I'm so sick of my life! I feel as though I try and try to work hard and do the right things and nothing ever works out for me.
4 years ago I brought my flat after years of living in horrible shared houses and moving at least once a year, I was sooo happy to have somewhere that was mine!
But then the economy crashed and my wage hasn't gone up since I got the flat but all my bills have, and by a lot. My boyfriend of 3 years then left and I got a friend as a lodger to help out with bills last year.
Yesterday he told me he is moving out in 6 weeks. I just feel like this is the last straw and I just can't take anymore. I don't know any friends who need a room and I don't want to share with a stranger, it's a tiny flat and the point of me buying it was so I didn't have to share with strangers anymore.
I have a boyfriend I've been seeing for 9 months but he doesn't want to move in, I agree it is quite soon really but I feel almost angry with him for not wanting to move in!! (I am aware this is unreasonable and I haven't told him this! I think I just want "rescuing").
So I have to either live with a stranger or go out and get a 2nd job. I spend 40 hours a week counselling addicts and I could really do with not having to do that and then go work in a bar or some other shite job. I would end up getting taxed higher coz it's a 2nd job and it'll prob be min wage so this means I'd have to do at least 15 hours extra a week to have the same money. It'd also mean I wouldn't see my boyfriend......
All my girlfriends are largely settled with kids (I am 33) and I'm so sick of going to weddings and christenings when that's all I want for myself but here I am 33 years old having to look at selling my flat, live with a stranger or work 55 hours a week just to pay the bills. I'm sure it wasn't supposed to be this hard. When is it my turn for things to go right? What is the point of all this? I don't know what I'm working for anymore........ | |
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