I'm 17 was born with a birth defect that at the time my mother did not speak English and i was made in to a girl by a doctor that also made my fake blader.
so as i grew i had know idea that i was really born a boy. then i when i was
6 years old i started to get molested by my father in till i was 10 why i let this happen was because he told me he would murder my family but at same time he crazy and he did abuse my mother and my family and because of that when i was ten my sister called the police when try kill my family. after i told my mother what had been happen to me in years leading to the day but she didn't believe me and kind of went crazy for some time and my family had to go to foster care for some months but i don't think she believes today its kind of sad but the court did and went to jail for a long time.when
i was 10 i was told by mother that was really boy at birth so that really made world a shit hole.also in most of my life i had to have a lot of surgery's so my body under has a lot of scars plus i don't have anything down stairs then after that i was really school stupid and i had diarrhea almost all my life that gets worst every year but after having test done on me doctors say nothings wrong with me .so those two things made drop out school this year and i don't think i can get a ged. and i don't think i can live off of social security benefits and i and most of my family members are ass holes or have a life because their are 9 of us and i am the middle child and most of them are older than me.also before i drop out i loved this guy that i knew but deep inside i new he would not accept me and knew it was wrong even if he did .i don't think i will ever get married.now i don't do anything all day and don't have any friends and kind of poor. also most night i will cry my self to sleep some days but most night i don't get any sleep because of the diarrhea and i don't have dreams anymore in sleep or in life and i cant look in the mirror .life really sucks!!! at least for me. if god does exist hes one sick fuck! | |
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You should get your GED and continue with education. You probably have a learning disability, but that doesn’t make you stupid. And just because you had feelings for a boy doesn’t make it wrong. Don’t be so critical of yourself, you’ve had a lot of bad things happen to you! Now that you are nearly an adult, you can try to make changes in your life. Start by finding help for the diarrhea. Change happens one day at a time. Don’t give up!
Anyway . . . yeah . . . Life definitely sucks.
Best,
GOD made us to suffer.. !
If GOD is listening to me .... I would say "GO FUCK YOURSELF!!"
SUCK MY DICK!!
olo Fuck you GOD! olo
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