When I scroll down this page I feel like my situation isn't as bad anymore. I hate how I feel sorry for myself when there are people who are doing much worse than me. When there are starving children around the world who would kill for the life I have. I hate how I am a bitch.
I was expelled from school. A few years ago. It was my fault. I'm lazy and a failure and my parents waste so much money trying to make me perfect. At my current school I have no friends. But everyone here is going to go to Harvard of Princeton. They have their whole life set out for them. When I look into my future, I don't see anything. Nobody does. My parents don't. I have let them down time and time again.
I tried to kill myself once. Overdose. I used to cut. All my parents would say when they found out is that if anyone found out they would be ridiculed and I would be take away from them. The scars are so noticeable. The stupid CVS fade cream doesn't work. All the time I wish that my life would either be turned around or just end.
I gave my heart to a guy once. That was the first time and I don't think I'll ever be able to do it again. Because he gave it back in pieces. Can you die from a broken heart?
I am ugly in every way. I am an ugly human being. I am one of God's few mistakes. If I am this bad at being a human was I even supposed to be
I am so stupid. I'm failing all of my classes. In my town failing is getting a B. I wish I was getting a B. People make fun of me for being so stupid.
I know there is something wrong with me. I have a mental disorder of some sort. OCD and certainly depression. My mother even thinks I am schizophrenic.
I have an eating disorder. Anorexia. I am 5'5 and I weigh 95 pounds. I'm not skinny enough. My thighs jiggle when I run. My stomach isn't flat enough. I tried to make myself throw up once but I was too big of a wimp to do it.
I make my mother cry. My parents fight all the time.
I am ugly in every way. I am an ugly human being. I am one of God's few mistakes. If I am this bad at being a human was I even supposed to be
Well there was my rant. If you read all of this kudos to you because I probably wouldn't have. I'm just another teenage bitch who doesn't appreciate the life she has.
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