LIFE SUCKS

Life is ment to be suck?

Well life sucks because it just does. we want what we cant have and it makes us sad even though we know insid we are good. women jobs everything sucks everymoment is a killer breath that we have to absorb into our bodys kill us. There is nothing but constant pain. My life sucks becasue it just sucks. I cant even tell you. I wish i could post something about my whole life telling you why it sucks. You know but from what i have hurd form everyone i have met life just sucks in general. Though we keep going on. usually just find a few things to latch onto to survive and if people tell me they have nothing to latch onto then they are seriously fed up. Im fed up because of my past my childhood. I had a vey dysfunctional family. Dad was there and mom was here. mom was a drunk. Had a step dad who was pretty crazy and i tried so hard to understand why and why and why this and that but Idk anymore. I hate everything Though why am i here well casue to be honet booze keeps me alive and i know in time i will die soon im only 22 and i just hate everything. i live in thailand by the way i am an american from mn and i came here becasue my dad came here and got married to a thai so my mom thought it would be good for me. so whatever i stay in thailand working which i can barely do teaching. thats pretty much the only thing i can do to live. I have to ask my fam for money . not allot becasue if im out ill figure something else out that invloves some pretty degrating stuff. dont want to get into it. sinse a young boy i hated life i saw my mom and now im just like her. so i will go on being my moms image. and i might die soon but f it. so yeah my life sucks cause it could be better icould hyave a normal life but noooooooooooo. so yeah my life sucks like everyone elses idk i cant even go on anymore thats how much i hate it i can barley type this. i just wish things could be better. peopel could be happy but apparently that doenst exist so f it!!