I googled "lonely life" and wound up here.
FUCK!. Is Christianity a fairy tale? If I knew then I could just get this shit over with, once and for all. I'd jump off a goddamn skyscraper and enjoy it like I was 10 again.
I long for relationships and I often see people in the daytime. Sounds like it would work itself out, right? Well social anxiety is a bitch. I unintentionally yet intentionally distance myself from exactly what I need - people. It's fucking horrendous. Like captain hook tryin to steal gumballs.
I'm 18. no mom. no dad. Been that way for a good long while. No girlfriends. Very recently lost touch with my two closest friends. WTF LIFE!!? I have no direction in life; its hard to find it until the the question of "WTF is life for" is answered.
I know this is vague and short but I think that we the people on this site all share shitty emotions in common and I simply wanna relate to somebody.
The best part is, I have one poster on the wall. It says "Hopes Fall" | |
And you are right with the jumping off a skyscraper and then enjoying life like you were 10 again. But it aint the truth, when you die you go to sleep, forever and ever, and ever, you have no concept of time passing at all. Its all over.
I know it sounds so cliched. It sounds like a daydream. But your average person has no concept of the reality and profoundness of it all.
My heart hurts so much for everyone on this site. All I can think to do is pray...and suggest that you visit some Christian websites. Maybe chat online with a pastor who can explain it better than I can. You wil not regret it.
Just wanna say this: being a Christian does not mean that we will not have troubles. It means that there is something greater that we can look forward to...even when we feel that we can't go on with life. The truth of it is...atheists see death as the complete end. If that is the case...then life is meaningless. Might as well live how you want; disregard consequences. But if there is a God and there is life after death, we have a purpose. And He will not turn away anyone whe seeks Him. Please give it some consideration...
Again...I am praying for you as I type this. I wish I could help more...
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