LIFE SUCKS

Yeah it sucks

I am 22 have two young kids. I love my husband but we fight all the time to the point that if it continues it will really screw my kids up. He's in America on a visa overstay from 8 years ago. We are just now able to file for his green card because I didnt make enough money to sponsor hm in the past. There is a chance he may not be approved because of dumb things I did during a separation period we went through in 2010. If he can't become a citizen he will move back to brazil and expects me to follow which I won't because he wants to move to a dangerous city and I just don't want to spend my life in brazil. I am constantly in anxiety over whether he will be approved. We are losing our car because of an insurance issue because of his status here. We have paid over 4000 on the car and the only way o fix the problem is to put the car in my name which we can't because I have shit credit because of dumb choices I made the first couple of months after turning 18. We barely pay our bills and love in a wicked cheap place. We will have to move soon and can't afford it. We pay all of our bills never have time to spend as a family I am basically a single mom that's married when it comes to taking care of the kids I literally see my husband 45 mins per day except Saturdays which is spent doing chores like going to the laundromat. We fight so much that I am depressed he is mentally abusive but I believe he can change even though the strength of that belief is severely dwindling. I want my kids to have a father in their life for him to become a citizen he has to get his green card, have it for two years then be a permanent resident for two years whilst married to me. That means I am suck in this same situation for at least four years. I want our marriage to improve but it seems hopeless I love my kids but fear I cannot provide for them the way that they deserve. Ugh my life suckkks