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Why does God hate me?

Posted by ME at March 28, 2011
Tags: 2011 March  Philosophical

I feel like the past 4 years God has been using me like a piece of tissue to wipe his ass crack. Why? I didn't do anything to him. In fact, all I did was try to make good decisions, and keep my head up when ish came my way, and keep my eyes on the prize when people were trying to push me down, and even just be a good person and treat people well. But person after person seemingly randomly out of thin air just comes along trying to shit on me like I did something to them. I try to make moves and they go nowhere. When life just feels like too much I just try to keep putting one foot in front of the other, and eventually I may feel a little better, but the facts of life remain the same. People keep telling me that things will get better but then they don't. People keep telling me that I'll get this and that and the other thing or something great will happen or whatever, but it doesn't. I wish they would just shut the hell up with their prophesying I am sick to death of hearing about it. And no I can't be thankful or joyful, about the only thing I have to be thankful for is that I'm not homeless, and yes I do recognize that it could get worse, but it only seems like a ticking time bomb to me, not something to be joyful about. I really don't know what I'm doing wrong. Although now I have come to realize that just because something bad happens doesn't mean I did something wrong. Okay, but to be kept down like this for so so long... what is that all about? I don't get it. As far as I see it, the rest of my life isn't going to be that great anyway, but could you at least allow me to function? Like a normal person? Why do you keep giving me shit?


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By anonymous at 06,Oct,12 20:37

I wish i knew why God allows so many bad things to happen to nice people. nice people who are gentle, kind, always helps others and never ever bully or mistreat others. the Devil is allowed to wrack havoc and pain on us. I just don't understand it at all. Also- why does God or the Devil allow always GOOD things for Bad people? Why can't the Devil and its horrible demons just go away from us all right now? Why can't GOD intervene and protect us all from all the suffering and bad luck we are having? I just don't understand it
By anonymous at 30,Nov,12 10:42

Because they are supposed to be enjoying the rest of their mortal lives so in the end they could burn in hell for eternity. While the faithful ones stick by god through the worst imaginable (do you even know the amount of suffering that man went through just to have our sins forgiven? : passion of the christ) so they could die and live an eternity in perfect bliss
By anonymous at 28,Jul,15 12:35

This is a crock of SHIT God does not exist - God is the DEVIL did you not know that! Only good things happen to those who have money. So unfornately everyone is fucked in the ass by GOD if he really does exist - ha ha ha

If you have studied it was just a bunch of guys writing tablets that were nothing but stories - can anyone really prove this?
By anonymous at 18,Feb,16 20:52

I can bodies are I corrupt from many of years
By anonymous at 31,May,16 13:10 Fold Up

Satan is waiting for you
By anonymous at 31,May,16 13:12 Fold Up

By anonymous at 08,Oct,15 22:00 Fold Up

What a crock of shit .
By anonymous at 31,May,16 13:11

You think?
By anonymous at 28,Aug,16 22:10 Fold Up

WE are not Jesus!! He died on the cross for all, but he still treats me like a step child. I feel he's got too many issues other than mines to worry about me.
By anonymous at 25,Apr,13 18:13 Fold Up

It's simple, God does not intervene in our lives. You can wish for it all you want but the fact is he doesn't cause good or bad to happen, he allows us to have free will, intervention completely contradicts free will.
By anonymous at 08,Dec,14 12:52

Nothing happens in this world that God does not want to happen.
By Matt Thomas at 06,Oct,15 11:22

If He is all powerful, that is a logically inescapable conclusion. Bertrand Russell said it so well with, "If God is omnipotent, nothing outside His will can occur". Think it through.
By anonymous at 03,May,15 23:18 Fold Up

Cause he don't care
By anonymous at 10,Sep,13 14:38 Fold Up

by anonymous 09,sept12
god loves everyone he hates the act of sin that's why we are separated from him but by having a relationship with Jesus who paid the price for our sins allows us the relationship with God and spend eternity with him in heaven Jesus can bring you peace if you let him and trust in him ask him for the forgiveness of your sins
By anonymous at 21,Dec,15 19:02

I have been saved be for moor than what,s but God still hates me to.he is the father of lies.
By anonymous at 30,Mar,16 17:29 Fold Up

Why would you guys say those things about God he loves us more than anything he has a plan for each and one of us and everything in life is part of it.
By anonymous at 26,Jan,17 19:34

Iam so sick of hearing the same ole lies...God has a plan for you....God has a plan for you...but it NEVER materializes! I am almost 60 years old and have been waiting for over 16 years for this so-called "plan" he has for me...I don't believe anymore..
By anonymous at 21,Nov,17 18:45 Fold Up

He's doing a piss poor job of showing it then.

By anonymous at 04,Apr,14 22:27

I hate my fucking life right now. I don't see how some are chosen to have such wonderful lives and the rest of us are left like abandon dogs. I pray everyday and non of my fucking prayers have been answered.god always tries to find ways to belittle me in front of people like I'm nothing but a piece of shit,yet I am to praise him FOR WHAT? for letting me cry myself to sleep every night and watch others around me have fun and a good life ,for giving me false hope,opening a door for me so he can slam it in my face. From taking things away from me that I worked like a dog to have. I love how the bible says pray and you shall receive BULLSHIT!!!!!
By anonymous at 23,May,15 21:35

Again, I couldn't have said it better myself...
By anonymous at 21,Dec,15 19:16 Fold Up

You are not alone never forget are only one of so menny moor out there.
By anonymous at 30,Mar,16 17:31 Fold Up

You guys are saying bad things about God never do it again
By anonymous at 20,May,16 03:35

You are clearly indoctrinated and brainwashed.
By anonymous at 26,Jan,17 19:36 Fold Up

I absolutely know what you are talking about...I see people who have never ever been "tested" to show their faith and God just dumps blessing after blessing on them! And then there are those of us who have beleived and been tested horribly and nothing ever changes! Just hell on earth and hell in eternity if you don't keep faith in sucks!!

By anonymous at 01,Aug,14 01:41

you are right, because it is happenining to me too, i face same issue, any good chance i will have to get, god will put his power to take it from me, before i was love god, but now, i see it clearly, god hate me, as he hate you too, he don't diserve we love him or worship him, i am sorry because i was follow him, i am sorry because i was worship him, the point is after i left him till now, he follow me, he take everything away from me, i need solve him out of my life, i hate him, i hate god
By anonymous at 13,Sep,14 11:55

god never lets me get a living job, always makes me have to live in shit holes with scum of the earth neighbors. can fix my car and he wills it to break again keeping me in credit card debt to support my kids. what an asshole god. not to mention all the health problems on my children. I can see now instead of treating other people nice all my life I should have been an asshole to people. I guess that's what it takes to get good paying job and nice home and healthing family
By anonymous at 07,Apr,15 02:42

Where is god?
By anonymous at 30,Mar,16 17:31

In heaven and in our hearts
By anonymous at 26,Jan,17 19:38


By God will condemn you now at 25,Mar,15 19:26

It is clear that God hates so many of us. I don't know why. I have a deformed spine and front left rib cage because my father beat me so bad before I was six. After he left, my mother went so far as to beat me with a hammer. My southern Baptist grandfather made sure I knew that left handed people are an abomination. I had teachers who beat me if I touched anything with my left hand until the fourth grade. Later when I sent my grandfather a photograph of my first born, he sent it back. When I learned how to become good at basketball, an opposing player decided I needed to have my neck fractured from behind. That ended that. What sportsmanship? My high school counselor asked what I was going to do after school. I said, go to college. She said, "what are you going to do the second year?" and handed me a brochure for the army. I went out on my own at fourteen and worked eight different jobs through college graduation. I married. What a mistake. She forged my name to at least two documents per year for twenty years and put me through five major debt restructuring until she was finally arrested for embezzlement. I had to report my whereabouts to the police. Child services was called and I had trouble keeping my children. The prosecuting attorney's wife nailed a very nasty letter to my house. My in-laws made sure that I knew they blamed me for everything. My sister's and cousin did the same. The area radio station had a talk show about how I should be run out of town. And it was aired over the PA system at work for all to hear. I lost my job. Wasn't I the victim? What did the wife say after all that? "Be nice to me or I will do it again." Why did I stay? I made a promise to God, right? I have had patents stolen as well as creative work plagiarized and credit stolen. I have had my work reputation destroyed by my wife to the point that I have worked for some of the most unimaginable and worst human beings you may ever meet. I had a fellow employee decide to run me down as a pedestrian and destroy my knee. I had a truck driver decide that I needed to be rear ended so bad that it took four hours to cut me out of the wreckage and three years to learn to walk again. Yet, I have continued on, repaid all of the $750,000 my wife has stolen from me and what she stole from others on top of that. You will find out that you can count the number of friends you have on one hand and the church definitely will not be there for you. I moved my career in a new direction and have led companies to success and helped provide very good jobs. I volunteer often and help the homeless. My oldest two have now graduated college and my other two children will be there soon. Does God hate me? Absolutely! He will condemn some of us and pass judgment while we are still alive. There is a lot in the bible to support the idea that he passes judgment at any time and not only after death. What did Eli do? It is hard to move on everyday but maybe I can help someone else, be a good leader or just be kind to someone else tomorrow. I have stood behind my children when they struggled and when the incredibly bizarre school system did absolutely ridiculous things that only hurt children and drained the community paying their wages. My suicide attempt failed in 2003. I wish it hadn't but a quiet moment now with my children or the few peaceful moments in life, and they are few, bring some peace for a short time. I don't know why I pray to the one who hates me but I pray every night that perhaps someone won't be hurting me in the middle of the night. Then morning comes and there is always someone right there ready to steal from you, lie to you, lie about you and hurt you some more. Is God there for all of us? No. But it is true that if the father stays in the home and stands behind his children, the children will turn out well. I continue on for others. As for God, he wants me to suffer.
By anonymous at 11,Dec,15 02:34

I say the same thing. I can't understand it. Some people have it all. Nasty horrible people that god helps. unlike the rest of us who have suffered in many ways but have nothing
By anonymous at 13,May,16 13:52

There is No such thing as GOD it religion is away the roman government used to control the masses and it got out of hand
By anonymous at 20,May,16 03:38 Fold Up

Yes. Why can't people like Donald Trump suffer the way we have to? He's an evil, vile subhuman and deserves nothing but a hellish existence. We deserve better.
By anonymous at 26,Jan,17 19:41

Donald Trump is a GOOD man and you are wrong about him! Just because he made a success out of his life everone is jealous of him! We love Donald Trump!

By anonymous at 15,Sep,15 20:37

Sadly, I am glad to see I am not alone. I say sadly because NO ONE should feel so unloved, unwanted, or hated by their "father".
I have been through hell for so long and it continues to get worse and worse, never better. I have had the rug yanked out from under me just as I think there might be a shred of hope. I am feeling so hopeless and depressed at this point that I am starting to have suicidal thoughts.
I thought about pouring out my story here, but what would be the point? I literally have nothing -- no friends, no family, no job, no money. The list goes on and on. I have lost everything and it just seems to keep going, with no end in sight. And no matter what I try to do, I get the door slammed in my face. I have prayed for so long for absolutely no answers. I sincerely do not understand why God is doing this to me. To make matters worse, he makes me watch bad people continue to do bad things without consequences and get tons of rewards and good things happen for them. Its not fair and I do not understand why he is being so cruel. I swear I hear nothing but laughter anymore when I pray...
By anonymous at 10,Oct,15 04:41

that is the devil laughing.
By anonymous at 20,May,16 03:42 Fold Up

Same here. I ask and ask why was a I chosen for a life of torment and all I get is more torment for being a good person. I think God, if there is one, is a sadist who picks and chooses who he wants to torment or reward on a whim. We are just as worthwhile and deserving of good things as anyone else.
By anonymous at 22,Jun,17 02:10 Fold Up

I am all of you, I felt alone in this birthed to seek his love and never get any love at all. He let's satan let up on us enuf to grow out some limbs and then watches as he saws it off again, our tree of life, us, deeper the next time, withers us, gives us some water, wither's us, the most caring , non bs, real loving, genuine people are forgotten here, just left as toy's, for satan, as we more fun to hurt, WHY WON'T HE HELP,?? I HAD A NDE I SAW HOME, WHY DOESN'T HE HELP US HAVE SOME LIFE HERE?? REAL AND GOOD AND NORMAL AND SAFE AND LOVE, OH FOLKS, I FELT IT WAS ONLY ME, I HAD PRAYED IT WAS AND GAVE AWAY PRAYERS TOO,,,,,,,,,,OH GOD HELP US.

By anonymous at 11,Jul,16 12:27

God only takes care of who he wants. The rest of us he doesn't give a shit how unhappy we are. Murderers, rapists and child molesters get what they want, no matter how good I am I get spit on by God. That's a fact.

By anonymous at 11,Jul,16 12:28

If God was so loving and caring why do o many people suffer? Nobody has an answer for that. Or it's some bullshit answer of God has another plan... Ya, a plan of suffering and unhappiness. PERIOD!

By anonymous at 11,Jul,16 12:30

I've begged God for some relief for so long I can't even remember. Everyday he spits in my face and does nothing. He obviously doesn't care about our relationship either because I get angrier and more depressed everyday. Thanks God!

By anonymous at 11,Jul,16 12:37

No loving Father would let his child suffer like this so called God does. We are taught to love and have compassion. Where is God's love and compassion? If you aren't one of the chosen few you are fucked. God doesn't give a rats ass about you!

By anonymous at 11,Jul,16 12:44

God has pushed me away from him and doesn't give a shit if we have a relationship. And don't give me this shit about him testing me. Is he a fucking game player? How fucking rotten and cruel. If I love somebody I show them, I don't play fucking games. I don't make them guess.

By anonymous at 22,Nov,16 17:22

There is not god, its all an illusion for the hopefuls; they hope and hope and dye hoping, hope only makes people miserable when nothing positive comes along, what does exist is the fucked-up society on this this planet.

By anonymous at 24,Nov,16 19:56

I agree with the others. I tried to do right in life helping others only to get shit on, cursed at, and belittled. I had cheating boyfriend, and a spouse who cheated on me. Seems the more I helped others, the more I got slammed in the dirt. Since God doesn't care, I am considering going with the one who is destroying me. He won anyway, and it's the devil.

By anonymous at 24,Nov,16 20:01

If God existed, he wouldn't be treating me this way by allowing tormenting from family and so called friends. By giving then taking away. All my friends living it up, and I suffer. I will live the way he wants and that is under a rock. In a shell, away from his glorified ones, He abanded me, so why should I live for him. I'm done

By anonymous at 01,Mar,17 03:49

O God i have the slightest belief that you Exist i know the bible says even faith as small as a mustard seed can move mountains.What is happening to me now i don't understand. The shame and reproach is becoming unbearable. i need you to send me an angel am very unhappy that you seem to have failed many people here who trusted you in the past. If you still love us please show yourself mightily in the lives of each and everyone of us.Because a prayer without love in it will not be answered.

By anonymous at 25,Mar,17 16:19

I have been pulverized to dust from life and have nothing left. I pray, pray, pray and pray. I am so lonely. After a terrible childhood I married badly and the only reason they keep me around is to take care of there ill and dying parents. I am so exhausted I don't know what to do. I am to exhausted to commit suicide and think it is a sin. I was told By a minister psychic medium that if I go I will just have to come back and redo this life. I would not wish that on anyone.

By E.GLENN at 27,Mar,17 20:52


By anonymous at 04,Apr,17 04:35

fuck god he has done nothing to make me good at anything so fuck god

By anonymous at 02,May,17 21:01

Hey. Yeah I know exactly what you feel. I'm a single mom of 2 kids, all I do is work, I have no friends, I have no life, I just work. I say that God hates me, I'm convinced of it. I can't get ahead, and nobody cares. All I do is work to support my family, and for that I've been stamped "REJECTED" by the hand of God. There is no answer, and nobody cares. All we can do is survive. I have a way out, when it gets too bad...God Bless the Constitution...I have a licensed pistol with a slew of hollow point bullets. When I'm done, I'm done. I can work myself to death, but I will not end up in a nursing home or living on machines. I will leave this earth on my own terms. God doesn't care, so why should I?

By anonymous at 26,Jun,17 14:37

It's easy to see. God helps who he wants and the rest of us are fucked. Where is this great loving God ? Nowhere to be found, yet thieves, rapists, child molesters and such continue to get what they want and we who try to do right and are good people just get fucked. Ya, that sure is a loving God. Nothing but fucking lies...

By anonymous at 17,Aug,17 16:30

I have felt the same way for a very long time, that God actually hates me, and that I am not deemed one of His favorites. I've had some great opportunities that I allowed to slip away because I wanted the pleasure of customizing my own life, and making myself successful, without someone else having to do everything for me, and therefore getting all the credit and respect...not to mention, I wanted to build something called "character" something produced through perseverance and over-coming my obstacles. Unfortunately, the people in my life, and the guilt and shame of past mistakes, coupled with the fact that I don't even have the decency of something called "privacy", has left me depleted and looking like shit. In spite of my mistakes, several abortions in the past, which I realize was wrong, I still have always tried to treat people with respect, and have usually put their needs in front of mine. I pray to God for strength and confidence again, but I don't get a positive answer... I said all this, to say that, even though I accepted Christ as my personal savior, I was INFORMED BY SOMEONE IN THE MINISTRY, THAT GOD CANNOT ANSWER THE PRAYERS OF THOSE WHO HAVE NOT MADE HIM THEIR PERSONAL SAVIOR, ****ADDITIONALLY, HE DOES NOT HELP THOSE "THAT MUCH" UNLESS THEY ARE "SOLD OUT TO HIM", THAT MEANS, COMPLETELY OBEYING HIS WILL FOR YOUR LIFE...YES, HE WILL GIVE YOU A WHILE TO GET TO KNOW HIM, AND GET YOUR LIFE IN LINE WITH HIS WILL, BUT AFTER A CERTAIN AMOUNT OF TIME UNDER HIS WINGS, PROVIDED YOU HAVE ACCEPTED HIM AS YOUR PERSONAL SAVIOR, IF YOU DO NOT SPEND YOUR LIFE SEEKING TO SERVE AND PLEASE HIM, HE WILL "SPEW(SPIT) YOU OUT OF HIS MOUTH." (SCRIPTURE) SO, WHEN THAT OCCURS, EITHER BECAUSE YOU HAVEN'T ACCEPTED HIM, OR YOU'RE NOT SURRENDERING YOUR WILL TO HIM, THEN YOU ARE OUT IN THE "DARK" WITHOUT ANY COVERING...THE DEVIL CAN DO WITH YOU AS HE PLEASES, BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT IN COVENANT WITH GOD, AND NOT UNDER HIS UMBRELLA....IT IS SIMPLY HIS GRACE THAT THINGS DON'T GET MUCH WORST. WHY DID I EVEN BOTHER TO WRITE THIS COMMENTARY? WELL, I GUESS BECAUSE I'VE GROWN UP KNOWING ABOUT THE LORD FOR A LONG TIME, BUT I DON'T ALWAYS WANT TO SERVE HIM, BUT I DO SOME, MAYBE EVEN MOST OF THE TIME. MY PROBLEM CAME IN WHEN I BEGAN, AS I'M DOING NOW, WORRYING ABOUT THE OPINION OF MAN, THAT MADE ME FEEL BAD ABOUT WHO I WAS TRYING TO BE IN CHRIST. BUT I DON'T JUST BLAME THEM, I BLAME MYSELF FOR BEING DOUBLE-MINDED, AND WANTED TO BOTH PLEASE GOD, MYSELF AND OTHER PEOPLE AT TIMES, SOMETHING I THOUGHT AT ONE TIME CONQUERED AT ONE TIME. THE OTHER REASON I WROTE THIS IS SO THAT PEOPLE WHO SEE THIS WILL KNOW THAT THEIR ARE SPIRITUAL LAWS IN THIS WORLD, AND LIKE NATURAL LAWS, IF THEY ARE NOT HEEDED, THEY'RE ARE CONSEQUENCES...IT MAY NOT BE THAT GOD HATES YOU, BUT THAT HE IS TRYING TO GET YOU TO ACCEPT HIM AND LIVE "fully" for HIM....THIS IS WHERE MY PROBLEM IS, WHY I'm so conflicted and angry. Wish you all the best. Please no hate, I am not trying to offend anyone or be dogmatic. I understand many will disagree with these views; it is just another perspective that I happen to know about and shared.

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By anonymous at 05,Oct,17 20:54

At 66, it seems like my whole Life has been one mistake after another. No matter what choice I make it is always the wrong one. I have prayed and prayed but it does no good and I get no answer. People have told me to have patience, that God will answer in "his" own time. Well I am 66 years old and I don't have a lot of time left. Others have said "god might be telling me NO. So god wants me to be one step away from homeless and in ill health and divorced and broke so I can't pay my bills. I keep hearing about how wonderful and kind and wise. All I can say is god is an evil SOB.

By anonymous at 30,Dec,17 02:42

I grew up with god in my life. I had faith, even when life didn't go my way, I believed there was a reason. Now I stand accused of crimes I did not do. Accusation of which I could never plea too, as i would then be lying. My faith in god and the judicial system is shot. I have been homeless and removed from life by one persons lie. It is true that a high very high percentage of domestic violence are true but the one that are innocent of theses crime have to prove their innocence beyond a showdown of dought , not innocent until proven guilty. I feel for the woman that suffer from this parrel but just once think of the men who are charged by a vengeful manipulative psychopathic liar and is smart enough to get away with it because she knows he courts are on her side from the start. If there is a god where is he for the innocent. Will she be punished for her perjury. So far god is nowhere to be found. God must hate me. Yet I still pray for her to get help. Where is my god why tell me why he can be so cruel.
By anonymous at 30,Dec,17 02:52

I will take my own life for a world like this is not worth living in. Fuck you god for not being there. I still pray that you get her help.

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