LIFE SUCKS

ok first thing - fuck the video games, just throw them away.
Second - get out there and throw yourself on the social battlefield. You'll get bruised pretty badly at first (its never easy, I've been struggling with the same thing for over 4 years now, and I'm 21 with still no success).
Third - If still no success, find a hooker
Fourth - If you're too pure to resort to a hooker, kill yourself.
Fifth - If you're too scared to kill yourself, welcome to the league of fucked up losers like me whose lives revolve around staying shut up inside their homes and watching porn.

oh, calm down. clearly not everyone was experiencing the same thing at the same point in their life, because you sure as hell weren't. and of course it seems easy for other people; everything always seems easy when you're watching other people do it. you need to just have some sex and relax. life is really not that big of a deal. it'll be over soon. trust me.

It's not completely clear from your post, but if you are even thinking a little about killing yourself, I implore you to print out what you have written here and bring it to the emergency room. You sound like you are in serious danger of killing yourself. I speak from experience: with medication and/or talk therapy you CAN feel happiness one day. And if you kill yourself, you won't get a chance to feel happy and I guarantee you will absolutely devastate at least dozens of people, some that you would never even imagine would care, beyond all belief. they will carry the burden of the pain that you are feeling for a very very long time. the grief that you will leave them with will be the worst and most complex type. they will be wracked with guilt and questions and sadness that they weren't good enough to help you in your darkest hour. and when they aren't blaming themselves--this in the midst of a terrifying grief and shock due to your untimely death-they will start to blame others in an unfair way. If you can't get help for you-please do it if you give even the tiniest shit for anyone else.

You're still only 23! Your life is only beginning. The best way to meet girls is in school. Take some art classes, or writing classes, or theater classes. You will meet open minded people who will accept your quirks. By the way, being in your early 20's and not having any life experience is basically normal. Look on the bright side: many people your age started having sex at 13 and now they have to pay child support. You've got a clean slate!

dont wory its good to b virgin..just go get a cute girl..n u cn do it if u want to n work on it

This is exactly how my life was except I was 21, then I got a job and found out I was a stud and never knew it. Got a girlfriend and learned how to bang, which was honestly not as fun as an mmorpg but thats because everyone who has sex and says its the best has never played an mmo.

Don't worry man just start going to community college, honestly there are a fucking bus load of slutty chicks out there. You don't really need to be Bradd Pitt to bag a decent looking girl these days either. You would not belive how many offensively fat guys I see with girls that they have no right being with. Just learn to talk to girls as a friend and they will let you in, literally. Girls just loved getting fucked, don't forget to eat that fucking pussy!

Get treatment for your drug addiction before you worry about anything else!!!!! Check yourself into in patient drug treatment now!

Fact: there are hundreds of thousands girls and guys that are your age and dont know what the fuck they are doing in there lifes. most ppl dont. and by the way its never to late to go out and socialize. bro there are thousands of older men going out to clubs and hooking up. Just stop sitting at your computer and go and do it. do what? go and meet some people at a club or at a park or beach or mall or anyother place where other people are hanging out socializing. its not as hard as playing MMORPGS trust me i tried and i suck. but talking to people is easy. you just say hello, if its nice weather you say damm this weather is fine? if its shitty you say damm this weather is shitty? or hey hows it going? or my name is blah blah, i am bored and wanna meet new people. ppl will responed to that. if you off yourself and leave a bunch of friends and family devasted then u really will have lived a life not experincing much of anything. you are still young, you can go and travel meet ppl and experince a lot of really awesome and cool stuff outside your window. go ant try it. peace

wasted 3.5 years of my life on a mmorg aswell. those games are life killers

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I have great great same feeling when seeing the words "I want to be normal again." life is suck on me recent 2 years.

Anyway, about your problem. I'm 24now, many years ago onceI was a boy who never dare say a single word to girls, but several years past and I have great relationship with girls, and a GF. Just with a single principle: regard girls as your brothers & male friends.
Ignore there male or female attribute, just the same.
This may not lead directly to a GF for you, but a good start and some nice girl close friend

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