I don't normally go on these websites but today I thought I'd make a change. Let me preface this by stating that I realize that there are people in the world that have it way worse than I do and that I am truly thankful for the things that I do have in this life, but I am currently getting to the point where things are starting to pile up against me, and I can't figure out how to dig myself out.
I have recently just hit my mid 20's and I basically think I've hit as low as life can go. I continuously tell myself that it can only go upwards from here. Approximately two years ago I was diagnosed with a chronic migraine condition in which I am currently on some strong medications for. Even with these medications I am lucky if I get less than three migraines per week. Dark room no sound kind of migraines. This in of itself is nothing to really get all upset about, people have their physical trials and I am currently waiting to see a specialist but I do get down on it. The second part of the story has to do with my spouse. I was married just a little over three years ago to the person who I honestly and truthfully thought I would spend the rest of my life with. She was different than the other girls that I had dated in the past as she (A) was not a party girl and (B) was not bitchy. She was a church-going genuinely nice girl who seemed to have her head screwed on properly, so I was thrilled when we hit it off. I was even more thrilled two years later when she accepted my proposal for marriage. We were married a short time later and life was really good. That would not last long though, as only two short years later (whilst I had this migraine condition) she decided it would be a good idea to go to the bar with her friends and have sex with some random guy on multiple occasions spanning multiple months. Then she finally told about her transgressions 1/2 a year later and stated that she no long wished to pursue the marriage or honour her vows. To make matters worse I have members of the church that we both go to hounding me on a regular basis and telling me what I have to do to fix this marriage, but they have no idea of her infidelity, as I believe that it is not my place to tell her family, or the church, but rather it's her bed so she can lay it. I find myself still caring a considerable amount for my wife, and I find that when I speak with her, I can tell that she is not taking care of herself. Her family has become very standoffish with her because they believe (that without even knowing about the infidelity) that what she is doing is wrong, and nobody wants the job of looking after her, but for some reason I have a hard time of letting go of that responsibility...The whole thing just sort of sucks... | |
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