LIFE SUCKS

Life really sucks now.

So I'm a male 22 years old, and have been really depress lately. My story is, as a kid I was in special ed classes which ruined my life, my mom ruined my life. I have trouble speaking, which caused me to be odd when approaching people cause I lose confidence causing me too fear people. I tried getting distracted from the real would by playing video games but I just can't do that anymore. Plus I'm gay, so one I started High School I told my mom to take me off from S.E cause I didn't need it, she did. But then what? I had a big fear talking to anyone cause of my whole speech/gay problem. Once I was about 16 I started ditching school to go to the library cause thats how afraid I was of people. When I turned 17 I started working and going to college, but I still was the same person. At 18 I stop going to college cause I couldn't afford it anymore and started working in a fast food restaurant. There again being quiet most of the time, there I meet a guy and which he moved in with my family. My family were my only friends. From there I worked about a year counting different jobs, untill now I'm with my hubby and his family which sucks cause all I do everyday is be on the computer!!! Help!!!!