|Posted by StarryMary at June 10, 2012
My life is an emotional train wreck for me. Im born into a religion that I think I feel I shouldnt belive in anymore, but if I do, half of my life would be ripped away from me. My friends, my family, my enviroment, everything.
I never have been to a nonmuslims home in my entire FUCKING life. Im tired of all the God Damn- even if there is one- shit that I need to follow, and all of these religios blind idiots Im surrounded by sometimes. I want to tell my mom about this, but if I do, she will tell my dad who will laugh.
He would sit down on his GINORMOUS ASS AND LAUGH
he expects that I will go to a FUCKING IVY LEAGE SCHOOL AND MAKE TONS OF MONEY
AND BECOME A DOCTOR OR SOME OTHER KIND OF BULLSHIT JOB THAT I DONT WANT TO DO WHEN I WANT TO BE A TV SHOW WRITER
he is always racist, esscpecially to African Americans and Mexicans( Im deeply sorry if I was offensive to you)
Sometimes he can be a very kind and gentle man. But other times, when he is angry, he is the meanest, cold hearted bastard you will know
He is the reason I am embarrassed to be Pakistani sometimes.
And if anyone I know discovers that I wrote this story, escpically dad, I will take those prized decortave swords decorated around the house and kill myself Laugh on that you Fat Racist
Or hang myself with one of my moms scarfs, the things I love the most
But I cant kill myself, my family would miss me, and my parents would be known as the two idiots who failed to lo...
|Posted by 17ba at April 16, 2012
I used to be very depressed & suicidal, but have learned to suppress most of my emotions. I was unhappy because I am gay (no choice) and my religion said it was wrong. I have few friends, & only 1 that i am really me around them. I have recently had doubts about my religion but still believe there might be a god (no jesus though!, the bible is stupid!)
My question is, Is it really that bad that I suppress my emotions & have given up on people. (I don't wish to harm people though)
|Posted by Ray at March 13, 2012
It doesn't matter if you're some starving little child in africa abducted by Kony and whatnot, or if you're this 13 year old girl that thinks she will never get a boyfriend.
If you're one of those people that have been educated about the holy God your whole life, and how there is a heaven, You're bound for dissapointment.
The littlest things can make you severely depressed (well that's how it is in my case) because, i am constantly comparing the shit that happens here with the heaven i have always believed is real (?). See, what i'm getting at is, why is God putting us through this. (from a depressed formal christian's point of view)
The main question i had was, why would God create a world where people suffer. He knew that Adam would eat the apple, and that he would let sin in. for all of us to suffer in. so, I stumbled upon this on the internet.
(don't get me wrong with the next statement, i am very low faith)
"If God knew that we would sin, why did he create the world?Our tendency in answering this question is to look at it from a man-centred perspective: what’s in it for us? Wouldn’t it have been better for us never to have sinned?
But the answer that the bible gives challenges us by taking a God-centred perspective. And it makes us step back and ask an even bigger question:
Why did God create the world at all?
God didn’t create the world primarily for our benefit, he did it for his glory. He created a world tha...
|Posted by anonymous at March 8, 2012
Before I elaborate on the point I'm trying to make, I wanna let it be known that I am not trying to offend anybody. I am simply stating an opinion on a matter that has been frustrating me for years, and has further frustrated me after going through some of the comments on this website. My title might have been a little contentious, but I'm truly starting to get irked when it comes to this issue.
Let's begin, shall we? My irritation largely stems from the fact that we, as a race, cannot let go of our antiquated belief systems. It baffles me that we persecute one another because of religion and then we try to console one another with it; I want you to seriously think about how fucked up that is for one fucking second. I challenge anyone to make a valid argument that a secular world would be more harmful, quarrelsome and dangerous than the one we live in today.
Just think about what's going on with Iran and Israel — hell, the entire Middle East, Africa and countless other nations. The world is rife with people who believe their god is better than their neighbors. Rape, murder, dismemberment, beheading and numerous other crimes are being carried out in the name of "god."
This is just the here and now, don't forget what's happened over the course of the last few thousand years.
Sacrificing people to the sun gods, (I'm looking at you, Mayans) worshiping orange cats (*cough* Egyptians *cough*) and so on so fort...
|Posted by anonymous at December 11, 2011
I was raised in a devout Christian family. At that time, Americans are more religious than the present-for example, most families go to church every Sunday. My parents participated in the church community. We often bring the priest to the house. My mother taught in Sunday school, and I helped
Surely I am more religious than other children, although I do not feel like it used to be. One time when a birthday, my aunt gave a gift of a Bible, and to my sister she gave her a doll. Other times I have bought a prayer book to parents, and I read it every day for several years.
When I was junior high school, I attended a Bible study program for two years. When I was reviewing some of the Bible, yet I have not understood it properly. Then I had the opportunity to learn more. Unfortunately, we learned a lot of passages in the Old Testament and the New incomprehensible, even strange.
For example, the Bible teaches about the beginning of sin, which means that all humans are born sinful. I have a baby, and I knew he was innocent.
The Bible contains many stories of strange and very disturbing, for example the story of Abraham and David. I can not understand how the prophets could behave as told in the Bible.
There are many other things in the Bible that confuse me, but I do not question it. I was too afraid to ask-I want to be known as the "good girl".
Finally there is a boy who asked, and he kept asking. The boy was asked many ques...
|Posted by Michael at October 11, 2011
I have served God for a decade. 10 years ago I tried to take my own life in my car. Influenced by drugs and alcohol, I was going to kill myself. I was a devout atheist; but, our of utter desperation I threw up a prayer asking Jesus to save me. I didn't expect Him too; but, He did. The car refused to start and my life was drastically changed forever. For the past 10 years I've followed Him as the Lord, Savior, and leader of my life. He helped me clean up my act and get my Bachelor's degree. I took my LSAT and was accepted into law school; but, felt called to serve Him in pastoral ministry instead. I took a volunteer position as a Pastor at our local Church (served there for 2 years) and went back to school getting my Master's Degree in Theology from a prestigious and accredited theological institution. I ministered at our local jail and did volunteer work with Habitat for Humanity. I even started my own ministry and share the Gospel from town to town, handing out Free Bibles, and sharing the message of God's love. I don't get paid. I have no money. I have thousands of dollars in student loan debt with no real way of paying that money back. I have no "Real Job," although I have been looking with the utmost intensity (it's tougher than most would like to admit out there). Society thinks I am a loser and a waste. Oftentimes I am laughed at and mocked. They look at my resume and ask, "So what have you been doing the last several years?" I've lost most of my family and friends ...
|Posted by That Guy That Changed things! at October 2, 2011
So I grew up in a True Christian home, and had a life where I'v wanted to pick and choose between Doing the right thing and doing what was wrong. Of Course We all have that, but obviously some more than others. So I went through High school trying to decide if I wanted to date or not... (when I look back I probably should have) I also was stuck between wanting to do the do and being perverted. So no cursing, trying not to look like "THe World", and just being set aside. As a christian I wanted to keep that christian image strong of corse because there were those who looked up to me for hope, so you have to put your self aside for others, which is not a bad thing! (I could of had a kid right now! or a Std but thank God for That!). You know whats funny is you try really hard to live right and people still call you a hyporcrite I'm not perfect but I do try as a follower of the Christ. I have touched many people's lives just as I will yours. I cant make your life awesome win you read this but I can give you part of what I have. So back on track- I got to college and failed two remedial classes one was english (if you cant tell already) and the other math... So I decided to take time off and moved to down south from PA with my gram grams which is really helping my life kick off but Its pretty hard. I'm almost starting from scratch. Got a job which for the first 3.5 months I road my bike to (mountian bike) over a 8 mile ride. Then Got a motorcycle which had a starter problem, a...
|Posted by RECLUSIARCH at September 15, 2011
THE CHRISTIAN RELIGION IS FALSE, AND BUILT UPON HATE. It is ridiculous that so many humans follow the false god. If you are a Christian and you are having doubts about your faith to Christianity, I see the true light of Amaterasu has reached you. Tsukuyomi will wash away your sins and all traces of the false god left upon your soul. So come people, join hands and worship the true deities. Post this message as much as possible on every site. Reclusiarch.
|Posted by anonymous at May 21, 2011
As much as my life is sucks it is an interesting life to live.I am the end product of match-making and inter-racial marriage,and both my parents are of mix parentage too and grown up from a different country and different lifestyle.Both of my parents came from a parents that have a multiple marriages, hence was not brought with proper parents and lacked of love. I am mixed with four different races, but my parents had make a big mistake in choosing one race and a religion for me,written in my birth certificate, as to follow the rule of the country,where they both met and got married.My life was a disaster in trying to be the race that appear in my ID, which was not even the race of my parents.It sucks to live in a country that demand to prove your identity with a race and religion and it is more sucks that I have no power to object to it as I was a baby.I was a confused child as my parents fought alot, my fucking mother started to humiliate my father races, and they lives seperate life,my father go back to his original country,I have to grow up in a two different country with a different lifestyles.I hate to be with my fucking mother as she had abused me alot,especially when she nagging and ranting like a mad woman, forcing me to devot to the religion that she had chosen for me.Unlike my father,he doesn't live based on any religion,his life was just to live and work hard to survive, and at the same time to appreciate and respect nature,as nature in return will be kind...
|Posted by anonymous at May 1, 2011
I am a 10 year old boy living with his parents. I stole jewelry from my grandparents house in Canada a while back, and never got around to telling them. It's eating me up and everytime I try to tell them I am to much of a coward to do so.
I am also living with a lot of hate at a church where I go to school. All my friends there hate gays, and I'm not sure if I'm gay or not. They say that my father's longtime best friend is burning in hell because he was gay during life.
I have become an atheist because of all this hate around me. I found out that life always hits you in the back of the head. And sometimes I'm just tired of everything, I don't see a point to life. And feel like I want to die.
I missed my childhood too. I saw porn and violence at a very early age.
|Posted by DanLONER at April 29, 2011
My life is screwed very badly. I am 16 years old and been possessed.Yes it's up to you to believe it or not. Seriously I was possessed. I am only 16 this year. I was possessed since last year dec. I am a singaporean and in my country, most of the people believe taoism or buddhism. When I say taosim, it's not the philosphy thingy. I mean it is TAOIST DEITY, TAOIST GOD. I know you americans are so ignorant to think that taoism is just a philosophy but it is more than that. okay. During hungry ghost month, in the lunar calendar which was around september in 2010, I accidentally kicked the offerings to the spirits and ghosts at the roadside. In the hungry ghost months, all the ghosts and spirits from the hungry ghost realm in hell are released and we have to offer them joss paper and joss sticks and foods at the roadside and we pray to them. AND I KICKED THE OFFERINGS. AND WHEN I KICKED IT, THERE'S WHIRLWIND AND I KNEW THAT SOMETHING IS NOT RIGHT. But everything seemed fine for the next few days. Until a few weeks later, I was possessed in my dream. Yeah the possession was really really terrifying. I can't really remember what actually happened clearly but I remembered I suddenly woke up, then couldn't move at all, then I convulsed heavily then felt extreme coldness and soon everything went into haze. Then what I was trying to do was to call god for help by chanting bodhisattva guan yin name which are "Na Mo Guan Shi Yin Pu Sa". Yeahh. Then I woke up and wore all sorts of god...
|Posted by anonymous at April 22, 2011
I'm 13, I'm confused about my life. More Importantly I'm confused about religion and other things like secret societies, and I have questions and no one can give a good answer. Let's Start with some of the basic fuck ups when religion comes around. Christian, I'm pretty sure there is something waiting for us after we die. who knows? no one right, thats why part of the world is fucked up, a lot of people say they've seen god, or they died but came back to life.. Bullshit. Second, and most fucked up I think is Satanism Why do you believe in that what is the point what the fuck did Satan do for anyone? then there is atheism, which all the smart scientist would believe in fact over fiction. and there are many other religions that don't make sense. now my other topic is Secret Societies like the Illuminati?
who are they what do they do, are there any other Societies? but so far I see this earth heading straight to hell. there is to much fucked up shit in our "World" thanks and please if you have any answers or suggestions then comment and let me know.
|Posted by It doesn't matter at January 2, 2011
I am sick of living this life. I've been a Christian all my life but now I'm losing my faith. I don't understand why people who hate God have such great lives, yet I have been trying to live a moral life all this time and my life still sucks. I work so hard, but everything gets taken away from me in the end. People pretend to be my friends, but they're never there for me. Everything living thing on this world dies alone.
|Posted by worstluckever... at December 26, 2010
im not the best guy when it comes to dealing with women, like i was recently in 10 month or so slump between girlfriends, and over the last 4 months or so, i've been practically in love with a girl i cant have... not because she doesnt like me back, which she does.. not because of my job, cuz she doesnt even have one, and not because of her personality, cuz she is just like me...no the reason she cant be my girlfriend is because of religion. I'm a catholic, and she's some form of protestant? i dont even fucking know.
the real bitch of it? it's the fact that i knew i couldnt date her, and i let myself fall in love with her anyway. for a while, i didnt think there was a God... now i know there is, and im pretty sure he hates me.
|Posted by Ambreen. at December 4, 2010
I read most of the stories here so I felt I can share mine and perhaps get some advice. I am 26, single, quite educated with a teaching job and aspiring to study further. Being from a Moslem third world country make independence impossible(culturally and economically)for a woman but I have tried to do the best I could do. I argued and fought with my father, who is EXTREMELY abusive. He has been beating my mother and both his daughters for the past many many years. As a child and as an adult I have seen domestic abuse to an extent that I have internalized it as a part of domestic life. My father is insanely controlling and my mother who was 14 years his junior never stood up against him. He tried to stop me from going to college and finding a job, but I argued and fought and was able to complete my Masters and get a job in the same college. This opportunity gave me a lot of independence if not a lot of money. Then he started forcing me to get married to some one I did not approve of. I was mercilessly beaten, but I didnt give up and threatened to commit suicide if he didnt stop. Thankfully, my mother intervened. Some time after this incident, I met a very supportive sweet guy from a very poor family who belongs to a different sect and fell in love with him. His hardwork got him a scholarship for Phd in an American university, and he had to leave. I was very very depressed... athough he contacts me often and keeps telling me that he will not give up on me, I feel ...
|Posted by Another Suck-ee at November 15, 2010
Mormons are the biggest hypocrites I know. I know, because I am one. Do I believe in my faith? Yes, but the people in my church are the biggest damn hypocrites you will ever meet. I have moved around a lot and I've never lived anywhere the people in my ward didn't treat me or my kids badly. It SUCKS having to go to church every Sunday with a big fat fake smile on your face and do what your supposed to do--while you are ignored or ostrasized because you don't have cool kids. Yes, even at church, life has taught me, bullies and mean girls rule just like in middle and high school. Great huh?
There are so many lonely struggling souls on this planet--just look at this pathetic, sad website. Don't think for one minute that the suburban soccer moms driving around in their shiny minivans with Jesus Saves stickers on the windshield have some kind of wonderful thing going on. Everyone's life sucks.
Mine sucks today because once again, dealing with issues like ADHD and Aspergers has gotten one of my kids in trouble with another at church. It was nice of them to be so Christian and understanding and call the police. I think I am going to throw up and I'm pretty sure my kid is scarred for life. Let's hope he doesn't end up with a record.
Mean people suck. Mean Mormon hypocrites bite. Ugh.
|Posted by Mr. X at October 26, 2010
Hello , I have read most of the stories on this site and I will be honest it is people like you that make me strive for my dream and that is to change this world.
¨Well this is my story, Ever since I was born I Was the curse on my family, being the first male child and I was hated by my relatives and still am. My father hated me as a child and I still do not have any contact. All my life was about migration from one country to another escaping war . Now i am in a civilised country, but my life is not going well. I entered this intenational school and ever since day one my life has been hell. i have been oppressed for being me, for not being rich or what they call a true genius. Many of my teachers have seen me as hopeless and many people have looked down on me. I am still oldest child in the family and I have lots of responsiblities. I must now also take care of EVERYTHING as my grandma is leaving. The only true friend I have is not even here, she is in another country. I have had love once and it ended up with heart break. I am a so called good kid, I am religious but even my religion Islam is oppressed by this world, we are seen as terrorists. I dont have friends cause I am different, I dont party I dont drink i find it stupid. I work hard each fucking day,I RARELY SLEEP. I AM AMBITIOUS BUT ITS MY CURSE, I TRAIN ALL DAY AND STUDY ALL NIGHT. My parents tell me THAT I NEVER HAVE TIME FOR THEM, BUT I NEVER HAVE TIME FOR ME EITHER. THEY ALWAYS EXPECT GREAT THINGS BUT HOW CAN I BRING THEM GREAT THINGS IF I DONT WORK. EVER SINCE I WAS A CHILD I HAVE ALWAYS DREAM OF MAKING THE WORLD A BETTER PLACE, EVEN IF AM AN ARAB MUSLIM. I JUST GET REAL TIRED, I GET SO TIRED THAT I CANT EVEN SLEEP AT NIGHT, I HAVE NO ONE TO TALK TO. I JUST NEED A BREAK. I know my story is not like most but I did like to share it. Thank you for your time.
|Posted by anonymous at October 20, 2010
I guess most of you are from America, or at least from a anglo-saxon country. I'm not. I'm from morocco, a muslim country south Spain. Since a very early age, I discovered how society is unfrair. How weak people does not mean anything to others. I was weak (But I'm not anymore.) And the worst among all of this, how gay people are indesirable !
I am gay, and I am atheist, two things that the muslims hate over anything else. There is no need to tell how people mocked my effeminacy. Neither how my father was about to go crazy when he learned that I was homosexual when I got teenage. And how he tried to make my life a hell. He's still trying, with more difficulty because I caught him talking to a teenage girl (He's 53 !). I'm blackmailing him : if he does not leave me alone, I will tell the police, and this works everytime. And this if fun !
There are so many other sucking things in my life, but I don't have time enough.
Hope my message does not suck too much !
If there is some advise I could give, this would be : find how sucking life could me funny ! That makes us more clever, and more objective, yes, I swear !
|Posted by Bee at August 27, 2010
I'm torn between wanting to be a religious or an everyday married person with kids. My time is running out as I get older. I know it doesn't sound too bad but it is. I have an amazing ability to see the pain in other people especially married people or people with children or sexually active people. I can appreciate the horror of the situation, so if I choose marriage and kids and I encounter sadness and hardship and grief, I will only have myself to blame because I knew all along that it would be. On the other hand I cannot be smug about the fact that I am celebate. The dawning truth is that one day sooner or later I will dry up, my biological clock will wither and I will face the reality that I will never have children in this world. I will never know intimacy with one of the many potential spouses I have met on my journey. There are times when I seriously ask God why I was ever conceived.
|Posted by Sammad at August 2, 2010
1.I live in Pakistan.I am a Muslim and in my country Muslim were divided in different categories i was a(Shea)i am proud to be a Shea but my class mates weren't all the time they made ridiculous excuses just to insult me or make fun.
i wasn't weak when i was a child i used to fight everyday and everyday i was punished by the teacher like they don't want to hear my side of truth.
and the more i fight i was hated by the kids.you see (Shea)is 2nd majority in Muslims it is mostly hated by all categories sometimes even the Shea kids used to mix up with the other kids to male fun of me just because so they wont get insulted.so i was a loner.huh
as i grew i stopped caring and so did some of the few boys with me.
2.then came the villain of my life i never knew what his problem was what did he always make fun of me with his friend blaming me of stuff that never happened.
he was and is my cousin every thing he used to make fun of me why
i am sory this is all i can write i dont know you will know my situation but i cant write any more this is use less this is never gonna help me