LIFE SUCKS : 2011 September

I hate me life

My mom and dad don't really care about me. The only they care about is me getting a boyfriend. My dad thinks im a whore even if a never had a boyfriend. They like my brothers more. That is why i never want to talk to them. My brothers can stab me and wont. My whole family always call me a whore , bitch, pretty much all the curse words in the book. i have no will to fight any more. i cry everyday in the bathroom. They never care. i mostly depressed all the time because of them. i sometimes think that if i was born a boy. they would love more. i want to them about me a little. but the sad thing is that will never come............

50 years old and going backwards

divorced 4 years ago, got new gf who racked up my credit cards tens thousands, my ex wife sleeps with her laywer so they screwed me out of settlement and told me i didnt need a lawyer. im gay and cant tell anyone

Screw life

My life started with my mom smoking pot and she did until my sister was born. I can't belive it! My mom and dad was in serious shit fights one yelled for me to get in the car and one said get in the house this was when I was about four so imagine how confused I was. I lived with so many relatives one tried to molest me who is now dead. When I started kindergarden my life was a wreck I was always made fun of. Each year it gets worse. Ive tried cutting and suicide but some people love me for me so I didn't do it any more now I have an abusive best friend and im only 14

Shell-Shocked

Ok, speaking of shell-shocked, how do I put this in a nutshell (sorry it’s so long, you don’t have to read it, I just needed to vent): as a child was isolated by intelligence (which has served me no real purpose now); molested, apparently, and emotionally abused/controlled/manipulated; put in the position of being caregiver in a dire situation, etc.

When I was young, within a matter of three months, my aunt died a needless horrible death by cancer due to doctors’ indifference (i.e. “oh, you must be faking it”) and my mom almost died, the place where I worked was bombed by terrorists, and my father was gunned down and killed at a wedding. During the period after this, I met and married a man, had three children with him then after 15 years of marriage (and more emotional abuse for both myself and kids) he left us for another woman.

At the time, I felt I was doing all right getting us all under the same roof (he basically left us in the street when he left and then didn’t want to pay child support) and felt like things would be ok. I was working five jobs, glad for the chance to have my children (and my elderly mother, whom I was still caring for) with me.

Then my son, who had a lot of anger about the way his dad had treated him/us, made some very, extremely bad decisions, which resulted in criminal charges that precluded him being around the younger children. My ex wouldn’t take him, and nobody else would, so I was forced to take the ...

Blind

Yea I just needed to type something out and im just interested in what you guys say,

So here it goes,
life in general is sad.. I meen we have our good moments our memories, love. It's sad because the average working man/ woman spends pretty much 50% - 65% of his time working and another 15% - 20% for the education to find work. To support his/ her family, To enjoy the small materialistic things. You loose this much of your time to actually enjoy and be able to actually live for that small amount of time.

Love, we all hope to find it someday. Whether or not you have found it eventually it all disappears as time passes.

From the love you have/ had is the young child growing to live from what your love, your life has taught him/ her. Your child grows to follow the footsteps of you. Your child lives to see death take it's part in life. The life of you, friends, siblings.

Life can be blinding, Love can be blinding.

But at the end of the day life sucks and shit happens. It's human nature to survive and we do we pull through and we continue to roll down this road of a life, whether you are well off or not well at all. Life can always turn on you but even if it does you enjoy what you can get and you enjoy the shit out of that small amount of time here because one day this all turns to darkness and everything you know, everything you had disappears.

The data is probably off but im just geussing and giving my opinion, thanks for reading and best of luck to all of you.

I was made wrong.

Ive been a social outcast my whole life. I have friends but they're not really "Friends" because they usually hang out without me. I've had maybe 2 girlfriends in like middle school and one girl that i was in love with that left me scarred. I m the type of kid who walks behind your friends in the hallway while they talk. I resorted to smoking weed but it didn't really make me feel better. I barely have any friends and when i need to talk to someone sometimes i cant think of anyone to talk to. My parents like my sister more then me and think im anti social and i stay home too much. I think i have social anxiety, brought on by the douchebags (and bitchy girls) i go to school with, with most girls failing to notice i exist. My self esteem is nil. I always second guess myself. My parents dont know how depressed i am, i keep it bottled up. I spend most of my time by myself and practically live inside my own brain. Im not a dumb kid though. I have a 4.0 GPA and i usually read books and watch documentaries on subjects that interest me. Ive even tried developing my own theories on things. I feel like i live a false life where i put on a face to everyone saying im fine. But i feel like im dead inside. I just want shit to change, but when i try i cant. I feel like people just judge me when they look at me and give me no chance to be me. Why couldnt i be someone else?

I'm 44 years old. For twelve years I've suffered from chronic pain in my head and neck. I've been examined and treated by all kinds of medical doctors and specialists, but nothing really helps. I'm not able to work and is supported by incapacity benefits. Everyday is the same. When I'm not in great pain, I'm bored. My life has become a pointless marathon of suffering with only rare and tiny moments of alleviation and joy. My social life is almost non-existent. I get no real love, no real emotional care from other people, no sex. Before I got ill my life was better, but never good or even satisfactory. My mother died when I was twelve and left me with my alcoholic, uncaring father. The loss and the dysfunctional, unstable family environment made me lose my orientation in life and completely destroyed my ability to make close ties with girlfriends and potential life partners. From my teenage years and onwards my life has been a living hell briefly interrupted by pockets of (academic) success, hope and joy. Every day I wake up I'm sad that I'm still here, having to endure more pain. I'm so relieved that I never got any children. I don't (yet) have the guts to kill myself, but I really, really want to die as soon as possible. And I don't want to come into existence as a sentient being ever again.

Life really sucks now.

So I'm a male 22 years old, and have been really depress lately. My story is, as a kid I was in special ed classes which ruined my life, my mom ruined my life. I have trouble speaking, which caused me to be odd when approaching people cause I lose confidence causing me too fear people. I tried getting distracted from the real would by playing video games but I just can't do that anymore. Plus I'm gay, so one I started High School I told my mom to take me off from S.E cause I didn't need it, she did. But then what? I had a big fear talking to anyone cause of my whole speech/gay problem. Once I was about 16 I started ditching school to go to the library cause thats how afraid I was of people. When I turned 17 I started working and going to college, but I still was the same person. At 18 I stop going to college cause I couldn't afford it anymore and started working in a fast food restaurant. There again being quiet most of the time, there I meet a guy and which he moved in with my family. My family were my only friends. From there I worked about a year counting different jobs, untill now I'm with my hubby and his family which sucks cause all I do everyday is be on the computer!!! Help!!!!

wasted life

i'm dumb. never should have been born. ruined my mother's life with my birth. i've ruined other peoples lives as well because i'm a destructive force. i've been blessed with good job, passable looks, ok physique but am mentally, emotionally and spiritually ruined. i hate myself. i don't deserve life.

under a spell

"my life sucks" is somethin evry1 says at a point in their life.. for me its pretty much bcome my slogan throughout day, for years now..
i had jus the perfect life.. luxurious...n i was the perfect kid.. good grades in skool.. graduated college.. got a wonderful job!!! evry1 was proud!! my parents n siblings alike.. n then...
then i fell in love!! n my life turned upside down.. i married against my parents approval... left my job.. n moved to another country...
my hubby aint that rich (reason parents dint approve)... but v r okie.. but i totally dread my in-laws... n dunnow y but i jus cant seem to get a good job... n my in-laws ridicule me for it... its been 3 years... n i jus worked for 5 months doin a not so good kinda job... n im not gettin pregnant.. again in-laws keep pokin their noses..
my mom-in-law taunts me in front of others.. but in front of my hubby shes jus the sweetest... such a bitch!!! i ve shed oceans of tears n prayed fervently to God... but im still heartbroken..
its like .. whtever i try.. whteva i pray for doesnt happen.. n worse my heart pains all the time.. thinkin of my family.. how much i dread takin this stupid decision..
n my health is pathetic... sick all the time... sittin at home n gainin weight... no frnds to talk to.. nuthing.. its like im under a spell... i ve been patient for 3 years.. n now im suicidal...

dunnow wht to do...

anonymous

I used to have a decent job that paid a living wage for my wife and I. We had a happy and loving relationship when we were dating and first got married. A year later I lost my job and it took me a year to find work. I found another job that pays a third of what I make. I was going to college on top of working and had to drop out due to low grades despite studying my ass off for 30 hours a week. My boss won't give me a raise or any promotion despite my good reviews at work. I cannot provide jackshit for my family because I don't make shit for income. I am in my upper twenties and still earning just above minimum wage. We live with family because of my financial situation. Meanwhile I have a child on the way and my wife will most likely have to work more hours once the kid comes. I hardly see her and we are basically roommates who see eachother one day a week because we work opposite hours. I feel increasingly apathetic and unmotivated day by day. I have gained weight from drinking and eating garbage to cope with life and I feel worn down and worthless. It seems like whatever I try fails so there's no point in trying anything in the first place. I refuse to end my own life because that will just destroy more lives other than my own, and I sure as hell am not ready for the afterlife. Life indeed seems way too long. I'm not even a third of the way through it and I already am burnt out!

life is a bitch

so basically my story started when i was in elementary school. I was a shy kid and got picked on a lot. I had a lot of friends. I played sports and was social and happy. Then my parents got divorced and it was down hill until about a year ago. My parents would constantly fight. There were multiple lawsuits from either my mom against my dad or my dads greedy business partners trying to steal our money. I lived with my dad during the week and my mom on the weekend so i always viewed my dad as closer, also my mom was the one who left us. My dad was in very poor health most of my life and died when i was 16. I had to find him laying in his bed almost dead from being in a diabetic coma for hours and hours. He was in a coma for a month until we decided that his brain function would never return and we had to let him go. I had to see his body after he passed and he was just so green. like an alien almost. I lived with my mom after that full time. She got our old house after my dad died. I have never had a girl friend and never been on a date. although i have had some girls that i like and they liked me back but nothing i would call a relationship. Until last year i wasnt very good looking. I recently had corrective jaw surgery on both jaws and now look like i should.... average. Im 20 and a junior in college and still a virgin, not to say i havent fucking tried. i can't seem to figure out how to close the deal. Its like all my friends are passing me by and im still stuck as a kid because i havent had sex. Anyways i think the reason i havent had a relationship is because i saw what happened to my parents and it fucked with my head. they argued all the time and in the end my mom is lonely and i am trying my hardest to be the polar opposite of her. So that is the story of my life so far. Just felt i needed to write it down somewhere and share it. Now i am pretty happy, although it is still an uphill battle everyday, im getting there slowly

Eat a dick life.

Fuck you fuck you fuck you!!!! I have three kids, no job, a cripple wife goimg througj opiate,withdrawal, which by itself is pretty shitty. Im also a full time college student failing everything cause I have no fucking help taking care of three small kid. Im scared to leave them home with my wife while I make the hour drive to school because she doesnt wake up some days, if she does she barely gets off the couch. My house is fucking disgusting, im gome at school all day, when I get home its dinmer, bathtime,bedtime, homework till 1am, then up at 5. This all sucks pretty bad, but I,also have to pay childsupport for two kids, two moms in another state, for kids I never see. Worse still, they took me to court when I was makimg 75k a year, so my child support payment is highr than my morgtage, which I cant pay cause my job was,shipped to china. I cant get the courts to modify child support because im out of state and cant afford a lawyer. I also have a crazy tiny penis, and weird butthair. I pray every single day for a fucking comet to slam into the earth and destroy my miserable life. Fuck me, I hate myself, I hate my life, I despise everythimg about me. If I wasnt such a damn coward, id headbutt the sidewalk till I died.

wtf did i do wrong

well first off i finaly got a job only to realize working fast food is hell and sucks all life out of you. third i have a girlfreind who has an over controlling dad who i want to kill cause he thinks that the only think that makes the world go round is money, and work my gf to deaath at the house cleaning while he just sits on his ass and now is trying to keep me and her apart cause she is apparently spending to much time with me. so yeh im getting a message from god and he is saying "fuck you"

dont trust anyone!!!

I opened my house to my best friend and her daughter so they could get away from stress at home come to find out she starts having sex with my boyfriend and the worst thing is they didn't have any intentions what so ever to tell me about until i told them i already knew. i work my ass off to give my family the best i can to find this out.

I hate my job, hate my boss for being a cheap ass f- -ck who screws me at every turn. I'm over 40, fat and aside from my boyfriend of 17 years am completely friendless. Can't find another job because I have no college degree and I am on the verge of becoming a full-fledged alcoholic. How's that?

"Life sucks" is something I say everyday. I am 32 years old and I don't think I will ever have a career, or a job with any kind of benefits.
My school loans keep growing and I have no way of paying them. As an attorney, I worked everyday for 3 years studying though the night. I thought I would get some job out of this. I was never into it for the money. But instead, I have the daily nightmare of how I can pay the rent, let alone how to pay all my loans back.

My boyfriend lost his job as an engineer, two times in the past three years. We are both currently unemployed trying to figure out how to pay the rent. Who said America is the land of opportunity? Everyday is a battle of how to pay for medical care, the rent, my school loans, and food, while trying to maintain my sanity and some kind of self-worth.

I don't even know where to start. Has it really come to this? Am I now so pathetic that I have to post my troubles on this website? How do I not have one person that I can talk to?
I am 24 years old, married with two small children, and zero friends. Growing up I was not popular, pretty, athletic, I wasn't really anything. I was just there. My parents didn't really take much intrest in me and neither did anyone at school. I had one friend growing up, if you could really call her that. We were only friends when it was convenient for her. We didn't hang out at school only at home. It was like this from 2nd grade until presently.
I didn't graduate High School, only because I didn't care enought to try. The only way I ever got attention was to act stupid and ditsy when truthfuly I am pretty smart.
I started dating a guy (now my husband) straight out of High School. I didn't even like him, and was never physically attracted to him. He is a handsome guy, very inshape and strong masculine features. I just settled because he liked me so much and I didn't think I would ever do any better. Now that I look back I don't know why I thought that, I was actually very pretty and have the perfect body. (average height, big boobs, tiny waist, pretty face) I probably could have had any guy I wanted.
Anyway I dropped out of my first year of college because he wanted to join the military and my dumb ass just followed him and gave up on my self. We eloped got pregnant shortly ...

Lonely

I'm a 30 year old bankruptcy attorney. I make $40,000 a year but owe $157,000 in student loans. I leave work every day at six-thirty to get home to my girlfriend's teenage daughter. I drive her to soccer practice and read bankruptcy articles in the car because I'm afraid I'll lose my job if I don't work hard. My girlfriend is a nurse who works nights. I see her so little I'm not sure I even love her anymore. I work so much I'm not sure who I am anymore. I daydream about leaving her, but I don't even know if that's what I want.

My life's fine, it's just life that sucks.

I'll be straight-out. I'm a smart person (I just don't give a damn about school). My parents are nice and relatively well-off. Overall, my life is good. Why am I posting this, you ask?

I despise existence. More accurately, I despise the uselessness of existence. We're born, if we're lucky, we eat, we shit, if we're luckier, we fuck and make more disgusting creatures leech from this planet, and we die. I'm struggling to do well in school even though I was top of the class in elementary school, because I thought long and hard about life, and discovered that it has no point. I just don't give a shit about anything or anyone. I'm also an atheist, and a little bisexual, but few people know about the atheism (My parents are christian), and nobody knows about the bisexualism. I can hear the comments already; "Cool story bro," "Cry sum moar," ect. I don't really care. I just wanted to vent a bit nto the internet.