I was born a dirt poor bastard. 22 years later, nothing has changed. I'm so tired of being poor. Every time I get any money I have to help pay my moms bills. We are both broke, no car, no job, and every day is a struggle just to eat. I often can't even afford a bus fare to look for a job, and even when I can I'm put in position where I can not eat all day and go look for a job, or eat 1 meal and not look for work.
I've tried so many ways to escape this. I was working for a long time but even with me working 40 hours a week in hs I couldn't afford a phone or car or anything cause I was always paying bills. So I tried selling drugs and stealing to escape being poor, now I have a criminal record. I'm desperate to get any job but I can't even get work at mcdonalds.
People think I'm a drug addict or something I'M NOT. I'm just extremely manlnourished and sleep deprived, and I'm starting to believe completely insane. If your not a dangerous individual avoid dangerous people like me. I will prey on you because I hate you, I hate myself, and I hate the world. All I know is poverty, isolation, and violence and I'm still trapped here in hopelessness.
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God uses the weak, the powerless, the hurt, and the lonely in GREAT ways. Heres a illustration: A potter will take a helpless, lifeless lump of clay and then knead it and squeeze it until it's soft and pliable. And then when he gets it just right, he takes that piece of clay and he does something called throwing, where he places the clay on a spinning table.
aAnd as that clay is placed upon that turning wheel, the potter's hands then begin to pressure the clay and work it until he makes something beautiful out of that old ugly piece of clay.
God is the true master craftsman. He is a potter who is making something beautiful out of every life. He will take the old ugly mistakes and sins and make them into something completely new!
When you truly know God, you can live victoriously! So whatever the ugliness is in your life, be assured that through the blood of Christ, God molds you and makes you into something beautiful! Many people can testify to how God has changed them. Ive never heard of anyone regretting putting their faith in jesus.
Are you saved? God can turn the worst of situations into good! Joeseph was put into slavery by his brothers, he was abandonded, afraid, probably thought his life was over. But he trusted God, he then eventually became second in command of Egypt. Without looking into the future it can be hard to be optimistic. If you put your faith with jesus he wont abandon you, he will love you and give you a new life.
Youtube Nick vujicic. He's a man who was born with no legs or arms, God has done great things through him.
This isin't an ad or some other bull, I'm trying to bring you the truth which many can testify too.
Regards,
Kevin
PS i dont believe in god..
Figure it out. just sit down the next time you have a few minutes, take a deep breath and find out what you wanna do. you dont even have to be good at it.
Good luck fucker!
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