| | Posted by Campat at February 18, 2010 |
I am 24 year old male. I was born into a normal family. I am the youngest. I have a half sister who is 10 years older then me. I was a happy kid till the age of 14. That is when my life turned to the constent decent.
My next door nigehbour was jumping on her trampoline. She was my age and I was just observing and she thought I was peeping. I wasn't but she said one insult and i just spiraled into depression. So. During my high school days, I was a loner. I had few friends and nobody, not even the ladies wanted to hang out with me. I thought my life sucked then.
Well I graduated in 2005. I went into the real world and it was good for awhile but then I moved out 2 years later. I moved in my mothers place and spent another 2.5 years at her place. There I felt my whole world just going to hell. I had to get out of there.
Today, I live with a roomate and so far so good. At least it's what i thought. I have had only a handful of dates with women and I am still single, and partialy still a virgin. I just want to kill myself but I know if I do, it would be stupidest thing I would ever do. I need a shrink but don't have the money.
So that is it. I just shared with you a breif synopsis of my life. |
| | Posted by Prm at February 17, 2010 |
Im 29, a virgin, stil live @ home with my control freak mom, only had 1 boyfriend - in high school 4 a week, i was bullied, dad left when i was 9 he recently tried to kill himself cos hes hiv+, i HATE my job, ive no friends, never did, tried 2 kill self twice, insomniac. I basically have no life & i see no point to life, i dont know y i was brought here in the first place. If the world realy were 2 end i hope it hapens v soon |
| | Posted by j at February 17, 2010 |
I cannot claim by any means that this story is half as bad as most... but it still sucks and makes me feel better to get it out. I'm 27. i still live at home. I consider myself to be an attractive man but yet cannot find a woman. I'm aethiest which everyone gives me shit about. im on multiple meds for depression cause i just cry for no reason sometimes. i have lost the will to do anything... go outside, hang with friends, even masturbating seems unpleasant or unfulfilled. I feel like im going to be that guy that livers at home forever. i had a girlfriend a while back, had an apartment so i thought i was pretty secure and went and bought a new car. she left me for an ex bf that was in jail. we didn't speak till they broke up.... and just when me and her were becoming friends again she died in a car accident. now i live at home, cant afford to live on my own cause of the damn car payment, and my life is just going nowhere. i would never kill myself cause then there would always be ppl that would say "i could have done something"... even tho I'd love to. The world is a prison and life is my sentence. I just wish i would die from natural causes and be done with this life. |
| | Posted by anonymous at February 17, 2010 |
well, i am a 15 year old guy. im a freshman in high school. i have been best friends with these three girls for years. they are the only ones that will talk to me. first off, im a nerd. second of all, i am extremly tall for my age. third, i hit puberty at a very early age, so i have facial hair, which of course, leads to teasing... well, now for some reason none of these girls will say a word to me. they wont even look at me as we walk down the hall. they made me feel important. now i have no one. i will probably die alond and a virgin. on top of all this, my grandparents passed away in a car accident last week. i feel like shit. life sucks... |
| | Posted by anonymous at February 16, 2010 |
People always tell me "Dont give up, life gets better..." blahblahblah. Ever since 5th grade of been hearing that. Yah, its a load of shit. Life never gets better.
First off, I get EVERYTHING I want from my mom. Cell phone, laptop, $3,000's a year for cheerleading, ect.
-But with everything I want.. theres never happieness.
My father (who was 40) left my mother for a girl, yes I said girl, not woman. Who was 17yrs old. My sister was 15. You can only imagen the feeling of knowing your father is a pervert whos having sex with someone old enough to be my sister. My friends werent aloud around me. People refused to come over.
-Do you know what its like walking through the hallways by yourself, eating lunch alone, being the only person in your class who doesnt talk cus you dont have one single friend. But the friends you do have treat you like shit.. like your nothing. And its not like you can just get new friends when your me. Im weird, ugly, fat, annoying, loud, stupid, lazy, ect. I cant change who I am, its how God made me. Yes, i hav tried. Many times, and I think becuase ive tried so hard.. everythings worse. Ive tried fitting into all the new cliques, or the styles and what not. But ive still never been good enough. For anyone.
- I would do ANYTHING for a boyfriend.. for a guy to even look at me... Give me attention instead of my bestfriend. Tell me im something more than a hideous fat bitch.. Having someone love me would help with about ... |
| | Posted by anonymous at February 16, 2010 |
I've been in placment since i was five years old. I was abused when i was four years old. my life was messed up by dss. i could have gotten adopted but i was placed in treatment facilities. i am gay people make fun of me. to the point i want to commit suicide. |
| | Posted by youthinkyouhaveproblems? at February 16, 2010 |
im a 27yo man. i first learnt my father was a pedophile having sex with my sisters when i was 8. he found out i knew shortly after. he beat on me every day, one time hanging me with the kettle cord wrapped around my neck when i was 10. my mother fled the country with the lover she had met and took my youngest sister with her when she was 8. my eldest sister was moved into my fathers bed. she fled the country 7months later. my second eldest sister took her place in the bed. one time he got her pregnant and it was put to me by him to make the descision to keep it or not. the only time i know i deffinetly made the right descision which was NO. i feel shameful to this day that i used it to a degree as a bargaining chip to let my father know i still smoked. i was 15 at the time. i could not leave though i knew i was not welcome there and i raised myself from the age of 14. leaving my sister to that existance alone was not an option, so i stayed. ive had my nose broken a few times, fingers broken, a cracked skull even. my sister to ease her existence accepted her lot in life acted the dutiful "wife" until she grew to old for my father. this was when she was 21 and i was 19. i developed an aggresive drug addiction at the age of 21 when i couldnt handle being so unhappy with the way my life had gone so far. i was an isolated person who knew that everyone i looked at (barring my sisters) had it better than me, no matter how bad they infact thought they had it. i was smoking a 1/4 ... |
| | Posted by Loser at February 16, 2010 |
I bought my first home in August. Was laid off in November from a Capitalist pig who makes 350K per year while raking in another 96K for a bonus while his shit ass workers make nothing. Applied for unemployment. Forget calling them, you can't get through. I have sent out over 200 resumes since November and interviewed twice. Didn't get either job. I was told there were hundreds of applicants for the position, I should feel lucky I was called for an interview. Been in school working on my degree. Graduate in 6 months and not sure how I am going to pay my school loans. Over qualified for the job I can do and underqualified for jobs that require my degree. Have absoultely NO money and feel like jumping off a bridge. Life sucks and for most of my life I have felt in general life is just one big fricken waste of time. |
| | Posted by justme at February 16, 2010 |
Everyone says that their life sucks. Well I lost everything in a house fire and then a year later held my son in my arms as he passed away because he was born too early to survive. How do you get over something like that? |
| | Posted by fuck it at February 15, 2010 |
i was on the top of the world until the end of my senior year in high school, ive kinda been a jock my whole life, im a bigger guy but im very athletic, ive played football and wrestled my whole life and i was very good at them. So how did my depression start? I don't even know exsactly, but what I do know is what relly set it off. The first and only girl ive ever loved, broke up with me. And at the time i didn't think anything of it, until I realised I loved her more then anything, even my own life. After that everything fell apart. I failed high school and got really into to drugs. The result is i got busted by the cops. Now ive been depressed for 4 years straight, i think about killing myself every day for my life. I was the jock in high school and i wasn't the best student but i wasnt the worst, i just didn't care anymore. Im an athest now, i figured that there is no way there is a god with as much pain there is in the world, and if the is, i absolutly hate mother fucker
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| | Posted by anonymous at February 15, 2010 |
17 years old and i hate my fucking life.
i have had depression for as long as i can remember and have been over weight for even longer. thanks to the pressures of living up to every one elses standards i am now borderline morbidly obese. i have acne all over my body and find myself physically sick when i look in the mirror. i hate parties, i hate being social.. i feel as if everyone is judging me.
my friends have all had boyfriends and all i get is stuff thrown at me or verbally abused. not even glances of interest in my direction .. unless they are insults. i hate myself.
i want to end my life, i have planned it out thousands of times in my head... yet i dont have the guts to even end my useless life. |
| | Posted by les at February 14, 2010 |
ok. been around her for 2 yrs. been girlfriends for 4 months. shes intoo polygamy, im not. i tried it for her. not for me. before we were gfs, i met and slept with a woman. next day, we became gfs cuz...im not sure why. we have love for each other but its not enough. too much hurt and resentment. i have no life cuz all i do is to please her. i fail at everything though. she cant/wont see that i love her. theres another girl i get along better with. i think it could be long lasting. i love the present girl but owe have a lot of problems. new girls like @me. 2 relationships, 3 lives. who do i go with?? never had a harder choice in my life... familiar yet uncomfortable or new and cozy? im so confused. please help me. sbpapi@yahoo.com |
| | Posted by anonymous at February 14, 2010 |
Well, let me preface this story by stating that up until recently I have been fairly lucky in life. I have a graduate degree, I was gainfully employed with an international job in clinical research, and I was happy. That was until I began to have anxiety attacks after I moved in with my girlfriend. It wasn't her; it was the stress from work, graduate school, and wanting everything to be perfect in my new life. After struggling with nearly crippling anxiety for a year I finally broke down and talked to my primary care doctor and was prescribed a anxiolytic. It worked great except for I felt like I was somewhat drunk all the time, but at least I was able to function and I didn't feel as if I was going to die every five minutes. This is where the problem began. The medication left me unable to see what was happening to my personal life and how my actions were impacting everyone else; my friends, work, and, most importantly, my girlfriend. My personality changed and I became irritable and gained about twenty pounds as I slept quite often (I normally only slept 4-6 hours at a time.) Now, after even having a beer or two with my friends I would be extremely inebriated because of the combined effects of the alcohol and medication and I emailed a girl on craigslist (I don't remember what I said.) My girlfriend found the email and between that and my personality changes she broke up with me. This was one week before I was going to propose to her. I was unable to cope with that and ... |
| | Posted by fck at February 13, 2010 |
Everyday I wake up, thinking "It's just another day". Why? Because very fucking day is the same. Wake up, go to school, hang with people in my class because they can at least make me smile. Walk home from school to see my aunt and grandpa doing whatever the hell it is they're doing. Go into my room and go on the shittiest computer you can possibly find, and play games that are nearing 10 year olds. Come nighttime and my parents come home. Then I have to go to bed. I'm sick and tired of the same crap all day long. My overprotective parents won't buy me a cellphone, an iPod, or even my own computer. I can't go out on weekdays, and everytime I do something wrong, I get yelled at, OVER AND OVER AGAIN. No one's perfect right? I make mistakes, so why the hell is it that they can't give me some support? I do something good and they don't even notice, nor do I ever get a compliment or thank you from them, and when I do something bad, it JUST SO HAPPENS that they find out about it. WHAT THE FUCK? Is God doing this to me? Is it just my shitty ass life? Why can't everything just work out for itself like my sister's? She never get yelled at, she gets all the compliments, and I HAVE to see all of it, pissing me off even more. I understand they put a roof over my house and gave me life, but too much of their bullshit and just too much. I can't fucking live with them breathing down my neck all the time. They buy my sister nice clothes, and give me 2 pair of jeans, and 10 shirts to wear. All I can do is walk home from school, borrow my sister's iPod, and try to imagine what a perfect life would be like. I'm a guy and god, I didn't cry when I broke my leg, but yet I cry when I'm thinking about these little things. I wish we could live a happy life and just get on with it. I wish I had someone that understand things like I do and for me to talk to, someone that cares for me and someone to actually say "I Love you". |
| | Posted by mmc at February 11, 2010 |
I know it sucks but shit gets better. Ive been through it all, drug adiction, prison, rejection, depression, etc... and sometimes i want to stick a 12guage in my mouth and put blood spackle all over the ceiling, but beleive me it does get better lifes like that it goes up and down. one minute your at rock bottom and the next its not so bad. this website is good because it gives you a place to write your feelings but keep it here on the website and out of your head. Remember, God is good and what goes around comes around. J |
| | Posted by Hill at February 10, 2010 |
I am 29 yr old. Worked hard, was laid off 2 years ago. Since then could only get temp work & collect unemployment. Had bad gum infection and abcessed tooth. Led to chronic sinus pain/infection. Got antibiotics, but not dental treatment due to finances. Got so dizzy while driving one day I had to pull over. I laid back and could barely move, was confused and shaking. Called 911 on cell. Ended up infection spread to my brain. 2 week hospital stay, IV antibiotics, ER bill, scans galore and I was uninsured at the time. I was left with short term memory loss, confusion, slight dyslexia, ringing ears, blurry vision, chronic fatigue and major dizzy spells. Headaches and sinus pain daily. I feel like I am ruined. Haven't worked since, so I am uninsured and choose necessities over needed healthcare. The thought of fighting for disability payments is so exhausting. Live with my boyfriend so at least I am not homeless. |
| | Posted by jefferson caro at February 10, 2010 |
my name is jefferson i'm just a teenager but i have a problem i see that life is putting in a hole and will never dig me out of the hole. ok here a story when i was 9 years old my life start to change I went through a depression and still am and saw my life was shit to me because people made fun of me all day people will fight me for no reason because i was a nice person and I start to pray in the bathroom of my school and i'll lock myself in the bathroom and I pray to god and waited for a day were no one will make fun of me or hurt me in both way i have live with good parents but there weird i get embarrassed with my friend and sometime's they leave because of my parent's in my life it suck's and i'm the same still the same plz help
( for me i'll rough be dead than alive because life is hell) |
| | Posted by anonymous at February 8, 2010 |
40year old wife and mother of two....going through a mid life crisis, started talking to an exboyfriend did the unthinkable and it wasnt even worth it, it sucked so bad....anyways told my husband..broke his heart he is still with me trying to work it out but everyday i have to hear from him "you "f" another man" i get up go to work come home take care of kids and him....dont get to do anything for myself anymore...cant even manage to put make up on anymore...all i want to do is sleep, sleep forever...no energy to do nothing....we fight all the time...he cries alot...dont know what to do..my life sucks..im stuck. |
| | Posted by black currant lip gloss at February 7, 2010 |
m madly in love wid my best fren.. v hv been frenz for 5 years n a few months bak, i realized tat i love him!! but it sucks tat he doesn't love me.. he knws tat i love him, but he sees me only s fren.. n it kills me.. though he's rite on his grounds.. n i cnt evn force him feel for me.. but s far s i m concerned, to me, he means d world.. i cn do anythin for him.. but today itself, he flew away to a different country, leavin me bak here, all alone!! he's lik a drug to me, n addiction.. i dunno hw m i gonna surive witout him.. u make me so sad, still i love u more than anythin in d world!! i wish one day u'll love me too.. |
| | Posted by anonymous at February 7, 2010 |
Right from school i had no great friends.This kinda pained me when i got into middle school.i got one good friend.She too hurt my feelings and left.My father is an alcoholic & not affectionate.I wanted someone to share my feelings.
Inaddition to this i was teased by my classmates.The hard part was i didnt know y i was teased.I was criticised for whatever i did.
I thought this hell would b over once i reach college.But its not.its still continuing.My fucking classmates are laughing r whispering something when i passby r sit in front of them.
This is driving me crazy.I am pretty sensitive.I am also having hairfall because of those fuckers.fucking bitches & bastards.
I am afraid that this would continue beyond college |
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