LIFE SUCKS : Mistakes

I hate my life!

I am 29 years old illegal allien in the united states.
When i left my country for the U.S, i thought the first thing i was going to do is going to school, unfortunatly not because you need such papers or documents to get colleges or universities.
I stayed for years without document, i didn't get chance to go to school, completing a high school diploma or GED for the entry of college or universty.
My life starts sucking.
Now i feel like i have no education, no skill, having difficulty with social skills like making friends, going out with friends or girls.
I just stay home in front of my gadgets, because i own tons of gadgets specially apple products what i love, i spend all my money on gadgets, i can't go back in my country right away because i don't have any qualification over there and it's one of the country more corrupted in the world and poverty is over there, seriously my family is ok, but me i feel scare to go back.
If i wake up in the morning i feel like the world is too scary for me, i feel nervous quickly, sometimes i don't even want to talk to people, specially work place, because it's one of the worst job in the planet, do this, go there, bring this because you don't have any skill, they just using you, treathing me like a garbage.
At 29 years old i got my life like that, i don't think i will make the rest of my life.

a ladder or a hand please

I'm 35. I live in my mother's basement and I drive to work in my Mom's car in the next city to manage people that work from home. My money is abosrbed paying for my children the house they live in. My life was taken from me and the heardest thing I learned through this was to keep loving God. It doesnt sound that bad. Let me start from the beggining. I lived a farily tale love story and was in going on my 10th year of being in a honeymoon. I drove nice cars, ate nice food and had the best job. I came home this year early on valentines day to find my wife with a naked male stripper in our bed. I left then came back on family day, 3 days later to see he was still there. I left to the west coast for a month and came home. She wanted to repair our marriage so i quite my well paying job to work at lower wages. I later found she was entertaining another man for a date. Now here I am while I want my children and my home back while she sleeps in bed with the Strippers bet friend. yeah he's a stripper too and a drug dealer. Just got paid and I'm under. looking forward to bankruptcy I cant pay for. Someone shoot me.

Life stinks

I am married and have 3 kids this is my second marriage. I made the same mistake twice. I do not trust my judgment at all. I made same mistake twice. I married a woman without any feelings, emotions. She never says she loves me, or hugs me, barely talks to me but to bitch and complain as she does with my 2 daughters from first marriage. Our daughter we had together she treats great. We stay married conveinence. My life stinks

Can't buy food from the dollar store.

My life sucks because I made a mistake of GOING TO COLLEGE!! Would've been better off working at a warehouse for a number of years and get paid more. Studied Media Arts and Animation and got my bachelor's. 2 years have passed since I gruadated and still can't get a job in the field or even get a job as a dishwasher. I'm always updating my demo reel and portfolio and it's just not good enough for "them"!! Sallie Mae is now calling me everyday even on the holidays demanding me to pay them back or else they will be garnishing my wages and take my tax refunds and social security in the future. People tell me to start paying my loans and I'm going "How the FUCK can I pay $1200 a month on a $9/hr job." Make a payment plan? Yeah right!! For what? For them to jack up the interest rate and STILL declare me as delinquent even though we agreed that I'd pay an "affordable" amount on my "budget"(Yeah right, WHAT BUDGET!!! I'm poor PERIOD!!) THEN put me on default and jack a penalty fee of $30,000? Employers will not hire me because of my credit and obviously think that I'm going to steal from them since I'm in debt AND the fact that I'm hispanic. Of course Arizona employers are going to think that way about hispanics. I've been turned down from 7 good paying jobs that could've helped me pay back the loans but no!! My life sucks!! Stuck here eating wheat bread and drinking water everyday. Just got fired from a warehouse job without a good explanation. They didn't even give me a chance ...

The regret

When I was 16 I ws arrested fro grand theft auto. I took my step father 63 vette and he pressed charges and he had reported stolen. THe cuaght me with the car they searched the car and found nothing but they did find drugs in my purse. I had for got abou the pot in my purse. I was arrested for the drugs too. I went and pled guilty to all the charge I want to avoid any more court I had to quit chool and I was sent Juvinile hall. the strip search was embaressing. I spent 2 years there. When I turned I got very afraid of going to prison becuase of happens there. I asked to go to court to se a jdge y case was reveiwed and they put me on five years probation and during that I was told to get a G.E.D. I studied for that and passed. I have a job and Im off probation now and I help children who are going down the wrong path in life I have told them my story of what happen ed to me and alot of them wake up some them end up in JUV. 60% of the kids that Go straight and make something of themselves. The other become criminals. I do regret the path i took but beong snet Juvinoe Detetion was a wke up call for me. I do regret ruining my life. Never againj.

life has sucked for like 5 years

So I am a mother of 2 and wife of 13 years and we all love each other and all that is GREAT (my husband has a good job).......but let me tell you the decision to be an at home mom was BAD.......I gave up a GREAT job to be an at home with the kids......and as money got tight stress got MORE........now the kids don't need me as much and now I am not qualified for ANY job.........so now we can NOT pay the bills because 1 JOB is NOT enough! Try to get a job with no education that will let you work around school schedules that pays enough to warrent paying a sitter or after school care.........We lost out house to foreclosure.........and the rental we have costs WAY to much and we are drownding in debt we have to have our parents buy food for us, and don't come close to qualifing for assistance!
As far as work for me goes my car broke down and my friends husband owns a car lot so they got me a car but now I have to work for them to pay it off..........so I work 30 hours a week with no income to pay off the car (that is not working so great)..........I had to beat the crap out of the fuse box in traffic driving my daughter home from my moms house to keep the headlights on.........I cried the rest of the way home! So my husbands whole pay today will go to rent that is a week late.......and I have no clue what to do about the rest of my bills of food.........I am sure there are soooooooo many people in way worse situations but right now MY LIFE JUST SUCKS!

I wish i had the balls to die.

I fucked up so bad and have put my family through hell. I can't get it together and don't know why. I took a gamble and left a job shit pay but a job and it backfired so now no christmas for the kids and just another huge let down for the wife. I have considered if i just left they would be better off but the selfish side won't let that happen because i am a chicken shit coward always have been always will be and I am doing nothing but dragging them down with me. I love them more than words but i'm sorry they got stuck with a fat ass ugly no talent bag of shit like me i pray i'll die in my sleep and everything will be alright for them I know they will miss me and all but I am an unfunctional fucked up asshole who should die and when I am finally out of the way they can move on and have the things everyone else does.....

Life is a hell

I know life is like a roller coaster ride. Sometimes U are on the top and sometimes at the bottom. So i knew though things are not working out for me today, tomorrow will be mine.. But this today seems to be endless for me.. Things are going from bad to worse. I am a 28 yrs old guy from india. Life was going quite smoothly untill i was 23. But over the past few yrs ,it has become like a hell. In school, i was good at studies. but my first love was painting , had won many prizes for painting in school. But being from a middle class indian family , parents had diffremt expectations from me. The worst decision of my life was when i opted for medical school. I became a doctor somehow , though i was knowing i am never going to be a great doctor coz it was never my passion. It takes 5 n half yrs to be a doctor in india , i took 6. Later was in a dilemma whether to do a job or clear an entrance for post graduation. Couldnt clear the exams so without any choice had to do the job. So i did job in rural hospital away from home , living in a village. Worked there for 2 yrs. But as it was never my passion, got fed up with constant pressure and couldnt cope with increasing demands from seniors and fell prey to local politics.. I was totally fu*d up in ma head regarding my future.
As far as my family is concerned we are 5 ppl. Parents , sis n grandmothr who is 95 yrs old. Meanwhile my dad had retired from his job while i was going through turmoil in my career. My parents a...

i was struggling with some mental disorder, i must have had one
i killed my cat out of anger three years ago, and ive never been able to show my face around my family ever again, i dont care if they forgive me, i dont forgive myself
so i essentially ran away, and life sucks, i am 20 and on the streets, i go hungry some weeks
i know its my fault, but damn life sucks

KILL ME

I FUCKED MYSELF. YES I FUCKED UP MY OWN LIFE. I CANT TELL U WHATR I DID BECASUE IT TOO FUCKING EMBARASING. BUT IM FUCKED, IM 21 AND I DONT KNOW HOW TO GO ON. I FEEL LIKE IM 57 AND CAN SAY, WELL IVE LIVED MY LIFE, BUT THE SCARY THING IS THE BEST THINGS ARE YET TO COME AND IVE FUCEKD IT UP ALREADY. SOMETIMES I THINK SUICIDE. BUT I CANNOT HURT MY FAMILY IN THAT WAY. I CANT BELIEVE WHAT IVE BECOME AND HOW STUPID I AM. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE. I HOPE I DIE SOON. I REALLY HOPE I DO. AMEN.

PLEASE LORD JESUS IF UR THEIR. U SEE EVERYTHNG, I BELIEVE IN U, KILL ME. IF U KNOW MY PAIN. IF U KNOW MY PAIN, U WILL KILL ME. OTHERWISE ULLL LET MY LIVING HELL GO ON, EVEN IF HELL IS REAL, IT CANNOT BE WORSE THEN THIS....... PLEASE......

FEEL FREE TO TAKE THE PISS OUTTA ME, MY "FREINDS" DO, AND THEIR MY "FRENDS"..

I HAVE NO FRENDS.. U REALISE WHEN UR DOWN AND NEED HELP, WHO UR FRENDS ARE,AND IVE REALISED I HAVE NO ONE.. BUT FAMILY.........

FUCK MY LIFE!

my life is shit

where to start?
in the last year 3 of my best friends died..
michelle hung herself so did chelsea...michelle was 15 chelsea 16..
tom died in a crash he was 26...
since then iv gone mad ... i use 2 be a realy good girl... drink drugs partys.. i had a boyf but stupidly cheatd on him with a 31yr old... im 16.. now im pregnant with his baby... when my parents found this out they kickd me out so i moved in with this man... im in my last year in school before college and im going to fail all my exams... i miss my 3 bestys rip =( i miss my parents and i dont blame them 4 haten me... and i miss my ex=(
its true you dont no what you have until its gone...
i honestly dont no what to do im still a child and now im 6mnts preg... =(
any1 no what i should do? please help...
oh and cos im pregi dont drink or take drugs

I Hate Myself

Ok so I'm 16 and just got my lisence around 2 months ago. I LOVE DRIVING!!! Ever since I was 10 and got Need For Speed on my Gamecube, I've had an obsession with cars. Driving was all I had going for me, that and the car I drove. Everyone always told me that I am a good driver(i.e. my parents, relatives, and driving instructors), but once I got my family car, a 1997 Infiniti Q45, my driving experience has been very saddening. At first knowing that I would be driving this car when I turned 16 made me feel like I was on top of the world. It was a performance car under the shell of a luxury car. But when I turned into a diesel fanatic, and the family got a 1997 Dodge Ram 2500 with a Cummins Turbo Diesel to run vegetable oil on, its as if the car became envious of the truck and took its anger out on me. First the alternator broke, then after I replaced the alternator the master fuse blew when I was driving on a busy road. The next thing happened when I was in the parking lot of a shopping district. Among the parking spaces are a few roads. I had stopped at a 4 lane intersection that had two stop signs and the other lanes didn't have any. After waiting for traffic to stop I proceeded through the intersection. Then as the nose of my car had entered the fourth and final lane (the road without stop signs had 4 total lanes), I got hit by a college age girl in here 2010 Jetta . While I had thought all the lanes had stopped, a car in the third lane had blocked my vision of the fourt...

Lottery

Its been a year and half , I wanted to achieve my goal and went ahead dropping what I was having . Now , I am back in circles and left empty hands. No job. Almost failing in love too. Every other day, applying for more than 50-60 jobs. Not even a single call from any employer. All my savings went for my studies which is not yielding me anything now. All in vain.

My current employer going to sue me soon as I dont have any project too. Today I have an interview and thats the last trump card . If I fail, I lose it all.


To me my life is like a lottery ticket, All my hard work gone waste.. now mere luck would bring peace in to my life.

Waiting for my turn!

God, Kindly answer my prayers !

WTF?

Makes life worth living? Abandoned as a child by both parents. Mom was crack addict. Dad was a self declared womanizer. But the bible (which I try to make my "guide" SAYS TO HONOR YOUR FATHER AND MOTHER...I have severe emotional issues because I hate my life. I hate being "black", a college dropout, and all the igorant shit I put up with everyday. I can't see my son, his mother doesn't acknowledge my parental rights unless I fucking pay her...she's the one who persuaded me about dropping out (dumb ass move). I have put in 60 applications for every job I've ever had. I've been poor and living in homeless shelters in Memphis, Nashville, and Atlanta. I moved to Atlanta and the fucking gay lifestyle reminds me of my child abuse (sexually)situation. I have way too many problems lately just staying focused.....my uncle who I was living with kicked me out at 18 for taking money out of my own mothefucking bank account....the chick I lost my virginity too claimed I raped her...and my mother died two years ago leaving me brokenhearted and no inheritance. I hate this life. Fuck it. Memories and all.

life sucks

Life sucks...I have lost the only person I really love and i really had - my Best Friend- because of my stupid mistake. Life really sucks: we are born, for all our life we are looking for the person who will understand us, who will be there for us, who will protect us...when we find them we say "oh, thanks heaven for giving me this Gift called BEST FRIEND". But heavens laugh at us, setting up "moral traps" for us....Life sucks because one always loses the best, the most sacred thing, he loses hope in life.
OMG. i do not know what to do now.....I can't eat, I can't sleep, i take pills to turn off my brains, to freeze my heart in order not to feel the pain that eats me inside...

Good until 23

I was coasting along until I got fucked on an exam at med-school and pulled out of the course. Worst decision ever because at least when you are doing a career you have a pretty elaborate illusion to take your mind off the nothingness that otherwise is omnipresent. Now im planning to go back but have developed some serious depression problems in the interim and now worry about my mental faculties.

I'm hungry and pissed off and broke

I married an idiot 3 years ago and procreated with it. Now I have a cute kid, but no money to take care of him and I'm over my head in credit card debt, always on the verge of eviction and getting flouresent envelopes from utility companies I haven't been able to pay. I don't know why I can't pay them. We both work full time but only make enough to parely pay rent. (Oh and buy cretin husband pack after pack of cigarettes)I haven't been grocery shopping for more then 2 months and am literally starving. I can't remember the last time I fell asleep to the sound of anything other then my stomach growling. Any food we have (from food banks and pity) goes to my 2 year old or my cretin husband who works in construction and does need food. I fantasize about robbing burger king. I look at people and see hamburgers with legs. And I'm just pissed, I 'm tired of being hungry. I'm tired of being poor. I'm tired of being married to a creeper. I'm tired of angry letters form bill companies. I just hate everything. And I'm pretty sure i'm starving to death.

Life sucks because you pay for mistakes you made in the distant past, like speeding tickets and psychiatric hospitalizations that seemed like the only option at the time. While you're pulling yourself back together, you're paying for all this stuff that it seems like another person did, and even if YOU know you're doing okay, everyone else just seems a poor, thin, constipated person who can't buy much beyond groceries and the occasional laxative, and sometimes they just can't help reminding you what a mess you made THREE YEARS AGO. Yes, thank you for reminding me, but I really had not forgotten. Life is balls.

I hate myself. Or my life.

I wanted to be a doctor since young. I've got good grades in A level, 3As, 1B, 1C but screwed the chances to get into Medicine because:-

i. One of my friend (sucker-he got 2@1A) told me he put Biomed in hope to transfer to Medicine in 2nd year. God knows why i listened to him, or even asked about his choices. And i put biomed in one out of eighth of my university choices. The result came out, many friends got medicine, and i got Biomed!!
ii. My parents were fighting for my university expenses, out of fear and blame myslf, i told them i will study Biomed and forget about med.

After i get my Biomed degree, I still think of Medicine. Just, shame on me that i've never thought to save money on own to realise the dream. I jz spend and spend and spend. Each time i talk to my family about it, they talked me off and discouraged me. Or they pretend to agree but talk and talk and talk until in the end i changed my mind...

I hated my life, hate why i couldn't let go of that thought, hate that i'm not brave enough to pursue my dream and just let to believe that situation will be better by believing my mom's word.

hope

juys i am 28 iam tall and white .......once i had been to be a party wid ma new frnds....they drank to the max and raped a local girl near the ground....for whch i was too taken care of nears cops.....i was kickd out of home....and i workd harder and harder as a chef i saved every penny i could honestly....i worked for 3 years in an hotel which showed utter torture....ma rented home was burgled and broken......i lost all d money i saved.....the owner of the home but a case on me reporting i was resp for breakdown of his house.....ma health turned bad....nd i came to know that i had blood cancer......i wanted to commit suicide and climbed a building but the guards took down and bruised me to hell i was bleeding and i started to beg for food but as they say every cloud has a silver lining i was taken as a servant in ma masers home where i exist to date nd were i am writing dis....i frequently vomit blood every 1 dislikes me here ...xcept my master who is not against me..,,,i still live wid d hope dat god bless and protect me as he was doing all along...ma life doesnt suck but telling ma life is an attempt to convey that hold hope like u r breath and ull see lite in life