LIFE SUCKS

Wife is giving up on me it seems.

It sort of makes sense when I think about. We got married too young. 23 is too young to be getting married, people. We're still developing physiological, mentally, spiritually. There is no reason to get married to someone if you're under the age of 30.

All we do is fight, bicker...sex isn't as good as it could be. We haven't even had sex in a month. She hates her body, she hates when I try to kiss her, she hates when I try to touch her, hug her. She hates everything about herself. All I've done the past eight years of knowing her is love her. I've given her everything I got. I've given her all of me, and I feel she won't give anything back.

Nothing I say, nothing I do makes her feel better about herself. Now I've given up. I've loved her. I've loved her with everything I had, and she rejects me. Rejects me! I've given my time to her, I've sacrificed my money, my plans, my skills, my career...all for her! I've built this house, I've built the relationship, but there is no connection anymore. There is no passion. There is no spark.

All I want is a healthy relationship. I want to be able to talk about problems and not fight about it. Hell, I want to talk about good things and not fight about it. I've tried to like things she likes. Everything she's interested in, I try to be interested in, too. Baking, running, little pets...everything she enjoys, I try to find enjoyment in. She won't try that the least bit with my love of baseball. Not even close. She hates it. She won't try to enjoy it. She makes a mockery of it. I'm making my living off of the sport, and she doesn't respect it! She doesn't know that it hurts me that I can't share it with her. I've told her I want her to love it, too--and you know what she told me? "I just can't. I hate baseball." I can't believe it. I've done everything for you, and you can't even attempt to learn about the fundamentals of a game that I love, that I'm making my living at, that I've sacrificed for. What's the point? What's the point anymore.

I have two options. Death or divorce.

I choose to live.