Have you ever wanted something so bad, you were willing to waste your entire life following it? What happens when you waste your entire life then realize you never achieved it? What happens when all the sweat, the blood, the tears and dreams end up for nothing. One day you wake up, jobless, broke, and unloved then suddenly reality kicks in full drive. You realize then you just don't have what it takes. Its as simple as that. Suddenly, abruptly, you realize your dream wasn't at the end of you finger but behind the moon. You know life isn't fair but you catch yourself wondering why no one told you life was fucked up? Completely fucked up. Then you feel trapped. It isn't the first time you feel that way, but somehow this time it feels different. You know this time you won't recover. This punch was just too strong. You break, you crawl and you drown. People once thought great things were in store for you. They thought you would be a somebody. You'd change things when you got the chance. But the chance never came. Or perhaps it did and you missed it. Either way, it will never be yours. I wish I could end this with a happy ending. But this isn't a fairytale nor is it a movie. Its a story of my life. I guess I wasn't as tough and brave as I thought I was. I failed. There's nothing more to it then that.