I'm really fat, extremely lazy, and live at home with my parents. At the moment, I am job-less. I don't mooch off my parents at least - I don't spend any money since I don't go out. My family is all the same. We are all lazy, self-centered, and put each other down to help our egos since they are all extremely low. I've worked in healthcare since I was 18. I'm 22 now and its the only job I can get - my employers and patients love me, but I hate it! Old people treat us aides like complete shit. We are basically slaves to patients and nurses. We wipe their shit, take care of dead people, do the nurses job, etc. And they whine...sooo much...I'll put the ladies in 5 different shirts because NONE of them are good enough...and she'll end up wanting the first one she tried on. They constantly tell me "Hunny, lose some weight because you're so pretty, but no man will marry a portly girl like you" Truth, but BITCH - you don't think I know this?! I can't do it anymore. My family treats me like shit. My dad despises me. Literally, he gets grossed out being by me - & I don't smell, I checked. He constantly talks about committing suicide because he hates his life and family...and I try to be so nice to him? I used to be thin, but my boyfriend at the time was abusive and called me fat (I weighed like 130lbs) and gross..NOW I actually AM fat and gross. I have not ONE single friend. I get nervous leaving the house because I hate myself so much. I feel like everyone looks at me because I'm pathetic.