| | Posted by sickofit at March 28, 2012 |
I am so sick of my life right now. Ever since September 2011, I haven't been able to find a job. I have sent off more than a hundred applications and nothing has eventuated. I am college educated with 2 degrees and have plenty of reputable work experience.
On top of that my fiancee was made redundant from his job. I have creditors calling me everyday hassling me about when im going to pay this and that.
Finally last week a firm, made me an offer which I said I would take. I waited for the the paperwork to arrive and after waiting and waiting I decided to finally folllow up on it.
Their answer? "oh...we are going to wait to interview a few more people" WTFFFFFF why the heck did you ask me to start on Thursday then????
After feeling desolate and defeated, I gathered up my inner strength to keep trying. I did a few more interviews here and there.
Yesterday I had a phonecall and the company offered me the job. Neither the pay or the job itself was perfect but i thought that now is not the time to pick and choose so I accepted. They promised to have the paperwork ready for me today.
An hour ago, they called me up stating that they have decided to retract the offer. How bad can my luck be. I am sick of this life. Im sick of trying and nothing working out. Sick of doing all the right things by people and getting screwed over. Feel like throwing in the towel!!!!! |
| | Posted by anonymous at March 28, 2012 |
35. Male.
Company made me redundant 3 years ago and it's all been downhill since then.
Marriage broke up through affair, now I live in a shitty rented room and do whatever scraps of work I can get my hands on, but the economy is terrible.
I can't even get a job interview.
Have a girlfriend but she is very self-serving and I obviously don't realise the luck I have in that she wants to be with me.
I have depression that kills my motivations and makes me feel the victim of the whole world all the time.
I try therapy but I am a born liar and I can never tell enough truth to make it useful.
I really hate myself and hate having to be me every day. I just want to get away from me. |
| | Posted by anonymous at March 27, 2012 |
i'm a pretty good looking 20 year old girl, and i can't remember the last time i smiled, and it truely felt genuine. getting out of bed is the hardest thing in the morning. my boyfriend of 3 years dumped me today too, which just makes me feel more suicidal than i feel every single minute i breath. i gave hime everything, paid for evyerhthing, i was the best girlfriend...ok, sometimes i was crazy, but come on, i'm a girl, we are nuts. i can't find job, NOT EVEN WENDYS WOULD HIRE ME. i don't have a crimal record and i graduated high school, i went to college for a few semeters, AMD I STILL CANT FIND A FUCKING FULL TIME JOB. i'm considering stripping. i hate living at home with my parents. i have no car. all my friends hate me now for who i became when i was with my ex. i have no one. my exs cock was so big that it fucked my pu$$y up FOREVER, i was hoping to marry him so i wouldn't ever have to feel uncomfortable around someone else naked. i will NEVER have sex again. i sit home all day, 24/7 getting high, and when i can't afford a bag of maryjane, i'll huff paint just to ease my anixety and depression. sometimes i wish i had to courage to just jump in front of a train, or cut my wrists 'long ways' instead of 'side to side.' i'm to pu$$y to kill myself, so i'm just going to be this miserable person the rest of my life. thanks d.j.a, you FUCKED UP MY LIFE. he would make me beg for money outside of stores or threaten to leave me. he made me do it so much and in the town i live in, that i;m now known as the town crackhead, and i've never even smoked it before. he would force me to make so much money that it came down to me prostituting myself. i hate myself for that more than anything else. I'M AT THE LOWEST POINT OF MY LIFE, AND I CAN'T GET THE FUCK OUT OUT OF THIS FUNK! i just want to die. |
| | Posted by johnny at March 27, 2012 |
I have had a hard life and am still miserable and don’t know what to do besides cry. I know men are not supposed to cry but I feel so empty inside. I feel so betrayed by others. I was in the military and wished I had stayed in but now I’m too old to go back in. I have had many jobs but could never keep them long enough. I either got laid off or let go. I am so embarrassed. I went to school and got an education and have a degree but it’s useless. I’ve applied for hundreds and hundreds of jobs. I’m either overqualified or don’t have any experience or am too old. I have been betrayed over and over again and I am still so naïve that I tend to trust everyone. It’s a bad trait I have from my mother who is so honest and trustworthy that she trusts everyone. I had a good job with great money but my boss was racist and I had to put up with it. Even some of my coworkers were racist. One day when I had enough I spoke up and tried to stand up for myself after I was belittled and humiliated and cussed out in front of my coworkers. Human resources heard about it but they did nothing about it. The racism and bullying continued and I put up with it because I needed my job. After I spoke up things were not the same and I was looked at and called the rat for speaking up. I also found out that the boss and this other employee who I truly though was my friend were in together racking up overtime and splitting it. It was hard to prove but he was the only one who was authorized to do overt... |
| | Posted by Midwest Man at March 27, 2012 |
I was laid off from a good job in 2009. Almost 3 years later I cant find a job. I am 48 yrs old. I have been selling things on ebay to make the bills. But I don't have much left. I am single (ex-wife left me 15 yrs ago). I have no health insurance, my credit is shot, living in a 1b 1b apt, no savings, no 401k (cashed and spent in 2010), no children. I was engaged to a beautiful woman in 2009 but she broke things off in 2010.
This is not how I planned things would go at my age. I used to live in a beautiful area of the country and life was so good back 20 years ago. Now I feel trapped and imprisoned by my situation that I really didn't have alot of control over. I have never done drugs, or been in trouble with the law, I always have tried to do my best in all things. It seems I'm getting my butt kicked in life for really no reason.
As a boy I grew up in a severely abusive household but thought I overcame that awful part of my life at 18 yrs old and was well beyond being subjected to emotional pain and abuse. What has happened to me in the last few years is driving me way down again. I feel like I am living in an invisible jail cell. This is not the way to enjoy living by any stretch. |
| | Posted by Losergirl at March 25, 2012 |
I'm really fat, extremely lazy, and live at home with my parents. At the moment, I am job-less. I don't mooch off my parents at least - I don't spend any money since I don't go out. My family is all the same. We are all lazy, self-centered, and put each other down to help our egos since they are all extremely low. I've worked in healthcare since I was 18. I'm 22 now and its the only job I can get - my employers and patients love me, but I hate it! Old people treat us aides like complete shit. We are basically slaves to patients and nurses. We wipe their shit, take care of dead people, do the nurses job, etc. And they whine...sooo much...I'll put the ladies in 5 different shirts because NONE of them are good enough...and she'll end up wanting the first one she tried on. They constantly tell me "Hunny, lose some weight because you're so pretty, but no man will marry a portly girl like you" Truth, but BITCH - you don't think I know this?! I can't do it anymore. My family treats me like shit. My dad despises me. Literally, he gets grossed out being by me - & I don't smell, I checked. He constantly talks about committing suicide because he hates his life and family...and I try to be so nice to him? I used to be thin, but my boyfriend at the time was abusive and called me fat (I weighed like 130lbs) and gross..NOW I actually AM fat and gross. I have not ONE single friend. I get nervous leaving the house because I hate myself so much. I feel like everyone looks at me because I'm pathetic. |
| | Posted by HopelessGrad at March 21, 2012 |
I just feel so hopeless about myself, and I've just had enough. If it wasn't for my mom I'd have killed myself already, but I could never put her through that. I'm a university graduate from a well recognised school, have had several jobs in the past where I always did well. I used to consider myself a very bright person, full of potential. I had dreams and goals, and hope. I gave those up the moment I realised I had no real potential.
I've applied for over 200 jobs in the last month. Nothing. Interviews at about 5/200 that went no where. I'm applying for entry level work. I'm applying for anything I can find. I long ago gave up of finding a job I'd actually enjoy, now I simply need some income. Nothing.
I've worked hard for everything I've had in my life, nothings ever been handed to me. I've worked since I was 16, I've never not had a part time job. I paid for my own education and worked long hours and late nights at horrible jobs just to get by. I've never had a break, I've never had something handed to me. I thought that would help me in the future. I guess not.
All around me people are starting careers. When I asked them how they found the job they respond "my uncles company" or "my dad's the executive". Ha. Must be nice. My dad just got laid off.
I want to keep trying but after today (and another embarrassing rejection) I'm giving up. I have no future, there's no point to me being here anymore. Once my mom is gone I will go too; me not wanting to hurt her is the only reason I'm still alive. I hate myself and I hate who I'm becoming; a nobody. |
| | Posted by marcello at March 20, 2012 |
A year ago I was doing ok. I had a great job and enjoyed what I was doing. I have now relocated to be with my six year old daughter, but have not found a job. I keep interviewing for jobs but no offers. Financially, my house is being foreclosed on and I barely have money for food and I think about suicide every waking hour. I'm close to 45 years old, graduated from college and considered to be attractive and in shape. I cant catch a break. I cant get sales jobs that I am more that qualified for. I'm beginning to lose faith. I've written a couple of suicide notes and have cut myself in the neck with a blade. My daughter is the only reason Im alive, but I can not offer her anything. |
| | Posted by anonymous at March 20, 2012 |
I don't have a car, because I don't have money. I don't have a job, because no one will hire me. I don't have a license, because I suck at driving. I have a bad sense of direction and therefore never know where I am going. I have no friends. I wasn't allowed to have friends as a child, and now I can't seem to make (or keep) any as an adult. I never hung out with anyone; even when people ask, I have to say no because I'm jobless and carless. I've never fallen in love, I never had a S.O. I've never even been on a date. I'm incredibly isolated. I have nothing going for me right now, even my education isn't enough.
And I'm 24. I have zero experience. I see all the people on facebook getting jobs, getting married, and buying houses, and I feel so behind. I watched my little cousins grow up, and I feel like they already know so much more than me in love and life. It's so pathetic; I feel like I'm struggling just to meet these basic things. Sometimes, I wish I was never born.
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| | Posted by tonyfml at March 19, 2012 |
I'm 29yo, and unemployed I had to move back in with my dad after I came home from Iraq because my wife moved another guy in the house and had a kid. I have a girlfriend but we don't get along at all she gets pissed off over nothing all the time starts screaming at me and then turns everything around like I'm the one being so mean and she is just the poor victim. My ex-wife blocked my phone number because when my children came to visit I didnt have my 8yo daughter in a car seat so Im an asshole as a result I haven't talked to my children in over a year. I have alot of debt and no money to pay it. I'm so depressed I hardly leave the house, and I don't talk to any of my friends anymore. I just don't know how long I can do it anymore I try and try but somehow I always seem to srew everything up. |
| | Posted by Truth at March 16, 2012 |
Yep, I got a college degree. Nope, I have not had a job in three years. I live with my parents. Can't date or do anything. I see everyone else working and moving forward, but not me. The only pleasure i get out of life is reading about people who are worse off than me on this site. It brings a smile to my face, then i leave comments that are meant to be funny but, no one cares. i will spend the entire friday night reading these stories to cheer up. i hate life |
| | Posted by anonymous at March 15, 2012 |
hii
i did my btech , i am 21 jobless
i am hating this
all friends of mine are working in some good firm. i am trying so hard to get into some job but nothing gets into my hand
as days are passing my curiosity my anger hikes. i do not know what to do. my parents are very supportive but still i am unable to find my way
i always believe in whatever happens with you, always there is some reason behind that
i am unable to find that reason
seems like i am lost in crowd and craving for help
i know this phase will pass very soon but still want to share as i am tired of being hideous. almighty help me. I am screaming to the top level of my voice
LISTEN
please
please suggest me what to do..
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| | Posted by mav at March 15, 2012 |
im 29 male and life feels so shit i lost my job and i have strugled finding a good 1 for years in the past and it gets harder to find each year piss me off |
| | Posted by tonipage at March 12, 2012 |
I'm 53 years old and I haven't had a job in almost 3 years. My sister supports me, but that will come to an end soon. You see, my only child took her own life on December 10,2009. She was only 18 years old. I can't cope with life any more. It's cruel and vicious. Since she died I don't care about my life any more. Why should I? I tried to take my life but my sister woke up and heard me fall. She saved my life and I was pissed. My daughter wrote me a suicide letter and asked me to cotinue living. She begged me to take care of myself and that she would be waiting for me when my time comes. Why can't the time be now. I want to go be with her because life is too effen hard. |
| | Posted by losing it at March 12, 2012 |
I was on top of the world; my wife and I had good jobs, I just got a mortgage and my apprenticeship was finally complete. Then I get laid off (no kidding, less than a month after I sign the paperwork for the house. My bosses knew, they just didn't tell me it was a bad idea.) That was 2 years ago. Now I am divorced, my house is in forcloser and my utilities are being shut off one by one. my unemployment ran out a couple months ago, and i've been running on fumes ever since. my ex wife's credit was bad when we bought the house, so its in my name alone, so I am the one responsible for it when it hits the credit report. I haven't eaten in over a week and haven't drank anything or showered in days since the water was shut off. I've looked for work for 2 straight years, but have given up since my car broke. it needs both insurance and an inspection to make it legal, anyway. I am seriously considering just going to "bed" (its really just an old broken couch. my ex took the $6000 bed and most of the furniture when she moved out.) and laying there until I die of thirst.
Oh, yeah. I've been trying to tap into my old job's annuity for the past six weeks in order to survive, and my old union rep has just been giving me the run around. Apparently I don't qualify for a "hardship" withdraw. The last 6 times I've called him he just sent me to voice mail. |
| | Posted by anonymous at March 12, 2012 |
Seconds tick by. My alarm clock slowly flashes a new minute, then a new hour. Everyone and their mother is sleeping and here i am, awake again. Its been three days since my last inbound call, and I'll be damned if it wasnt a butt dial. The one friend i did have is fixing his life and sorting it out.. without me this time. The pack of cigarettes i smoked today made me feel better for a wbile... but now i'm broke as a joke so no more pot or cigarettes to keep me from myself. This is the sixth day of near sleeplessness... and the third that i stifle sobs so as to not wake the family.
Every day i look for a job, i try to meet new people, or reconnect with old ones... being a high school and college dropout doesnt help my case any. I lost most of my friends aftwr my first suicide attempt... the shelf i hung from gave way to my weight, so they thought i was craving attention... my family doesnt know. 19 years into this adventure called life.. 6 phone contacts, my v card, and i havent yet broken a bone. The saddest part to me is that as a reasonably bright 19 yo i cant figure out why i am the messed up one.
My ADHD on top of other things is a daily impediment. I try to communicate but my mind is too fast for my mouth and i get jumbled up... this makes it especially difficult to reach out to loved ones and friend.. in fact this is the first anyone knows about me being less than content... i guess i can pride myself that far.
Every waking moment for two years of my life has been for drugs or another person... but drugs lost their fun and newness and people slowly dissolved away.. which brings us to now.
I am G.R. Wilson, 19, jobless, directionless, and looking up self help forums on Google.
Who are you? |
| | Posted by anonymous at March 10, 2012 |
I am 23 years old.. I live with my parents.. i have no job..! someone would say that im a pretty normal girl.. that my life isnt that bad... But for me it is..!
I have never had a relationship...am still a virgin.! I think that am afraid to get too closed to a man..because if I do he'll hurt me. I dont trust men. Every man is a cheater.. Its in their nature.. I 've seen it so many times. When I was younger I believed that I would find a handsome nice guy that would be truly madly and deeply in love with me..just like in the movies. But that only happens in movies. In real life there is only pain and disappointment. I would like to feel what to means to be in love..but i dont think i ever will..i dont believe in love.! There is no hope for love..
I have no job at the moment.. My parents support me. If..and when i find something I am sure that it will be a low salary job..that will only pay the bills..!
I dont have a social life.. I couldnt it afford it.. Plus..I think that im really a boring person with no personality.. I hate myself for that.. I know that! But I dont think I can make anything to change it.
I am 23 years old. I think mu life goes from bad to worse.. I have no hope for my future. I will end up a spinster..all alone in the world. I know that i could appreciate some things in my life.. i am healthy..i have parents who love me..! But thats not enough.. I am not happy.. and I think that I will stay that way for ever.. I have no hope.. I WANT ... |
| | Posted by Losing Hope at March 8, 2012 |
I moved to Florida 2 1/2 yrs ago. I have lost 2 jobs. I'm unemployed, unemployment denied me, I cant find a job. I have no money. I have no Car. I'm stuck living with my ex and all we do is fight. I have bipolar disorder and my ex makes it worse. She's always on my case about it. I cant afford medication. I'm slipping further and further into depression. I do think about suicide a lot but I worry about my family that lives 3000 miles away. I have no friends or family down here. I feel stuck. No way to make money. I'm starting to understand why people commit crimes. They have no way to live. I've been fortunate with the economy so far but I dont feel that luck anymore. Guess it ran out. I'm screwed. Might as well go live in the woods. I'm sure my ex will ask me to leave soon. |
| | Posted by Jobless in Cali at March 5, 2012 |
Yep, I got a college degree. Nope, I have not had a job in three years. Can't date or do anything. I see everyone else working and moving forward, but not me. |
| | Posted by Nancy at March 5, 2012 |
I dont have a job,If i get a job that will be not be stable every time i have to move from one state to another state with my laugage.And i dont have any friends to share my feelings and even a girl friend and monthly expensives are becoming higher and higher unable to tolerate to pay basic needs also like shelter,phonebill etc.i dont have a licence to drive a car i applied driving licence in nj but i am unable to reach nj because the flight cost is more i cannot buy a ticket its too expensive for me.i am unable to eat a full meals in a day atleast once also.In my room 4 members are with me included 3 guys will go for the job and i am sitting in a room alone from 1 1/2 month feeling like torture unable to go outside,if i want to go outside means to eat any thing its too expensive to buy anything...What should i do this is happening from past 1 year...!unable to feed myself if i got married means how should i live with these life...LIFE SUCKS. |
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