LIFE SUCKS

Dont know

I'm 29 years old single women. i don't know how to put it across what i am going through. life has never been a bed of roses for me. my childhood sucked. my parents got divorced when i was 6 years old. i stayed with my mother and 2 brothers, m the middle child. my mother always loved and favored my elder brother. i was a lonely and fat kid. i had no friend no one wanted to talk to me cause i was fat and came from a broken family. my own brother use to ignore me in school, as if i was an embarrassment factor for him. i wasn't a brilliant student either i always managed to just pass out. i was always interested in music however my mother never encouraged me. i never had any other talent. i was wasted. I didn't complete my graduation cause i took a drop from college in my final year and started working to support my family, cause my brother wanted to complete his masters.my love life sucks, in fact i don't have a love life. I've been in relationships but nothing clicked, cause they all are attracted to my personality, m tall, average looking( that's what i think) and i smoke, i drink etc. I've always been an easy going person, though m reserved and shy. i m a real loner, and ppl take my this quality for an attitude problem. I've never cared what ppl think about me. i have always been loyal in friendship however i have always been betrayed by my friends. my job was going great that was the only thing that use to make me happy as i was always appreciated by my bosses and my team. however due to some circumstances i had to quit my job as a team manager. and now I'm struggling to find a job, it's been 6 months that am jobless. my family has stared treating me like an outsider.whatever saving i had i gave it to my mother and now I'm penny less.my life sucks!!! i got no job, no social life and no support from my so called family. i don't know why m writing this may be cause m bitter,m jaded and m alone and also i don't have any one to talk to.