LIFE SUCKS

anonymous

I used to have a decent job that paid a living wage for my wife and I. We had a happy and loving relationship when we were dating and first got married. A year later I lost my job and it took me a year to find work. I found another job that pays a third of what I make. I was going to college on top of working and had to drop out due to low grades despite studying my ass off for 30 hours a week. My boss won't give me a raise or any promotion despite my good reviews at work. I cannot provide jackshit for my family because I don't make shit for income. I am in my upper twenties and still earning just above minimum wage. We live with family because of my financial situation. Meanwhile I have a child on the way and my wife will most likely have to work more hours once the kid comes. I hardly see her and we are basically roommates who see eachother one day a week because we work opposite hours. I feel increasingly apathetic and unmotivated day by day. I have gained weight from drinking and eating garbage to cope with life and I feel worn down and worthless. It seems like whatever I try fails so there's no point in trying anything in the first place. I refuse to end my own life because that will just destroy more lives other than my own, and I sure as hell am not ready for the afterlife. Life indeed seems way too long. I'm not even a third of the way through it and I already am burnt out!