I have a really ugly face and I get made fun of all the time for it. I keep myself fit, I keep myself clean, I wear nice clothes but people still bug me. My face is more manly or something. Every few weeks I wax my eye brows. I wear make up sometimes as well. So it isn't like I go out without trying to look good. I've been made fun of since I was 12 for it and now I'm 25. I've never been in a relationship and I've only kissed two guys. I feel like I only come to live at work because my co-workers like me, so I end up having people to talk to and joke with. I have no friends outside of work. I've tried to make friends but people just don't want to be my friend. I am so sick of being lonely. I just spent a week completely alone because I had a week off work. I had no one to talk to and my family lives 40 mind away. I moved out here because I wanted job opportunities but also because I had no friends there. I figure a city would be full of people and I could make new friends easily. That wasn't the case. Although two years ago I had a group of friends from work but we have all moved on. So I'm lonely again. My new coworkers are all men and older. I just want a boyfriend so much, and friends. I want a family someday. I want people to stop bugging me about how ugly I am. I already know I am, so why rub it in? Sometimes I feel so.alone I want to die. My dad killed himself so I can't put my mom through that. It wood be cruel. I just feel lie life is pointless. No one wants to be my friend, boyfriend and I get called ugly despite my efforts. I try to make friends. I try dating. I try to think positively about my looks. But somedays its hard. I've gotten to the point I am too scared to walk down the street unless I have my headphones in and a Hood covering my face. That way I can hide my face, and the headphones block out peoples cruel words. I also get insomnia and I take sleeping pills but I still have so much on my mind I don't sleep and I feel funny because the sleepings pills have kickedin and I can't function right. I'm too scared to take more than two. I am having trouble sleeping right now, and I work at 630. I am using my cell phone to type this. So some words might be off.