Im 19 year old guy and im completely lost and hopeless, i dont see any future or hope in my life. Im strugling with my sexuality and i dont know what to do. I think about the future and i cry, i cant have any guy friends because they cant understands me because i like guys, i have to live in a lie all the time, i have never had a gf or a bf.
My soul is tearing apart slowly. i went to a foreign country last year to study and i was the only time i was happy, but even there i have issues with because i kept falling inlove with my guy friends and they knew it.
Now i came back to my country and everything got worse, the few friends i had are miles away from me and because my family spend alot of money in that trip now i cant go to college.
I met a few nice people later but they are gone now; they always leave because im fucking piece of shit.
I have no-one and nobody cares for me i WANT TO DIE so much i cant even type this right now because i feel like every fiber of my being its telling me to stop it. Ended already.
I wish i die; i tried so many things but nothing works, maybe i should just jump or put a bullet in my head. I dont Care anything now, and i know i wont go to hell because THIS IS HELL i want to be free, i want my soul to be free. Please... |
Keep your head up.
aaaaah!!
am out-
What gives you the right to judge wether people are worthy, are you god ? I don't fucken think so. And if there is a god up there where ever the fuck he/she or it is that judges peoples morality on their sexual preference. Then I don't believe in him and the crock of shit his spinning.
Do that shit everyday until you start seeing that what you are actually saying is true. Then, when you are financially more stable, move the fuck out of your town, make yourself some cool friends, they don't ALL HAVE to be gay by the way either, get a job and then whip your fucking hair!!!! YOU GOT THIS!! LOVE YOU, MAN! AM SENDING YOU ALL OF MY FUCKING ENERGY!! AND IT'S A TON, SO IF YOU FEEL EXTRA FRISKY AFTER READING THIS, THEN YOU KNOW WHY!!
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