LIFE SUCKS

I Hate Myself

Ok so I'm 16 and just got my lisence around 2 months ago. I LOVE DRIVING!!! Ever since I was 10 and got Need For Speed on my Gamecube, I've had an obsession with cars. Driving was all I had going for me, that and the car I drove. Everyone always told me that I am a good driver(i.e. my parents, relatives, and driving instructors), but once I got my family car, a 1997 Infiniti Q45, my driving experience has been very saddening. At first knowing that I would be driving this car when I turned 16 made me feel like I was on top of the world. It was a performance car under the shell of a luxury car. But when I turned into a diesel fanatic, and the family got a 1997 Dodge Ram 2500 with a Cummins Turbo Diesel to run vegetable oil on, its as if the car became envious of the truck and took its anger out on me. First the alternator broke, then after I replaced the alternator the master fuse blew when I was driving on a busy road. The next thing happened when I was in the parking lot of a shopping district. Among the parking spaces are a few roads. I had stopped at a 4 lane intersection that had two stop signs and the other lanes didn't have any. After waiting for traffic to stop I proceeded through the intersection. Then as the nose of my car had entered the fourth and final lane (the road without stop signs had 4 total lanes), I got hit by a college age girl in here 2010 Jetta . While I had thought all the lanes had stopped, a car in the third lane had blocked my vision of the fourth (I didn't even know at the time that there was a fourth lane in the first place, so I though I was home clear). The last blow to my driving experience came when I was driving home from a high school football game. My school had finally won its first football game, so I was all happy and riled up. When just one block from my home, I stopped at a stop sign, and being the dumb ass that I am when I'm excited and happy, I turned off the limited slip and floored it. THIS WAS THE BIGGEST MISTAKE I HAVE EVER MADE! I immediately lost traction and control of the car, and being even more stupid, I tried to catch it instead of putting on the breaks. I then ran over a huge, almost 1 foot curb and got stuck on it. After I told my parents and came home, I knew that life was going to suck. The first thing that happened was that I was not going to be driving for a long time. Next thing was that the damage was going to be so bad that it would surpass the retail value of the car, which is around $3000-6000. After my parents talked, they told me that the first point is true. The next thing they told me was that even if the car is repairable, they're going to sell it and buy a piece of shit car for me, and that even if I spend all my own money on a car, it would still have to be within range of their choice. The next thing to happen was that the girl who hit me made a claim to our insurance company for $1500, even though she only had a dent in the her front bumper. So now the only thing I had going for my, driving, is over. I'm not cute, I'm fat, my dad always told me I was stupid, and I believe him. I blame myself for all of this, and Im sorry to my parents for all that I've put them through. No more will friends say "Wow nice Car" and I wont get to experience the joy of driving by myself for a long time. My Life sucks.