayed for so long for absolutely no answers. I sincerely do not understand why God is doing this to me. To make matters worse, he makes me watch bad people continue to do bad things without consequences and get tons of rewards and good things happen for them. Its not fair and I do not understand why he is being so cruel. I swear I hear nothing but laughter anymore when I pray...
By anonymous at 10,Oct,15 04:41

that is the devil laughing.
By anonymous at 20,May,16 03:42 Fold Up

Same here. I ask and ask why was a I chosen for a life of torment and all I get is more torment for being a good person. I think God, if there is one, is a sadist who picks and chooses who he wants to torment or reward on a whim. We are just as worthwhile and deserving of good things as anyone else.

By anonymous at 10,Oct,15 04:36

God only helps those who helps themselves. Quit being in a pitty party and such it up.

By anonymous at 27,Oct,15 14:20

Thank you for all of your honest comments. By the way, If anyone is offended by the cussing its because you have not truly suffered. Yea, maybe once here or there but not a life of suffering. The frustration is unimaginable. I really pray that God will at least give me the words to comfort. As a minister I have used cliche sayings and pat answers which are useless. I'm convicted of churchy smiles and fake attitudes. NO more. The only answer I know is to take my eyes off this unfair world, but that's hard when the pain is so bad. What if you have truly given your life away and still there is nothing but pain and anguish? What then? This gumball machine answer of do good and good things will happen is not always so. It may never get any better than it is right now. Like it or not folks, that is reality and no I'm not downing God this is just the truth. Job may have received double portion but that is no guarantee that you will. God please change my attitude no matter what. I want to help all these people who feel like I do, God please give me the answer! (Please do not answer this with another cliche...been there, done that, don't bother)

By anonymous at 10,Nov,15 13:05

Have any of you who think god hates you considered the probability that he doesn't exist? I've had 40 years to ponder this. I was a devout Christian until I left home. It only took 34 years to figure that out. Essentially I've been dead for that time. I'm a corpse with insomnia. After meeting the love of my life I had her ripped from my life. Since then I cannot count the number of prayers I've prayed. They all failed. Failed. Failed. Failed. So, no one listening.
By anonymous at 26,Apr,16 08:21

Yours is the only post I disagree on. God is very real, I know it all too well. I feel the same way most people do, though. Like He doesn't care at all. Especially, with those who call themselves His followers and what they say and do. I hate them and I hate him for meeting them getting away with things. It's deplorable.

By Hopeful at 19,Nov,15 16:13

I copy this text in many pages...( sorry about that)
I want to help people...
help them to fing out way...
(sorry, I can't talk english very well)

I want to offer you something , that it can change all of your life.
there are a lot of lies about Islam and muslims..
some terrorist (they are not muslim.), trying to scare people from this religion.
but Islam is best thing you can experience.
there are two group in Islam ...Sunni and Shia.
Shia is the right path in islam. but there are a lot of people that doing wrong thing and call themself shia muslims!
for example, hurting themself with knife! they are liers.
so, I suggest you to search about shia.
but be careful.
because there are a lot of lies about it on the internet,books, etc
just try to find reality....
( read about Imam Hussain, but be careful about liers!)
thanks for reading...
By anonymous at 26,Feb,16 22:46

Thank you
By anonymous at 26,Feb,16 22:51

Also, I agree with the comment that no "loving" father would let his children suffer. I've just come to believe in survival of the fittest and the genetic code. F- "God" if he exist.
By anonymous at 26,Apr,16 08:22 Fold Up

No, is not.

By anonymous at 03,Apr,16 22:51

God will sell us out. He allowed me to be born into one
Chucked up childhood.

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