i am hearing voices right now and they hate me. i am on the verge of having an episode due to unreal anxiety. no one said that life would deliver insanity. the voices are calling me bad things. they never stop. i stopped taking my anti-psychotics. i self-decreased my dose of anti-depressants because i feel that anti-depressants make me a doormat. i can't even sleep because i refuse to take my sleeping meds, which is an anit-psychotic, because it makes me tired the whole next day. not that the sleeping meds take away the voices. i just want to be normal. this is how i am choosing to live. kind of odd, hah? i hate meds. meds blind me from reality. a reality that no one wants to hear. they just want to shut me up and have me a walking zombie. two worlds clashing= meds and being a doormate and zombie, vs. hearing voices all the time and over anxiety and about to have episodes from depression from lowering my doseage. i hate meds. they make the truth hidden. i am more witty since i've stopped taking my meds. now i see the truth and also, i have the side effects from mental disorders. how did it become this way? the system failed. everyone was blind to the reality of what was going on.
if you think you have a problem, my advice to you is to see a doctor immediately. if you do not, then you will only become more screwed up in the head. of course someone would look at me and never guess i was insane.
if you are being harmed and people deny it, ignore them and go report it. even if you are under 18. the more you stay in the situation, the worse you will be in the longrun. you still have a chance if you recognize the signs yourself and report abuse. don't be afraid to come out. be afraid of not coming out and being terminally mentally ill like myself. the system is terrible at recognizing the symptoms of child abuse and only you know what is going on. no child deserves to be hurt. if you are being harmed in ANY way, get out of the situation. report it to someone at your school. | |
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