I worked hard, I studied harder, I have spent the last two months preparing myself and the last three weeks doing nothing but study. And I failed. It was my last chance to get it right, the last six years and $50,000 wasted on an education that I will never complete. Then just to top it off, my boyfriend gets angry at me because I am upset and he expects me to be Miss Perfect Effing Sunshine all the god damn time.
I feel like screaming, like yelling, like punching things, like hurting myself, like breaking everything in sight. I want to punch my boyfriend in the face because he is the one that spends so much money that I have to work two jobs just so we can survive. He spends and spends on JUNK and then complains when we have no toilet paper. He brought a laptop last week because he was going away for work and taking the PSP and DSI was not enough for him so he went out and spent $1000 in one go and then left me at home with no food, no toilet paper, nothing. I lived on fruit and tin soup for nearly a week until it was payday.
All I wanted was support, someone who would just listen to me yell and cry and be there for me. Not someone who accuses me of picking fights and being melodramatic, I need support right now. I want to just curl up in a corner and die and all I get is critisizm. Might go cut myself now. That should take away the pain.