LIFE SUCKS

Life cudnt be more unfair

Hi,im 17.i have started reading some of the stories here and i feel like maybe some people just live to suffer.i have been a victim of child abuse since i was 4.the view of my dad beating my mom and me cud have been traumatic enough for me to be a psycopath.my dad used to hung me on ceiling,or strangle me whenevr he got angry on somthing bt always ended up on me and my mom.when my mom had her 2nd child,my dad became a completely changed person there on.he was so good with my sister,bt never good with me.since birth my parents never said they loved me or never apreciated for what i did.i was quite good with grades,bt then i saw no point in it,as i cudnt get inspirations.my mom wud always encourage me to never have friends bcz they might hate me for whom i am.she wud also say that im ugly and no girl will get attached with me.
In high school i had only 1 friend and before that i was a loner crazy kid who got beat up by bullies.it turned out the one friend dat i had was only testing to see if im normal and made fun of me.
I also had a grilfriend named sara.i suported her when she was going through a bad break up.she was realy gorgeous and i loved her with all my heart,bt she never loved me and always insulted me for who i am,when she broke up she said she's going bcz im ugly,worthless and i cud never get a girl.few days later i saw her going out with her ex.this realy hurt me a loy and since then i realized all girls r heartles,they dont value love...
Last nyt my dad got angry and punched me in the nose.i bleeded all nyt bt nobody cared.every night when i go back to sleep,i pray to god for my death.bt he never listens.then i started think he never existed.i knw people face a lot worse condition,bt i feel terribly lonly.i knw the world can go on without me,so i hav decided to suicide.and that wud be the best for me ryt now...