LIFE SUCKS : 2010 November

invisible and alone

Well, let's see-my life sucks so many directions it's hard to pick one...I have a job where I am not appreciated, where I work so hard physically that I am exhausted by the time I leave and I have to hear how I don't do enough and need to do more constantly, while I have a teammate who skips through life doing as little as possible and therefore leaving me to take up the slack. Management refuses to make her and she is apparently immune to getting in trouble even when they know she is a slacker. In my yearly raise I got meets which is a raise but not enough to help my financial woes, which makes me furious because I bet she got the same raise doing literally half the work. I don't make enough money to keep up with the bills as is and I have the added expenses of medical care constantly...my husband has a chronic illness (although I do too) which I am paying medical bills for to the extent I can't afford to go to the doctor for my diabetes and high blood pressure. It is always another bill, another demand I can't meet and another time I am going to feel less than good enough. my husband doesn't work, is disabled. He goes to meetings 3-4 times a week and sleeps the other days I am in so there is little contact. He doesn't help around the house unless I say something. My teenage daughter won't either...so I am stuck cleaning up alone. Everything is my job and I have no relief or anyone who seems to give a crap about me. My marriage is basically nonexistent because w...

life

this year 2010 is the worst ever! my job treats me like shit,my wife is mean and controlling and her and her boy set around laughing at there farts.i broke my foot 3 months ago and still cant walk, the insesion from the surgery is now infected and is delaying me to walk,belive me being stuck at home is very depressing,not to mention the pain from the foot.

Really?

You life sucks only because you make it so.

Talk to a psychiatrist if you feel neglected or depressed.

Call CPS if you're a minor and feel like your parents treat you like shit.

Relationships suck, chances are you won't find your life-long mate until after a ton of strike-outs.

Make the best of what you're given. Your wife is disabled? Just be thankful she's alive. Your parent/s died? Be thankful you had the chance to know them.

Everyone on here just complains. What about the kids in Africa that are malnourished, or young children illegally imported here just to be sex-slaves, or children that don't even have the chance for an education? And you dropped out of middle school?

A lot of you should be ashamed of yourself. Be thankful for what you have.

I'm a total butt plug

I Have NO:Job,Home,Money,Friends,Car,Phone or even much life left in me any more. So I think time to say goodby to this world. I hope the after life is better then thi one was. Good luck to the rest of you, I'm out of here.......

just me

I know i wasn't always like i am now, because i had friends. i had friends and family who cared about me and trusted me. they confided in me. I confided in them. I don't know how or what made me turn on them, but i did. I'd make fun of my friends behind their backs. I'd go out with their ex girlfriends. I lied to them. I cheated them. I started doing narcotics. i'd be i complete ass to my family. When my parents found out i was into drugs, I promised i wouldn't do it again. i lied. I had never broken a promise before in my life. My brother is a sweet kid. He never wished a bad thing about anyone. I know when he told my parents that i was doing drugs again, he meant the best. but i am an ass. i am decietfull. i don't deserve a single good thing i get. The only remotley bad thing that has ever happenned to me was that my parents are divorced, and i used to get beat up all the time in elementary school, but that's no excuse for the way i am. My phsychiotrist (fuck me if i spelled that wrong) put me on antidepressants, but nothing changed. I still cut my self and i still like hurt other people just as much as i like hurting myself. Physically and mentally.
I have no real friends at college (haha, no fucking surprise right?)
and i am unhappy. not because i am lonely, but no one can trust me. I still play football with some people and what not, but they don't trust me. I want people to trust me, i want people to love me, i don't want to want to hurt them but i do. I do...

sucks to be me

my mom died when i was 12. my dad remarried a year later to a bitch with 5 kids. who all hate me because i dont know how to lie as good as they do, and be a manipulative conniving bitch. not only does my dad not stick up for me, but he also doesn't care that it makes me miserable. he prefers to stay out of it. my step mom talks shit about me and barely goes to work so she can take care of her un married daughters baby, while shes pregnant with the next one. she complains we have no money, but my dad makes close to 6 figure salary and could support my old family just fine. i have no home, and no one in the world can empathize.

the pain it just wont end.

so i dont see the point of life ive beeen told by myself and others that i will get nowere in life and that im shit every one i get close to hurts me ive been raped 5 times ive tried to kill myself plenty of times ive been striped of my family i dont look at the sky any more i look at the blood flowing down my are i dont turn to"jesus" i find confort in my blade it been there when people havent life is just a pit a pit of disspare were pain is embraced and the idea of people like us suffering is banished from thier mind to fit thir perfect world.

bob's story

i like many others in this world have a girl problem mine starts with the first time i asked a girl out I was instantly rejected so i felt bad but i said hey there are other girls out there my second attempt came about a month later diff girl once again i was rejected and it hurt a little more than the last time and i was bummed out (she was hot) for a few days but soon i got over it but when i would think to ask a girl out i would start to get scarred in my head it was like (i know im going to get rejected so why try) but i would always say to my self you can do this you can do this....then get rejected again and again and again so far i am seventeen years old never kissed never held hands never had a date and i still have fear of rejection and cant ask girls out to this day the tally so far is this 10-12 rejections and 1 maybe....later turned into a refection
even all the girls i hang out with wonder why this happens to me

Hypocrites

Mormons are the biggest hypocrites I know. I know, because I am one. Do I believe in my faith? Yes, but the people in my church are the biggest damn hypocrites you will ever meet. I have moved around a lot and I've never lived anywhere the people in my ward didn't treat me or my kids badly. It SUCKS having to go to church every Sunday with a big fat fake smile on your face and do what your supposed to do--while you are ignored or ostrasized because you don't have cool kids. Yes, even at church, life has taught me, bullies and mean girls rule just like in middle and high school. Great huh?

There are so many lonely struggling souls on this planet--just look at this pathetic, sad website. Don't think for one minute that the suburban soccer moms driving around in their shiny minivans with Jesus Saves stickers on the windshield have some kind of wonderful thing going on. Everyone's life sucks.

Mine sucks today because once again, dealing with issues like ADHD and Aspergers has gotten one of my kids in trouble with another at church. It was nice of them to be so Christian and understanding and call the police. I think I am going to throw up and I'm pretty sure my kid is scarred for life. Let's hope he doesn't end up with a record.

Mean people suck. Mean Mormon hypocrites bite. Ugh.

my life sucks but still love my God

I was living in Calgary but had to quit my job due to health issues and then moved to British Columbia where I collected unemployment till it ran out
I had two strokes when I got here and my left hip is so out of joint that it pains me to get up in the morning , I have a sprained elbow and a crushed disk in my lower back which when I move the wrong way shoots a sharp pain all through my back.
My fiance lives in the Bahamas and I cant afford to go see her its been two years now and the good thing is she still loves me. For how long I dont know cause you know how it is when your lonely.I have no source of income and may end up a homeless person who knows.I have migrain headaches in the morning due to the strokes I guess.my brothers and sisters all live in foriegn countries and I dont have a clue how to find them . And to top it all off my eyes are failing me and I had to upgrade my glasses to correct my vision which made me broke.But all in all I still trust in God and expect he will see me through.If I should die tomorrow at least I have my God.
Oh by the way . My only son is an alcoholic and goes on binges once in a while .And his girlfriend is a lunatic and she is pregnant.There you have it . Life sucks but I still believe in God

I'm a depressed male prostitute

First, sorry if my English is poor, it’s my second language. I live in Thailand where my Australian father and my Thai mother had me. My father die when I was ten. He didn’t leave us anything. Later I learn that my mother was his secret wife. Life was very difficult after he die. We hardly had three meals a day. Then my older brother joined a boxing camp to become a boxer to help out. He was doing ok. So I was forced to train there when I was twelve. At twelve, nobody would hire me but people would pay to see teenagers fight. Yes, this is how things work here. In the camp we had to get up at five and run ten kilometers. Then practiced all day until sunset seven days a week. It was no fun being punched and kicked when in the ring or in the camp during practicing. The worst part was weight control. To maintain weight class, camp manager controlled who got to eat and didn’t. I was allowed to have only vegetable soup for days even if my weight was only a few pounds over. People can count all my ribs a few days before the fight date. Because I eat/sleep/train in the camp, most money I earn from boxing which is not much went to the camp owner. But at least I was not a burden to my family. Then my mother was killed by a car accident. The killer ran away. Hard life at the boxing camp and my mother bad news made me leave the camp. I was sixteen with no education and no money. My brothers friend helped me getting a job as a construction laborer in Bangkok. Work was hard but my bod...

I dont know what to do anymore

Life sucks for me because I feel I have nothing left for me i'm not old enough to get a job and move out due to the fact that i'm such a burden to my family , but I know if I try to leave no one will be left to take care of my handicapped brother because I know that my older sister will not take care of him she threatened to send him to a home. Everyday I think of committing suicide its sad to say but I cant help but feel these terrible things because as I was growing up I had low self esteem being called a gluten,a retard,and a mistake. I have no reason to feel this way since what they say is true. As of last month I was diagnosed with digenitive disc disease something that has to do with my lower spinal cord like my L5 and I have to under go surgery but I can not pay for it.

why was a born

I'm seventeen. My family is very dysfunctional and are always fighting.
My dad, step mom (who has brain damage from a car accident and is legally mentally retarded yet still allowed to punish me) (she has punished me for saying words she doesn't understand because she thought they were insults) and sister are always against me and say that I have an anger problem, depression, and an eating disorder. My sister calls me bipolar and a sociopath and tells me to commit suicide because she hates me more than anyone. She'll be talking completely normal, and calmly and then I'll inquire about something and she'll just flip a switch and go crazy. Today I asked her why she lied about me and she said "get the **** out I'm going to smash your skull in" and my dad said to ignore this and that it is normal. He says that I should be more mature than her. I do not think that she should get a free pass, she is 15. She is also very promiscuous and frequently goes out drinking and doing drugs.
My parents made me go to a psychologist and he said that I don't have ANY of those problems and I'm perfectly fine. I already knew this, because when I get mad I have legitimate reasons, everyone gets mad. I'm not depressed even though I should be. I deal with SO MUCH shit that anyone else would have gone crazy. I don't have an eating disorder, I never exercise (anorexics exercise like crazy) and I eat whatever I want, I KNOW I'm not fat.
When your own parents constantly say that you have...

Life is a freakin joke.

Ok so I am living in an apartment I can barely afford..I cannot find a cheaper place. I am 20 yrs old. My bills are late.. My landlord found my cats.. I had to get rid of them. all I do Is cry and cry..I am so stressed... I hate growing up... I work 6 days a week... I cant take the stress anymore... I just dont no what to do...

if you get meds, take them

i am hearing voices right now and they hate me. i am on the verge of having an episode due to unreal anxiety. no one said that life would deliver insanity. the voices are calling me bad things. they never stop. i stopped taking my anti-psychotics. i self-decreased my dose of anti-depressants because i feel that anti-depressants make me a doormat. i can't even sleep because i refuse to take my sleeping meds, which is an anit-psychotic, because it makes me tired the whole next day. not that the sleeping meds take away the voices. i just want to be normal. this is how i am choosing to live. kind of odd, hah? i hate meds. meds blind me from reality. a reality that no one wants to hear. they just want to shut me up and have me a walking zombie. two worlds clashing= meds and being a doormate and zombie, vs. hearing voices all the time and over anxiety and about to have episodes from depression from lowering my doseage. i hate meds. they make the truth hidden. i am more witty since i've stopped taking my meds. now i see the truth and also, i have the side effects from mental disorders. how did it become this way? the system failed. everyone was blind to the reality of what was going on.
if you think you have a problem, my advice to you is to see a doctor immediately. if you do not, then you will only become more screwed up in the head. of course someone would look at me and never guess i was insane.
if you are being harmed and people deny it, ignore them and go report it...

What is pain?

Life’s a depressing journey of pain and integrity, who knows if you’re supposed to go left or right? No one knows or can predict what’s coming toward you. Does your future hold the past? Or can you let it all go? Why does pain hurt? It comes from inside not the outside, get tripped by a bully at school and get scarred, that’s because you internally let that bully get to you. Hospitals, and doctors are just money making, lying places. 50% of the sicknesses out there are because of depression, not any stupid flu or anything. You could have kissed your boyfriend or girlfriend and got the sickness, sickness of love. Why do people choose to do badly? It’s no brain malfunction; it’s something from the past that is drilling a hole through your heart and leaving a spine tingling feeling inside of you. Personality comes from your perspective of yourself, others around you, your emotions, and your past. Say you’re nice, and trustworthy, and caring, that’s an easy one, it’s obviously something happened to you that your keeping inside and can’t let it out, so you use kindness to let it out, The real people who are actually the ones who are most normal are the angry, bad ones. They let out there feelings ton other people, they have to get it out and that’s good, honestly in the inside everyone is nice, there’s just some people who decide to let it all out. And we should take the time to respect them. I made up the saying” life is like a text book, you learn, apply it, sometimes skip ...

life sucks eh..

hey, im a 13 year old who life sucks, you know why!!! wel... my dad died a couple months ago! my mom yells at me every day to clean up do the fucking dishes!! and clean the damn toilet and washroom, no matter what i do is wrong! im bullied at school, made fun of and always hit and abused by most kids!! no i do not have a playing console or an xbox 360 nor do i have a cell phone like most rich snotty cool kids have!! i was doing soo well in school!! getting 88 percent average and then i dropped to a 72 percent average!!! my life is ruined it sucks!! the girl i like doesnt talk to me, and the girl i ahte does like me!!! i live in a shitty small home and have the ugliest car!! i wear almost the same clothes every day!! people make fun of my braces! my sister tells on me all the time!! it fucking sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Im stuck.

Life sucks. I'm only thirteen and been diagnosed with a disease which causes this horrible "odor". It's ruining my social life and what's worse is that my family doesn't believe me. Appearantly, (as the doctor told me) that their nose got "used to" the smell, somewhat like walking into a house that smells and getting used to it afterwards. I begged for a year to go to the doctor and the thought I was psycho. So finally I went to the doctors. The doctor truely did smell the horrible odor and told me to take a blood test. My parents refused and said "the doctors just want our money, so shes making up a lie." My parents are abusive and tried to kick me out of the house several times. Bruises on my face. I try to hide from everyone everyday and when I get home I try to hide from my abusive dad. A little piece of wrapper on the floor would equal to an hour lesson on how they have to deal with us and a big bruise on my face with a red hand mark. I wish I can go to adoption, but who would adopt me for this mysterious odor? I'm stuck.I've been so depressed that I can't focus anymore, my head hurts in school. Slit my throat and let me die now.

No life quality, just let me die

I live in a no count town 800 miles where I'm from. I have no family or friends. The only reason I'm here is to babysit my boyfriends out of countrol kid. There are days that I go where I'm isolated to one room for days at a time, only being allowed out to babysit.
I'm so lonely and isolated that I hope daily that I don't wake up. There is NOTHING to look forward to in my life.
Everything I get from tampons to toilet paper I have to beg for.
Why can't I just drop dead?

life has sucked for like 5 years

So I am a mother of 2 and wife of 13 years and we all love each other and all that is GREAT (my husband has a good job).......but let me tell you the decision to be an at home mom was BAD.......I gave up a GREAT job to be an at home with the kids......and as money got tight stress got MORE........now the kids don't need me as much and now I am not qualified for ANY job.........so now we can NOT pay the bills because 1 JOB is NOT enough! Try to get a job with no education that will let you work around school schedules that pays enough to warrent paying a sitter or after school care.........We lost out house to foreclosure.........and the rental we have costs WAY to much and we are drownding in debt we have to have our parents buy food for us, and don't come close to qualifing for assistance!
As far as work for me goes my car broke down and my friends husband owns a car lot so they got me a car but now I have to work for them to pay it off..........so I work 30 hours a week with no income to pay off the car (that is not working so great)..........I had to beat the crap out of the fuse box in traffic driving my daughter home from my moms house to keep the headlights on.........I cried the rest of the way home! So my husbands whole pay today will go to rent that is a week late.......and I have no clue what to do about the rest of my bills of food.........I am sure there are soooooooo many people in way worse situations but right now MY LIFE JUST SUCKS!