LIFE SUCKS

alone for years

I have been alone longer than your typical death row inmate.I have worked hard , helped others but no interst in me-anymore. This Summer will be 14 years. The nights, thousands upon thousands make me think of how horrific life is. I have kissed a woman 2 years ago, before that 12 years without even a real hug. I have great education and income and have no one to even have a meal with, I have 3 home cooked meals a year when i visit relatives and 1 old friend. i am perfectly healthy and save my money to travel alone and run long distances, i am extremely physiclly healthy but don't remember love, companionship or even talking to someone who is interested. It has been 16 year since someone asked me how i felt. I am 50 now and wish I could even have someone look at me, let alone think of me.
I used to be handsome still nice looking....my lonliness feels like ice packed around my heart and no chance of female contact till past death.