| | Posted by joykill at January 14, 2012 |
i just wanted to say that my agony inside doesnt come from one direct issue or disappointment . its a combination of little shit that just builds up. its this feeling i have in my gut, like someone just punched me in the stomach. this feeling is hallow and very heavy. its weighs my entire body down to a apoint where i have no motivation t really move or do anything. there are things that make me feel better about myself and my situation but when i am doing these things i take a step back and look at what im doin and i just knock myself down a few steps. its almost like i am going on a first date with myself when i get ready and that i am trying to convince myself that i am beautiful and worth it and fun and freindly. i try to tell myself im a good person and people like me and that i like myself too. but i take a step back an no one likes me no one wnts to be my friend. im 20 an all i have is my BF and thats it. i log onto these social media cites and everyone else is having so much fun every weekend and all i do is sit in my room and cry and mope around. FML is so pathetic, i wish i felt a warm feeling of purpose and passion running through me,but all i feel is this heavy empty feeling inside. |
| | Posted by anonymous at January 13, 2012 |
Life is what you make out of it. It's all in the mind. If your mind is weak you will lead a life of failure if your mind is strong you will lead a life of success.
There is no magical entity dictating how your life goes. There is no unknown force keeping you away from that person you want to be.
The only thing that keeps you from being what you want to be is you and only you and nothing more.
The mind can either be your greatest tool or your worst enemy it can destroy you or make you do amazing things the difference is how you cope and work with it that sets you apart from the rest.
Be strong take bold moves forget the world and set your mind on a path and you will get there.
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| | Posted by anonymous at January 8, 2012 |
I'm a 21 year old white male, and I recently got terrible news. For various reasons, I won't be able to graduate from college, despite putting time, effort, and money into it for over three years. I haven't had much help. My family is fairly supportive mentally but never materially. I have been nearly homeless, hungry, and afraid as my parents sat back and used their drugs of choice.
I don't believe in God, and I don't believe in humanity. People are motivated by greed and will be as lazy, stupid, and cruel as they can get away with. I've seen things firsthand and through sources like books and the Internet that have robbed me of faith. I've seen a man torture and rape an infant child on camera, and I know there are children out there being hurt as I type, with nothing and no one to help them. They will most likely grow up, if they do grow up, as twisted husks of sadness and agents of cruelty in their own right.
I lament for those children. I cry for the abused dog, for the smallest arbitrary act of evil, the complete pointlessness of the struggle and the reward, whether you "win" or "lose" by the standards of an unremarkable and superstitious majority, is death in all cases. I have been in good situations and bad situations, been comfortable monetarily and in want, alone and with a beautiful woman. Nothing changes. The only reason I haven't killed myself outright is the simple fact that there was a time I can remember that I didn't long ... |
| | Posted by anonymous at January 7, 2012 |
I should have the perfect life. My parents love each other, I get along with my siblings, I'm already set for college even though I'm only a sophomore in high school. I get all A's (literally), I have friends, I have a church family. But somehow, I hate my life.
Everyday goes by in a flash, and I never accomplish anything. There is no logical answer as to what my point here on Earth is. I even doubt my faith. I've been a Christian my whole life, I go to church every Sunday. Yet somehow, I just can't comprehend that God is real. Everyone I'm friends with and everyone I'm related to are Christians, and I can't live up to their standards.
Everyone looks at me and says "Wow, she must not have any problems at all. Her life is perfect." Lies. My life is perfect for someone else.
I want to face problems, actually have to do something with my life. I want to go live in Iraq and Somalia. I want to be faced with hardships. I want to help other people. How the heck am I supposed to help if the best I can do currently is donate 2 pieces of rice for doing some stupid vocabulary?
I don't know what to believe. But I want somebody to know what I'm feeling. No, I don't want pity. Yes, I want to tell what I've been hiding.
And even this story is a lie. Me? Go out and help people? I'm scared to talk to boys. I'll probably go through life find a nice boy and live the average American Dream. I don't want that. And I know I'm selfish for saying that. Millions, billions of people wish to have enough food for the day.
I am a bitch. My life should be the best. And I take all of it for granted.
I want to be a better person, I want to not throw my life down the shithole, I want to stop abusing the internet, I want to be happy. But I never take the first step. |
| | Posted by Jbaker at January 7, 2012 |
When you're young, why don't your parents ever tell you life just gets harder and harder? Well, call me J, I'm 6 feet tall, blonde hair, hazel eyes and I'm homosexual. My life has never been that great. My mother is an addict, my father just feeds her addiction because he doesn't know what else to do, my entire family lives 3000 miles from me and I recently found out that I have a brother that was given up for adoption when i was 1 year old. don't get me wrong, I have great memories and I turned out to be a good person, but sometimes life feels like a sink hole I can't seem to get out of. I was recently studying to get a bachelors degree in fashion design, but found out a couple weeks ago that due to my lack of attendence I was withdrawn. So now, 2 years and 35,000 dollars later I have nothing to show for it, I can't even tell my family because I'm ashamed. Right now I work as a dancer at a night club and I make the perfect amount of money, but I hate it. My body is in pain constantly, I think I have a dislocated virtibrae, but I haven't had health insurance for over 4 years now so I can't even get myself checked out. I don't know what to do with myself. The only thing keeping me going is my boyfriend Tyler. We've been together a year and a half now and he is my rock. He reminds me to keep my chin up (which hasn't been easy lately) and to keep going, never give up...but I am giving up...slowly but surely. I'm lost. |
| | Posted by ladiesmen217 at January 6, 2012 |
"Tell your story about how life sucks" Well, I dont know if I can even tell that it sucks, because I have all my family members alive, my parents are good people and they love me, I'm not starving like some unlucky people, I don't have a deadly disease. Basically I have all to survive and to live normal(more or less), and I'm only beginning to live. But I am different than most people I have met, not that I am afraid of speaking to someone, or that I hate everybody, It's just that I seem very cold. And people don't like that. I look nice so I attract many people, many want to get to know with me( there are even many girls that I have rejected and I already regreted it while I was rejecting them, lol, but I just couldn't make any mistake, :((( life sucks). But I don't care much about them and I don't speak very much so they all get dissapointed, but I still don't care. And since most of the people(the big stupid mass) where I live tend to be the same and follow the -traditional- behavior, or whatever, I don't know how to say it properly, I hate this place. How to become friends with such people? What to talk about? Some stupid everyday things that are server on TV or about makeup or poeple's stupid problems that they can't solve because they are idiots who think with their emotions? And to get drunk or to do something that everyone does? Why? ... And lately I have discovered that there is actually a group of people in this small town that suits me, they all have modern way... |
| | Posted by anonymous at January 6, 2012 |
I'll be 45 this year, single woman, never married, no children. Only child and my parents and grandparents have died recently. I haven't been in a relationship in over 15 years because I knew my baggage was too much for anyone else to be asked to carry.
I thought I wanted this. I thought I wanted a career where I made a nice salary and I could do what I wanted. I have wonderful friends but they have lives of their own. Not sure what happened. I used to be pretty, funny and great to be around. Now I'm fat, lonely and sad.
Life was supposed to be such an adventure, but it has turned out to be such a disappointment instead. I quit my job during a recession. Couldn't take it anymore, it was an awful place to work. I stayed upbeat and positive for years longer than I should have at that place.
My life has not been bad enough to be classified as tragic or rich enough to be deemed wonderful. I am squarely in the middle, drifting in the doldrums. A soupy grayish brown space in the universe where nothing ever really happens.
And I probably have 30 more years to go. If given the opportunity, I would hand out my years to terminally ill children like pieces of candy. Someone else could do so much more with this life than I. |
| | Posted by anonymous at January 6, 2012 |
It has been a year since i last post in this website.
Last time I said i wish to kill myself because of my terrible family, my backstabbing classmates/friends and now just some people in my memory that i wish to forget, my pitiful love life and me who never went to college.
Well it did not happen. Something great has happened though still i wud say my life sucks.
I will write here a summary of what happened to me from last year when i last post here.
Well at that time i was very weak because all the people around me made me so. everybody keeps bullying me and keeps telling me i am worthless, useless and they laugh at me after that. During the month of february thats 2011, i spend all my night thinking. i was reviewing all my sad and terrible past. and with those memories i have discovered something that i believe would help me escape this limbo. In my past i have proved that when im alone i can achieve great and unique things. You know when someone stares at me when im working on something i lost my focus and i cant work perfectly but when im alone i can. And also my old classmates(no longer my friends) keeps telling me at that time that i always think nonsense and i later realize they were wrong. My imagination is perfect( i am not crazy).
Soon after that i tried to talk alone, play alone, do everything alone and it makes me feel fine. Then i started to plan and pursue my dreams. My plan was to have my revenge on those who ... |
| | Posted by e at January 5, 2012 |
life sucks, nothing new to me. i often laugh about how horrible it all is. its almost funny, for example , when my father kicked me out when i was 15, i was sheltered somewhere. and i got really depressed there, started cutting, thinking baout suicide. i told the people there some of those things, the end result was that they got scared , thought they would find me lying in my own blood own day, and basically told me i needed to leave and they couldn;t do anything for me. well whatever, i often think God is just some kind is doing it on purpose, making life super miserable and laughing at how we still keep hope and keep going on. i mean i would laugh. |
| | Posted by anonymous at January 5, 2012 |
I somewhat recently have moved a very long way from home. I can't find a job. I can't even get one at a fast food place, I've tried. I live off the money that I made from my other job, which is running out. I don't know what I am going to do when it runs out. I will be homeless.
Really, after a couple months of trying, you start to get really disheartened and depressed. It's tough hearing "no" umpteen times a week. So recently, I haven't even been trying. I have pretty much given up. I wake up, play some video games, watch some TV, and go to sleep. I'm just trying to stretch my money out as long as it can possibly be stretched.
"What about friends and family," you say?
"Well, this is why I suck," I say.
My family is great. They are well off for the most part. Middle middle class, very normal. If I asked them, they would let me stay with them until I got back on my feet, as long as it took. But I won't.
"Now why the fuck would you do that?" you are probably wondering.
Well, I have lied to them every step of the way. I told them I was moving because of a job opening. They don't know that I was ever fired. They don't know that I am not currently working, and haven't been for nearly a year. I'm not going to tell them, I have too much pride.
What I will do is continue on the path I am going on. I am so weak minded that I would rather financially (and likely otherwise) destroy myself than ask for help. I am so weak minded that I am not even going to... |
| | Posted by Sad guy :( at January 4, 2012 |
Where to begin?
First off, the world is all screwed up. 3000 years ago people worked hard to make a living. Today you either work hard and make a living or you dont work and you dont make a living. No progress whatsoever in spite of technology. We are just miserable for longer. Technology was supposed to increace quality of life but it failed miserably.
Secondly, woman dont make sense. I'm sorry if that is offensive. Men don't make sense either but that doesn't make me as sad as I just dont care. Maybe they do make sense and I just dont understand. Who knows?
Thirdly, the dollar is about to collapse and I doubt if Intel will continue to make CPUs if that happens. No more computer games or porn videos. No more internet, pretty soon.
Fourthly, its so hot I cant work without drinking a glass of water every 20 minutes. To you that might seem trivial but, believe me, it is not.
Next, Ron Paul didn't win the Iowa caucus. What is up with that, surely the enlightened civilisation of the USA can see that he is their last chance to avoid becoming Russia.(Bankrupt with nukes) I think the vote counting wasn't so honest. If they are willing to cheat then he wont win and there will be a violent revolution in the USA but the drones will just crush it. Bang-Bang, bye bye free world.
Next, a pretty girl turned me down when I asked her on a date after giving me so many signals that she was interested. Damn noob. (See p... |
| | Posted by zztop at January 4, 2012 |
I always relapse. I feel good for 3 to 9 month then my philosophy of life crumbles and I feel empty and sad.
Then I stay in bed,drink, watch porn, watch youtube and cry.
But after a while I start thinking of how I am going to pull myself through.
Drink coffee. It's some miracle drug.
I hope you all feel better soon. |
| | Posted by "mick" at January 2, 2012 |
I hate to be the bearer of bad news to you people, but life does not suck. You people could stand a few sessions from a good counselor. I've had it rough lately myself over the last 5-7 years.A major house fire,a divorce from my highschool sweetheart,several failed relationships since, but i still have a positive attitude towards life. No matter how bad you think your life is going, there are people worse off than yourself. Everyone has something to be thankful for. For me, it's my son. He's a stellar student(now in college) a great kid, and just a very nice person. My daughter on the other hand, is not. But, I still love her and would do anything for her, despite her horrible attitude and hating me.I just ended an almost 3 year relationship with my girlfriend. It was a mutual desicion, though it hurts. I will get back out on the dating scene soon enough though. There is someone out there for everyone!I know life can be extremely hard at times,and at some points, you think it will never get better. I've had thoughts of ending it in the past, but got professional help, and I now know how to deal with bad things much better. Take heart people, your future is as bright as you make it!!
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| | Posted by luis at January 2, 2012 |
I being reading some of your problem and I thing you people need to get a check of reality all your problem are over weight , divorse , unemployment , have you really think of those problem and see a way out all of them they have it , stop being stupid and man up life is not fair and is not easy but if you have faith and god in you , all this problem have a solution all is up to you and more important they all have an understanding , now I will tell why I talk to all of you with so much power , Imagen a perfect son strong, humble , full of life , good lucky , a dream , a relation with me beyond a dream , 19 years old 210 lbs , 6'2 catcher and play college baseball and he is a prospect to be sign a son to live Proud like I always did , a son that did with me all kind of thing we hunt , fish , dive , together and he goes out and some animal is shooting to no where and my son get hit and kill , and I get up every morning and face my family my two daugther and live for him and for them , Faith is what make me go and the love for him and God , stop feeling sorry for yourself and all your problems have a solution is all up to you to make it o not , I hope you all see my point and what this life is all about we all will died the different is when the door closed where we will go. I hope that my life make some of you to see the light I my son Luisi will be happy if one of you see a better way than to see and cry , help yourself is the beginning to a better life .
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| | Posted by anonymous at January 1, 2012 |
Well its the new year, has anything really changed though? Have to wait another year for christmas now,(the one time in the year i have found bearable in my entire existence.) Dont get me wrong, im not at all religious anymore, and i care little for material things such as gifts, but it really is the thought that goes into it, and the fact that its the one time of year where people seem to stop with their bullshit. Admittedly there are people who just see that time of year as another rat race; cramming in shopping centre carparks, arguing with customers or shop attendants etc. This is the sort of crap we deal with every day and for what? Wow, we might get something a few dollars cheaper or save ourselves a 2 minute walk (which would do many people the world of good anyway.) Others busy checking their business or finances while they should be on holiday or with family, or talking in the phone to someone they should just be with. Yep, some people get it wrong, christmas is about family and giving and so forth, and generally people just get along.
But then it ends. And the cut throat, care for no-one, succeed by any means cause thats the most important thing mentality returns. And i hate it, all of it. The more years that pass, the more i seem to hate this life. I wish i knew whether it was the world constantly changing for the worse, or whether it has been this way all along, and i was to naive to realise.
When i was a kid, i had an overall optimistic v... |
| | Posted by henry s. at December 31, 2011 |
i'm 45 years old, unemployed, separated, and about to go through a divorce.
i couldn't believe how well things were going in 1999-2000, the .com internet days! I had stock options worth over $4,000,000, just been married for 2 years, had a nice, new home with bright prospects for the future.
now, i'm over $100,000 in debt. i've failed at starting my own business, found out my wife had a sexual affair outside the sacred bonds of marriage, been diagnosed with mild depression, can't find a job, probably am about to lose my car, and the self-pity story goes on and on...
how did i find myself in this predicament? can things get any worse? probably. but then i think about cancer-survivor lance armstrong who came back from death to win the tour de france an unprecedented 7 consecutive times! sure, he's been accused of taking drugs, but has he? i don't think so. after all, in america, we are presumed innocent until proven guilty. such inspiration in lance armstrong's story.
also, i've been diagnosed with attention deficit disorder, slightly obese, and out-of-shape. my doctor wants me to lose about 20 pounds as my goal. so, i guess i gotta cut out the cheese and other fatty foods when i go to harris teeter with my vic card... oh well
will my problems ever cease? probably, not. i hope i'm not being too whiny, but you-know sometimes i get down, y know. it happens. and it is very slightly therapeutic to vent anonymously on the internet.
oh well, dog bless! and happy new year!
keep the faith! strenth and honor! what we do echoes in eternity! |
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| Posted by anonymous at December 30, 2011 |
the truth is people including ur family dont care. i've been extremly sad for a very long time (since i was 16 now im 29) the thing ive noticed about people is that they just get fed up of being around depressed people it brings them down they dont want to think about upsetting things. my friends all dropped like flies when i wasnt all smiles or the "life and soul of the party" it could just be me being cinical, maybe when u become introverted people just stop noticing u. latley ive just been hiding my extreme depths of sadness and the funny thing is people now do see me but its all a lie it just shows the shallowness of people so i stop going out because just being around them makes me feel almost physcally sick but then im alone all the time which in turn makes me more sad because i actually do want some kind of human contact its just one big circle of crap, where does it end lol cant be a good end can it?! |
| | Posted by anonymous at December 30, 2011 |
My life 'sucks' just as much, but hey guys, the new year is coming. It'll be a better year, if you believe it will be. It's going to be a new beginning, or maybe, just a better state of living. Whatever attitude you start the year with, it might just continue on for the rest of the year. If you can't be happy, fake it till you make it. Even if whatever situation you're in makes you wanna die, keep living. You are your own material to something better. Do it for your kids, your loved ones, but most importantly, do it for yourself. Your life sucks, because you said it yourself. I'm sorry if this isn't helping, but please cheer up. There's so much light, beauty and mysteries in life that has yet to be seen. |
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| Posted by anonymous at December 29, 2011 |
Well isn't this just fun. Writing on a website to see how many people will fucking read your story. Fun? Sure. My story. Not worth it. Life, shitty. Complaining, no. Here I am to say yes, indeed life is shitty but why waste your time thinking about how shitty it is. Do something useful. Get pissed and do some physical labor. 14 hours straight of mucking stalls and hauling manure. Hell yes, sign me up. Sitting around typing on a fucking computer for no reason, i don't even know why i am writing this. Fuck it. I'm done. |
| | Posted by Mios at December 29, 2011 |
I'm lonely, depressed, no friends, alone, everything. Same story as you.
Try an experiment with me.
I'm going to live selflessly. (Not *try* to live selflessly, really live selflessly. The energy of my food goes to doing stuff for other people. If I need a new car, I figure out a way that I own it, but for some reason beyond myself.)
I don't want to do anything for myself anymore. I'm done with it. I've been wanting a relationship so that *I* could feel better, so that *I* could have more friends, whatever. No more of that. I'm miserable and lifeless, and something has got to change. Just wanting to change isn't enough.
Don't go to work for yourself. Don't eat for yourself. Behind whatever you do, find someone else to do it for. Balance the selfishness of the world that put you here in the first place, with a little bit of selflessness, and maybe we'll help keep someone else off this website.
Try it with me. Maybe we'll run into one another someday.
Let's see if this helps us.
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