Where to start, where to start... Well I am 19 years old, I have two beautiful baby girls and I love them to death but lately its been so hard. My two year olds father has just got locked up because in his mind it was okay to sleep with an 11year old girl so my oldest daughter has lost her dad. Its probably easier just to tell her daddy died. My youngest daughters dad i am still with but lately hes so unstable. It seems all he cares about is getting drunk and high. And let me tell you he is not the happiest drunk there has been many times we have got into physical fights. Once well I tried to protect our youngest who was in my arms. Hes in DV classes but they are obviously not working. We are only living off his lousy $90 checks considering I am still looking for a job I recently went back to HS and graduated. It hurts so bad to not be able to provide for my children, I had to beg a stranger for $1 to buy some wipes for my children. If it wasn't for food stamps at the moment we wouldn't even have food. Pathetic I can't even put food on my damn table. I sometimes look at my kids and fight the tears back, I love them so much but this life ain't good enough for them. They deserve so much more than I can offer, I hate it. My poor girls, they deserve better than me and it hurts so bad to realize that... | |
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