LIFE SUCKS

Broken

Hi. My life has been really great, I have a seven year old girl a three year old boy and a great wife. Recently I got into a fight with my wife because I was drinking. I left in a rage and wrecked my vehicle also getting a DWI. I haven't gone to court yet, but will loose my liscense for one year and of course I have no vehicle. Thats not what sucks. My wife took the kids and moved in with her parents. She says she still loves me but is not helping me through these tough times, it's as though she is teaching me a lesson. Ever since I have been with her, 11 years, I have been treated like a child. I rarely make a decision on my own, I am not my own person. I have to bum rides to work and from work home. On nice days I walk home, (a one hour walk, good exercise), but I still need a ride to work. She said she will give me a ride once in a while. I am so alone and have been drinking every night to battle the depression. I am such a broken man that I feel soo much like giving up and starting over. I am so scared that it is not even funny. I am scared because I don't want to loose my family and I keep playing these mind games with myself that I have already lost them. Well, at least I have a job, my health. Maybe time will help.