| | Posted by Nick at June 22, 2012 |
A few weeks ago I got my first ever job(I'm 18). I had been applying places trying to find work anywhere that would take me, but without any success. Finally, I got a phone call from a local hardware store where my friend works, I was hired almost instantly over the phone. It was honestly one of the best feeling I've ever experienced, finally knowing that I had a job. I told all my friends and family, my parents were so proud of me. The first day of work was on a Friday and I was incredibly nervous, I got there and my friend showed me around, I worked from 1 to 10 on my first day, which was 4 more hours than I was originally told I would be working but I didn't complain. I went home, went to sleep and went back to work at 9am the next day just like I was told to. I worked my ass off all day until about 4:30pm when my boss told me I could go home, I told him I wanted to stay till close but he told me I wasn't needed. Before I left, I asked him when I'd be working next and he said He'd shoot me a phone call next week. I waited patiently and tried to keep myself from worrying about him not calling, but 6 days passed and he didn't call, it was Friday and if I needed to know what was sure I had messed something up and for some reason he didn't want me working there anymore. I decided I needed to know and drove to the store to look at the work schedule. When I got there and looked at the schedule I looked through the entire month of June and into July and my name was nowhere on the list. Before leaving I found my boss and asked him what was going on, He said that I wasn't a good fit for the job and said He'd be mailing me my paycheck. I really thought I was going to enjoy working there, the people were nice, I didn't have to wear a uniform, it wasn't insanely busy. But now it's all gone. It just feels cruel being given a taste of what it's like working at a comfortable, enjoyable first job, only to lose it a week later. I guess I'll go look for another job. |
| | Posted by Lifeisfullofassholes at June 22, 2012 |
My father is the type of person who keeps trying to teach me life lessons, even though I'm 28 years old and have established that I'm a completely independent adult. Fuck you old man. Your house is decrepit, full of pests and clogged drains and you want to pretend that you've got your life so together that you have to expound some ultimate wisdom every time we have a conversation. What a Republican asshole. Fuck you and your warped view of social consciousness. You're the asshole that over reacts consistently, but then yells at people when they over react. Fuck you old man, one foot in the grave the other up my ass. Fuck you. Get a hobby like keeping your house clean. Learn how to use the damn computer. You've had one for thirty years, figure it out already. Fuck you worthless sack of old man asshole. |
| | Posted by e at June 22, 2012 |
I hate. Nothing in particular, I just hate most everything I come into contact with.
My family's screwed up. I can't talk to my dad without blowing up into an emotional rage, and I barely ever see my mom. My dad's also getting remarried, even though he only got divorced a few months ago.
I am constantly considering suicide, but I can never work up the guts to do it. I have no friends who would notice my absence, and my family doesn't care enough to do so.
The U.S.A. has a screwed up government that's hurrying us towards an apocalypse.
I just want to die, and to bring every human on earth with me. |
| | Posted by anonymous at June 22, 2012 |
So, basically I hate my life right now. I just hate my family so much because they're all selfish, unaware assholes, and I wish I could just live someone else's life at this point. My parents have made the most terrible decisions throughout their lives. For example, we live a fucking 60 miles from where they work and where me and my bros have always gone to school. They never chose to move so I live in a rundown shack while i have to commute everyday and go to school with a bunch of rich snobs who just make me hate my life even more. Also, my parents are never willing to drive me even though they chose to live so fucking far away from everything and i am too embarrassed that my rich friends come to my house that I basically never get to see anybody. Complete solitude. Because of that, i basically just shut myself off to everyone. Oh and just to top things off, my dad has always suffered from depression, but just this year he had a meltdown and walked straight out of his good paying job. Now, we're more fucking broke than we were before and i have to act all cheery around my dad when all i want to do is keel over and die. Everyone's so distracted by his depression that nobody's ever thought to think that i might be struggling with some issues with it as well. Well, actually i did ask my parents about getting a shrink but they never go through with anything so that's why i'm sitting at home for the summer and just digging myself deeper and deeper into a hole of hopelessness and depression. |
| | Posted by anonymous at June 22, 2012 |
Last year, my best friend hung herself and was in a coma for three days. I was told that it was definite that she would either die or become mentally ill. Thank God that didn't happen!!! But ever since then, She's been living in an asylum and I don't get to see her at all anymore. And I have no way of contacting her. Im a Christian and ever since She hung herself I've been seeing demons in my bedroom. I've also seen her hanging no matter where I look. If I close my eyes I see her hanging in the middle of a small white room. If I look a tree or a lamppost or a pole I still see it. To top all that, ever since then, none of my old friends will talk to me. I was 12 years old when it happened and now I'm 14 and they still won't talk to me. Everyone thinks I'm weird because I've been not as social as I used to be. It's hard for me to talk to someone when I feel like they're just going to die soon too. And to top that, my entire family hates me. They always have. We have hurt each other so many times. When I was twelve I pushed my 15 year old sister into a mirror because she was teasing me about being ugly and pinger than her. For as long as I can remember EVERYONE even my mom has teased me for having a big butt and big ears and big feet. All I want right now is to die. I've prayed so many times for God to just take my life, but he hasn't. Ive tried running away so many times ever since I was 5 years old. I just don't know what to do anymore. :( |
| | Posted by anonymous at June 21, 2012 |
i'm pretty sure there are other people out there with a more screwed-up life than i do,but i would like to explan some details.
1.You're practically 18
2.You've done absolutely nothing in your life
3.You always think to nagitive
4.You refuse to listen to anybody
5.You keep making the same mistake
6.You done alot of bad things
7.You only think about yourself
8.You've failed miserably as a sister and a daughter
9.Your whole family hates your guts
10.You finally realized at the last minute
Thank you for taking time reading this,i'm much obligated. |
| | Posted by funtime at June 21, 2012 |
cut to the core went out with a whore thought i could change her , gave her love support and beer , some mouths went by she never changed , still love her , she still slept about got me in to three way sex , fun at the time , cut up me mind all became to much , so went round told her we done im moveing on from this head fuck fun , then at work the police 5 off arrested me she said i tired to kill her ,now im out on liveing this hell all because i tried to change . |
| | Posted by Regina at June 21, 2012 |
On 2-14-2012 I found my husband hanging from a noose in our garage, my life now sucks. It was our 18th Wedding Anniversary, wtf... He was married and had children with his first wife when they were very young, they divorced a few years before we met. His ex caused grief every single time she could and she turned his children (who are not adults) against him. He was the love of my life and Im not even sure if she didn't have this done to him, yes that crazy and evil. My life no longer has meaning. I get up every day and do the same old shit for no reason and I go to bed every night and hug a fricken pillow. So for all of you who think your life sucks just because you dont have money or cant get laid....grow up and start appreciating what you do have before its gone, just one thing. |
| | Posted by anonymous at June 21, 2012 |
I have worked (40+ years) all my life for big business (to make them rich) and now I can't get a job to save my life. I will soon be homeless and loose everything I still own at 61 years old. I only have one friend that has helped me. He had to move to Texas to get work because he could not find work in Florida. It took all his savings to move. If it wasn't for him I would allready be homeless. Trying to find a job in Florida is like trying to find a needle in a hay stack! The "New World Order" is coming. If the economy collapses millions of people will DIE. |
| | Posted by anonymous at June 21, 2012 |
On 9/17/2011 the death of my Girl it's harder every day i don't have you here BOBBIE JO....your DAD misses you sooo very much...i don't know what to do with myself now that i don't have you...nothing has meaning to me...i don't want to go anywhere, do anything, NOT without you!!! how can i do this without you??? i need you!!!! i love you so very much!! miss you, miss you, miss you..plays in my head 24/7 I just want to die. |
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| Posted by Mark at June 21, 2012 |
Try growing up with a father that was so busy with his mafia friends he was never around, and when he was, i wasphysically beat so bad most of the time, i would end up bleeding...try growing up with aleopicia,,bald spots,,,during your entire teenage life and from that point on,,,,im 49 years old, and still have a hard time with it....but i always worked hard, have 4 daughters and did the best i could for them. three years ago, my kidneys shut down and i could no longer work from that point on..im now divorced and found out i have hiv..try living your life without ever getting a break or something good or something lucky happening your whole life...nothing but bad news every corner i turned...when i was 16 and able to stand up to my father, he took the almost one million dollars he had in the safety deposit box and ran away with another woman, leaving my mother with a second motgage and no way to pay it...try being on your own for the most part and living the streets as best you could,,,try never getting a break in life and making it to 49....try having a heartattack at 47 because your 18 y/o daughter is rolling around on the floor with you trying to kick your ass because you have no money to give her....now try wanting to make it to 50 years old |
| | Posted by You don's scare the bear at June 21, 2012 |
Ok, were to begin. My mother has had cancer ever since I can remember. The only memories of my childhood is of my mom not having the strength to sit alone in front of the toilet to vomit, all her hair falling out. She got so sick that when I was in first grade we didn’t think she was going to make the year.
My dad never wanted anything to do with me. He had my older brother which was his whole life and the 2 children with his 2nd wife, I was the only one that didn’t matter. I grew up with some daddy issues, it’s true. On my only brothers wedding he was there and I made this big seen, crying telling him how he hurt me and how sad I was his other children didn’t even know I was there sister.
After the wedding I had a heart to heart with my mom, telling her how unwanted I felt. She told me the story how they were young and separated but never regretted having me.
Sound like a great ending?
What a pitty it wasn’t true, my mom lied to me in my face about how my dad is. The truth is she had no idée. My brother was my rock, he help everything heal again. 2 months after his wedding, my only brother how I love more than anything in this life died in a helicopter crash. He was 26.
Now 1 month after his death my mom tells me she has skin cancer and she as no fight in her anymore. This lost my brother and now I have to start saying goodbye to my mom.
And do you know what, I’m so grateful for everything I have. I love life because I know how short and unfair it can be at times. |
| | Posted by JB at June 21, 2012 |
hello. Life is shit. I am a 26 yr. old Canadian male. I feel bad for all the people who have written on here about all the shit that happened to them, and is happening. I came here tonight thinking about how I hate my life, well I do. Anyway, life is shit all around the world. I grew up in the middle east where my two older brothers and I were beaten, molested, and tortured for being white kids. My father is a narcissist, who thought it was fun to beat us too, and in the next breath would tell us that he was a messenger of God to a heathen land. When I was 6 was the first time i tried to kill myself. held my head under in a bucket of water, didn't work. I tried riding my bicycle as fast as i could into a concrete wall, resulted in little more then a massive lump on my head. I hated my life. when I was 10 my teacher molested me, she would take me, tell the other kids i had been bad, she would threaten to tell my parents too if i didn't do things with her. When I was 12 my family went back to Canada, and for once i felt free, i wasnt kicked out of bakeries, beaten in the street for being blond. I wanted to stay in Canada, and when my dreams were shattered I hung myself before we could go back when i was thirteen. I didn't die, obviously, not sure how i lived, but i did. For the longest time i thought it was God, and that he had finally been there and saved me, but when i was 16 i realized that if that was the case, God has a sick sense of humor. When I was sixteen my father ... |
| | Posted by anonymous at June 20, 2012 |
check out my miserable last 18 months,
diagnosed with cancer, had 2 months of chemo, went seriously ill, got re tested they got it wrong and it was a different type of cancer, basically had 2 months of chemo for nothing, then had to have 6 months of the correct chemo, finished in september, got scanned and told the cancer is still there, then in november i was using a chainsaw and hit myself in the foot, put me out of action for a month but thankfully healed ok. then went for fertility tests and got told im totally infertile because of the chemo, then my girlfriend of 12 years leaves me and tells me 3 days ago she is 10 weeks pregnant by some guy she met 2 months ago. the only thing left for me to look forward to in my life is the next stage of cancer treatment which is stem cell transplants which involves a month in hospital. cant wait, at least i get free food. |
| | Posted by FC at June 20, 2012 |
My dad blames me over everything and usually uses the excuse about games and I don't even play much and my mom dispises me and my parents won't let me go out with anyone out of my own ethnicity and I can't get a job and my parents only give me 20 bucks every 2 weeks everyone at school laughs at me and I only get to hang out with friends once a week if so just maybe my dogs won't stop licking their balls/assholes my asshole brother has mental problems and always wants to beat me up yeah that's right a fucking 30 yr old wants to beat up on a 18 year old just because I don't waste my life on shit and that I actually have friends and not to mention I recently got a stomach ulcer and a parasite from stress and my house burned down and now I'm stuck with these assholes and my 2 sisters happily gay and married in their own homes won't help me at all and... And well I just can't stand it I just want to die I'm not even afraid of death I think of death as a reward please just someone stab me in the lungs so I can die slowly and collapse for air down my pittiful body....
P.S. I fucking can't believe this shit!.. |
| | Posted by Dark at June 20, 2012 |
All people who talk of God are fucking lizards. They think they are under permanent light. People, Light fades.... God is dead. There is no being called God. Humans are fuckheads who think that they are blessed. We, are the bullshit.. Just Shit. We came here as a junk, suffer and die away.. Thats it... I am not able to digest this fact. so I am crying. You too cry. I am waiting to die. Dont have the courage to suicide. Life sucks.. Life has no purpose. Its NOTHING........ |
| | Posted by D. A. at June 20, 2012 |
Now my story is about love. It isn't as sad as some people's stories. But to me this feeling I have...it just hurts.
I know this girl, and I think she is the most beautiful girl ever. But she sees me as the stupid-ass anooying guy. It's not that I try to bug her. It seems as if every little thing I do pisses her off. She doesn't know what I think of her, and I doubt she ever will. Every time I go to tell her, I get real nervous and say something else. So here I am, stuck, going nowhere with this really special girl.. |
| | Posted by panzy at June 20, 2012 |
So I have been married for a year and for the last 6 months I felt my husband had been doing something behind my back. I had no proof. He is a stay at home dad with my two children so we don't have to pay for child care. I'm in the air force supporting all 4 of us on my income alone. Well anyway I stated going through his stuff a little wert a time he kept passwords on his phone and computer making things suspicious.but one day he left his computer on and I went through his history and all I found was porn everywhere. That explains the lack Of sex life we had. Well a few days later I get into his phone and he's been talking to his ex girlfriend that is from Colorado.we live in California. And he was talking her everyday for 6 months talking abut how he still lo ved her and was going to go see her without me knowing. Man did I feel like a fool.I love him. He wants to work things out but I feel as if I can't ever trust the man I love ever again. |
| | Posted by anonymous at June 20, 2012 |
idk how this is supposed to go or help but anyhow, I'm 27/m, I'm not extremely depressed as some of the stories on here, somedays I'm great, happy as can be and whatnot, but there are those odd days when it all just goes black, the sun could be shining bright as hell and all id see is grey, I would imagine these feelings stem from the fact I've never been in a *real* relationship, I've had a fling here and there, but I just want that special someone, someone who understands, someone i can lay on the couch with and watch movies, TV and whatnot, but im a small town guy, and as with most small towns the potential girls are all gone, married, up and moved away and whatnot, I'm not a rich man, i cant afford to be off moving about with no money, never finished highschool, quit my crap job awhile back, and I just feel like im trapped, like some caged animal being prodded with a stick, every night i always tell myself its almost over, one day i can be happy, one day the girl just for me will come into my life |
| | Posted by Kat at June 20, 2012 |
My parents died in March and my dog died the day after my mom. I don't have that many friends and now no family. My brother is an alcoholic and haven't spoken to him in 20 years, and sister is a real bitch as well as her kids. They didn't even speak to me at funeral. My sister is spending all the inheritance, since she was executive and brother didn't even show to either funeral and I think he killed my dad for the $$$$ Dad was fine until my brother visited him, he then had kidney failure and they found a pill under dad's bed that they didn't even prescribe that controls kidneys. Today is my birthday, first without mom and dad ---was all alone, tried to keep busy but at night was awful, just dread the holidays without anyone (friends, families to share) July 4th is only 15 more days, Everyone else I know have families or friends to share with---it is awful being alone especially for holidays. |
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